a/n: so i wrote this scene(s) and then redid it entirely, so this just exists with no story for it. i can't even use it for another story because it really is this mingyu and this reader. it's unfinished, and would have taken place the night after their make out in her office. so that night and the following morning. we still have mingyu being straight-forward but even more so. it didn't work, but might as well share, right?
so, enjoy? lolol.
smut warnings: fingering (fem receiving) penetrative sex (safe), mingyu being in control and reader being dazed into stupidity, kinda.
dividers from the talented @saradika-graphics
act I act II
You open the back door, setting it to lock automatically.
"Hey."
The sound you make is on par with some sort of small yappy dog.
"For fuck's sake, Mingyu. Are you insane? I have pepper spray in my bag."
He grins sheepishly. "Probably no good there because you didn't even try to grab it."
You close the back door and check it to make sure it's locked. "Well, now that I know someone might be waiting right outside the back door, I'll make sure to walk out with it in hand."
He leans against the building, arms crossed, but shoulders relaxed.
"Um." It now settles into your mind that it's Mingyu here. In front of you. Only hours after— "Did everything go okay at the station?"
"Oh yeah." He waves a hand like handling antagonistic sots is no big deal. "They got real docile when they put handcuffs on them." He straightens up. "I thought I might miss you."
You close your eyes and take a deep deep breath. Opening your eyes, you begin: "So, what happened today was—"
"Not enough."
You had a speech. Or at least some fragments of a speech.
"You can't say that."
His slow-growing grin absolutely decimates you, and your self-control.
"I can't? I can't tell you that seeing your eyes all glassy from want, wanting me, didn't just whet my appetite for you?" He reaches out and pulls you close, hands on your upper arms, gentle but firm. "How knowing that you're probably still thinking about me, a room away while I'm at the bar made me want to let Kook handle the crowd and lock you and me in that office until we're both spent. Until we both are satisfied."
Can you combust from only his words? From the sheer amount of desire his words and his presence incite?
"You really can't say that."
He leans down so your noses touch. "Open that door and I'll do more than say it."
You can be firm, you can be strong. You can deny him because it's the right and proper thing to do.
You can. But you don't.
You key in the code to the back door of the pub and he ushers you in, letting the door slam shut behind him. There's only a few safety lights on and it's enough to see him, to see him bend down and lift you in his arms, mouth on yours before you can say anything. You cling to him like an oyster, arms round his neck, legs round his waist. He seems to have no trouble holding you, which triggers something in that primitive part of your brain, and your core quivers with anticipation.
It wasn't tentative early this evening, but it's blown past that now. He devours you, tongue playing yours like an erotic instrument. He's able to hold you with one hand under your ass (there's an unexpected squeeze that makes you yelp) and open your office door with the other.
You're ashamed of how you find whatever he does so attractive. It's sickening.
His mouth is at your neck as he sits on the edge of your beat-up desk. Your hands are tangled in his hair. He lets you slide down his legs to your own feet (dangerous, you're not sure you can stand right now) before pulling off his t-shirt and moving to help you off with yours.
"Uh, do you have a condom?"
He raises an eyebrow at you. "Don't you keep extras here for the men's bathroom?"
Of course you do. Along with sanitary napkins and tampons.
"I mean, I do, but if like, you had a brand or kind you preferred, I didn't want to assume that—" His lips are back on your throat, a suck that will leave a mark later.
"You're so fucking cute, baby," he says against your skin. "I want to eat you alive." He lifts his head and meets your gaze. His eyes are so dark, and he traces a knuckle down the middle of your chest, stopping at the clasp of your bra. He has to be able to see and feel the goosebumps all over your body. "Where are the condoms?"
"Bottom drawer of the desk." You don't recognize your voice, it's mostly air and maybe an octave higher than usual. He moves to grab the prophylactic while you stare and how his back moves doing something as simple as getting something out of a drawer. You try with shaking hands to undo the button of your jeans.
"Hey, let me do that." He sets the foil packet down, resuming his position between you and the desk. He undoes your button and zipper before pushing down your jeans all the way to the floor. You step out of them and he looks up from where he's hunkered down. He doesn't stand up, but after tossing your jeans to the side, slides his hands up your legs to stop at your hips. He kisses over your underwear, at your hip bone.
"Mingyu…" You don't know if you're protesting, pleading, or something else. He snaps the elastic.
"Should get rid of these." He smirks. "Wanna taste you."
You're sure at this point that nothing is actually real. That Kim Mingyu is not kneeling at your feet, looking up at you with hunger. You've gone full delusional, completely snapped. He's not pulling off your underwear, not licking you like your cunt is a delicacy at some posh restaurant. Your hands are not on his shoulders, or in his hair, trying to hold yourself up and not collapse when his tongue thrusts into you. His hands don't curve round to knead your ass, while still tongue-fucking you, then sucking on your aching clit. His finger isn't sliding into you, curling deliciously.
You don't come with a shuddering gasp, held up by his hands.
As he stands and kisses you again, you slump against him, overheated and blissed out. You feel more than hear him chuckle.
"Still with me?"
You attempt a slap at his arm, but there's no strength. He turns you around, so the desk is at your back before lifting you to sit on the edge.
He holds up the condom and looks like he might say something, but you answer him preemptively, undoing his jeans and shoving them down before doing the same with his underwear.
"Eager, aren't we?"
"I had no idea you'd be so talkative during sex," you grumble, hands (very eager) already touching him, stroking even though he's plenty hard. As you take care of putting the condom on, he lets his head drop to yours.
"So you have thought about it?" he whispers, letting out a tiny groan as your fingers take their time feeling the dips and curves of his cock. "You stare at me a little too long to be thinking anything else."
"Have you looked at you?" is all you say, tipping your head up to look at him. He chuckles, light and breathy while you continue giving him a lower massage. He kisses you, covering your hands to still your stroking.
"Well, same." He steps into the space between your thighs, nudging you right there. You choke at the tease. "I've thought about you like this," he admits, before hooking one arm under your leg to raise it as he carefully slides into you. He's gentle, despite the words he utters. "Okay?"
You nod, eyes closed. It's been longer than you care to think about since having sex. Honestly, you don't think you've ever wanted it so badly before. As his cock eases into you, it's almost satiating, but not. Full, your eyes shoot open to see him; jaw clenched, damp at the temples. You draw the back of your hand down the side of his face, pulling his attention from where you're joined to your face. He turns his head enough to kiss your hand before pulling out and thrusting back in. You jolt from it, a pathetic groan, and you grasp for him, hands on his arms, holding tight as he does it again.
"You think about me?" you get out the question, in between panting breaths.
He hums an affirmative, one hand returning to your clit with a little pinch. He lifts your leg higher, changing the angle and when he thrusts this time, you feel it; the spongy spot that's even elusive to you (and every prior lover). "On the bar," he bites out the words. "In the store room, in here. I've thought about you everywhere, sweetheart."
Maybe it's his words, his skilled fingers, or the push and drag of him that catapults you into another orgasm. He's saying something as you ride the high, your cunt clenching around him like a vice, but you can't hear him.
He's heavy, after he comes, leaning in your arms, his body spent. He smells like your pub, and something woodsy.
"What did you say?"
It takes him a few moments to reply. He raises his head, letting his lips trail along your cheek. "I said that you should have a couch in here." He grins, tired.
"Then I'd just sleep here and never go home," you retort. He pushes himself up to full height, cupping your face in his hands.
"Workaholic," he accuses, punctuated by three kisses. You stare at him, sure there are stars in your eyes. He cleans himself up, tossing the tied-off condom into your bin, then grabs a clean rag from the stack on one of the shelves before carefully doing the same for you. He tosses that in the bin. You start to protest, but he places one finger over your mouth. "You do not want to wash it, and always wonder which rag your bartender is using might be the one stained with you, baby." He helps you to your feet, and as you search for wherever he flung your underwear and jeans, he dresses himself.
You wobble a bit, still floating from two very good orgasms. He catches you when you get your foot caught in one of the legs of your jeans.
"Thanks."
His answer is a kiss to the top of your head. "Want me to drive you home? Since you're so…well, whatever this is."
You turn and do smack his arm, and his laugh almost dispels the thoughts that are creeping into your brain now that the stupor is fading.
"Have some humility, Kim Mingyu."
"Absolutely not, sweetheart." He tugs on his shirt and then reaches out to straighten yours, his hands lingering along your skin. "Keys?" He holds out his hand.
"I'm perfectly capable of—"
"You're very capable, but let me?" He knows the power of those beautiful eyes of his. You don't give in, but pull him close, by his shirt, mouth on his. He holds you close, hands sliding to your ass and picking you up (again!). "I can even carry you to your car."
"You're ridiculous."
He kisses your nose. "Please?"
It's silly, but it's too late for there to be any onlookers. Which is good because instead of carrying you in a princess carry, or even how he was holding you, he throws you over his shoulder in the quintessential sack of potatoes hold, picks up your bag,where your keys are, and exits the pub. When you get outside, your arguments for the unbecoming way he's transporting change to a whisper (in case anyone is walking around at almost two am), but he's only laughing. He cradles your head when he gets you into the passenger seat of your car.
"Address?"
You don't answer, feeling petulant (and liking the way he manhandles you a little too much) and crossing your arms over your chest.
"Don't be like that," he coos, leaning over to kiss behind your ear before continuing, "let me put you to bed?" A single nip at your earlobe and you are so weak.
It's a blessing that you're more tired than anything right now, so you are nearly asleep by the time he parks in the driveway of your small house. Before you can get out of the car, he's come round and is pulling you out and letting you lean on him as he locks your car doors. He doesn't carry you, but you're attached to him, arms around him from behind, stumbling after him. His chuckle warms you through.
You must direct him to where your bedroom is, but you can't really remember. It feels like seconds from when you walk through the door to when your head is on your pillow. He asks you something, and you say yes before falling asleep, cozy and tucked in.
When you wake, you're sweating with how hot it is. You keep your house at a pretty mild temperature, to save on bills, but this is beyond normal. Even in the summer, it doesn't get this hot.
There's dead weight across your waist too. What the fuck?
Then last night's memories flood in like the rising tide.
Oh shit.
You roll over delicately to see that yes, the dead weight is an arm, which is attached to Mingyu. He's very much asleep. With no shirt. You glance down, the sheets gap in such a way to see that fortunately he's wearing his underwear.
And he is the reason it's so damn hot.
"Effing furnace," you mumble, trying to extricate yourself from his hold even though you'd like to stay in his arms, despite the heat. Snuggling.
Like reality hasn't shifted and now you have to deal with the consequences of last night's choices.
As you make your way to your bathroom, grabbing something to throw on, you ponder.
And spiral.
You can't exactly pass this off as a fluke.
Post-shower, you brush your teeth and stare into the mirror. Your hair wet and stringy and soaking the shoulders of your t-shirt, but your eyes are decidedly clear (of course you slept well in the arms of Kim Mingyu—the jerk), and your brow is grim.
Not a fluke. An itch. Scratched. A one night stand, which was inevitable with two years of build-up, that apparently even he felt a fraction of.
You can't believe he caught you staring (you can, your subtlety is non-existent in matters of the heart, loins).
But that's all this has to be. One night. Just one little ole night.
When you come back into your bedroom, he's awake.
"Hey." His voice is low and grumbly. Of course it is. Crazy bedhead and half-open eyes, and he's still the most beautiful man you've ever seen.
"Hi. Um…coffee?"
He tilts his head to the side, like he's deciphering your simple question for any undertones. You don't have subtext. Not really. He should know that.
"Yeah, sure. Unless you want to go grab some breakfast?" He sits up, all bared skin on display.
You force yourself not to make a sound of admiration. Or lust. You'd made plenty last night.
"Uh, no…I, shockingly, have stuff here. If you want breakfast. Here."
He shrugs. "Sounds good. Can I use the shower?"
"Absolutely. Um…I'll find a toothbrush for you. I have new ones somewhere." You hurry back into the bathroom, digging through the under-the-sink cabinet. You pull out one to set on top as he comes in, thumb tucked into his underwear. Like he's about to remove them. "The towels on the shelf are clean," you squeak. "Toothbrush here. Whatever you need to use, is fine." You move to pass him (and you'd thought this bathroom big when the realtor had shown you this place). "I'll get that coffee going."
You're almost home free when he says your name, halting you just past the bathroom door.
"Yeah?"
He smiles. "It was nice to wake up in your bed." Then, without shutting the door, he turns on the shower and goes to remove his last stitch of clothing. You yelp (again like a tiny little dog—what the hell) and scurry away from his immodesty and your bedroom in general.
The kitchen feels safe. When he comes out, dressed in last night's clothes (are you disappointed? maybe), he grins brightly before coming to sit at your bar-like kitchen counter. You have two stools there for the purpose.
"Cream? Sugar?" you ask, trying not to stare at his damp wavy tendrils, and sparkling (with water) eyelashes.
"Both, please." He leans against the counter-top. "This is nice. I'm always the one in the kitchen at our place." He sniffs when you set a mug in front of him, along with a carton of half and half, and a sugar bowl. "Smells good."
"Should be for what I pay for it."
"You grind your own?" He nods to the small grinder on the far counter.
"Of course I do. Before cocktails, I made lattes." You grin, almost at ease with him asking casual questions. Before you got this horrible, inconvenient crush, you liked Mingyu platonically. Yes, he was attractive. Both he and Jungkook were, and though that wasn't a requirement for hire, it was an added benefit.
But you liked how he'd spoken with you in that interview. He was much more laid-back and confident, especially compared with Jungkook who had been downright charming, but vibrating with energy.
"And now you own and run a pub. Moving on up that social ladder."
You laugh at his teasing. "Oh yes, in ten years, I'll be CEO."
"Good to have a plan." He sips his coffee as you flip the eggs with a spatula.
"Breakfast is only eggs and toast. I sadly have nothing more interesting right now."
"Again, very excited to not be the one making it." He leans over to see your skills on the range. "Pretty decent. You work kitchen?"
"Summers during college. I was wretched at serving, so they put me on deep fry."
"Impressive."
"You cook?"
"I do. No culinary training, but JK likes my food well enough. I like it well enough. Friends and family like it well enough." You can feel his eyes on you as you turn off the stove and set out the eggs on two plates. "I'll cook for you sometime."
The plate you're holding clatters as you almost lose your grip. The toast pops up right then so you don't say anything, buttering and place the bread next to the eggs. You set the plate in front of him before grabbing a fork and knife.
You imagine what it would be like to see Mingyu in the kitchen. What it would feel like to have him make something for you. Because he wants to. Not because he bartends, or is your employee.
"Eat up," you say before grabbing utensils for yourself and eating where you stand, across from him. He takes a few bites.
"S'good." He chews for a few seconds, eyes on you.
You pick at your food, appetite stunted from the whirling in your brain.
"Hey."
You look up and he's leaning over the counter. He kisses your forehead before sitting back down.
"What…what was that for?"
"Can see you overthinking."
You sigh. "You could see it, huh?"
He dips a corner of his toast in the runny yolk. "Yup. Your face shows a lot."
"Great."
He shrugs at your annoyed reply. "I like that about you." He takes another bite, finishing it before saying. "I like you."
That hits you like a cartoon anvil from Acme. "You—"
He sips his coffee, unflustered by his own words or your reaction. "I thought about not telling you that. Not right now, since you're probably trying to figure out how to get us back to our 'professional' relationship." The finger quotes really are unnecessary. "But since I know you didn't even believe I wanted to kiss you that night, I figure I should just say it."
You swallow.
"And no, I don't mean as just a friend." He rests his chin on his hand, awaiting your response.
"You still work for me."
"I do. And I like working for you."
"It makes this…worrying."
"Does it?" His casual attitude about it all prickles. "I don't believe you would ever use the fact that you're my boss in any way that would be worrying. I like working bar. I like working with my best friend. I like having the freedom pursue my photography around my steady job. I don't see why any of that has to change."
You groan and cover your face. "You make it all sound so reasonable."
"There's no reason why it shouldn't be."
You uncover your face, and move to toss the rest of your food.
"Hey, don't throw it away. I'll finish it."
You shake your head and set the plate next to his.
"What about Jungkook? What if he thinks I'm showing preference to you?"
Mingyu says your name, very no nonsense. "And I could probably punch him."
"Like that makes it better." You walk over to the couch and plop on it. "Like this isn't just a serious breach of professional behavior."
"Pretty sure it was a serious breach last night."
You groan again, letting yourself fall across the sofa properly. He's chuckling and you lie there for however long. You hear him get up and rinse off the plates and silverware. Eventually, he's lifting your feet to sit on the couch, letting your legs fall across his lap. You lift your head to look at him, otherwise don't move.
"So…madam boss…"
You wince at the title, but he's grinning.
"The question is, do you like me?"
You sit up, swinging your legs off of him. "You don't know?"
"You spend more time denying things," he accurately pins you. "And worrying."
He's been so honest, so upfront with you. You can't lie. You can't evade. So you just say it: "I've liked you for so long, I hoped maybe it would go away after awhile."
"That's a bit insulting."
"Sorry."
He purses his lips, thinking. "We can stop it. Now. Before we get any deeper in this." He tips your chin up. "Your call. I don't want to persuade you to be with me."
"You really want to…to date?"
He kisses your nose. "I want to wake up next to you in the mornings." He moves to your lips. "I also want to be the person you ask for help. Or I guess, with you, the person who forces you to accept help when you have too much on your plate."
"It worries me how much you know me." You kiss him back, hands on his shoulders as you rise up on your knees. He holds you by the waist, pulling you even closer, so you're practically on his lap.
"Well, I've been paying attention to my very hard-working, sweet but fair employer for the past two years." He stares at you for several seconds. "Now tell me…what do you want?"
"You."
That self-satisfied smile.
"But I don't want to screw up how well everyone works at the pub." You run your hands from his shoulders to cradle his face. "I guess I could just tell them. No secret relationship. Or hiding."
"Sounds good to me."
"What if…what if we don't work out?" You don't even like putting that out into the universe.
He nods. "A concern, but I think being with you, getting to try that with you, means more to me than whether or not I work for you."
PAIRING: Mafia!Seungkwan x f. reader
SUMMARY: You’ve been street racing since you could reach the pedal of a car - it’s the only thing you’ve ever been good at. When Seungkwan shows up to make an offer you can’t turn down, you realize it isn’t about racing anymore - it’s about life and death.
WORD COUNT: 27,988
AU: Mafiaverse, Cyberpunk, Semi-strangers to Lovers
GENRE: Romance, action, smut
RATING: 18+ Minors are strictly prohibited from engaging in and reading this content. It contains explicit content and any minors discovered reading or engaging with this work will be blocked immediately.
WARNINGS: Due to the nature of this fic, warnings are under the cut.
A/N: If you have not, I recommend reading the three previous works of the Syndicates Collection. While it's not totally necessary for this fic, it adds so much color/context to this world and it's characters. I do my best to provide context so this can be read as a standalone, but I'm not perfect.
A/N 2: Thank you to @daechwitatamic for beta-reading this - without her, I would have left the word 'murmur' as 'murder' and this story would have had a very different scene entirely.
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WARNINGS: General criminal behavior and violence including power struggles, bribery and mass killings (reported on the news), display of disparity between wealthy classes and general population, light themes of classism, threats of murder and assault (not by the main cast), vehicular manslaughter (intentional), political assassination depicted on live broadcast with some graphic elements, unsettling Jeonghan (sorry jeonghan everyone fears u), Seungkwan is a general menace, illegal street racing, mild misunderstandings of relationship status. depictions of fear/anxiety in some spots (light mentions), moral ambiguity all throughout by multiple characters, reader serving as the getaway car to a murder, reference to someone being tortured, explicit language, explicit sexual content including oral (m. receiving), vaginal fingering, vaginal sex w/ no condom because fuck it we ball, light dom/sub themes but not expressly stated, light hand on throat without choking.
RAIN SLUICES DOWN THE WINDSHIELD LIKE MELTED GLASS, BURNING THE NEON LIGHTS OF THE LOWER DISTRICT INTO STREAKS OF ELECTRIC BLUE AND BLEEDING RED. Your wipers can’t keep up, but at this speed, the rain slides off the glass faster than your wipers can clear your field of vision. You don’t need to see, anyway.
You know these streets better than you know anything else in Hyperion.
Every gutter, every dip in the asphalt, every place the the rain pools deep enough to send lesser drivers spinning into a building or parking garage. You’ve mapped out each turn and corner with your bones, the streets singing under your tires.
The engine growls as you downshift, fingers feathering over the gear stick with the ease of instinct. The car responds like it’s part of you, like it knows the rhythm of your pulse and matches it beat for beat. Wet concrete slicks beneath your wheels and you feel the slip in the back tires, but you don’t falter.
Another corner comes up and you cut it without breaking, letting the back end of the car slip enough just to flirt with the edge of disaster before catching it again with a flick of the wheel. A spray of rainwater fans behind you, scattering the reflections of signs and tail lights into a mess of shattered color.
Somewhere behind, you hear sirens. The flash of red and blue as the Hyperion City Police catch you illegally racing through the heart of the Lower District.
