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Alone

Living alone have been for 7 months, these 7 months, different kinds of feelings, happy, free, sad, lonely. everything has two sides, when you choose to be alone, you need to enjoy the freedom but also the lonely, the happy moments and also the sad matters.

the saddest part is when sometimes you need to fill up the emergemcy contact person, there is no one you can write on. family is far away, friend here you can’t rely on, everything should rely on yourself. love your self!

time teaches us to grow up, to believe less, to do more, to think more.

my goal is let the time teach me think less still do more. 

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Friendship

Life is giving enough time to make friend, let you meet the person, know the person, then like the person, day by day, month by month, year by year, you know the affection is no longer just a friend, it is a sprite support in the world. when there is dark, they will give you light. when there is tear, they will give you a big smile. when there is cold, they will make the world warm. 

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go through

i asked myself did i go through about you, the answer is not, but i know i wont stay there already, there are so many things i need to chase, so you are just the past, but will in my heart for the whole life. 

everytime i go to shooping, go to the man area, i will think about you, will remind myself just stop there, you are not there for me, so just stop there, go to yourself not the person not take you serious. 

every time chat someone will feel the moment we shared together, the stickers we sent to each other, its already not belong to us. sorry i delete everything we have connect on social media. i just need to aviod everything from you and things related to you.  

this year i ll heal myself, to be a better one,  find love. 

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List of Non-sexual forms of intimacy

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watchingtv/movies together

going to events together like carnivals, festivals etc.

going on dates like to the movies or shopping

sharing secrets

hugs

sharing drinks

phone calls

talking

touching noses

cuddling

philosophical discussions

hand holding

sharing jokes

sharing smiles

laying your head on someone’s shoulder

linking arms

massages

tickling

playing with hair

scratching backs

tracing designs on arms

talking about the future

a hand written note

moving your head to their chest and listening to their heartbeat.

singing together or playing instruments together

dancing

feeding each other

drawing/writing on one another

brushing your partners hair

sharing food

sitting knee to knee across from each other

doing beauty treatments like facials or manicures, hairdying or face masks

reading books together

take care of your partner when sick

talking about the relationship (how I feel with you, How I feel w/this relationship)

cooking together

head-scratches

hugging

discussions about yourselves (like flaws, shortcomings, passions, stuff)

being physically/emotionally vulnerable

just sleeping together,

an actual open honest conversation

bathing and taking care of hygiene together

butterfly kisses

nuzzling

telling on-the-fly stories

meditating or sharing spirituality

grooming

sharing hobbies

studding

sharing personal stories

shaving

seeing each other without make-up or all dressed up

moral support for major events

crying, sharing emotions, comforting each other

listening to someones heartbeat or breathing

camping/hiking

sleepovers

being with animals together

going on trips together

sharing clothes/jewelry/personal items

sharing online social media

cleaning someone else’s living space

going with them to a doctor/therapist

doing art together

kissing different body parts

making out

volunteer together

work together

talking about wants and desires

experience new things together

do an extracurricular together

play games together

play sports together

walking together

being respectful and kind to one another (helping them do things, open doors for them etc.)

sharing responsibilities (chores, babysitting etc.)

giving each other presents, special things from the heart

talking about and respecting each others boundaries

public displays of affection

grooming in front of each other

wrestling or play fighting

texting/talking online

looking in each other’s eyes

complimenting each other

falling asleep over skype or chat

making faces at each other

sky watching

write poetry

inside jokes

respect each other

tell them how you feel about them

get to know each other better (playing 20 questions)

go for a ride together

close your eyes and memorise each others faces with your fingers

walk arm in arm

make a playlist together

make up your own words or slang

go out to eat

list each other’s best features

bring your faces close without touching and feel each other breath

go shopping together

throw a party or other event together

leave love notes

exercise together

exchange something meaningful

try to have a whole conversation with only eye contact and facial expressions

sit back to back and feel each other’s heartbeat

learn their favorite food and make it

run errands together

look at photos together

take photos together

go people watch

have a staring contest

learn something new together

take turns leading each other on a nature walk blindfolded

get to know each others family and friends

draw or sculpt each other

paint each other’s bodies

play with kids together

practicing a skill together

sharing food

being in comfortable clothes together

waving goodbye

being comfortable with each other’s bodily functions

any others you can think of?

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For aces everywhere!

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For anyone everywhere

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TAKE NOTE

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New start

I am back here again, so it's the place I feel comfortable to stay. Thanks to my friends, help me a lot. Be grateful to the life, you are always there looking at me. New life.

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Grandpa

This early morning sent grandpa to aunt’s house, this time I was back with my own problems, so everyday don’t have any attention on grandpa.

Only know his mind sometimes clear sometimes not, but always care about me, I didn’t tell him when I will be back, but I saw he is in deeply sadness, the other day he said life is not easy, for him almost 3 years never go out only stay at home. He doesn’t have any intention to go out.

Grandpa, hope everything is well.

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Mom

Every time I am home, mom will buy a lot of food for me, after breakfast then ask what I'd like to eat for lunch, then after lunch will ask dinner, I just rest on the bed or sofa, no need to do anything, get up to eat meal is my work and every time I let them wait for a long time☺️, sorry, I am not a considerate person especially with mom, I just enjoy the love she gives me. I know this love never end, this love forever with me, this love make me strong every time I feel upset, this love bring me back to life, make me feel the world is still full of unexpected love. I will bring this love to my journey. God bless mom. I love you, mom.

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Exercise

Remember last year when I just moved to SM JAZZ, the gymnasium there is really good, I went to exercise there everyday for 20-30 minutes, it's keep me having appetite, then this year February I moved to Westgate, the gym there is not good, I tried to swim there but almost drowned, so I quite, no more exercise until now, together with the unhappy work and life, I lose around 5kg. I need to go back to the exercising mood, bring back my appetite and gain the weight back. My goal for my health this year, gain weight and shape my body.

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Palm reading

Today I don't know where the idea came from, I searched a lot about Palm reading theories, from Chinese culture, male is left hand and female is right hand, my right hand is a 川shape palm. The characteristics of this kind of person is independent, fast reaction and high intuition sense and decisive person. This kind of woman have a happy life, but always focus on career so the love relation is not very smooth. So late marriage is encouraged. Should consider others not only her or him self. The partner is better a same palm shape male. Then the relation will be perfect. This is Chinese hand reading, believe or not depends on you

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Kindness

Something good you should always keep, no matter how the situation is, be yourself!

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Family

Today I had dinner with my family, very funny, sister ate a lot, I feel I am real in life.

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Father

Today went to see my dad, he forever stays there, will not move anymore. The person loves me most already left me.

The person takes care me most can’t take care me anymore.

It doesn’t matter, I will find someone like you.

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Dream

I am not a person usually dream during sleep, once a month, several times a year. They said everyone dreams, just you don’t remember.

Recently I often dream, dream of someone, someone I still love but will not approach to anymore, someone We have been together, and can’t be together for the life, someone I trusted so much, and he said he just used me. Someone made me cry a lot and laugh a lot. Someone I deleted his Wechat then added, deleted then added. Someone doesn’t love me. Someone with a hard heart, someone always plan for his life but never come true.

I dreamed that I called him, he didn’t answer. The other day I dreamed he has plans with his girlfriend, and still lie to me. I dreamed he says “ I love you ” every morning and night with his girlfriend, which he never said to me.

this is dream. In the morning the sun still rising up and the day still goes as normal.

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Back to work!

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Close to the persons who make you happy, distant with the people who make you sad.

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Use the color you want

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