My INFP world (with strong ISFP tendency)

Straight adult female struggling in a practical world w/ practical upbringing. Not an empath!!!This is her self-talking, self-healed journal, especially when she doesn't want to impose on others listening to her stories. Fresh Off The Boat Asian resettles in East Asia till... a Type 6 who doesn't want to bump into any Don Juans in the future. Indirect intention to create an online INFP Cosmogirl or INFP Cosmopolitan mag. Lastly, a conservative protestant who avoids fellowship @ church.

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This is the moment I have a hard time to breathe due to work stress

Obviously, it is a mental issue that I have a hard time to escape.

The stress and the unhappiness haunt me again.

I don’t want to work during weekends, and deal with the irresponsible people at the workplace.

I have studied so hard in order to get this job , but why it becomes so difficult to stay here?

How can I live in reality when the ideal belief(s) gradually fades away?

[yeunginfp]

I finally quit but feel lonely after......

Oh boy. What is wrong with me?!

[yeunginfp]

心理學研究：男人不喜歡「有性無愛」...超友誼關係和一夜情有什麼差別？－PanSci 泛科學網｜商周

你有沒有經歷過這樣的關係？雙方曖昧到了最後，發現彼此其實不適合，或是過去的傷害讓你們不敢進入愛情關係中，因此遲遲未承認彼此是男女朋友；但又因為彼此都喜歡著對方，所以一直無法和對方斷乾淨，回到普通朋友或

[yeunginfp]

This is the moment I have a hard time to breathe due to work stress

Obviously, it is a mental issue that I have a hard time to escape.

The stress and the unhappiness haunt me again.

I don’t want to work during weekends, and deal with the irresponsible people at the workplace.

I have studied so hard in order to get this job , but why it becomes so difficult to stay here?

How can I live in reality when the ideal belief(s) gradually fades away?

[warandpeas]

Lies!

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Why do I post this?

Perhaps I need to force myself remembering these are called “fillers” . (How about “ ellipses”?)

#English is not my major. What a shame?!

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與你似乎於於緣盡了。你的故事教會了我：不要愛上作家！( 因為你愛人只是為了取材創作靈感而已。而你，真的很自私。）

近況大部份人如果跟我無利益沖突的話算對我很好。工作上隨時離開，壓力很大。人大了也減少了幻想，畢竟成長後便是現實世界。

同事說小時放棄是浪漫，長大後說白點便是不願意長大。嗯，對唷。但，可以怎樣？

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A few days later after the previous post from the above:

Do you want to understand how an INFP(with high ISFP score) feels when she gradually grows up and worries about the reality or the future?

After spending SOOOOOOOOO many years studying and the tuition fees, and now she worries that she has to switch to another career field or back to her previous one again with uncertainty and even re-migrate to North America for the second time of her life (kindly note I hate the snow and the cold weather etc.).............

Can you ever associate the general INFP lifestyle vs lack of saving  for the future before and during retirement in the next _______ years ?

Maybe it is about time to delete anything about MBTI (i.e. I, as an INFP) because I have a very hard time to fall asleep peacefully these days ,with  the hectic workplace & unreasonable job duties/ demands together along with the uncertainties of the future.......

I was wondering how Dr. Dray can be so calm, fearless, cheerful with self-confident on all of her Youtube videos?

She really is my ideal role model these days!

Another ideal role model of mine is my co-worker: 27 years old, married happily so far who just quit her full-time position and becomes a “slash” . (That would be my ideal INFP lifestyle if there was a choice in life!)

[yeunginfp]

沒有無緣無故的恨 - Jace Chan

(Stop being mentally abused by your loved one(s) or/and your partner)

曲: KW 朱敏希 詞: 陳耀森 / KW 朱敏希 編 ： 蘇道哲 /Nic Tsui 監: 馮翰銘 

 當初  他對我緊張 當初  他要我滋養 愛反了方向  同住也像隔道牆 今天  他抗拒分享 今天  陪我亦勉強 約誓已壞帳  愛得缺氧  理性都故障 明明聽到  明明講好  都不算數 沒法上訴煩到躁  耗盡愛剩下憤怒 一天到黑忍受  漸漸痛夠 一堆過失的人  諸多藉口 逼我再三屈就  對我出手  仍無半句問候 一想到他輕浮  就恨到透 一早懶得奢求  索性分手 不再向他低頭  我已忍夠  放棄所有 我要怎算帳 明明聽到  明明講好  都不算數 沒法上訴煩到躁  耗盡愛剩下憤怒 一天到黑忍受  漸漸痛夠 一堆過失的人  諸多藉口 逼我再三屈就  對我出手  仍無半句問候 一想到他輕浮  就恨到透 一早懶得奢求  索性分手 不再向他低頭  我已忍夠  放棄所有 一天到黑忍受  自問痛夠 一堆廢話的人  可恥到嘔 一切再不保留  痛快刪走  無疑愛已失救 不想再講之後  愛到盡頭 不想記起之前  無理荒謬 他最缺德醜陋  他最殘暴壞透 不再自我矇騙  妥協忍受 積怨太多因由  我已忍夠  厭惡所有 太多憎恨  愛到咀咒  我啞夠 #沒有無緣無故的恨 #JaceChan #陳凱詠

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The Apology Language Quiz

Learn your primary apology language to better understand how to heal hurt in your relationships.

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https://5lovelanguages.com/quizzes/results/94979aab-eabd-442b-8b61-0a0e78493230

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The Apology Language Quiz

Learn your primary apology language to better understand how to heal hurt in your relationships.

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How many times

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與你似乎於於緣盡了。你的故事教會了我：不要愛上作家！( 因為你愛人只是為了取材創作靈感而已。而你，真的很自私。）

近況大部份人如果跟我無利益沖突的話算對我很好。工作上隨時離開，壓力很大。人大了也減少了幻想，畢竟成長後便是現實世界。

同事說小時放棄是浪漫，長大後說白點便是不願意長大。嗯，對唷。但，可以怎樣？

[yeunginfp]

sorry all, I wanted to write you back but have misused the fuctions.

I hope all of you are fine. Due to privacy, I deleted your messages because I accidentally posted them in public.

I hope all of you are doing well.

Oct 3, 2021 from someone who does not want to recall anything about mbti

[zany-nerd-girl]

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0 votes and 5 comments so far on Reddit

Other than GAD illness which affects work lately, I am also dealing with the anxiety or slight depression regarding the corona-virus in my city while dealing with the rocketing price for getting masks, and now the above anxiety when my male Libra  friend (who he thinks we are” friends only”) has not texted me back since Feb 12 while I simply texted “How have you been doing?”.  (I also forgot telling readers that I also miss a female co-worker/friend who is currently on sick leave due to having cancer at a young age. I sobbed once when I stared at her empty desk.  I missed the time when we texted and complained about office politics on the phone.)

It has been going on like this since 2017 or 2018?  I guess I should cut loss from my end and move on (even though I seriously don’t want to.)

Perhaps these kind  of fantasy vs reality uncontrollable struggles have molded me between INFP and ISFP every time I test myself.  Honestly, I  am no longer into  MBTI, yet reddit often reminds me of who I am in a way.