You don’t care. You press the gas harder, hearing the whine of the sirens that struggle to keep up, tires screeching a second too longer, the telltale over-correction of someone who doesn’t know how to keep up with you.
It’s not about speed so much as it is knowing when to push and when to pull, when to kiss the edge of what your car can do and when to take caution. The money at the end of your win will be well worth the danger, but it’s not the only reason you’re here, downshifting again as you slow to take a corner before flying on the homestretch back to the docks.
You’re also here for the quiet, because the only time you can find silence is with your hands vibrating on the wheel and the hum of the engine to lull you into a focus.
The city around you is alive, rain hammering down on corrugated roofs, steam hissing from manholes, lights flickering like a pulse in the concrete veins of the city. Advertisements and holograms nearly blind you as you cut through a corner of the Pearl District, but they fade as you gun it for the Warehouse District.
Near the open water and old freight bridge, the finish line sits waiting, half-swallowed by fog. You know you’ve won before you see the crowds of people and headlights from cars. No one can touch you in these races, especially at night, especially in the rain.
Instead of easing off the throttle, you blow past the finish line in a streak of color. The headlights of other cars and the crowd of people smears by you until you near the sharp curve carved into the road around the bay. You ease into it, finally slowing down until you’re looping back toward the finish line through narrow streets at a normal pace.
Your tires hiss as you slow into the Warehouse District, the acrid smell of burnt rubber coming through the windows of the car as you crack them open. It’s humid and wet here, still drizzling as you pull toward the crowd of people.
The city is different out here. Gone are the neon-drenched storefronts, traded in for the dark ribs of empty warehouses, rusting shipping containers and old cranes that loom over the bay like hooked fingers.
A few years ago, city officials had moved the official Port of Hyperion across the bay to the Civ District. Now, the old shipping yards are left to those who don’t have the money to move to a new space provided by the Yong-owned port authority. Or if you were a member of the Choi Syndicate who refused to relocate to enemy territory.
The politics and finer points of the Syndicate War are lost on you. All you know is that you come here, you race, you take money home to your shoebox apartment at the north end of the Lower District. It’s nicer than most homes in the Lower District, not shiny enough to be considered middle class but far better off than you’d be anywhere else without connections or education.
You’ve barely parked the car before people start emerging, clapping and cheering you on. There are cars littered around the empty gravel lot, hoods up, lights on the trim of their vehicles glowing. You have many rivals among them and who are just now crossing the finish line, late to finish the race after fishing their pride out of a rain-slicked gutter.
You kill the engine and sit in the stillness for a second, hands still on the wheel. Winning doesn’t bring peace - it’s the driving that brings you that. But for now, it keeps your pride fed, your bills paid, and it keeps you in good tires and spare parts.
The car door creaks as you open it, the smell of salt and brine thick under the heavy, humid air. You’re close enough to the bay to hear the waves slapping lazily against the dock nylons just beyond the empty ribs of the buildings. There are no shipping boats moored, no one waiting to unload product. Just black water, a place for bodies to get dumped and never come back.
Music blares from scattered cars, the deep basslines competing with each other, mixing with revving engines and shouts from the crowd. The gravel crunches beneath your boots as you accept congratulatory slaps on the back and handshakes before heading toward the shipping container near the edge of the fence line.
Lorro has turned the old container into an office of sorts. Rusted red walls, a flickering floodlight above it, and the ever-present sting of cigarette ash and coolant.
Though the race circuits rotate to dodge law enforcement, some places - like this corner of the Warehouse District - feel permanent. Like the city forgot about them entirely, or have given up trying to patrol them with the Syndicates warring elsewhere.
Inside, the container sweats. Condensation drips down the metal walls, the air thick with too much sound and too little space. The interior pulses with LED light strips and the occasional static flicker of Lorro’s five-monitor setup. He’s perched behind a better desk, chewing the end of a stim pop while scratching the side of his hooked, beakish nose.
“I’m gonna stop letting you race in the rain,” he grumbles without looking at you. One of his grease-streaked hands lifts in your direction, waiting.
You pass him your phone wordlessly. He scans it over the credit transfer machine, grunting at the total. “You make for bad betting. No one wants to bet against you and the odds are shit.”
You smirk and accept your phone back. “Find better drivers.”
“Like I said. You’re an odds-killer.
Rolling your eyes, you look at the total on your phone. Your heart dips a little, the number lower than you’d hoped for a high-stakes rain race. Lorro is right, though. For anyone else, rain would up the stakes. For you, it’s just another thing to get excited about, another way to prove how good you are.
“Maybe if you would let me race against Güey.”
“I don’t like you, but I'm at least trying not to let you get stabbed and dumped off the dock.”
“So he can keep winning but I can’t?”
“You know why, Demon.”
You do. Güey is a Syndicate man. Not high up, but tied to the Yong family, which means he walks with a shield anywhere he does. No one really races him or tries to win, and Lorro, for all of his posturing, isn’t in a position to make enemies that large.
But you? You’re unaffiliated with no threat of the Syndicate to back you when Lorro turns you down from a race because you fuck up his odds. He can make you stop and start racing at his leisure, basing your entire life on the flow of his business.
You fold your arms across your chest. The LED strip above you flickers and pulses. “So you’re saying if I go get the backing of a Syndicate I can just do whatever I want?”
He doesn’t respond. He just writes down move numbers in his archaic betting book, preferring paper and pencil over anything that can be hacked or logged.
Outside, the music shifts. The volume climbs, swallowed by the familiar cheer that always comes right before a pair of engines roar into the night. You don’t turn to look. Unless they’re lining up beside you, they’re not worth your attention.
But then something changes.
A flicker in the air. A pull at the back of your neck. The unmistakable ripple of silence that only happens when someone important shows up.
You step out of the container, boots crunching into wet gravel. Rain beads down on your jacket, more of a mist now than the deluge you’d raced in. At first there’s nothing out of place, just the usual tangle of cars, fire barrels, and half-drunk spectators yelling into the dark.
Then the crowd starts to shift, a slow parting at the edge of the lot, like the tide being pulled by something heavier than gravity. A sleek, black car rolls through the parted crowd, headlights off, engine so quiet it you can barely hear it. The vehicle comes to a stop and the driver kills the engine.
It is a car far nicer than anything anyone owns around here, and very out of place.
The door swivels upward, opening like a butterfly wing. A man steps out, the hood of his jacket pulled over his head, hands shoved in his pockets. He’s got dirty blonde hair that's damp with rain, the tips clinging to his forehead. The flickering neon from nearby cars catches on his skin, throwing golden light across sharp cheekbones, his mouth already curved in amusement.
Seungkwan.
You haven’t seen him in over a year. He used to race the circuits back in the day - loud, cocky, and fast enough to leave everyone chasing his tail lights. But ever since the Syndicate War tore through the city, he's disappeared from the races.
Seeing him is strange.
You blink, just once, as he scans the lot and catches you watching him. His head tilts slightly, expression sharpening, that grin blooming into something cocky and a little dangerous. He nods as he passes, a silent greeting, and then slips past you into Lorro’s container without a word. You stare, surprised. You didn't think he knew who you were, but he looked at you like he does.
A shiver slides up your spine.
Seungkwan pulls the heavy metal door to the container shut with a heavy thud, sealing you off from whatever conversation he’s about to have with Lorro. Whatever it is, you can’t help but feel like it’s important. Like Güey, Seungkwan is a Syndicate man. You’re not sure what exactly Seungkwan’s rank is, but you’re pretty sure you’ve heard a rumor that he’s best friends with some of the most dangerous Rooks in the Choi Syndicate.
Which means Seungkwan is here for something.
You’d love to know what that something is.
-
Rain taps lightly against your window, a slow and steady murmur that blurs the city skyline into something distant and ghostlike. You’re not quite in the worst part of the Lower District, but you’re only two blocks from the dangerous streets that belong to a mix of Syndicates. Your location is luxurious enough to have an ounce of comfort, but still crushed beneath the boot of the behemoths in the Upper District.
Your apartment is clean, at least. Small but yours, with a security system and a working elevator. You can’t say the same for most homes in the Lower District, and even though the rent is a number you can barely afford and sometimes the power goes out, it’s still worth every penny to not live shoved in a shoebox with other people in your space, danger lurking around every corner.
It’s a single bedroom apartment with a fold-out bed, a corner kitchen barely big enough to boil noodles in, and a window that sticks every time you try to open it. You leave the curtains drawn most days anyway in an attempt to keep the blinding light from neon advertisements out.
The kettle whistles on the stove. You move through your morning with practiced motions: cup of tea, followed by pulling on boots, jackets, and a single knife you keep on your person at all times. The power flickers once while you’re lacing up your boots, the dull hum of the building’s old coolant system cutting off for a split second before it staggers back to life.
Outside, the rain has turned the streets to slick veins of oil and neon. Though it’s midday, the cloudy skies make it feel like late evening.
People move quickly outside, hoods on jackets pulled up as they dash out of the rain or huddled underneath umbrellas with scintillating lights around the edges. They’re not moving to get out of the rain, though. Getting drenched in Hyperion is inevitable. It’s the knowledge that anyone who lingers too long anywhere becomes a target, even here in the safest block of the neighborhood - especially here.
You tuck into yourself, pulling the hood on your jacket up and start off toward the train. You prefer to go without an umbrella, hand wrapped around your knife just in case. An umbrella is too much to calculate for when you’re jogging down wet tiles to the subway and past people lying in wait to mug you.
On the walk, you pass a massive holo-display stretching across the side of a decrepit building. It flickers, disrupted by the rain, but the feed is still visible. The headline scrolls slowly at the bottom in red: THREE DEAD IN PEARL DISTRICT DISPUTE. CITY COUNCIL CALLS EMERGENCY SUMMIT WITH SYNDICATE LEADERS.
Footage plays behind the text, an aerial drone footage of a scored convoy of cars, civilian vehicles reduced to a slag on a highway near the Pearl District. Medical personnel pull bloodied bodies from the wreckage while automated drones fly around looking for signs of lingering hostels.
A grainy image flashes next, showing the City Council’s Chancellor standing with three Syndicate representatives at a long, steel conference table. Your eyes jump between the three figures, recognizing only two of them. One is the Wisdom of the Choi Syndicate, Yoon Jeonghan with sleek, black hair that brushes his shoulders and an angelic face that belies the violence underneath. The other is Kim Nari, who makes you imagine there cannot be a more beautiful woman on the planet, if not just the city. The third is a man you don’t know, but assume is from the Yong family.
You turn away, uncaring what the Gods of the City are up to today. You’re not unaffected by Syndicate War, of course. Everything in the city is more expensive, there are more people making risky power grabs, and low-level criminals who aren’t affiliated with anyone have used the warring factions as an attempt to earn some credit for themselves. Either way, you don’t really care who wins or loses, so long as you keep winning races and keep to your small corner of the world.
The subway station stinks of wet metal and sweat. You’re careful on the stairs as you skip down, not wanting to slip and crack your head on the concrete. Flickering lights cast your shadow in and out of focus across the stained floors. The air’s thick down here, hot and damp and full of static, the low thrum of too many lives packed underground.
You hop over the turnstile, the alarm going unanswered as you refuse to pay the toll. Only half the sensors in this part of the Lower District work, and no one seems interested in fixing or policing them. Not when half the cars on the train still rattle like they’re going to fly apart at the next curve.
Nothing here is a priority.
The subway platform is a dull roar of noise. Boots splash in puddles, vending machines with loud holo advertisements warble, someone in the corner playing synth music from a speaker tucked in their coat. You step into the next open car and grab a handle just before the doors hiss shut behind you.
Lights flicker as the subway shoots into darkness. Flashes of light and graffiti-tagged tunnel walls become the view outside the condensation-covered windows. You’re one of three people in your car, the other two sitting at the far end leaning over a holoscreen as they point and talk quietly about something. You let the sway of the train car rock you into a lull for a three stops before letting go of the handle as you reach your stop.
Deeper into the Lower District now, you’re on higher alert. Here, it’s busier. People move together in groups, vendors pulling out carts as the rain subsides to hawk their wares. The auto parts shop you’re looking for is two blocks down and buried behind a defunct noodle stand and wall of shuttered businesses.
Most people don’t know it’s there, which is the entire point.
You find it by muscle memory, ducking under a rusted security gate and slipping into the shop through a side door barely marked with a flickering red glyphs. Inside, the air smells like motor oil, ozone, and wet leather. The walls are stacked with salvaged mods, half-stripped engine parts, and neon-lit displays of filament wire and gear cores in mismatched packaging. The back of the shop glows with a makeshift forge setup, which is impressive but most likely illegal - the City Council regulates all manufacturers and the materials made here aren’t up to their code or legalities.
Fine by you.
“Thought I saw a rat,” Jinmae says when he sees you. The shopkeeper is wire-thin with goggles perched on his sweaty forehead like a second set of eyes. “Racing or rebuilding?”
“Both.” You toss him a damp piece of paper with your list. “Under five hundred.”
He snorts, taking it immediately and frowning. “You’re not getting this shit for under five-hundred credits. Supply’s tight. The ports are locked down with the Syndicates and-”
“Don’t lie, old man.” You level him with a look. “You’ve had three coils of copper filament in the back for weeks. You want me to tell everyone in the Warehouse District you’re sitting on back stock?”
His lips curl, not quite a smile, not quite a threat. “Four-twenty.”
“Three-seventy and I don’t mention your name if law enforcement sweeps the docks like they did a few weeks ago.”
He stares at you. A beat passes and he sighs, shaking his head as he shuffles toward the back. “God damn rat.”
You grin as he disappears into the back, muttering curses in a dialect you don’t recognize. You tap your fingers on the cracked counter, eyes drifting toward a beat-up security monitor glowing in faint blue in the corner.
Movement on the screen catches your eyes. You watch as the newcomer walks through the door, causing you to turn, though you already know who it is as you do.
Güey.
He pauses just inside the doorframe, soaked from the rain, jacket unzipped to show the gleam of a weapon tucked into his belt. His lips curl when he sees you, like he’s baring his teeth but trying to be polite about it.
“You look like cat soaked through,” he greets.
“And you look like a wet dog.” He laughs at that, stepping further into the shop. You see the barest hint of the tail from his dragon tattoo peaking from the collar of his shirt, denoting his allegiance to the Yong family. “Didn’t know Syndicate lapdogs shopped with the rest of us.”
He doesn’t seem bothered by the jab. Instead, he scans the shop slowly, eyes landing on where Jinmae has disappeared. “This place has potential. Shame it’s sitting neutral during a Syndicate War.”
“Neutral isn’t the same as unclaimed.”
He looks at you, grin sharpening. “This is Choi territory, right? You’re not affiliated though.”
“I’m not.”
“So what do you care who it belongs to?”
He has a point. Still, you feel unsettled by the thought of this becoming Yong territory - or anyone associated with Güey, for that matter. “This shop has been here for longer than any of the current Towers have had their positions,” you point out. “Jinmae has survived multiple shifts in power. He doesn’t need to swear allegiance to anyone.”
“You say that like he has a choice.” Güey steps closer now, slow and casual, like the conversation hasn’t shifted to something more dangerous. “Man’s old. Tired. Smart, hopefully. Look, the Yong family seeks to protect those important to me, and Jinmae’s shop has been important to me since I was a kid racing piece of shit cars.”
“Then you know that being here and asking him for allegiance will destroy his business. You’ll bring the Choi family right to his doorstep. They’re not going to let you try and turn someone in their territory.”
“Maybe. Maybe not. I suppose we’ll find out.”
The creaking of the backdoor interrupts you. You turn around to see Jinmae, whose eyes are on Güey. From the look on the shopkeeper's face, he’s not surprised to see him here. Your stomach drops at that, wondering how many times the Yong’s lapdog has already come here to try and get Jinmae to fly the dragon’s crest outside of his shop.
Jinmae squints at you, holding a wrapped package of parts out toward you. You step up to the counter and take it from him, reaching for your phone to pay when he says quietly, “Tabs clear. Go home.”
“Jin-”
“Go on,” he says tightly. “You’ve got better places to be than here right now.”
You glance at Güey, who watches impassively before looking back at the thin man behind the counter. “You sure?”
“Mhmm. I’ve been dealing with this shit since long before you could spell fuel injector.” He squints at you. “In fact, you probably can’t spell fuel injector.”
You can’t, but it’s not his point. He’s hiding his nervousness with jesting and you’re hesitant to leave him, eyes lingering. He gestures toward the door and you nod, reluctantly backing toward the door. The air hangs heavy as you do, Güey lifting his hand to wiggle his fingers in a goodbye.
As the door shuts behind you, Güey shuffles toward the counter, voice sickly sweet.
-
You’re elbow-deep in grease, head under the hood of your car when your phone buzzes. You jump at the sound, banging your head against the metal underside of the hood. A string of curses floods from your mouth as you press an oiled hand to the top of your head to rub, not caring what you’re smearing into your hair. Growling, you wipe your fingers on your pants and pick up the phone, green holographic text flickering to life.
L: You’re running tonight. New format. Upper District. Lot behind Prism. Don’t be late.
That stumps you. No one races in the Upper District. People actually give a shit what’s going on on their streets there. The few times Lorro has risked running races through the Upper District have been through tiny edges or slices of streets that could barely be considered Upper District, but when you look up the location he’s given you, you’re surprised to see it’s right in the heart of the elite.
Interesting.
The Upper District is a world of high towers, clean air and private security drones that fly around the streets. People like you don’t even belong up there with a transit pass, let alone an engine that could split lanes at 150 mph. Which means tonight is incredibly stupid or unbelievably important, and you’re not sure which one.
A smile kicks your mouth sideways as you type in a confirmation that you’re in. The thrill of it shoots through you, fueling you through the rest of the afternoon prepping like a soldier headed to war. You double-check your tires, mod your coolant injector, calibrate the heads up dash inside the cab.
Showered and clean of all grease, you slip into a slick, black driving jacket, zipping it up to the throat. It’s plain and the sleeves are scuffed and stained with oil, but it’s supple and nice. It feels like your own personal armor. Your boots come last, and you finish off the laces with barely time to spare. You grab your keys and head out the door, phone in hand.
Your apartment is the only one in the Lower District with a secure parking garage. While it isn’t the high-security of an Upper District home, it’s enough for you and the only reason you decided to live here. Plus, no one in your building really has cars to store, so you’re able to carve out an entire section for yourself to work on your car like a mini garage space.
The roar of the engine vibrates against the concrete walls. The steering wheel vibrates with the hum of the car as you drive down to street level, your excitement already sparking. You’re unsure what to expect, but you can feel that this is different somehow. That the stakes are higher.
It’s not far to the Upper District from where you live. It gleams around you like a fever dream, all polished chrome and glass towers tall enough that they vanish into low-hanging clouds. The rain has stopped for the night, leaving the streets slick and reflective.
You weave through the pristine avenues, your car a stark contrast to the sleek, elegant vehicles that belong to the residents here. Your car is put together in pieces and painted reflective and flashy, while the subtle wealth of the other cars make them look like beetles.
The lot behind the Prism Tower is tucked between two monoliths of wealth, a rare patch of open space usually reserved for corporate deliveries or private galas when it’s not pouring rain. Now, it’s been turned into something else with cars lined around the perimeter, sleek and modded to hell, the under glows casting eerie neon pools of electric light.
You pull into the lot, tires crunching on clean gravel. There’s a shift in the air and you look at the cars as you drive by slowly, recognizing racers and onlookers alike. It’s a much smaller crowd than you’re used to, and the gathering is understated. Quieter.
Parking in a free space, you get out of the car, scanning the lot for Lorro. You spot him leaning against an old fashioned car you know he treats like his baby, a table filled with laptops around him. He chews on a stimpop, looking through his screens furiously as you approach.
It’s not Lorro that holds your attention, though. Seungkwan is next to Lorro, leaning against the car. You imagine if it was anyone else, Lorro would freak out, but he says nothing to Seungkwan, who watches you approach. He’s all casual confidence in a damp hoodie, eyes looking you up and down. His blonde hair catches the light, reflecting back pinks and blues.
You’ve never seen Seungkwan oversee a race before. Lorro has always been the one barking orders, taking bets and setting odds. Seeing him here makes your skin prickle, like you’re standing too close to a live wire or a fire that’s about to burst.
“Signing in,” you say, eyes flicking between Seungkwan and Lorro. You’re unsure who to address. “This is… interesting.”
Lorro looks up. “Good, you’re here. We’ll get started shortly. Entry fee?”
You tap your phone to send him credits. He confirms on his end and nods before hesitating. “Look at your competitors. Pay attention.”
That makes you frown. Before you can ask questions, Seungkwan clears his throat. “Glad to see you here. I was interested if you’d accept or not.”
“I’m still a little confused about the format. Why are you here?”
His smile is sharp and sends a thrill through you. “Suppose we’ll find out.”
Seungkwan’s words leave you feeling equal parts uneasy and excited. You’re not sure they were meant to soothe you anyway, but you turn from him with a sense of foreboding, feeling his gaze on your back as you drift toward the center of the lot.
Your gaze drifts between the other drivers, and you realize there’s a pattern. The other competitors are the best of the best, people who have won races over and over again the last few months. You recognize Mira leaning against her sleek, silver car; Jiro, who has been racing since he was old enough to steal a set of keys from a valet; and Güey.
Güey leans against his car, grinning at you. The memory of the parts store is heavy on your mind as you ignore him, turning to wait by your own car. You’re surprised to see him - mostly because Lorro has been adamant about not letting particular people race against him.
The racers around you aren’t just drivers - they’re winners, people who have won their circuits every single time. These are the people - yourself included - who make betting pools useless and have fragile egos, forcing Lorro to be strategic with who he invites to what race. Seeing them all here in the same place sets your nerves on edge.
Lorro claps his hands, the sharp sound drawing you from your thoughts. You look up as he walks toward the center of the small crowd, drawing drivers off their car to walk over toward him. He looks nervous, rubbing his hands on his pants as he looks at each one of you.
“Listen up,” he says. “New format tonight. You’re not just racing for credits, you’re racing to impress a special guest of mine.”
When Lorro looks at Seungkwan, the other man grins. He strides over, arms crossed over his chest. His grin is lazy, eyes sharp. You feel a prickle at the back of your neck as he passes by Lorro, clapping the other man on the back as he stands in the middle of the loosely formed circle of drivers.
“I’m looking for drivers,” Seungkwan explains. “The best. Not just fast, but smart. The kind who can handle pressure and have good instincts. You do well tonight, you’re still in for consideration. You don't well, you’re out. Trust me… you don’t want to be out.”
Seungkwan pauses. His eyes fall on you and the corner of his mouth twitches. His eyes drift away as he addresses the group again. “The route’s specific. Start at the point I’ve marked on your GPS systems. You’ll loop through the Upper District’s main arteries. Full traffic. Winner gets a fat stack of credits.”
The group of drivers shifts and mutters, tapping one another excitedly. You’re focused on Seungkwan. His gaze flicks to you again and for a split second, you see something in it - amusement, maybe. Or a challenge. You’re not sure, because it’s gone before you can pin it down. It leaves a spark in your chest, a mix of irritation and something you can’t quite place.
As the drivers drift apart and head to their cars to ready themselves, you step closer to Seungkwan. “What’s the catch?” You ask. He turns to look at you, the air crackling with new energy. “No one races in the Upper District for fun. What’s this about?”
Seungkwan tilts his head. “You’re sharp. I like that.” He leans in conspiratorially. You catch his scent, something like rain and jasmine. “No catch. Just a job that needs doing. If you want answers, you’ll need to win and move to the next round.”
“And if I don’t?”
“You’ll wish you had.” He grins, eyes twinkling. “So don’t fuck it up.”
You turn away from him, heart racing. So he’s looking for someone to do a job. You’re not sure that you want that. Seungkwan is allied with the Choi Syndicate, which should disqualify Güey outright, but it apparently doesn’t. Which means Seungkwan desperately wants a driver for something. You’re just not sure what.
Pulling up your phone, you look at the map. It’s an easy enough drive, but the added element of traffic always makes things harder. You race with traffic all the time, but it’s not raining tonight and you don’t have the advantage of the other drivers being more cautious.
For a moment, you hesitate at your car door. Do you even want to compete? There’s a choice in front of you - money, but something tied to the Choi Syndicate, or go home peacefully. You think of Jinmae and his shop, and the way Güey had shown up to give him the same choice. You don’t think he had much of one, but you do now.
You look at Seungkwan. He’s leaning against the hood of his sleek Phantom of a car, watching you. He raises his brows as if to ask what you’re waiting for, and you feel a spark of the challenge, the need to prove you can win this. The best of the best.
The interior of your car smells of leather and oil when you slide in, grounding you as you start it and drive out of the lot with the other cars. The starting line is the street in front of the lot, wide enough to accommodate for all five cars. You fall into place, hooking up your phone to your dash to display the route. It’s a straight shot for two blocks before a hard right, and you’re on the far left, a tough place to start.
Beneath your hands, the wheel vibrates with the hum of the engine. The thrill of the race is in your blood now, sharpening your focus. You want to win, you realize. Not just for the credits or the job, but just because you want to be the best. And if it draws a bit of respect from Seungkwan, you wouldn’t hate that either.
You breathe in. Seungkwan and Lorro stand on the sidewalk before walking in front of the cars, making sure that no one is pulled too far forward. They push Güey’s car back a few inches and you roll your eyes. You know he’ll take any advantage he can, especially here, with the promise of some mystery winnings on the line.
As Seungkwan passes your car, he winks. You narrow your eyes but your heart seizes a little. You tell yourself it's from the nerves and you focus on the road in front of you, waiting for the crack of the pistol to tell you go. You rest your hand on the gear shift, your attention narrowing to a needle point.
When the crack comes, you shift and punch the gas. You feel the engine roar, the tires screeching as you peel off and shoot through the alleyway. You barely blink as you cross an active street, thankful it's a green light as you zag in front of Güey, cutting him off.
The route is tight. Mira’s on your left, her silver car a blur while Güey’s dragon-wrapped vehicle looms in your rear view, his headlights blinding. You ignore him, readying for the sharp right up ahead. You feather the wheel, letting the back of the car slide just enough before snapping it back under your control.
Jiro is in front of you, but he’s too cautious, put off by the amount of cars on the road. You don’t care, trusting your instincts as you shift and weave through two pedestrian cars, closing the gap between you and the race leader within seconds.
You jerk in front of him, careful to maintain the control of your car. The other cars on the road force you to shift and move, driving in the oncoming lane and back into yours. Horns blare as you pass by and you see heads turn as you hop the edge of a curb to take a turn faster, the chassis of your car scraping.
Someone steps out onto the street and you’re forced to brake, swerving. Güey cuts on the outside of you, shooting by. You growl, shifting to chase him, close on his bumper. His red taillights taunt you, making you grit your teeth as you press your foot further on the gas, feeling the engine growl.
Güey keeps you on his ass. You try to pass him twice, but the oncoming traffic is a bitch. You’re nearing the end of the circuit, your eyes darting to the map. You notice a tiny cut through, a construction road that is closed to through traffic. But it’s a straight shot that would put you in front of Güey.
It’s not an official route and it might be too narrow for you, but no one said it was against the rules. Seungkwan wanted smart - so you drive smart. Your gut screams to take it and you do, braking and sliding into the alley. You nearly slam your car into the wall, but you gain control and shoot down the alleyway, aware of how close the walls are to your car.
Cones explode on either side of you as you run through them, ignoring the thud against your bumper. Your heart hammers, adrenaline flooding your veins as you push the car further, your side mirrors nearly scraping the walls of the alley as it narrows toward the end.
The shortcut spits you out into the road, tires screeching and cars swerving around you. But you’re ahead of Güey, a grin cutting your face as you punch across the finish line, screeching down the road you started on and into the parking lot, gravel flying.
You slow to a stop, heart slamming against your chest as you lean your head on the back of your seat rest, laughing breathlessly. The drive leaves you shaky and it takes a few minutes for you to kill the engine, hands trembling.
When you exit, the others are parking and getting out of their cars. Güey is already screaming at Lorro, pointing in your direction. You don’t care, rolling the tension out of your shoulders, shutting your door behind you.
Lorro is heading your way, annoyed with an angry Güey trailing him, face near purple with rage. You stand and cross your arms, letting them approach.
“You’re out,” Lotto growls. “You deviated.”
“No one said I couldn’t take a shortcut.”
“The route was specific.” Lorro crunches his stimpop. “You don’t listen, you don’t race. Güey wins.”
You open your mouth to protest, rage igniting but Seungkwan interrupts, walking over with his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. “Güey can take the win - I don’t want her out, though. It wasn’t in the rules and she drove smart.” Seungkwan looks at you and winks, same cocky grin on his face. “I just said they had to win. Didn’t say how.”
Güey tries to protest but Seungkwan silences him with a look. You notice the way Seungkwan adjusts the hoodie around his neck, loosening it so that the tip of the mountain tattoo is visible. Güey sees it too, his protests falling to silence as he glares over Lorro’s shoulder with steely silence.
“Jiro is out for coming in last.” Seungkwan glances at you again. “See you next race. And stick to the script.”
Seungkwan’s eyes hold yours, that same electric tension sparking between you again. He’s challenging you, daring you to push harder, to prove yourself. Despite the disqualification, he wants you at the next race to compete for whatever he’s looking for.
You’re determined to prove that you’re it, broken rules or not.
-
Fluorescent lights hum above, buzzing against the humid night air that slips in the door behind you. A blaze of advertisements and jingles call to you from the convenience store shelves, each product equipped with a holographic display to lure in customers to purchase them. You walk past them, shaking the rain off of your slicker as you go.
The aisles of the store are cramped and sticky with spilled energy drinks and neon wrappers. A robotic cashier is behind the register, its digital eyes blinking as you walk toward the back of the store. A group of men lounge near the fridges. One of them is actively drinking a can of some alcoholic beverage he hasn’t yet paid for, and the others are pursuing the aisle.
You ignore them, scanning the fridges for your own choice in energy drink. You feel them glance your way. In the reflection of the glass, you can see their faces. One had modded eyes, glittering and unnatural red that you suppose is meant to intimidate. Another has tattoos that wend up his temples, twin dragons.
Yong Syndicate.
A chill goes up your spin but you ignore it, pulling open one of the fridge doors to retrieve your items. You’re in Choi territory and those three men shouldn’t be here. Not your problem, though. You close the door and turn toward the front but one of them whistles at you.
“Whatcha got there?”
You glance at them. “I’m just grabbing a drink. I don’t need trouble.”
The one with the modded eyes chuckles, a low sound that makes your gut tighten. “Trouble? Who said anything about trouble?”
“Right. Well, have a good evening.”
Dragon Tattoo slinks forward, tilting his head as you take another step. The other two flank him and you pause. Glancing at the front of the store. There’s no one else in here but you and them. The robot at the front isn’t going to help you. Sighing, you turn to face them fully, heart fluttering.
“What is it that you want?”
“Our cut.”
“Your cut?”
“The robot at the front doesn’t protect this store from theft, you know? We work hard to make sure everyone pays.”
“Okay, well why don’t you watch me pay at the front, then.”
Dragon Tattoo shakes his head and slithers forward. You almost take a step back, but you stand your ground. “That’s not how it works. It’s costing us to protect the store, you know what I mean?”
“Well the store isn’t yours to protect. This is Choi territory.”
It’s the wrong thing to say. They fan out, forming a triangle around you. You don’t move, eyes flicking between the three of them. They’re strapped with knives and as Dragon Tattoo puts his hands on his waist, you see his gun, a deliberate move. You’ve got a knife in your jacket pocket, but it’s all you’ve got. Your pulse spikes, adrenaline biting at your nerves as you ready to move.
This is the part about Syndicate War you hate. The fucking low lives of the Syndicates come out, exerting power in places they don't belong over people they never would if the three Syndicates of the city were at peace. And you, unaffiliated, have no one to help you. No one to call to take care of this if these men leave you alive. No one to make sure you're taken care of.
You just have you. It's always been that way and though you admire your independence, it's moment like these that make it hard. You've managed to come out unscathed before, but as your hand drifts toward your knife and Dragon Tattoo's fingers drift toward the gun, you know this isn't one of those times.
The door swings open and all three of you turn, alert. Six figures step in through the door, all of them dressed in varying degrees of black. They fan out among the aisles, two of the women skipping toward the front as one hops up onto the counter and cocks her head while the other starts wandering down the tobacco aisle to get behind the three Yong members.
Your eyes stick to Seungkwan, though. He stands with his hands tucked casually into the pockets of his hoodie, blonde hair clinging to his forehead. The hood is pulled up like that first night you saw him a few weeks ago. His eyes drop to you and then drift to the men around you, none of them daring to move.
You have no idea what he's doing here. Well, no, you do. This is Choi territory and Seungkwan belongs to the Choi family in some capacity. As your eyes flicker over the people who came into the store with him, you see mountain tattoos on all of them, some peaking out of collars of shirts, others on full display, inked across biceps and forearms.
“Excuse me,” Seungkwan calls, voice smooth. “Mind if I steal her for a moment?”
Dragon Tattoo doesn’t move. He glances at the other two Yong members with him. For a second, you think they’re going to draw and open fire. One of the men who’d walked in with Seungkwan appears behind you from walking down an aisle. He leans against the fridge glass, his dark hair turning blue in the light. He’s got a box of cherry sours in his hand, tearing it open and popping one into his mouth.
Another man walks down your aisle. His gait is casual, boots scuffing on the floor as he looks at the different variety of snacks. He seems to not be paying attention to you, but there's a tension about him that reminds you of a cat ready to pounce on a mouse.
“Come with me,” Seungkwan calls to you when no one answers.
You hesitate for a fraction of a second before taking one unsure step forward. The Yong members do nothing but shift closer together, their eyes on the members of the Choi Syndicate who have fanned out in the store. You take a few more steps, each one of them feeling like your last until you’re past the brunette man looking at snacks.
You head toward the counter to pay, but Seungkwan makes a noise and waves his hand. “Don’t bother. On us, tonight.” He looks at the girl sitting on the counter. “Can you swipe for her, Angel?”
“Mhmm.”
The woman - Angel - holds out her phone toward the register and it flashes green. “Uhh. Thanks.”
Angel grins and you shiver, her teeth too white and smile too wide. Turning toward Seungkwan who beckons you, you follow him out of the store and into the drizzle. It smells like wet pavement, the distant sound of a train passing echoing down the empty street.
You open your mouth to say something but Seungkwan leans close enough that you catch the faint scent of jasmine as he says, “Please get home safe.” He winks. “Keep an eye for an address tomorrow, yeah?”
“What about-”
“All good here.”
You glance at the store. “Seungkwan-”
He turns serious. “Go home.” He softens. "Be good for me and get out of trouble, yeah? I'll see you soon."
Nodding, you step out further into the drizzle, cool mist hitting your face as you pull your hood tighter. Seungkwan nods and winks at you a final time before he steps back inside, the door chiming as he does. The door shuts behind him, muffling the sound of voices.
Your heart is still racing. You take a few steps down the crack sidewalk, boots splashing in shallow puddles that reflect the neon glow of the Lower District. You’re barely a few steps away when the sound of muffled shouting erupts from the store behind you. Glass shatters, followed by the sound of an electric charge of someone’s weapon.
Instead of turning around to see the chaos, you quicken your steps as the rain picks up. It’s a steady patter now, soaking through your jacket as you weave through the narrow streets. Your mind churns, replaying the scene in the store. You hadn’t expected anyone from the Yong Syndicate to be stupid enough to be in the store, but then again - what did you know about the Syndicates?
Not much. You don’t know what would have driven them to camp out in a store that was obviously under the Choi banner. You think back to Jinmae’s parts store and how Güey had let himself in to talk business, despite the fact that Jinmae was neutral and very much on Choi turf.
Somehow, you’re sure it means something bad for the Choi family if other Syndicates think they can squat on their territory.
You’d known Seungkwan belonged to the Choi’s. You weren’t sure in what capacity, though. From the way he entered the store, you’d guess at least middle ranking. The complex nature of positions and tiers of the Syndicate elude you, but you remember hearing that while he is considered on the fringes of an official position, Seungkwan is valued by those that mattered. Friends with the right people.
It makes a shiver go up your spine.
The streets grow busier as you near the heart of the Lower District, the rain doing little to deter the crowds. People huddle under flickering awnings, their faces lit by the glow of the holoscreens plastered across every building. You glance up at one as you pass, its massive display stretching across a crumbling high-rise. The headline crawls in bold letters: CITY COUNCIL BROKERS FOR CEASEFIRE.
Your thoughts drift back to Seungkwan. What’s his game? He’s scouting drivers, that much is clear, but for what? A job, he said, but the Choi Syndicate doesn’t recruit street racers for delivery runs or petty errands. Whatever he’s planning, it’s big. Big enough to risk racing in the Upper District, big enough to pit the best drivers against each other. And he wants you in the next round, even after you broke the rules.
Your lips twitch into a half-smile. Seungkwan’s dangerous, sure, but he’s also intriguing. You can’t shake the way he looked at you, like he saw something worth betting on. You’re not sure if you trust him, but you trust your instincts, and they’re telling you to see this through.
As you turn the corner, another holoscreen shows a recap feed of the City Council press conference a few days ago. The Head of the City Council stands at the podium flanked by drones, his voice clipped and polished.
“The safety of Hyperion’s citizens remains our top priority,” he promises. “We’re in active discussions with Syndicate leaders to ensure stability and prevent further escalation.”
It makes you scoff. You think back to the convenience store and the way those Yong men were ready to rob you blind in territory blatantly not theirs. You think of the way the Choi Syndicate walked in and fanned out, ready for violence over a convenience store. Whatever was going on with the Syndicates was beyond escalation.
And somehow, Seungkwan is in the thick of it.
-
Cool air drifts through the Pearl District. It’s different than the Warehouse District that you’re used to, made up of sharp edges and glittering facades. The streets here are lined with high-end boutiques and holo-advertisements for clubs and casinos, all of which have a price you couldn’t dream of paying to get in.
The rain has stopped, leaving the asphalt slick and reflective. It smells cleaner here, tinged with the faint ozone of overworked air purifiers. You always find the scent of clean air jarring, forgetting that the elite of this world pay for massive churning purifiers to filter out the smog and grit and dust.
You pull into the designated lot behind a sleek tower, the engine of your car rumbling as you ease into a spot among the other racers. The crowd is smaller than usual, the onlookers more discreet. You recognize some drivers from the Upper District race, Mira and Güey among them. Güey tosses you a smirk that makes your skin crawl as you kill the engine to your car.
Scanning the lot, your eyes land on Seungkwan. He’s standing next to Lorro, who’s hunched over a car hood with his laptops, muttering about something. Seungkwan’s in his signature hoodie, blond hair catching the light of a nearby holo-sign. He’s talking to Lorro, but his gaze flicks to you as you step out of the car. The same cocky grin spreads across his face when he sees you and he nods in greeting before turning back to say something to Lorro.
You check your phone, pulling up the race route. The map glows green, and your brow furrows. Its the same distance and shape as the Upper District race from two weeks ago, a tight loop with sharp turns and a long straightaway. Only the location is different, trading in hi-rises and businesses for luxury and glamour.
You wonder if it’s intentional, a test to see how you adapt to new terrain with the same rules. Or maybe Seungkwan is just lazy with his planning.
You don’t think it’s the latter.
Stray rocks crunch under your boots as you approach the two men. Lorro barely acknowledges you, too busy with his screens, but Seungkwan turns, his grin widening.
“Glad to see you’re back for more.” He tilts his head, looking you up and down. “Ready to play by the rules this time?”
You ignore the tease and cut straight to the pint. “What was that in the convenience store the other night?”
Seungkwan’s smile doesn’t vanish, but his expression pinches a little. He leans in slightly, the scent of jasmine hitting you again. “Focus on winning the race, yeah? Plenty of time for questions when you’re holding the credits.”
You grit your teeth, tempted to press him, but the other racers are already moving toward their cars. You let it go for now and head back to your car. Sliding into the driver’s seat, you sync your phone to your dash to display the route. The familiarity of the layout settles your nerves. You’ve already done this once, you can do it again.
No deviations this time.
The starting line is a wide street frame by towering buildings, their glass facades reflecting the neon chaos of the Pearl District. You line up on the far left again, Mira to your right, Güey to your left. The other drivers settle into place, engines idling. You flex your fingers on the wheel, the leather creaking under your grip, and let the world narrow to the road ahead.
Seungkwan and Lorro step onto the sidewalk, Lorro holding the starting pistol. Seungkwan’s eyes find yours through the windshield and he raises a brow, a silent challenge. Your pulse kicks up and you scoff, trying not to let him get to you.
The pistol sounds and you hit the gas.
The Pearl District is different than the Upper District, its streets a maze of tight turns and sudden obstacles like delivery drones, pedestrians and lines of people waiting to get into clubs. You shift, weaving through the traffic trying to avoid killing everyone that screams as you race by.
Mira’s silver car darts ahead, her driving aggressive but clean. You stay on her tail, waiting for an opening with Güey right on your ass, his headlights flashing. The first sharp turn comes up and you feather the wheel, letting the back end of your car fishtail just enough as Mira hesitates and breaks too hard. You cut on her inside to take the lead, shifting to a higher gear as you punch it.
People blur past as you shift and brake through turns, always braking at the last minute for an aggressive corner. You almost lose yourself to a hair pin but straighten back out, shifting up as you hit the straightaway.
The speed of your car presses you into your seat, heart beating as you thread through traffic and lights. Güey tries to close the gap, his car inching closer but you hold the line, forcing him back off as you approach the final turn.
Holo-billobards flash above you. You glance at your dash and grin, pushing the gas as you fly toward the finish line. The spectators are a smear of color as you fly over the line with a screen of tires, adrenaline flooding you. You let out a manic laugh, shifting down and letting the car spin as you turn the wheel hard before coming to a stop in the lot.
The other cars pull in behind you, Güey nearly clipping the back end of your car. You roll your eyes and kill the engine, getting out of the car with a wide grin. The cool night air hits your flushed skin, the small crowd clapping. Your eyes immediately land on Seungkwan, who’s walking over with a smirk.
“Thanks for not breaking my rules.”
“Racing the same route is easy.”
His eyes glint. “So you noticed.”
“Would be stupid not to.”
He shrugs. “No one else said anything.”
“Mira wouldn’t care. Güey is stupid.” The thought of Güey makes you think of the convenience store, an uneasy feeling rippling through you. “I won. Now talk. What was the deal at the convenience store?”
“Persistent, aren’t you?”
“Yes.”
He hums, pleased. “Meet me for a bite to eat tomorrow. Noodle shop, edge of the Lower District. I’ll send you the address.” His grin turns playful. “Dinner's on you.”
He pulls out his phone, tapping it quickly before slipping it back into his pocket. Your own phone buzzes almost immediately, no doubt with the promised address. Before you can respond, he’s already turning away, heading back to Lorro’s setup with a casual wave over his shoulder. You watch him go, a mix of triumph and curiosity buzzing in your chest.
-
The ramen shop sits on the frayed edge of the Lower District, neon spilling across the grim-streaked concrete. The building itself is a squat, unassuming building, the neon a dull glow as it runs out. Rain-slicked awnings sag over the entrance, dripping steadily onto the cracked sidewalk, the shallow puddles underneath reflecting holo-advertisements towering above.
Inside the air is humid with the scent of simmering broth. It’s a narrow shop, a single corridor of space lined with a worn wooden counter on one side and a row of mismatched stools bolted unevenly to the floor. Behind the counter, a lone cook moves with mechanical precision, his apron stained with a splash of miso and oil. Above, a single fluorescent strip buzzes overhead, casting a hard light over the counter.
You slide into a stool at the far end of the counter, away from the other two patrons hunched over their bowls at the opposite end. The vinyl cushion creaks under your weight, the edges cracked and curling. Your boots stick slightly to the floor, making a faint sucking sound as you shift.
Tugging off your damp jacket, you drape it over the back of the stool. The knife in its pocket bangs against your back, a reassuring weight. You don’t think you’ll need it here - this is deep in Choi territory where the Yong and Kim family wouldn’t dream of coming, the streets crawling with people tattooed with the great mountain of the Choi's.
You're early to meet Seungkwan, but not by much. The anticipation of seeing him coils in your gut, a mix of curiosity and unease that’s been bubbling since the incident at the convenience store. You’re not naive enough to think he’s just a charming street racer turned Syndicate, but you’re curious, especially when you feel like the last two races are tied to it.
The door chimes, a tiny sound that cuts through the low din of the shop’s ovens and friers. Seungkwan steps inside, shaking rain from his hoodie. His blonde hair is damp as always, ends curling slightly. He’s in his usual attire - dark hoodie, jeans that look expensive, and boots that shine in the light. His hands are tucked into his pockets, but he’s relaxed, almost lazy as he greets the man behind the counter. The worker bows deeply.
When Seungkwan spots you, an easy grin blooms into something sharp and playful. He heads over, gait easy, and plops into the seat next to you, spinning in the stool to face you.
“Early bird,” he teases.
“You said don’t be late.”
“Fair enough.” He leans forward, elbows on the counter, and waves a hand at the cook. “Hi Lars. The usual - extra chashu. My tab.”
“I thought you said dinner was on me.”
He looks at you and winks, brown eyes dancing. “Changed my mind. Consider it a congratulations.”
The cook grunts in acknowledgment, not bothering to look up as he starts prepping the order. You study Seungkwan from the corner of your eye, trying to parse the layers beneath his easy charm. He’s too comfortable here, too at ease in a place that feels like it’s one bad day away from being boarded up. It makes you wonder how often he comes to spots like this, slipping between the cracks of the city’s underbelly.
You’re not sure how deep you want to wade into Seungkwan’s world, but you’re here now, and the weight of his gaze tells you he knows it. There’s a pull to him, like the undertow of a strong current.
“So,” you start. “You gonna tell me about what all this is about? Or are we going to pretend you didn’t save my ass at the convenience store?”
He grins, but it’s less cocky now. He leans back slightly, one arm draped over the back of his stool. “Straight to business. No wonder Lorro doesn’t like you.”
“Lorro likes me fine.”
“I’m a runner for the Choi Syndicate,” he continues. “I get things - people, parts, information. Whatever the Tower needs, I make it happen.”
The word Tower lands heavy between you. The Towers are Syndicate leaders, the untouchable gods of Hyperion who pull the strings from their grand estates in the mountains. You’ve never been close enough to their world to care, but hearing Seungkwan say it so casually like it’s another job makes your stomach twist.
“Were you at the convenient store to acquire something?”
“No.” He examines your face like he’s looking for something there. “They were just in the wrong territory. We were already on the way before you got there. I was surprised to see you there, to be honest.” His smile turns soft. “Lucky.”
“Lucky,” you deadpan.
You’re briefly interrupted by the cook sliding two steaming bowls of ramen across the counter, the broth sloshing slightly against the rim. The noodles are simmering with slices of chashu, green onions and a perfectly jammy egg, the yolk glistening under the light above.
The smell hits you, rich and savory, and your stomach growls. Seungkwan picks up a pair of chopsticks, snapping them apart with a practiced flick as he starts to eat. You don’t take your eyes off of him, letting your bowl steam.
“Did you kill them?” The question slips out before you can stop it. You’re not sure why you ask. “Those men in the convenience store?”
“We did.” He twirls a noodle around his chopsticks, studying it for a moment before he glances at you. “Does that bother you?”
The question hangs in the air, the steam from your bowl curling between you. You don’t know the answer. Part of you wants to say no, that you’ve seen enough of Hyperion’s underbelly to know that violence is just another currency here, traded as easily as credits and flesh. Those Yong men were ready to hurt you, maybe worse, and Seungkwan’s intervention saved you from finding out their intensions.
But the ease with which he admits to killing them, the way it rolls off his tongue, makes your skin prickle. You’re not sure where you stand on the ethics of murder and when it’s right or wrong, and you’re not sure how quick you want to explore your own thoughts on it.
You pick up your chopsticks, buying time as you swirl the noodles in the brother. The heat from the bowl warms your hands, grounding you as your thoughts churn. You’re not stupid. Survival heres comes at a cost. You’ve seen bodies pulled from the bay, drivers shot over disputes - you’ve been threatened and hunted more than once. But knowing it and sitting next to it are two different things.
“I don’t know,” you admire. “I guess I’m not really used to deciding who should live or die. They were going to hurt me, but it feels weird to so casually assign them death.”
“No shame in that.” He nods and takes a bite. “It’s not personal. It’s just business. Those guys knew the rules and they paid the price. Sometimes you gamble and lose.”
You take a tentative sip of the broth, the rich and salty flavor coating your tongue. It’s good - better than expected - but does little to quell your nervousness. You think about Jinmae’s shop, about Güey’s veiled threats, about the way the Yong Syndicate seems to be creeping into spaces they don’t belong. You think about Seungkwan, about the job he’s scouting for, about the way he’s watching you now with measured silence.
“Why me?” You ask, setting your chopsticks down. “You’re not just scouting drivers for fun. Why am I still in the running even though I broke the rules the first time?”
Seungkwan leans back, wiping his mouth with a napkin. His grin is gone now, replaced by a serious look. His eyes are still glittering with something, but he seems reserved now.
“You’re a good driver,” he says. “Better than good. You’ve got instincts other drivers don’t. I need that for a special job.”
“Which is what, exactly?”
He chuckles. “Patience, Demon. You’ll find out if you keep winning. For now, just eat your ramen.”
The nickname catches you off guard, a reminder of Lorro’s grumbling complaints about your racing. It feels strange coming from Seungkwan, intimate in a way. Your cheeks warm and you duck your head, focusing on your bowl. You’re not sure if you’re ready to dive into his world, but the pull is there, undeniable.
It’s quiet in the shop now save for the low drone of vents and frying. Outside, the rain has started again, a soft patter against the windows that blurs the neon lights into streaks of color. You glance at Seungkwan, watching the way his throat bobs as he sips his broth, the way his fingers tap idly against the counter.
You don’t know if you trust him. You don’t know if you should. But you know you want to win - not just the races, but whatever game he’s playing. You want to prove you’re the best, that you belong in the driver’s seat.
You just don’t know if you want the driver’s seat to be in the shadow of one of the Towers of the city.
-
Outside Hyperion is another world. The highway cuts through the outskirts of the city like a jagged scar, flanked by overgrown industrial ruins and the skeletal remains of old factories long abandoned to the wilderness. The city’s neon haze fades into the rear view, replaced by the inky blackness of unlit roads, broken only by the occasional flicker of distant lighting over the bay.
The race has taken you out here beyond the districts where the roads are cracked and left to rot, trees looming on either side of the road with branches twisting over the road. The asphalt is slick with recent rain, turning every curve into a potential death trap with a simple slide off the mountain.
You’re in the thick of it now, engine roaring as you downshift into a tight bend, the tires gripping just enough to keep you from spinning out. Mira’s silver car is ahead, a sleek shadow taking a turn dangerously close to the edge of the cliff. Güey’s dragon-wrapped beast is right on her tail, his headlights flooding her rear end. You’re third, close enough to feel the spray from Güey’s tires against your windshield.
The route loops back to the city after this stretch. This time, the route is different. You don’t ask why. Seungkwan’s grin tells you that he won’t tell you even if you ask. So you press the gas, nearing the hairpin turn that will route you back toward Hyperion.
Mira takes the next curve sharp, her car hugging the inside line with the precision of someone who is perfect at turns - it’s why she’s in the lead. Güey accelerates, closing the gap between them. You watch it happen in fragments: his bumper clips her rear quarter panel, deliberate and vicious, sending her into a spin. She over-corrects, tires screeching in protest, but the road is too wet. Her car veers off the asphalt, slamming into a rusted guardrail that crumples like paper.
Metal screams as the car flips, rolling end over end off the edge of the road, sparks flying from the chassis. The impact explodes in glass as the car slides down the side of the cliff and you barely hear yourself scream as her car hits the road some seventy feet below.
Horror hits you in the gut. Your hands tighten on the wheel until your knuckles ache, but you can’t stop. You hit the gas and try not to look at the destroyed guardrail as you chase Güey’s taillights back toward the starting line, barely seeing the road. You’re not even racing now, dropping pace and taking your corners slower.
Mira’s gone. Just like that. You’d raced her a dozen times, traded nods and smirks in lots, respected her as a decent driver. She wasn’t Syndicate, wasn’t playing any other games - she was just a driver like you, chasing the thrill and the credits.
And Güey. He’d done it on purpose. The nudge. The calculated aggression. Rage boils beneath the shock, hot and blinding, but it’s the horror that lingers. Death on the streets isn’t new to you - Hyperion chews up people spinning out of control on the road all the time. People crash and bump into one another and send cars into buildings.
But that bump had been avoidable. It had been murder. Casual. Cruel. And for what, a win? Your mind reels, thinking about the conversation you had with Seungkwan, about if it bothered you that they had killed those men in the convenience store.
In the aftermath of Mira’s wreckage, you decide no. It doesn’t bother you.
The finish line blurs into view as you crest the final hill. The makeshift lot at the edge of the city lit by floodlights and the glow of parked cars. You cross it after Güey, tires screeching as you skid to a halt, gravel flying. Güey is already out of his car giving himself a round of applause.
You don’t even think. You kill the engine and throw open the door, boots hitting the ground hard. The air outside is cool - fresher than in the city - laced with the scent of pine. It does nothing to cool the rage in your veins. The small crowd doesn’t realize what’s happened - that there are only two cars pulling in.
“You fucking killed her!” You scream, words ripping form your throat.
Without thinking, you shove Güey against his car. He stumbles, surprise flickering before his expression hardens and he shoves back. His hands fist your jacket but you’re in a blind rage suddenly, your fist connecting with his jaw with a satisfying crack.
Hands grab you from behind - Lorro’s rough and insistent. He yanks you off and shoves you away from Güey, whose face is covered in blood. Seungkwan is there too, stepping between you and Güey, any trace of amusement gone from his face.
“What the fuck happened?” Lorro demands.
“You’re dead,” Güey spits, blood flecking his chin. “I’ll make sure you end up like her, you little bitch!”
Before you can lunge again, someone shoves by you. It’s the girl from the convenient store - you think Seungkwan called her Angel. She steps in like a shadow, slipping past Seungkwan to crack her fist against Güey’s nose with a wet crunch. He reels but she doesn’t stop, kneeing him in the gut, then sweeping his legs out from under him. He hits the ground hard, gasping.
“Make that threat again,” she whispers. “I dare you.”
Güey coughs, rolling to his side. “You Choi scum think you own everything.”
Angel kicks him hard in the ribs and you hear a crack. “I own you right now.”
A group of men surge toward your group. Angel is faster, drawing her gun in a single, fluid motion. The gun lights up red, primed to kill and aimed square at Güey’s head. The crowd goes still, the air thick with tension.
No one breathes. Your heart pounds in your chest, suddenly caught between the Yong and Choi Syndicates for the second time in a handful of days. You realize that any proximity to Seungkwan will always bring a risk of this - this constant state of death waiting for someone to do the wrong thing, to say the wrong thing.
Thunder rolls in the distance. Lightning flashes a moment later, the light painting Angel in a wicked shadow. You suddenly think that the nickname Demon belongs to her, not you. Seungkwan slides up next to her, his eyes flashing with danger, hand hovering near the back of his hoodie where you assume he has a gun stashed in the waistband of his pants.
“I will blow his head off if you so much as sneeze,” Angel promises the group of men. "And then I'll go find your wives and-"
“Enough!” Lorro goals, pulling at Seungkwan who has flanked Angel, hands twitching. “No blood at my races. This isn’t a Syndicate battle field. Güey, you’re disqualified for intentionally killing another driver. You know the rules - no killing to win.”
“That’s bullshit,”
Angel’s gun hums.
“Get the fuck out,” Lorro swears. “Or I‘ll let her finish it.”
Güey hesitates, glaring. He spits blood onto the gravel and slowly climbs to his feet. Angel doesn’t budge, her weapon tracking him the entire time. You stare at her, fascinated. She has an alien sort of beauty, her eyes manic and focused at the same time, something rippling in her face that reminds you of the monsters hiding under your bed. Pretty. But terrifying.
Seungkwan looks feral in the light of the cars. You've never seen him so intense, his eyes focused, pupils blown. A flicker of something you can't name goes through you, fixated on the tension in his neck, where the delicate outline of his Choi Syndicate tattoo is inked into his skin. It's beautiful work, all thin black lines and small details with stars above the peaks and a single crescent moon, covering the entire side of his neck and parts of his throat before vanishing into the hemline of his clothes.
Heaving, Güey limps toward his car. His friends get into theirs, all of them giving you a lingering look before they do. If they didn’t associate you with the Choi Syndicate before, they do now. You know that, a sinking feeling in your gut when you realize what it means that Angel and Seungkwan defended you.
The Choi's only defend the Choi Syndicate. Period. End of discussion.
Later, you’ll be annoyed. For now, you watch as the members of the Yong Syndicate peel out the lot, the horror of Mira’s crash hitting you again as their tail lights fade. Your hands are shaking, the adrenaline ebbing into a hollow ache. You wipe your sweaty palms on your jacket, trying to ground yourself.
Seungkwan steps toward you, his expression unreadable. He turns back to Lorro. “We’re done here. I’ve got my driver.”
Lorro grunts, chewing his stimpop. “Fine. But keep your Syndicate shit off my circuits next time. Now I’ve got a dead driver to deal with.”
Rage flashes through you. “She was a person!” Everyone glances at you, fists balled. “She was a human being and she raced for you for almost three years. Mira is - was - a human being. Don't be so glib about it.”
He deflates. “I know. And we will go take care of the accident, and ensure anyone she cared about are taken care of.”
Before you can respond, Seungkwan jerks his head toward his sleek black car. “Come on. We’re leaving.” Angel holsters her weapon and winks at you, walking toward your car. “Angel will drive behind us in your car. You’re not in a state to drive. Let’s go.”
“No I-”
“She won’t crash it. There are no convenience store windows around, trust me.”
Seungkwan says it like it’s a private joke. You hesitate as the other woman gets into your car, starting the engine. It roars to life and you can barely make out her grin as she idles the vehicle, waiting. You don’t like the idea of her driving your car, but your hands are still shaking and you feel the after effects of the adrenaline high coming quickly.
Instead of arguing, you nod, following Seungkwan to his car. You slide into the eat, the leather cool even through your jacket. The car purrs when he starts it, smooth as he pulls out the lot. The other cars fade behind you, the tail lights of your car flashing as Angel pulls out after Seungkwan.
The landscape shifts, the winding roads leading to the next city over giving way to the industrial mess of Hyperion, all neon and grime and rain. You say nothing as he drives through the city at a reasonable speed, the cool air of his car calming you down as you try to breathe.
You barely see the smear of neon as you drive through the city. Pressed against the cool glass, you replay the crash over and over again. You weren't close to Mira, but she was someone familiar. Someone nice to you, usually. Death is somewhat of an inevitability when racing the way you do, but you hadn't expected it out on an empty road. Not so abruptly and not at the hands of fucking Güey.
Rage blooms inside of you, hot and ravenous. You hate him. Always have. But you think of his predatory grin in Jinmae's shop, the way he and the people he's associated with try to crush people in their way under the weight of their boots. You hate it. Hate the power they have, the power a stupid dragon tattoo gives them.
You suppose it's no different for the Choi Syndicate, but they seem different. Perhaps it's just a matter of perspective, but you have a hard time picturing Seungkwan bullying someone from neutrality into forced loyalty.
Thinking of his companion Angel, though, reminds you that the snippets you've seen of Seungkwan are brief and idealistic. You have no idea what darkness lies beneath the charming exterior and the wicked smile.
Mountains of dark green rise up as Seungkwan drives toward the Estate District. You don’t know why you’re surprised. The road to the Choi Estate snakes through jungle mountains, a ribbon of asphalt swallowed by dense, tropical sprawl. Towering trees loom over the narrow path. You cringe away from the window, the sight and sound of Mira going over the guard rail fresh.
Seungkwan notices. “You’re safe.”
“I know,” you bite out. “People die in racing all the time.”
He pauses. “Still hard, though.”
“Yeah.”
Mist clings to the slopes, curling around moss covered rocks. The city’s neon pulse is a distant memory now, a smudge down below as Seungkwan makes a turn. Your car follows close behind, its familiar growl a faint reassurance through the hum of Seungkwan’s engine as he drives in silence the rest of the way.
You watch him in the dim light of his car. His side profile is shrouded in darkness, his blond hair catching the faint glow from the dashboard. There’s a quiet weight to him now that is new, the charming trickster replaced by someone serious and quiet.
A massive gate makes Seungkwan slow. He rolls down the window as guards step out of a guard house to greet him. You hold your breath - you don’t know why - as they search around his car and then yours. You can hear Angel’s voice through the windows as she hollers at them, but it sounds teasing.
The gate rolls open and Seungkwan pulls through, tires hissing on gravel. Trees hide the world from you as Seungkwan drives. Trees of heavy vines dripping with orchids cast jagged shadows in the headlights. The faint sound of unseen insects and croak of frogs is muted by the windows.
A massive estate emerges from the jungle like a mirage. The main house looms at the center, a fortress of dark stone and glass. Cascading vines and flowering creepers cling to its walls, shining under the full moon above. Smaller guest houses dot the surrounding grounds, half-hidden by dense foliage, their roofs peaking through the canopy.
Winding paths of crushed stone connect the buildings, lit by low, flickering lanterns that cast pools of amber light. Seungkwan pulls up to the main house, the gravel crunching on the drive. Angel parks your car beside his, hopping out with a bounce that feels out of place after the night’s violence.
Outside, the air is charged with the scent of jasmine. You glance at Seungkwan and wonder if that’s why he always smells faintly of jasmine. Angel tosses your keys to you with a wink, her grin sharp.
Seungkwan leads the way, his boots silent on the stone path as he heads toward the massive double doors of the main house. The entrance is flanked by two stone lions, their surfaces worn smooth by years of rain, their eyes glittering with embedded sensors.
Someone opens the door and you flinch at the light that floods out. You hadn’t expected so much warmth in a home like the Choi family, but as you step inside, you’re surprised to find all gold light and drifting chandeliers. The opulence sits at ends with all of the violence that belongs to this family, making you blink in wonder as you look upward at the glittering lights.
The home is not empty. There are people moving about, none of them paying you any mind. It reminds you a bit of an office, your head dizzy as Seungkwan leads you through a maze of hallways, each more lavish than the last. Silk rugs muffe your steps and you gape at the art on the walls - real, paintings and drawings.
It's bizarre. You thought that it might be a cold and lifeless home, brutalist in design. It's anything but, warmth and thoughtfulness seeping from the walls. Like someone curated this home, each thing thought out. Someone with the luxury of time and patience. And money.
Seungkwan stops at a heavy wooden door carved with intricate mountain motifs, pushing it open to reveal a study. The room is vast, its walls lined with floor-to-ceiling shelves packed with leather-bound books and data drives. You blink in surprise - you don’t think you’ve ever seen a physical book before - but your attention shifts to the man sitting behind the massive desk.
Choi Seungcheol looks up when you walk in. The Tower of the Choi Syndicate is prettier in person. You’ve seen him on holo-screens, but his presence fills the room like a storm cloud. His dark brown hair is swept back, framing a face that’s all sharp angles and authority paired with a mouth that is softer than you think it should be. He stands, revealing that he’s dressed in tailored slacks and a tight-fitting black shirt that clings to his arms.
Your eyes dart to the black ink on his arm - jagged mountain peaks and the crawling inferno of a phoenix on fire. His dark eyes lock onto you the moment you step in and you shiver, immediately on edge. There is no warmth or kindness in those eyes, just calculation.
Seungkwan steps forward, his posture relaxed but respectful. “Seungcheol, this is the driver I’ve been scouting. I figured it would be her, but had to be sure.”
Seungcheol. You realize with a sense of doom that Seungkwan is on a first name basis with the Tower of the Choi Syndicate. You turn to look at him, accusatory. He isn't just a runner for the Tower, despite what he said. He is obviously welcome here - a friend, perhaps family. Someone who can bypass what you understand to be a rigid form of Syndicate decorum and titles.
The Tower doesn’t respond immediately. He leans against the desk, arms crossed over his chest, tattoos shifting with the flex of his muscles. His gaze never leaves you and it’s like being pinned under a spotlight. He doesn’t invite you to sit. Doesn't say anything. He just stares at you, that pretty face so focused and firm that it makes you dizzy.
“Name,” he says eventually, his voice low.
You give it, your voice steadier than you feel. He nods and immediately launches into a barrage of questions, delivering each one rapid fire. “Family? Where are they? Who raised you? Any Syndicate ties, past or present? Who do you know in the Lower District? When did you start racing? How well do you know Lorro?”
Each one is fast and relentless, and you answer as best you can, keeping your responses clipped and honest. You tell him about your apartment, your lack of family, your life built on racing and nothing else. You have no affiliations and no debts, though you’re pretty sure you’re a target of the Yong family now.
You can feel Seungkwan watching you, his presence a quiet anchor. But it’s Seungcheol’s scrutiny that keeps you on edge. He’s testing you, digging for cracks, for any reason to deem you a liability. The Choi Syndicate doesn’t survive by trusting easily, and you’re a nobody.
The weight of that presses on you. They could kill you and be done with you in a minute.
You’re mid-answer, telling them about the incident tonight when the door swings open without a knock. A woman steps in as you turn and you blink in surprise. She is beautiful. The kind of beautiful that makes all thoughts gutter out of your head. You stare at her, lips parted, and suddenly you think Kim Nari isn't the most beautiful woman on the planet - whoever this person is, beats Nari by light years.
“Angel,” the woman says, voice smooth. Her voice is deeper than you expected, like velvet. You think you might be in love. “Soonyoung is looking for you. A… guest. He’s making a mess already in the east wing.”
You turn and look at Angel in surprise. You hadn't even realized she was in the room, which puts you on edge. When did she slip in here?
Angel peels away from the shadows of a bookshelf, a grin on her face that makes your skin crawl. “Oh, he’s going to owe me for that.” She skips over to Seungkwan and kisses him on the back of the head. It surprises you, so intimate that you think you've imagined it. “Be safe.”
The door shuts behind her, leaving a charged silence in its way. You glance at Seungkwan, your mind snagging on the kiss, on the easy familiarity between them. You realize maybe they’re together. The thought twists something in your chest, a mix of curiosity and something you don’t want to name.
Seungcheol clears his throat, pulling your attention back. “Something on your mind?”
You shake your head. “No. Just taking it all in, I guess.”
He studies you a beat longer and then nods. “Seungkwan trusts you. It’s not enough permanently, but it's enough for now. Understand that the second he doubts you, you’re dead.”
It isn’t a threat. It’s a matter of fact statement. You’ve known that since the moment Seungkwan and the others defended you at the convenience store, but hearing it now is like the distant tolling of a bell.
You sigh. “Yeah. Understood.”
Seungcheol dismisses you with a curt nod and Seungkwan gestures for you to follow him out. The hallway feels colder now, the opulence less dazzling than before. You wait until you’re a few steps away from the study before you ask, “Are you and Angel dating?”
Seungkwan stops dead, then bursts out into laughter. It’s loud and unrestrained, echoing off the polished halls. You don’t join him, watching him as he doubles over like you’ve said the funniest thing he’s ever heard.
“Fuck no,” he wheezes, clutching his stomach. “Angel? She’s insane. Like a pet serial killer if we had one. She’s engaged to my best friend, Vernon. He’s probably the only one who can handle her without losing his mind.”
“Good to know.”
“Why?” He asks, grin spreading. “Jealous?”
“No, she just seems like someone I don’t want to cross. I don’t want to step into some Syndicate soap opera.”
“Oh, we’ve got plenty of drama, trust me.” He winks. “Come on, let’s get settled and chat. You’re in deep now, Demon. We’ll put you up in a guest house tonight.”
“Why? To see if you trust me?”
He frowns. “No, it’s so Güey doesn’t murder you in your sleep. Let’s go."
"Oh." You blink in surprise. "That makes sense, I guess."
Seungkwan grins and beckons you. You follow him back through the hall, mind snagging on all of the details and the things that have occurred tonight. It doesn't feel real. In fact, it feels like it's happening to someone else, like it's not even you following Seungkwan through a home filled with more luxury than you've ever imagined, like it's not you seeing that same woman again, your eyes stuck to her, thoughts fizzing out.
Outside, the rain is falling heavier, the patter on the roof overhead and the distant waxy leaves of the trees a soft hush. The air is permeated with the scent of jasmine. Seungkwan leads you down the steps and into the rain, unbothered by the patter of it. You follow him, surprised that the rain here feels different. Cleaner. You tilt your face up as you walk, feeling the cool mist hit your face. Normally, when it rains in the city, the air turns to rot and decay. Here, it just smells clean, like earth and vetiver.
Tilting your head back down, you hurry to follow Seungkwan down a gravel path. "Who was that inside?" You ask him, a little breathless. He turns to you, confused. "The woman. The one who came to get Angel."
"Oh. That's Seungcheol's sister. She's the Architect."
"That's her?" You ask. You blink in surprise.
"Why do you sound so surprised?"
"That is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen."
Seungkwan laughs. "Fair. Too bad for you, she's recently engaged."
"Hope it's to someone deserving."
"I wouldn't call Soonyoung deserving, but he's good for her. She's good for him."
You don't know who Soonyoung is. You don't ask. You just follow Seungkwan down a dark, wet path, listening to the rainfall around you.
This world is alien to you. The trees are greener than anything you've ever seen and the night is full of sounds - rain on the trees, birds hidden in the branches. It's a dream come to life, and you can't help but reach out as you brush your finger along fan shaped leaves, feeling their waxy texture beneath your fingertips, wet with rain.
Seungkwan notices and smiles. "Weird, right?"
"This world is unfamiliar to me."
"I get it."
"Do you?"
He turns down a path and you see a small cottage up ahead. It's only a single-floor home, but you see the blurry gold lights burning behind the windows. Seungkwan leads you to it, the wooden steps of the porch creaking underneath your feet as you follow.
"I do," he laughs, sticking the key in the lock. It's an old fashion lock, made of brass with a fitted key. No digital pad. No way to hack it. "Believe it or not, I was not born into the Syndicate. I found my way here."
"Oh."
Seungkwan leads you inside. The air is warm and you're immediately met with the scent of jasmine and something warm like amber. He shakes himself off like a dog, making you cringe away from the stray droplets. He smiles and toes his shoes off, gesturing for you to do the same.
The home is small compared to the main house of the Choi Estate, but it's bigger than your apartment or anything you've ever lived in. The entryway alone is large with a high ceiling and an entryway table full of Seungkwan's personal items, which makes you frown.
"I thought you said this was a guest house."
"It is," he answers, padding down the hall toward a shaft of gold light. "It's my guest house. I'm a guest here."
"Well it seems like you live here."
"Kind of." He turns and vanishes, his voice carrying from another room as he asks, "You hungry?"
As soon as he says it, you realize that you are. Tentatively, you follow the sound of opening and closing cabinets. Though Seungkwan is calling it a guest house, there seems to be evidence of his permanence all over the walls - pictures of him with people you don't know. Pictures of him with Angel and the Architect - even the Tower. You inspect them all as you pass before drifting into a small kitchen.
Despite it being small, it's beautiful. The counters and cabinets are made from a dark brown wood that is polished, each handle and draw knob brushed brass. There's a single window overlooking the rainy trees inlaid in a wall with beautiful green tile back splash. Plants sit on the corner of the counters and the room - hang from the ceiling in spots, too. You think maybe Seungkwan must like them, spotting a watering spout near a bowl of apples.
Seungkwan moves with familiarity in the space. You stand in the corner, unsure what to do with yourself as you watch. He smirks but doesn't look at you, letting you know he's amused but makes no move to tell you what to do.
He takes out a packet of noodles and boils water, pulling open a cabinet that you realize is a fridge. He tosses ingredients on the counter before he sighs and looks at you, the sterile light of the fridge casting him in an eerie glow.
"You know how to chop vegetables?"
"I'm not an idiot."
He looks like he might disagree, but he points at a knife block. "Get to it. You can cut right on the counter, it's made for that."
Ruffled, you do, walking over to the knife block in question as you huff. There's no real heat in it. Seungkwan saved your life tonight, even if he's signed you over to something far more dangerous than Güey.
Taking out the knife, you start to chop what Seungkwan has given you - green onions, bamboo, enoki. The rhythm of it lets your mind drift to the danger in question - Choi Seungcheol and the Choi Syndicate. You would have never imagined yourself here in a kitchen of someone allied with the Choi's, much less employed to do a job for them.
You don't even know what the job is. It doesn't bother you as much as you thought it would. Something about it feels right, like you were meant to take it. You know it like the way you know the streets of the Lower District, like the familiar hum of a car engine. You don't believe in fate or destiny, but there's a certain feeling of rightness that you feel standing in Seungkwan's kitchen.
Seungkwan's presence draws your attention. He slips closer to you, smelling like jasmine and rain as he peers over your shoulder to look at your work. He hums his approval before he gently nudges you out of the way to collect your work and add them to the boiling broth on the stove.
You watch him. He's soft in the light of the kitchen, young in a way he hadn't seemed that night in the convenience store or tonight when confronting Güey. You study the long lashes that frame his eyes, the round apples of his cheeks, the way he purses his lips when he adds salt to the boiling pot, careful not to splash himself.
"You're staring at me," he notes, stirring the mix. "I know I'm pretty but it's unnerving."
You snort. "How did you get involved with the Choi's?" You ask, leaning against the counter. "You said you weren't born into it."
"Right place right time." He pauses. "Maybe wrong place, wrong time, depending on how you look at it. Most people probably see Syndicate members and think we're terrible people." He shrugs. "Point of view, I guess. I became friends with Vernon when I was young. His family was far more privileged than most, but I got a scholarship to a nice school and he went there."
"You mentioned his name earlier."
Seungkwan nods. "He's one of my closest friends. He's engaged to Angel." Seungkwan smiles briefly. "She takes some getting used to. I've known her since I was a kid too. They've been together since we were about thirteen."
That surprises you. Angel doesn't seem like the romantic type. Then again, you know nothing about her beyond the fact it seems she likes violence.
"Anyway," Seungkwan continues, "Vernon would bring me around a lot. I just sort of fell in with them. I'm good with my hands too so I would help out in the garage a lot. When Seungcheol became the Tower, I got promoted."
"You must be close to the Tower, then."
"Closer to his sister." He glances at you, teasing. "The woman who wowed you." You fllush and he flicks the stove off. "Baby has that effect on people. She's only ever had eyes for Soonyoung, though. He's the Sentinel.
Steam wafts toward Seungkwan, shrouded him in mist for a moment. You watch him, chewing the inside of your cheek. Tower. Architect. Sentinel. These are titles of positions you can barely grasp, people who are so high up in their respective Syndicates that it makes you dizzy.
Seungkwan notices. "I'm not anything important," he murmurs. "Not like that, anyway. No official title or position. I mostly do things Seungcheol needs me to."
"You don't need a position to be important." You push off the counter as he pours a bowl of broth and noodles. "You're on a first name basis with some of the most powerful people in the city. That's not nothing."
He shrugs. "True."
Bowl in hand, Seungkwan leads you out of the kitchen into the living area. The ceramic bowl warms your hands as you follow him, eyes flicking around to drink in the room.
Again, you're surprised at how homey it is. The guest house is shrouded in lamp light, orange globes on the floor and hanging from the ceiling turning everything the color of a setting sun. It's warm in the room but not stifling, the faint smell of jasmine and something woody heavy in the air as Seungkwan sits on the floor, cross-legged at the coffee table.
You join him, peering at the space. There's a fireplace without a fire, a couch and some arm chairs, plants filling the corners and most surfaces, and posters and artwork you've never seen on the walls. You see a stack of books and it makes your mouth go dry at the casual luxury.
Reckoning with the kind of casual comfort and the man in front of you is difficult. You knew Seungkwan was well off from his car alone - it was the kind of car that was rare. A collector's item. But you realize he's wealthy in other ways that most people of Hyperion aren't - he has friends who are like family, a home that is lived in, and hobbies.
You don't know anyone with hobbies. Everyone you've ever met is driven by the dollar and the need for it to survive, no time to rest, no time to enjoy much. You suppose to someone like Seungkwan, street racing might be a hobby. For you, it's the only way to keep the lights on.
You eat in silence. Seungkwan seems content with leaving you to your thoughts, only the sound of gently slurped noodles and the occasional puff of air as you blow on them breaking the silence.
The ramen is good. It's a little salty, but you don't mind, crunching into a bit of enoki as Seungkwan finishes his bowl and leans back against the foot of his couch, sighing, hand on his stomach.
"So what now?" You ask, biting into a bamboo shoot. You let the crunch distract you, chewing absently. "What am I driving for?"
"You're going to be a getaway car," he says, crossing his arms. "I don't want to tell you more than that. The less you know, the less nerves you'll have."
"Ominous."
He grins. "Most things are in the Syndicate." He pauses for a moment, his dark eyes drinking you in. You put your chopsticks across your bowl, eyes flicking up to meet his. He seems serious, which is rare. "I know I've put you in a dangerous position."
You shrug a single shoulder. "What I do is dangerous."
"Downplay it if it makes you feel better. I saw your face when we met with Seungcheol." He winces. "You're terrified of him."
"I know very little of the Syndicates, but I know who the Tower of the Choi Syndicate is."
"He is dangerous. You're right to be afraid of him. But so long as you do the job and don't betray us, there's nothing to worry about."
"And if he decides to get rid of me when it's over?"
Seungkwan frowns. "That is not the kind of Tower Seungcheol is. He doesn't think people are disposable. It's why the Choi family is able to hold off two powerful Syndicates that have joined to take us on. The only thing holding this operation together is the fact that the Choi family believes in loyalty, taking care of their own, and ensuring that even the lowest ranked member feels valued."
"Do you practice that speech?"
"I mean it. I hold no title. No official position. I essentially run errands for the family." He shrugs. "They love me. Not because I do them favors, but because they love me. Even when I'm annoying."
Seungkwan says it with such vindication that you believe him. You'd come here expecting to see the cruelty and chaos of the Syndicate, but the normalcy of these people, the way that Seungkwan is honest and passionate in professing his loyalty to them - it's unexpected. Strange.
You take it with a grain of salt but nod. There's no sense in trying to spiral on what if Seungkwan is wrong - or worse, lying. All you have is his word and what you can observe around you, and for now, it has to be enough.
Just like the very minimal information he's given you about this mysterious job he needs you to be a getaway driver for.
Sighing, Seungkwan stands and collects his bowl. He holds his hand out for yours and you pass it up to him. He cradles them to his chest and gestures with his chin to a hall that offshoots from the living room. "Guest room is the first door on the left. There's an en suite bathroom. Use whatever is in there - clothes, skincare, anything. Baby keeps everything stocked for all manner of guests."
"Baby?"
He smiles. "Seungcheol's sister. Childhood nickname."
"Ah." You stand. "And Angel?"
"Should change nicknames with you, Demon."
You smile. You'd thought the same thing. Seungkwan dismisses you with a wink and turns to walk into the kitchen, humming under his breath as he goes.
Standing, you follow his direction into the hall. Like the entryway, there's art on the walls and rugs on the floor, a warmly and carefully curated space. You wonder if it's Seungkwan's touches or the aforementioned Baby.
The guest room is small but nicer than anything you've ever stayed in. The bed takes up the middle of the room, glowing orange track lights kicking on as you enter. The same track lights line the ceiling, casting the space in the same warm glow as the living room.
One of the walls is a digital screen, the time slowly flicking by in orange texts. You wonder if it's one of those screens that let's you view images of other cities and environments, your interest piqued as you walk across the soft carpet.
Green plants hang from the ceiling - Seungkwan's touch for sure, you think. When you enter the bathroom, you make a small sound of surprise. The shower is a marvel, big enough to host a party with several different shower heads and a control panel that looks far too complicated to use. The mirror lights up when you approach and you blink in surprise as a digital rendering of your biometrics and qualities pop up with a list of alerts of all the things you need: Vitamin D deficiency. Iron deficiency. Magnesium deficiency. Low blood sugar levels.
You frown. Rude. Instead of thinking too hard about it, you follow Seungkwan's advice and strip out of your clothes, hurrying over to the shower panel to smash a few buttons and turn the water on. Thankfully, you manage to get hot water from the ceiling that smells like eucalyptus and lavender.
Stepping under the water is like instantly melting away the night. You close your eyes and let the water hammer your eyelids, warm and firm. You let the water wash away the memory of Mira's headlights going over the side of the mountain, the look on Güey's face as he threatened to kill you, the tension in the crowd as Angel and Seungkwan faced off Güey and his goons.
Fear of the Tower still sits in your heart, a tiny sliver, but not easily ignored. You try to take Seungkwan's comfort to heart, try to believe that so long as you don't do anything that puts them in danger, they'll protect you.
You stand under the spray until your fingers prune and the eucalyptus stream is thick in your lungs. When you finally shut it off, the silence is heavy. The mirror is fogged over, but the biometric panel is still glowing faintly. You ignore the deficiencies listed, grabbing a towel that is softer than anything you've ever used before.
The guest room is quiet when you step out, the orange track lights dimmed to a low ember. You rummage through the drawers until you find a pair of loose shorts and a faded tee that smells faintly of detergent and tug it on.
You crawl into bed, the sheets cool and crisp against your skin. The mattress swallows you, softer than anything you've ever laid on before. It's a little disorienting, feeling like the world is swallowing you. Hyperion feels like a lifetime away, the grime, the neon and the constant hum of sound gone in a moment.
The weight of the night presses in - Mira's car tumbling into darkness, the Tower's cold stare. Seungkwan's words echo - so long as you don't betray us, there's nothing to worry about.
You're not so sure. You're in deep now, tied to the Choi Syndicate whether you want to be or not. A getaway driver for a job you have no intel on for one of the Gods of the city. The thrill lingers in your veins, but so does the fear, a quiet, gnawing thing.
Tomorrow, everything changes. Or ends, you suppose.
You close your eyes anyway, letting the darkness pull you under as the rain taps against the roof.
-
Morning light filters through the canopy of the jungle around you, turning the rain-soaked leaves into shards of emerald glass. The estate's gravel drive crunches beneath your boots as you and Seungkwan walk to the main house. He's dressed somewhat nicely today, ditching the hoodie and jeans for black, slim-fitted slacks and a black button down shirt with the sleeves rolled. Without the hoodie, his tattoo is on full display, the ink dark in the bright morning.
You can't help but fidget. You'd woken up to the smell of coffee and Seungkwan dressed and ready in the kitchen, telling you to dress and get ready for a meeting. He hadn't answered any of your questions about what kind of meeting or why, but you assume it has to do with the job.
The job he doesn't want you to have details about.
"Listen," he murmurs as you walk up the steps. "Sit where I tell you to. Don't speak unless spoken to. You don't ask questions."
"Lots of rules, Seungkwan."
He smirks as he opens the front door. "Listen, Demon. I know you like deviations, but none today, alright?"
You nod, throat tight.
The foyer is quieter than last night. There are no footsteps or echoing voices, just the soft whir of the air conditioner and faint sounds of people moving about the house. Seungkwan guides you down a side corridor, boots silent on the silk runner. He opens a heavy wooden door, revealing a small antechamber with soft, velvet couches, a few bookshelves, plants and a holographic display that shifts through topographies of Hyperion's districts.
Seungkwan points to a couch. "Wait here."
Sighing, you do. He gives you a wink before he walks to another door you didn't notice beyond the holographic display. He gives you a single look as though to say stay put before he opens the door and vanishes inside, the brief murmur of voices there and gone again as he shuts the door.
The display's light paints the walls in rippling blues and violets. You wipe your sweating palms on your knees, looking around the room. It seems old and lived in, like it's been standing here for generations. It probably has, if the worn imprints on the couch and the cracked leather books are anything to go by.
It smells heavy with incense in the room, and though you don't see any, you imagine there's some sort of high-tech device making it smell calming. You appreciate the gesture, blowing out a shaky breath as you lean against the back of the couch and glance at the door.
You cannot hear a thing beyond the door, which is frustrating. You know you're more of a pawn than a player in this scenario, but you would like to know the details of what you're supposed to be doing. If it's even worth the risk.
Not that you have a choice. Seungcheol could decide to pay you nothing and you'd have to do this anyway, now. Though it makes you uneasy, there's still a spark of thrill there, the promise of something new, of something more than what you had before. Credits from races have always paid your way to keep yourself safe and fed, but you think of the possibility of what lies ahead, the idea that maybe, for once, you'll have more.
Extra.
That's never happened to you before. Your entire life is a careful plan of spend and earn, each credit earned having to be a carefully planned credit spent. You wonder what it must be like to be a member of the Choi family in this opulent estate without having to do such rigorous math to make it through each day.
It would be nice.
Minutes stretch by. The holo shifts into a 3D wireframe of the Pearl District, red nodes pulsing at intersections. You lean forward, squinting. Delivery routes. Drone patrols. A convoy path highlighted in gold. You realize it's a live feed of some sort, but you don't know where or how it inputs data or what it's tracking.
Before you can think about it too hard, the door opens. Seungkwan steps out, expression unreadable. A group of people exits the room, barely giving you a second glance as they file out of the antechamber into the hall beyond.
When they're all gone, Seungkwan nods. "We're ready for you."
You stand up and wipe your hands on your thighs one last time before stepping around the hollow to follow him into the room.
The space is a vault of dark wood and leather. A circular table made of smart-glass dominates the center, its surface alive with layered holograms of topographical scans, thermal overlays, and live feeds.
Four others are sitting in the room. Seungcheol sits at what you can only imagine at a circular table is the head, arms crossed, the tattoos hidden by a long sleeve sweater. His sister is sitting next to him, flicking through a tablet. She looks up at you and gives you a small, unreadable smile, your heart jumping, still unused to her proximity.
To her left is a man you don't recognize with sharp cheekbones, dark black hair that falls around his ears in a mullet, and eyes like polished onyx. He taps a stylus against a floating schematic, turning it. He barely glances your way.
It's the man across from him that catches your attention. Yoon Jeonghan lounges in his chair, fingers steeped. His gaze slides to you and lingers, cold and amused. Your blood goes cold at seeing the Wisdom of the Choi Syndicate, a man whose reputation of fear nearly precedes his boss.
Seungkwan pulls out a chair. You sit down, the silence pressing in heavy around you. Seungcheol flicks a finger and the table erupts into a 360-degree holographic map of the Legal District. You recognize the towering spires of glass and concrete, a district you've only seen on screens but never been to. It's the political center, a place only the wealthy and the government go.
The projection pivots as Seungcheol taps the table. It shows the Grand Atrium, a brutalist dome of white marble and force-glass, ringed by sky bridges and drone perches. You've never been there, but the marvel of stone and glass is where the gods of the city meet to play politics.
"Ceasefire summit," Seungcheol says, voice clipped. "All three families, the Chancellor, and the full Council will be there. Live holo-feed to every district. Security grid goes live at 16:00. All public transport to the Legal District from all Districts will be paused and all streets will be shut down."
Seungcheol swipes and red lines appear all over the grid, showing the shut down streets. "Avenue of Accord, Spire Loop, Skybridge 4 through 9 - it'll all be inaccessible and guarded heavily by the Hyperion Police Department and the City Council guard. No vehicles in or out starting at 16:00."
He leans back. Seungcheol's sister leans forward and points to a non-red point on a map a few blocks away, looking at you. "Sub-level road access here is unblocked for exactly eleven minutes. Frontage Road 17-B, service tunnel."
A green node blooms where she points. "You'll be in a modded car with a cloak and a false transponder that cycles every thirty seconds. At 19:34:12, Minghao will leave the Grand Atrium. He has ten minutes to get to you. From pickup, you have thirteen minutes to the extraction marker outside city limits."
The route unfurls in electric blue and slices through the Legal District. It cuts through courthouse of mirrored obsidian, elevated walkways laced with surveillance lattices and plenty of civilian walkways.
You recognize the route. You've been racing t for weeks now, but never here, never in the Legal District. Especially not with military grade drones and security force on every corner, ready to annihilate your car.
Jeonghan leans forward, elbows on the smart glass. "Tell me, Demon. How do you handle the hydroplane on the bay curve in the Warehouse District?"
Your pulse stutters. How specific of a question. "Downshifted early, feathered the throttle. I let the rear slide just enough to bleed without spinning."
He tilts his head, grinning. "And the shortcut through the construction alley in the Upper District run- pretty narrow. Why risk it?"
"Shaved twenty-two seconds. No one else risked it. Knew the walls were close but trusted my grip."
"Fuel management on the Pearl loop last week?"
"Ran lean on the straightaways, dumped the nitro reserve on the final turn. Finished with three percent left which I could have used to loop back."
"Instinct or calculation?"
You shift in your seat under his gaze. His questions about driving are specific and knowledgeable. You don't know what he's after, but you feel the need to be as detailed as possible.
"Both," you answer. "You feel the car, but you have to know the numbers. That's why most people fuck up. They don't know the math and the calculations."
"Good." Jeonghan glances at Seungkwan. "You told me she was pretty. You didn't tell me she was smart."
"I believe I told you the opposite, Wisdom." Wisdom, you realize. Not a familiar name like with the Tower. "She's what you asked for."
"Mhmm." Jeonghan glances at Seungcheol. "I'm satisfied."
Seungcheol nods once. Their dynamic fascinates you. You don't know what purpose a Wisdom serves beyond being second to the Tower, but the dynamic feels off here, like Jeonghan is the person this room has to convince.
"Pick up at 19:44:12. If he's late, you leave him. Deviate only when necessary. This route was picked because it's the fastest."
You glance at the man you're supposed to pick up - Minghao. He's been silent the entire time, his dark eyes watching the hologram sharply. His eyes flick to you now. He's beautiful, but like Jeonghan, something about him unsettles you.
"If you leave me," he tells you, "My wife will be very unhappy."
"Don't be late, then."
His full lips twitch like he might smile, but he doesn't. "I won't be."
Seungcheol taps the glass table and the scene changes. Gone are the routes and maps - in its place is a line of text. You read it, confused, before you realize it's your reward. Your mouth goes dry at the list.
"Seven million credits when you finish," Seungcheol reads. "Indefinite protection under the Choi banner, a residence in Verdant Enclave if you so wish it, and a permanent legal retainer provided to you by the Choi family legal team."
The numbers hit harder than any crash you've ever been in. Seven million. A home behind real walls in a gated community that belongs to the Choi family. Lawyers who will answer you when you call to get you out of a speeding ticket. Safety and money you've never even dreamed about, much less touched.
You stare at it for a long time. Jeonghan grins on the other side of the table, like he can tell it's more than you deserve or have ever earned in your life. You hate the way he reads you so easily and you try to school yourself, clearing your throat.
"And you're not going to tell me what it is that we're transporting?" You ask, voice shaky.
Seungcheol blinks. "I told you. You're just picking up Minghao."
You glance at Minghao, who smirks. "That's it. Just… giving him a ride?"
"Better if you don't know the details," Seungcheol says. He glances at Seungkwan. "Seungkwan says we can trust you. In fact, he's said plenty about you, but I suppose that's the most important thing." You glance at Seungkwan who is glaring, a flush of red appearing on his cheeks. "Don't deviate, Demon. Succeed and all this is yours. Fail and you'll die, simple as that."
"And my wife will curse you," Minghao adds unhelpfully. "She is… a witchy woman. I would not test her."
It's a dismissal. Everyone stands, Baby taking Seungcheol to the side to speak to him quietly. Minghao stands and gives you a single, dark look before vanishing through the door you came through. Jeonghan lingers a beat longer, rolling his shoulders like a cat stretching in sunlight, then follows Minghao out.
Seungkwan touches your elbow, starling you. "Come on. You look like you need air."
You do. The evening looms ahead of you like the toll of a death bell. Or a slot at a casino going off after hitting the grand prize, you're not sure. You rise on wobbly legs and Seungkwan steadies you, his touch firm. It makes your heart skip a few beats as you look at him and mutter a thank you.
Seven million credits. Protection. A home. It's everything you've never dared to dream of, laid out like certain death or a gift. You feel the weight of it pressing on your chest, making it hard to breathe.
All your life, survival has been a tightrope. Win the race, pay your rent, fix the car, repeat. No safety net. And now whatever this is feels like too much, too sudden.
Part of you wants to bolt and disappear into the Lower District's shadows where the rules are familiar. But the greedy part of you wants this - is tired from just barely making it. A life without scraping by. Without looking over your shoulder in a convenience store.
The antechamber outside is cooler. You're halfway to the door when a voice calls to you form the couch. "Demon." You turn to see Jeonghan lounging, still catlike. The dim lights of the room catch on the sharp lines of his cheekbones and you feel Seungkwan stiffen. "A moment, please."
Seungkwan's fingers tighten on your arm briefly, then release. He steps back, expression unreadable as he waits by the holographic display.
You approach Jeonghan, hyper aware of him. He's dressed in black velvet trousers and a black velvet blazer, the style cut perfectly to his figure. His inky hair is long and tucked behind his ears, dark eyes watching you as he gives you a small, polite smile.
"Jinmae sends his regards," Jeonghan says. "Says you're the only customer he has who ever paid in full all the time - did mention you threatened to burn his ledger if he shorted you on parts." He grins - it's not quite a smile. Not something to express happiness so much as something else. "He likes you."
Your heart stutters at Jinmae's name. "Is it-"
"Safe? Quite." Jeonghan glances at Seungkwan. "The Choi family takes care of their own. And we take care of people who go against them, too." You nod only once, taking the warning for what it is.."Drive fast, Demon."
Seungkwan falls into step beside you the moment you reach him, his presence a small anchor. Neither of you speaks until the guest house door clicks shut behind you, sealing out the hum of the jungle.
The living room is dim, orange lamps glowing like embers. You drop onto the couch, boots still on. Seungkwan makes an annoyed sound but lets you get away with it as he drops into a chair adjacent to you.
"Why the summit?" You ask Seungkwan before he can relax. "What's Minghao carrying? And seven million credits? That's an insane amount. Why is it so much-"
"Slow down," he laughs.
You clamp your mouth shut, breathing hard, chest heaving. The adrenaline from the meeting crashes over you now, leaving you shaky. You hate how vulnerable you feel, how the promise of all that money twists when you think of Jeonghan's veiled threat.
Seungkwan leans forward, elbows on his knees as he looks at you earnestly. There's a softness there that warms you, his silky lashes framing his eyes as he drinks you in, serious again.
"I can't give you the whole picture," he says gently. "If I could, I would. What I can tell you is that we will take care of you. Your job is the car. That's it."
You nod. "Jeonghan scares me."
"Jeonghan scares me."
"Do you not get along?"
Seungkwan frowns. "What do you mean?"
"You called him Wisdom. You call the Tower Seungcheol."
"Ah." Seungkwan leans back, sighing. "Jeonghan is… distant right now. He's going through a lot. It's better to keep him as the Wisdom right now and not as a childhood friend."
"Are all of you childhood friends?"
"No. Minghao is new. He married into this. He's the heir of the company that owns the shipping yards in the Warehouse District. His wife is the heiress to Nexus Capital, which has long been a patron of the Choi family and where they do their private banking."
"Hm."
He grins. "What?"
"Trying to figure out how Minghao fits into this. He's the rich son of a conglomerate."
"Minghao has other skills." Seungkwan's mouth quirks. "He's not everything he seems. Kind of like you."
That surprises you. You lean back against the couch. "What do you mean?"
"I wasn't sure how you'd hold under Jeonghan's scrutiny. You seem a bit unassuming, but I know you're not." His grin turns wicked. "Lots of bite underneath the pretty face. No wonder Lorro calls you Street Demon."
You flush at the compliment and think back to what Seungcheol and Jeonghan both said about Seungkwan talking about you. You don't know what to make of it, but you're pleased. A little nervous.
Outside, rain starts to fall again. It suddenly makes sense why Jeonghan asked you how you handle hydroplaning. He must have known the rainy weather would be a factor when you're driving later, and wanted to hear you say it.
Seungkwan stands, yawning. "Get some rest. Try not to over think it. We leave in a few hours."
-
The sun is bleeding out behind the foliage of the Choi Estate when Seungkwan leads you down a hidden ramp beneath the main house. The air is cool down here, laced with the sharp bite of metal and coolant. It is eerily silent, the estate having emptied out for the summit a few hours earlier.
Lights flicker on when you walk into the garage, neon strips flooding the concrete walls with blue light. You suck in a sharp breath. The garage is a cathedral of matte-black steel and recessed blue lighting, and under it, dozens of cars.
Seungkwan leans you down the rows. You pass by luxury vehicles, collectors items, town cars - the options are endless. Seungkwan stops in front of a sleek black car that you immediately recognize as his Phantom. The paint practically absorbs the light, shifting from midnight to gunmetal depending on the angle.
"Keys," he tells you, pressing a slim fob into your palm. It's warm from his hand. "It's got cloak tech on the inside. It'll scramble thermal and ghost the cameras within a five block radius. Transponder will cycle plates and GPS pings every twenty-eight seconds. Untraceable unless you've got a physical tag on the chassis or something. Paint is chameleon, should help blend in."
Your fingers close around the fob, shaking. Seungkwan opens the car door with a soft hiss, revealing an interior of carbon and pale blue holo heads up displays. It smells like him - jasmine and rain - when you slide in, leather cool against your skin. You touch the wheel, feeling the smooth leather beneath your palms. This car is nicer than anything you've ever touched.
"It's my personal car," Seungkwan emphasizes. "Please don't destroy my baby. A little wear and tear is fine, but don't total it."
"No promises."
He snorts, unamused. He leans against the driver-side door, arms crossed. His voice drops low, intimate. "Same coordinates we gave you. Frontage Road 17-B. Minghao hits the seat and you gun it."
"Doesn't driving fast give us away?"
"We'll take care of it. Speed is your friend tonight." He taps his fingers against his arm. "We've got a city-wide pulse going on to fuck with security. We had to do the whole city. Lights will flicker and drones should reboot. It'll last for ninety seconds at the onset and then one more time two minutes later."
You nod, throat tight. The job is still a mystery. Pick up Minghao, drive like hell, don't ask any questions. The not knowing gnaws at you, but the car under your hands is a lure.
Seungkwan crouches, elbow still on the sill, close enough that you catch the warmth on his skin. He's dressed like usual, with his dark jeans and dark hoodie, the hood hiding his damp blonde hair. He smirks at you as he catches your gaze. "You've got this, Demon. I'll be at the finish line, alright?" Before you can react, he leans forward, lips brushing against your cheek, soft and deliberate. Heat floods your face. "Drive fast."
Seungkwan steps back. You look at him a single time before he grins and shuts the door with a soft click. Swallowing, you press the fob to the ignition and the engine wakes with a low purr that vibrates through your spine.
It feels dangerous to operate Seungkwan's car, but you manage to get it out of the garage and off the estate without crashing. The pedals and the car are different than yours, and it takes some getting used to after your nerves start to die down, the hiss of the tires on the wet pavement soothing.
The drive down the mountain is a blur of switchbacks and mist, the Phantom hugging every curve. You crest the ridge and Hyperion spreads below, a glittering circuit board of neon canals and crystalline towers.
Traffic thickens as you descend. Announcements on holoscreens bob as you drive past: CEASEFIRE SUMMIT - LIVE AT 19:00. Crowds cover the sidewalks, looking up at the screen as the live feed shows a mostly empty stage as broadcasters talk about the upcoming meeting of the city and the Syndicates.
Your stomach knots tighter with every mile. The Legal District looms ahead, made up of monolithic courthouses, elevated walkways, and the Grand Atrium at its center like a god. You can't get close to it, the detour signs popping up in red neon on the side of the road and your heads up display going red as you hit the perimeter.
You weave through the streets to reach the green beacon of your start place. There are fewer cars here, but there's plenty of people walking the streets toward the summit, eager to get closer. You nose the car into the reserved spot Seungkwan instructed, relieved that it's empty - though you're sure they missed no details.
You kill the lights and let the engine idle down. Outside, the crowd's excitement feels obscene. You're a few blocks from the summit, but the buzz is palpable from here, people rushing to the sidewalks just to crane up and look at the screens on every building.
The clock on the dash starts to tick closer.
18:58:10
Your hands are steady on the wheel, but your pulse is a drumline. The nearest holoscreen flickers as the city's anthem blares through speakers, the flag bleeding across the screen. You watch the opening with a skittering pulse, the crowds outside stilling to join you.
The live feed opens. The Grand Atrium's interior yawns open with white marble walls veined with gold. The City Council's crest rotates slowly on the screens mounted behind the dais, and in front of them, long tables filled with seated members of the Syndicate families and the City Council.
At the center table is the City Council, all in high-backed chairs with the Chancellor in the center of them. On their right is the Choi Syndicate. You recognize Seungcheol immediately, sitting at the head of his table. Tonight, the tattoos are hiding beneath formal silk, his arms poised neatly on the table.
To his right is Jeonghan, second in command, Wisdom to the Syndicate. To his left is his sister, poised and perfect, looking directly into the camera, the Architect. There are a swath of other members you don't recognize, but you do recognize Angel, who has not dressed up for the occasion.
To the left of the City Council are the Yong and Kim families. You note that they seem a lot larger in size than the Choi family. You think about how Seungkwan had told you the only reason the Choi's hadn't lost the war yet was because of loyalty and blood ties, but now you see just how much that must matter.
Movement catches your attention. The Chancellor ascends the podium, his white suit pristine. He looks younger than he is, and you know it's the access to hundreds of procedures, state of the art medical, and wealth. It makes you frown, seeing a youthful face that is at odds with his old, weathered voice.
"Citizens of Hyperion," he begins, lifting his hands for emphasize. "Tonight, we stand on the precipice of a new dawn. For too long, our streets of have echoed with the clamor of violence - Syndicate against Syndicate. The families behind me today have a storied history in this city, a partnership, as long-standing benefactors and citizens."
It's a fancy way to remind everyone that the Chancellor has power because the Syndicates let him. The Syndicates were based on three families that built the city of Hyperion from nothing, becoming its founders, its teachers, and now its oppressors.
The Chancellor leans forward, every part of his speech timed. Polished. Perfect. "Tonight, the Choi, Kim and Yong families stand united behind me, not as rivals, but as partners in peace. Together, we have forged a ceasefire agreement that will dismantle the barriers between our districts, redirect resources from conflict to construction, and to ensure everyone lives in Hyperion free from fear."
On stage, the families are statues. Seungcheol's jaw is a hard line, arms meticulously placed. His sister's smile is the only thing that seems genuine, and somehow you don't think it is. Jeonghan doesn't move, his face dead, his eyes dead, like being in that room has killed him and replaced him with something darker, if possible.
The Kim's patriarch shifts as he glances toward the Chancellor, nodding. You notice that most of the Kim and Yong families are nodding along, tapping the table with their knuckles and ringed fingers as if to say here, here!
Odd.
"Look around you," the Chancellor continues. "These are your neighbors. Your community. The ceasefire is not a surrender, it's a promise. A promise that the violence ends tonight, that-"
A crack interrupts his speech. It's sharp and clean. A single frame of the feed stutters, but the Chancellor is wearing white. You don't miss the perfect circle of red that blooms dead-center on the Chancellor's chest. His mouth opens in a silent O, eyes wide with shock.
The feed cuts just as he begins to tip forward.
Screams erupt outside, raw and animal. The crowd surges backward, people panicking as sirens wail in the distance, rising like a tide. There's no gunman in sight, but people panic, trampling over one another to get away from the Legal District as armored cars fly down the road, barely missing people.
You glance at the dash. 19:34:12. The exact time that Seungcheol said Minghao would complete his task and leave the venue.
The realization crashes over you like a bucket of ice cold water. He shot the Chancellor. Minghao just killed the fucking City Council Chancellor, the most senior political position in the city, on live feed. Your stomach flips. That's why no one would tell you. That's why the payout is seven million fucking credits. You're not just a getaway driver - you're the hinge the Syndicate war swings on now.
Terror makes your hands shake. You grip the wheel so tight the leather creaks beneath your hands. You try to breathe and wait for Minghao, fighting the sudden urge to vomit as you sit trembling in the Phantom that belongs to someone you feel insane for trusting, right now.
19:40:45
The silence in the car is deafening. The only sound is your pulse and the distant roar of panic. You count heartbeats. Your mind spirals. If he's caught, I'm dead. If he's late, I'm dead. If I don't drive fast enough-
You force the thought down. Focus. You look at the route. Twist your hands on the wheel. Take a deep breath and -
The passenger door rips open. Minghao throws himself into the car, dressed in black tactical fabric, face hidden beneath a mesh of shifting fabric that flashes different facial features, some high-grade tech that you've never seen. You only know it's him because he rips the mask down and barks, "Go."
You don't wait. You shift and hit the gas, the Phantom lunges forward. The tires screech briefly against the concrete as you slide onto the street and into the chaos that has become Frontage Road B-17.
Civilians flood the street on foot, on smaller travel devices and by car. Someone falls down in front of the car as you switch lanes and you don't hesitate, jerking the Phantom up on to the sidewalk as the suspension takes the impact of the curb. You barely feel it as you hit the gas and enter the road again, weaving through cars and people as you go.
Streets turn red on the HUD as the Legal District locks down. Avenue of the Accord has turned into a parking lot as you near it, police cruisers blocking off the street as a mix of public transit and luxury vehicles come to a halt, slamming on their horns. You don't stop to think, taking a hard left onto Spire Loop.
Rain starts to tap on the window as you fly down the ramp. The hairpin is a bit tighter than you expected, but you brake late and downshift, the rear end of the car sliding as you thread between two stalled taxis.
"Holy fuck," Minghao breathes, pressing himself into the seat as he braces the door for impact that doesn't come. You ignore him, driving up onto the sidewalk again to avoid a car swerving in the wrong lane, the Phantom's undercarriage scraping. "You drive like a demon."
"Yeah, well," you growl back. "I wasn't expecting to be a part of an assassination attempt."
"That's why they didn't tell you."
Someone's balloon hits the windshield. It bounces off the car like nothing and floats away as you take another turn. Your stomach drops to your ass when you see the wall of police cars blocking the Skyway, flashing lights and sirens wailing as they put up barricades. Minghao curses in a language you don't recognize as you slow your escape.
You glance at the clock. 19:49:12.
A service ramp into an art plaza catches your eyes. You only hesitate for a second, remembering Seungcheol's command not to deviate. "Fuck it," you growl and yank the wheel.
The Phantom leaps the curb again. Pedestrians scatter as you blast through the plaza, Minghao yelling at you to watch out. You ignore him, feathering the wheel as you skid around a corner, the tires hydroplaning on wet stone not made for driving.
A holo-sculpture of intertwined lovers explodes into pixels as you clip it, shards of light raining down on the hood of the car. You don't care, punching the gas as you bob and weave through digital and physical sculptures, Minghao's tension like a livewire in the seat next to you.
"This isn't the path!"
"Maybe you didn't notice, but the path was blocked," you snap.
You exit the plaza in a four-wheel drift, the rear end of the car barely missing a bench. You fishtail for a second before the tires catch and you're back on route, flying down a corkscrew of elevated lanes choked with traffic but moving.
"See," you laugh, a little manic. "You do your job I do mine."
One of the freeways approach ahead, but lights in your rear view catch your attention. Minghao turns and curses, sinking in his seat. "It's not a pursuit vehicle. It's a road team to block the freeway."
Cars start to pull over to let them through, but you press the gas harder, taking the downward spiral at a speed no one should. Minghao lets out a sound that you think is fear as the force of the drive presses him into the seat. Beyond the windows, the city blurs into neon, glass and concrete until you switch lanes onto the freeway ramp, a car blaring their horn as you cut them off.
The route straightens, open road to cut across the top of the city and toward the outskirts of town. The freeway is full of cars that have no idea what just happened in the Legal District, and you intend to use them as cover, flying off the exit ramp to jump three lanes to the left, cutting in with the other drivers on the road.
Minghao turns in the seat to see if anyone follows you, but you're focused on the road, watching the clock as you press harder on the gas, weaving between switching lanes of cars and truckers with a hairpin precision. Flipping a button up on the wheel, you hit the nitro button and the car leaps forward, knocking Minghao against the door.
Rain hammers down on the window as the sky opens up. You pay it no mind as traffic slows, red taillights flashing. You thread between cars and swerve into side lanes as you go, Minghao pressing himself into the seat as though it'll save him if you crash. It won't. You're driving at speeds nearing 180 MPH, the world a smear of color as you glance at the heads up display, the green beacon growing steadily closer.
The rain turns vicious the moment you clear the last skyline checkpoint, sheets of water slamming the windshield. You keep the Phantom in the center lane, pedal steady as the towers of the city give way to skeletal billboards and abandoned freight yards. Hyperion's neon halo fades in the mirrors until they're smears in the inky sky.
You turn on an exit ramp, heading toward the curving bay. You pull into an empty lot that you think was once a shipping yard, the rusted frames of old derelict buildings framing the land as you pull toward six identical Phantoms drawn in a loose semicircle, their lights on.
Minghao is already unbuckling when you stop, the rain hammering the roof. "Good driving, Demon. Scared the fuck outta me but you did the job."
He throws you a two finger salute then he's out the door and sprinting through the downpour. You see him turn toward one of the cars, the door opening. A girl steps out in a rain jacket and as he reaches her, he cups her face and kisses her hard, her arms squeezing around him while the rain soaks them both before she shoves him toward the passenger seat. His wife, you realize.
Another door opens on a different car. Seungkwan steps out, hood up and blonde hair plastered to his forehead. He doesn't run toward your car despite the rain. He walks like he has all the time in the world, hands in his pockets, shoulders loose. When he reaches your window, he taps twice. You lower it.
"Move over," he says over the rain, water drenching the interior of the car. "I'm driving my own car now."
You're too wired to argue. You climb over the console as he opens the door and slides in before slamming it shut. He's soaked, shivering as he hits a button to blast the heat. The car immediately smells like jasmine, making you feel safe for the first time since the Chancellor was shot on the live feed.
Seungkwan rolls the car forward slowly, tires hissing on gravel as he pulls up to a second Phantom. He rolls the window down a crack just as the other car does, revealing a young man you don't know, an unfamiliar woman in his passenger seat.
"Chan," Seungkwan calls over the rain, voice playful. "Fuck up that car and you'll owe me. That's my true spare."
Chan lifts one hand in lazy salute. "I will drive it into the bay posthaste."
Seungkwan snorts. "Cherry, keep him under speed limit, please."
The girl next to the man - Chan - grins. "You got it."
Seungkwan grins and rolls the window up, pulling away. The other five Phantoms leave in different directions, taillights vanishing into the storm as everyone splits. Decoys, of course. Every single part of this plan was fleshed out in ways you still can't understand, your heart rattling as Seungkwan gets on the highway and heads northeast.
He drives like a civilian now at reasonable speed with cruise control on. The rain outside eases into a steady hush against the car, and far behind, Hyperion glows like a dying, blue star on the horizon.
You wait a full ten minutes before the silence breaks you.
"You used me as the untraceable wheelman for a political assassination," you snap. "And didn't think that was important to tell me?"
He sighs. "It would have made you drive like shit if you knew ahead of time. It was also a flight risk."
"People are going to die because of tonight."
"People were already dying." He glances at you sideways. "The ceasefire wasn't real, Demon. The Kim family bribed the Chancellor a few months ago. War is profitable for them - private security contracts, reconstruction kickbacks, black-market weapons dealing."
He flips on the high beams, turning the road into a silver ribbon. "The reception after the summit was a setup," he continues. "That was the kill floor. They were going to mass murder the Choi family and their associates as soon as they were where they wanted them."
"They can't do that-"
"Of course they can. Lying is what makes this city run. A ceasefire is a good excuse to have everyone you need to die in one place." Seungkwan falls silent for a second, his eyes on the road. "Worked in our favor, though. Everyone that could have been guilty of this was on stage."
Your stomach turns. "You think they won't know it was the Choi family?"
He shrugs. "Going to be hard to prove. To the city, Minghao is the arrogant heir to a shipping yard conglomerate. Was to us too, until he married his wife who is the heir of Nexus Capital. Turns out that Xu spent his childhood with the Virate in Arkos. Guy's a fucking assassin. Had no idea until his wife figured it out. Thank god they're loyal to us."
"So that's why you wanted he and I to do this," you murmur, watching as Seungkwan's fingers drum against the wheel. "Neither one of us really have connections in any way that's meaningful. He married into the Syndicate but pretty recently, and I'm just a no one."
"You're not a no one." The sharpness in his voice makes your heart skip. He looks at you, dark eyes scanning you in the seat. "Not to me. And definitely not to the Choi Syndicate."
Outside, the world is endless black. There's no light here, save for the headlights of Seungkwan's car. You think you're going to Arkos as the GPS points northeast. It's still a two and a half hour drive north past refineries and wind farms.
Seungkwan surprises you when he reaches over and finds your hand on your thigh, threading his fingers through yours. His palm is warm, calloused from years behind the wheel and working on cars.
"I'm sorry I lied," he says, voice gentle. "But I'm not sorry I picked you. You drove like a demon straight from hell. You helped us. It means everything to the Choi Syndicate, but it means a lot to me."
You stare at your joined hands. The dashboard light paints his knuckles blue. You squeeze his hand back, heart pounding. You'd trusted him to get you this far, and though you're unsure how you feel about the mess of assassination and the Syndicate War waiting back in Hyperion, when you look at Seungkwan, you realize how much he means it, how much it means that it's you who has done this for him.
"Next time you need a getaway car for murder," you murmur. "You could at least ask me out to dinner."
"Does our ramen date mean nothing to you?"
"Date? You considered that a date?"
He smirks. "Guess not. I owe you, yeah?"
Your stomach flutters. "Yes."
"I'll take you somewhere proper in Arkos, alright? We'll stay there for a little as the heat dies down."
-
The safe house in Arkos is on the thirty-second floor of a needle thin residential tower that juts over the city. From the balcony, the city unfurls like a sea of stars, a sharper and smaller echo of Hyperion. Unlike Hyperion, though, Arkos' neon isn't pastel and inviting - it's cyan and white, a surgical-like light that cuts through the low clouds.
The skyline here is glass and steel, towers lined with sky bridges that glow faintly with illuminated walkways. It's alien to you the same way the Choi Estate is, something foreign and above what you could imagine other people lived like.
Inside the apartment is warm. The unit itself is small but expensive, with floor-to-ceiling windows that rattle faintly as the storm blows through. Everything inside looks expensive - especially the bookshelf in the corner with physical tomes and a record player that you don't know how to use.
Standing in the small kitchen feels weird. The heated floor feels amazing against your bare feet and the sweater you've pulled on smells faintly of Seungkwan. The sound of him in the shower is faint against the sound of the rain against the windows and the boiling water in the kettle in front of you on the counter.
Your mind won't stop moving, even after a hot shower that Seungkwan had to turn on for you because the panel was too complicated. Seven million credits are already in your account from an offshore bank that isn't tied to the Choi family. You don't ask Seungkwan the details - you don't think you'd understand even if he explained it to you. His world makes no sense to you, yet your find yourself in the middle of it, a little sliver of desire to stay worming its way into your heart.
The kettle clicks off, making you flinch. You've been in the apartment for about four hours, but the heat of the assassination still makes you jumpy. You refuse to turn on the holo-screen or scan the net for details, your stomach not settled enough.
You don't feel bad, which surprises you. Especially after Seungkwan explaining the way the City Council was willing to murder an entire family just because another family paid them to. It's barbaric and not the way the government should work, though you know it's how it will always be.
If you'd never cared for Syndicate politics, you do now that you're at the heart of it. You're unsure what exactly you're supposed to do now, but you suppose you don't need to figure it out right this second. So instead, you spoon loose-leaf tea into a pot, barely hearing the bathroom door open behind you somewhere in the apartment.
Seungkwan steps into the kitchen barefoot, skin still damp, hair tripping down his neck. A single white towel is knotted around his hips, clinging precariously. Water traces the line of his collarbones, slipping down the center of his chest to catch briefly in the faint definition of his stomach before melting into his towel.
The mountain tattoo on his neck looks darker against his flushed skin, the crescent moon stark again silver under the kitchen lights as he slides past you to the fridge, brushing close enough that you feel the steam on his skin and smell the jasmine.
Your mind requires itself at seeing him with just a towel, your spoon missing the pot as you drop loose leaf tea all over the counter. He makes a sound like he's trying not to laugh and you scowl, heart racing as you sweep it into a neat pile.
"Thought you'd be asleep," he notes. He grabs a water from the fridge and leans his hip against the island opposite you, arms folding casually. "No rest for the wicked?"
You forget how to use words for a second. He notices - of course he does - and his mouth curves into his usual half-smirk, the same one he'd been wearing that night he stepped into the rain in the Warehouse District. You'd felt ensnared by him then, and you feel the same now, trapped in that lazy smile.
"Demon," he says softly, teasing. "You're staring."
"Yeah well." You set the spoon down hard. "You're practically naked."
"Technically I'm pretty covered. This is pretty modest for Arkos. You should see the clubs here."
Heat crawls up your neck. You turn away to pour water into the pot, needing something to do with your hands. The scent of bergamot and jasmine rises between you, thick and dizzying.
Seungkwan steps closer. You can feel the heat radiating from him, smell the steam. You glance sidelong at him and his mouth spreads further as he tilts his head, dark eyes watching you. "You're jumpy."
"You're close."
"Do you want me to step back?" You don't say anything, pulse throbbing in your neck. You don't, but you don't want him to know that. By the look on his face, you know he already does. "Ah. You don't."
You turn away from him . "I do."
"Liar."
He takes a step closer and you let him. The tea is forgotten as Seungkwan leans against the counter next to you, his eyes tracing your face. He lifts one hand, slow enough that you could step back if you water to. You don't. His mouth twitches in a smile as you let his fingertips brush your jaw, thumb settling just beneath your lower lip, tracing it like he's memorizing the shape.
"You know," he says, casually like it's just a passing thought. "That night I saw you in the Warehouse District wasn't the first. I've watched races from the shadows for a long time. I admire your driving."
"Oh?"
"More than the driving, to be honest."
You suck in a shaky breath. His gaze drops down to your mouth and fixates there. "Your driving is something else. Like you were born for it. Like you're just in your own world behind the wheel."
"I am."
"I get it." His eyes drift back up to yours. "I wanted you since the first time I saw you race."
"For the job?"
He scoffs and shakes his head. "No, Demon." He pauses, the tension between you electric. "Tell me to stop and I will."
You say nothing and he grins before leaning in to press his lips against yours.
Seungkwan kisses you like someone who has been waiting a long time to do so. It starts soft and teasing, almost careful. But the second your hands find the damp skin of his waist, the pretense cracks. He makes a low sound against your mouth and backs you into the counter, the edge biting into your hips.
His tongue traces the seam of your lips and you open for him without thinking, tasting mint and rainwater and something that's just Seungkwan. One of his hands slides around the back of your neck, fingers tightening just enough to tilt your head exactly where he wants it while the other braces on the counter, caging you in.
The kiss turns hungry, weeks of tension unraveling in the space of a heartbeat. You feel the low groan he swallows back, feel the way his hips press forward involuntarily when your nails drag lightly down his spine.
He pulls away, breathing hard, resting his forehead against yours. "Fuck. Not gonna lie, Demon. Struggling to hold back here."
"So don't."
He groans. "You don't understand-"
"I do." The desire for him you've tried to keep unknown and unspoken doubles, your breath mingling with his. He smells like jasmine and mint and it makes you ache, leaning forward to nudge his nose with yours. "I just… was afraid to do anything about it."
He makes a sound like a groan, his resolve breaking. His hand finds yours, fingers sliding between yours like they did on the drive from Hyperion, and he pulls you toward the living room, eyes dark and flashing. "Come here."
The couch in the living room is low, the black leather cool against your skin when he pulls you down with him. The city's glow filters through the fogged windows, painting everything in bruised blues and silvers.
Seungkwan leans back on the couch, legs spread, towel barely clinging to his hips now. One sharp tug and it falls away completely. His cock is already hard, flushed dark and curving against his stomach, a bead of precum pearling at the tip. He doesn't say anything about it, just watches you with half-lidded eyes while he drags you into his lap.
"Been thinking about your mouth for weeks," he murmurs. His thumb traces your lower lip again, pressing in just enough to part them. "Show me I wasn't wrong to."
His words hit you low in the gut. You sink to your knees, eyes transfixed on his face. Seungkwan looks at you like you're someone - he has since that first night in the Warehouse District, eyes meeting yours and nodding your direction. You realize that you are someone to him - have been since day one. That he sees you. That you're not invisible to him.
You hadn't realized how much you wanted to be seen until now, how much Seungkwan looking at you like this - like you're the only person in the world worth watching - matters.
Seungkwan's gaze doesn't shift when you take his cock in your hand. A shiver ripples through him and his lips part as you pump him slowly, his velvety shaft warm in your palm. You're transfixed by him, watching every expression on his face as you lean forward to lick the underside of his cock.
His head falls back against the couch, a low and broken sound catching in his throat. You take your time with him, swirling your tongue slowly around the head of his cock, tasting salt and heat, letting him feel how much you've wanted this.
When you finally take him into your mouth and sink down, taking him as deep as you can, his hand slides to your head, not pushing, just anchoring, his fingers tightening against your scalp as he lets out a broken sound when your throat tightens around him.
"Fuck, just like that," he breathes. "Look at me."
You do. You're sure the image of the two of you is obscene, your lips stretched around him, saliva shining on your chin while the city lights flicker across his cheekbones, his eyes burning. He lets you set the pace for a little, his hips flexing just enough to remind you he could take over if he felt like it, that smirk on his face as his eyes flutter shut.
"Come here," he rasps, reaching for you with a spare hand. You pull off of him with a wet pop, mouth smeared in spit and precum. "Just move a little here so I can reach you."
You stay on your knees, shuffling to the side as he helps maneuver you so he can reach for your waistband, pulling the sweats at your hips down. You shiver when the cold air hits your thighs, the heat of his palm chasing the cool air away as he brushes the sweats to the floor.
Seungkwan presses his hand between your thighs, two fingers tracing the seam of your cunt through soaked lace before he drags them aside and he groans. "Fuck you're dripping. This all for me?"
You hum around his cock in answer. He grins and traces your entrance with his fingers, sparking pleasure low in your stomach as he spreads your wetness around your folds, circling your clit teasingly. You whine around him and he moans, breathy. He relents on his teasing, pressing a finger into your aching cunt, crooking it to rub slow circles over the spot inside of you that makes your thighs shake.
Your mouth falters and he notices, his other hand cradling your face. "No baby, keep going. Want to feel you come apart on my fingers while you're choking on my cock."
It makes you light headed, that soft voice of his, coaxing you to bob your head again as he presses in another finger. It feels so good, Seungkwan working your pussy gently as you hollow your cheeks as you press your mouth down, your tongue scraping the bottom of his shaft.
Seungkwan groans and you whimper around him every time his fingers press in, his knuckles curling, palm wet as you drip into his hand. You can't help but grind down into his palm, chasing more, thighs trembling.
"Seungkwan," you gasp, breaking away to suck in ragged breaths. The edges of your vision blur and you get distracted, chasing the pleasure coiling in your stomach as you pump his cock lazily. "Fuck."
"I know," he cooes. "I've got you, baby. Come on my fingers and you can have my cock after. Come on."
Nodding, you bring your mouth back to him, tonguing his tip lazily as you try to focus on pleasing him as his fingers work you. You can't help it, though, your orgasm catching you off guard, vision whiting out for a second. He finger fucks you through it, drawing it out until you're shaking and gasping, drool slick on your chin and his thigh.
Before you've recovered, he's pulling you up and into his lap, pulling your t-shirt up and off. The air is cold, pebbling your nipples immediately as he presses open-mouthed kisses to your chest. He grips the base of his cock, slick with your spit, and drags the head through your messy pussy, coating himself in you.
"Look at me," he says softly.
You do. You look down at him, the city lights catching in his wet hair, on the sharp line of his jaw, in the dark of his eyes. He smiles up at you as you sink down on him in one slow, devastating slide.
The noise he makes is raw and it sends your heart pounding. You're so full it borders on too much, every inch of him dragging against oversensitive walls. When your hips finally meet his, you both stay perfectly still for a heartbeat, foreheads pressed together, panting.
"Move for me, baby," he rasps. "Ride me, yeah?"
Your hand brace on his shoulders, nails digging into muscle as you start to move.
It's slow at first, grinding more than bouncing, savoring the stretch as you both twitch and gasp. His breath stutters every time you roll your hips just right, his hands settling on your waist, guiding you as you set the pace.
Biting your lower lip, you grin at him, rising up suddenly only to slam back down. His head falls back again, throat bared, the mountain tattoo flexing as he swallows, breathing hard.
"Fuck yes," he gasps. "Do that again."
You do. Again and again, faster, chasing the edge that's already building again. The leather creaks beneath you, the windows fogged, city lights reduced to smears of cobalt as you whisper his name. His hands scrape up your back, pressing you to him as you fuck yourself onto him, his mouth finding a nipple and sucking greedily.
A broken noise falls out of your lips. It feels so good, his cock dragging over that spot inside you, relentless and perfect. Seungkwan's grip tightens on you, his hips snapping to meet yours as he digs his heels into the couch, driving himself deeper.
"Shit," you gasp, head cocking back.
"Touch yourself for me," he growls. "Want to feel you come around me."
You obey, hand slipping between your sweaty bodies, fingers circling your swollen clit. The extra friction only heightens the spark, sending you right to the edge, dangling.
"Come on, baby," he pants, thrusting up hard enough to jolt you. "Give it to me."
You come a second time with his name on your lips, clenching down hard on him. It feels so good it almost hurts, and he groans your name like it's punched out of him, hips stuttering. He comes hard too, deep and feral, arms locked around your waist to crush you against his chest.
For a long moment, there's nothing but the sound of ragged breathing and the distant hum of Arkos. You sag against him, exhausted and covered in sweat, mind unable to keep up with anything for a while. Seungkwan presses his mouth to your temple, holding you as he catches his breath.
You don't know how long you stay like that. You drift for a while, only aware of his beating heart where you're chest to chest, and the feeling of his soft breath against your brow.
Eventually, he moves. Your legs are still trembling when Seungkwan lifts you off of him, settling you sideways across his lap, your cheek against the damp skin of his shoulder. He slides one of his arms around your back so you don't slide off of him, cradling you to him.
He reaches for the throw blanket folded over the back of the couch and drapes it over both of you. The fabric smells faintly of him already, and he tucks it around your shoulders, even making sure your toes are covered.
You feel his heartbeat under your palm, still fast, slowing gradually. His fingers trace idle circles on your bare thigh, soothing. Seungkwan’s fingers find the nape of your neck, massaging gently, working out knots you didn’t know you were holding. He’s quiet for a long time, just breathing with you.
"I'm really glad you didn't die today," he murmurs, voice ragged. You blink your eyes open, barely lucid. "I almost called it off this morning."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Got into a fight with Jeonghan about it."
"He scares me."
His grin is tired. "Me too, sometimes."
"What made you change your mind?"
He pauses. "You."
"Me?"
"Yeah. You came into the garage this morning ready to do the job. To prove yourself. I decided that I was protecting you for no reason and that I was making a decision for you."
You hum. "I wouldn't have let you change your mind."
"No?"
You shake your head. "I didn't know what the job was or what I was doing but… I wanted to do it. Wanted to prove that I could." A shiver goes through you. "Wanted to prove it to you, but also to me."
"Well, you did. I already knew before, though."
"Knew what?"
"That you were the best, Street Demon."
That makes you grin, something warm blooming in your chest as you snuggle closer to him. "Even better than you?"
He laughs. "Easy, Demon. We'll see."
Outside, Arkos keeps watch. But inside, you let yourself fall asleep against Seungkwan, for once unworried about the world and ruin around you.
SYNDICATE ROLES
Tower - title for a Syndicate boss
Wisdom - title for the second-in-command to a Sydicate boss
Sentinel - title for the main military leader of a Syndicate
Riots - title for a member of the Syndicate responsible for sowing discord
Swords - title for a member of the Syndicate who is a fighter/military role
Chariots - members of the Syndicate who make deals/act as business brokers
Rooks - members of the Syndicate who collect debts/lead the extortion practices
Justices - members of the Syndicate on the legal counsel
Hanged Men - members of the Syndicate who betrayed their Syndicate
Watchers - members of a Syndicate who are spies/informants
Patrons - citizens who pay homage/have an alliance/are under the protection of a Syndicate
Vanguard - official members of the Syndicate who don't have specific roles but do work for the Syndicate
I miss when ads were a single click and then they’re gone. Now every ad has a minimum of three phases where you watch a video, exit the still frame of fake gameplay, and then exit the app download. That doesn’t even touch on the ones that forcibly take you to another app after opening a tab in safari without you ever touching the screen.
I hate advertising. I hate that you can’t do anything without companies jumping down your throat with mostly bullshit ads. I hate that billboards exist. I hate that every company unanimously decided to make their ads longer and longer. I hate that ad blockers try to charge you money and there are in app purchases to remove ads. I hate that my attention has become commodified. I hate that there’s nothing I can do about it.
ANAMNESIS. (cyborg!choi seungcheol x human!reader)
synopsis: five years ago, your company became a big enough threat to the existing tech ecosystem to cause an attack on your life. five years ago, said attack killed your husband. after spending so long picking up the pieces, you are quickly racing to the top again, which means your life is threatened once more. but the assassin sent your way is a little too familiar, even if he’s not exactly the same as the day he got “killed”.
warnings: mentions of death and violence, assassination and murder, corrupt business practices, amnesia, brainwashing and manipulation, mentions of mental health, suicidal ideation, sexually explicit content
smut warnings: 18+, multiple orgasms, choking, praise kink, use of petnames, they almost cry (lol), mentions of body modifications (in case of cyborg!seungcheol).
word count: 17.2k
a/n: this is part of the Cyberpunk: Reload Collab hosted by @studiosvt . Thank you to the organisers and everyone involved in the collab, this has been such a unique and stimulating writing experience for me, especially for a concept I’ve never done before. Seungcheol in this is loosely based off the winter soldier, I hope you all enjoy!
Inside the sleek but small building wedged between two skyscrapers, a single light illuminates a window on the second floor. Around it is nothing but darkness, and the streets are strangely quiet for a Friday night. Inside the office, the golden light falls over a keyboard, the clack, clack, clack of the keys rhythmic and continuous. Fingers move deftly over it, and the artificial glow of the monitor adds to the lamp in an unpleasant way. You don’t seem to mind.
A knock on the door does nothing to break your concentration. Your fingers don’t so much as falter. Joshua pokes his head in through a crack in the doorframe, frowns when he sees you, and finally speaks up.
“Any chance you will be wrapping this up soon?”
You don’t look up, but you hum in acknowledgment. “Just a little bit more. I’m just finishing up on….”
Your voice trails off. You don’t attempt to finish the sentence. Joshua sighs.
“It’s Friday night.” He reminds you, gently, still lingering in the doorway. “How about you and I get some dinner? You can sleep in tomorrow.”
He knows his suggestions will fall on deaf ears, but he tries nonetheless. He is hyperaware of his boss at this point. There’s no convincing you to slow down, to take a breather. You won’t allow yourself to. Slowing down means letting your mind wander. And you haven’t let that happen in five years, lest you are reminded of what you have lost.
“It’s okay for you to head home, Josh.” You break him from his thoughts. “I promise, I’m almost done. Maybe an hour more.”
There’s no point in arguing. Joshua sighs and steps out again. He reminds himself to call you an hour later to make sure you have, in fact, left the office. His satchel is already packed, so he just pulls on his coat and steps out.
You know Joshua worries. He’s the only person on staff who can see your struggle. You pride yourself on being composed and shut off from the people around you. If you’re drowning, no one really sees it. Except Joshua, of course. He has been there since the very beginning, so he knows. The rest of the staff though, you did a complete turnover half a decade ago. They don’t know what actually went down or what you’ve been through.
True to your word, you’re wrapping up forty five minutes later. It’s well past midnight, and you know Joshua won’t take kindly to you still working when he inevitably calls in fifteen minutes. There have been occasions where he has dragged you out of the building himself, when he is particularly frustrated. He keeps speaking about ‘work-life balance’, reprimanding you for not having it. You always bite your tongue instead of telling him that you have no ‘life’ to go back to. The only person you ever loved is gone, so your work is all you have.
The drive back is inconsequential. The roads are empty by this point, despite the weekend. Your apartment building is silent and looming as always. You don’t really like your neighborhood, but you had moved here after everything happened for a fresh start, and at the time, you weren’t in any headspace to pick out a nice place. Joshua often complained about how drab and uninspiring your apartment is. You pay him no mind. He has always been all about flowers and rainbows. His desk at the office is so colorful it makes your eyes hurt sometimes.
You leave the light on in the kitchen landing so you don’t have to stumble through the dark to get to the switchboard. Again, you can hear Joshua complaining in your head about how you can easily afford an AI home system, considering how well the company has been doing. You are least interested though. You don’t want to put anything in this apartment that can mean you are planning to live here long term. You don’t even know why you’re still here. Most days, you have no clue where your life is heading anyway.
You toe off your shoes and plop your heavy trenchcoat over the back of the couch. You wonder what you can make yourself for dinner. Something minimal straight out of the packet, probably. You’ve got dozens of those prepackaged meals in your pantry. You beeline for the sink, washing your hands and wondering bleakly what you are in the mood for stomaching. Through the window over the counter, you can see the city’s skyline. Thousands of tiny, yellow dots from people’s windows, the backdrop formed by the sleek, poised buildings of the business sector looming beyond. Straight edges and smooth lines. But one building, not even two blocks away, shows an irregularity.
You squint for a second, hands held under the sink still. It looks like a person. Tall, but very broad. You half think you’re imagining it, but then the silhouette moves, and your eye catches on a gleam of silver over the shoulder.
The water is still running. You shut it off, looking back up. He’s gone.
You blink a few times. Then you glance at the clock. It’s nearly three in the morning. You huff and step away from the sink, shaking off your hands. It’s too late at night for your brain to be functioning properly. You need sustenance. And then you need to sleep.
It’s easy enough to pop your chicken dinner into a dish and slide it into the oven. You set fifteen minutes on the digital counter, and then busy yourself with hopping into the shower for a quick wash. Fifteen minutes on the dot, you’re back in the kitchen, peering into the oven with dripping wet hair and a bathrobe covering your drenched body. Everything around you is silent, so deafeningly still that you immediately hear the click and whir of metal. Right behind you. Too close.
The hair on the back of your neck stands. You whirl around.
Something smashes, hard, against your nose. Pain explodes and you gasp, stumbling back into the counter. Your eyes water, something warm and liquid drips over your lips and down your chin. You’re dizzy, you can’t see properly. You can barely breathe through the excruciating hurt. But alarm bells are ringing in your head, and fight or flight takes over. Backed against the counter for support, you kick your legs out hard. Your feet make contact with something sturdy. There’s a grunt, and the man stumbles backward, his back hitting the refrigerator with what sounds like a deafening crash. You’re already scrambling to run from the kitchen.
You can barely see, but you know the map of this house like the back of your hand. Your ears are ringing, you’re gasping for breath, but panic is fueling you. You’ve had this feeling before, your life has been threatened once, a long time ago, and somehow, the second time around is giving you more clarity.
It also means that you are better prepared this time around.
You can hear the thuds and bangs behind you. Your attacker will be right on your heels soon. You barely manage to wretch your door closed, locking it, before a startling bang shakes it at its very hinges. Your yelp is involuntary. You know you have only bought yourself mere seconds.
Inside your drawer you find what you’re looking for, a tiny, unassuming device, shiny and silver, resembling a lighter. It comes with two silicone ear buds that you shove into your ears. Then, your hand on the solitary button on the device, you turn around.
The door comes down after just two bangs, splintering the doorframe completely. Sawdust rises, clouding the air. You don’t wait to see your attacker, pressing the button immediately.
You can’t hear it, owing to the buds in your ears, but you know a high pitched screeching has filled the air, nearly unbearable because of how high the frequency is. But it does its job. The man howls in pain, dropping what looks like a gun on the ground and using both hands to cover his ears. His knees buckle and he falls on them. You can see, even from a few feet away, the veins in his neck bulge hard, disappearing behind the black mask on his face. He crumples on the floor, clutching the sides of his head. You snatch your phone from where you had thrown it on your bed, frantically dialling three digits.
The man is still writhing, his body, clad in black and silver, contracting and arching painfully as he tries in vain to keep the sound out. As he moves, metal thuds against the ground. There is more clicking and whirring, like machinery buzzing with life. You realise he’s not entirely human. His shoulders tighten as you step closer, trying to make out who it is.
“911, what is your emergency?”
A single brown eye pops open on the stranger's mask-covered face. The other half, you realise, is covered in silver metal. But you don’t care about that, because your blood is running cold.
You would recognise that eye anywhere.
Your grip falters. The device in your hand gets silenced. The man on the ground relaxes, his hands falling down as he quickly tries to scramble to his feet. He is still swaying, his short cropped blond hair matted to his sweaty forehead, the after effects of the sonic attack making him stumble, but for the first time, you register his stature. His height, the breadth of his shoulders. And his one, visible eye.
“Hello? Is anyone there?”
The woman on your phone seems to break your trance. Before you know it, the man is rushing out over the broken wreckage of your door. Your hand shakes, your eyes are still watering from the blow you took. Both your phone and your device fall from your hand. You scramble after him.
“Wait-”
But he’s gone. Out of your living room window, which you didn’t notice was wide open when you first walked into the apartment. You can’t see him on the street below, which is glaringly empty. It’s like he was a ghost, vanishing before you can blink. You are left staring at nothing, blood dripping steadily down your chin now, staining your bathrobe, your hair still damp from the shower, sticking to your face and neck. You can’t even register the pain anymore, can’t think of anything else except the cold depth of his one brown eye.
……………………………
“That’s impossible.”
“It was him.”
“And I’m telling you, that’s not possible.”
“I know what I saw, Josh.”
“Y/N, he’s dead. We had a funeral. We buried him.”
“Only parts.” But your voice cracks. You don’t like remembering that day. “We had an arm and a leg. Some teeth. And this man…. half of him was metal. He’s been modified.”
Joshua doesn’t reply, staring at the TV playing across the room on low volume. You follow his lead, gaze blank. You don’t really register much of anything since the pain in your face is too overwhelming to take in much else.
When you woke up this morning, you almost forgot what happened in your apartment mere hours ago. One look at the broken mess of your door, the twinge in your face that made your eyes water, and all the events came rushing back. The punch you took, running to your room, your door broken down, driving your attacker away.
Clear, brown, almond shaped eye. Just one eye, while the other half of the face was covered in what looked like a metal plate, and a mechanical, white circle where the other eye should have been.
“The Secretary of Defence has a bionic arm.” You add, absentmindedly.
“Just one arm.” Joshua counters. “Not half the entire body.”
“It wasn’t the entire body. I could make out the arm and leg. Some part of the face-”
“My point is,” Your friend cuts you off, “why would it be Seungcheol? And if by some miracle it was him, why would he attack you?”
You don’t answer, because you don’t know. You’ve been mulling over the same questions for hours, long before you finally called Joshua to come over. You know bionic prostheses are very much an emerging field in biotech circles. Everyone is racing towards this kind of technology because of how much revenue there is in the medical applications. The other, more sinister angle is weaponry, and you know that a lot of your fellow developers and companies want to tap into that potential. There have been rumors for months, covert projects underway by both government and private agencies to develop this exact kind of thing.
Maybe what you saw last night was an application of that weapon.
It still doesn’t explain why he would attack you. Doesn’t explain why the person who would never so much as raise his voice at you could hurt you so severely that Joshua balked at the sight of your purple and blue face, nose swollen and bruised in ugly colors that told you that you would have to work from home for the foreseeable future.
The Seungcheol you knew had been so gentle. That’s how you met him, actually, so many years ago that you don’t even recognise that time.
He’d spilled coffee on you, as cliché as it sounds. Thankfully, it missed any part of your skin that was bare, but even through the cloth it burned a bit. He was so apologetic, dark brown hair falling into his eyes, messed up by the wind in a look that reminded you a little bit of a gentle dog. He had panicked, tried to wipe you down, but you were too distracted by this giant of a man who talked so softly, dabbed your sleeve with a grip on your wrist uncharacteristically gentle for such large hands. He wanted to pay for dry cleaning, and you agreed only if he would let you buy a coffee to replace the one he had spilled on you. Of course, he didn’t let you pay even after agreeing to it.
“I spilled it on you.” He argued. “What kind of man would I be if I let you pay for it?”
His lips, full and pink in a way that you immediately wondered about the feel of them, ticked up, and a little dimple dented his right cheek. You felt the squeeze of your heart, fluttering wildly in your chest, a feeling that was replicated every day after that, for Seungcheol never left your side since then. Until the day he died. Or did he?
Joshua is watching the screen more intently now, eyebrows furrowing.
“Yoon Tech is doing a demonstration at the New York Expo? I had no idea.”
You blink to focus on the screen. Sure enough, Yoon Tech’s CEO, Yoon Jeonghan, is speaking to the audience and cameras with that sly, charming smile on his face, talking about unveiling a project that can revolutionise the field of war weaponry and put their military supremely on top of their competition around the world. You know Yoon Tech is the military’s primary contractor, and their focus is weaponry. You know this because before Yoon Tech, your company was approached for a military contract, one that you turned down because your prime focus was not weapons. Joshua still thinks you should have said yes, but you don’t want to take the company in that direction. Besides, things get messy if you have the government as your big boss.
“You know Jeonghan doesn’t say anything about projects until the day he unveils them.” You mumble, only half focusing. “He’s secretive that way-”
“Wait, shut up.” Joshua sits up abruptly, scrambling for the remote to turn the volume up. Behind Jeonghan, several people are stepping onto the stage. He’s introducing them one by one as military veterans, and your eyes catch their forms immediately, breath stilling. Protheses, lots of them.
A man with a bionic arm, quite like the one the Secretary of Defence has. A woman with a below knee prosthetic leg. There’s more, attached limbs and shoulders, half a pelvic girdle, part of a jaw. Jeonghan is still talking, gesturing to the people now lining up behind him. The silver gleams, just like it gleamed on Seungcheol’s body last night. The only difference is the Yoon Tech and Military logos stamped on the ones on your screen. Jeonghan announces a demonstration, steps off the stage, and you watch, completely silent, as all of them demonstrate feats of extraordinary strength, aided by their metal attachments, some even showing installed weaponry between the plates of their limbs.
“A formation of advanced humans,” Jeonghan is saying somewhere off screen. “Man and machine combined, that will allow these soldiers to serve their country in ways they did not even possess before their unfortunate injuries.”
“Josh…” Your voice trails off.
Joshua looks pale, confused, and a little frightened when his eyes meet your beaten and bruised face. It looks like he dared not believe, but you know he has reached the same conclusion as you.
“Jeonghan sent Seungcheol to kill you?”
…………………………
The only sound in the large, swanky office is the tea as it pours slowly into a cup on Jeonghan’s desk. It steams, and the scent of chamomile hits his nose. He watches it absentmindedly, and then waves his hand to dismiss his secretary. She places the tea kettle down gently and leaves without a word, and the room falls into silence. There is only him, and the man sitting opposite to him across his large, mahogany desk. Half his face is shrouded by darkness, the other half reflects the light as it hits the cold, unforgiving metal.
Jeonghan tuts.
“Well, this is definitely a setback.” He hums, picking up the cup so he can take a small sip. It warms his throat, perfect for the cold weather. But his mind remains distracted. “After the demonstration at the Expo yesterday, she will definitely know it was me who ordered the hit. After all, who else is making bionic weaponry?”
The man across from him doesn’t respond. He rarely talks unless directly spoken to, one eye blank and unseeing. Jeonghan doesn’t claim to know much about how the human brain works, but he supposes extensive memory modification can do that to a person.
“You always used to have something witty or crass to say, Seungcheol.” Jeonghan sighs. “Oh well. It was either that, or your willingness to kill her. I will take what I can get.”
Again, no reply. Jeonghan focuses on drinking his tea, thinking. His eyes are trained on his former business rival, the presumed dead husband of his current business rival. The soothing chamomile does nothing to take the bitter taste out of his mouth. He still feels the resentment, the bruise on his ego. For your company to be pursued as a first choice in a military partnership, when his own efforts are much grander, much more advanced, for you to turn that opportunity down (you’re a dumbass, he thinks), for him to be second choice, despite where he stands in tech circles…
A company that was a mere baby not even a full decade ago to beat something it took his family generations to build. It irks him. It burns him.
So he will burn you.
He did it once, in the explosion that took away what you loved the most. It should’ve been enough to deter you, but it clearly wasn’t. No matter, he plans to destroy you directly this time.
“You know what you need to do.” He says, mutely. The man before him stirs, nods. Jeonghan scowls at him.
“Make sure you finish the job this time.”
……………………………..
Seungcheol had always been a mega-nerd about tech. And his dream was to own his own company.
He would tell you about it, both of you sprawled on the uncomfortable rooftop of his college dorm building, staring at the sky. He’d talk and talk about his plans after graduation, about how he wanted to build something from the ground up, something he was proud of. You would listen, not just because the sound of his voice always made you so happy, but because you were genuinely interested in it. You had a business major, and while Seungcheol didn’t know how to run things, you did. Even then, it felt like a match made in heaven to you. Seungcheol knew the substance of the company, you knew how to run it. It almost felt like a no-brainer that eventually you would do this together.
Back in his dorm, you would plop yourself into his lap and look over the little gadgets he had designed, the many, many files in his computer of inventions you didn’t even know could exist. You would tease him, calling him a glorified mechanic.
“Engineer.” He would pout. You would kiss it off him through a million giggles. His laptop would be pushed off the bed, forgotten, as you sunk into each other’s arms.
The company was his baby, truly. While you were CEO because you ran day to day operations and focused on logistics, any product you pushed out was crafted carefully in Seungcheol’s hands. He would bring every prototype to you, you would run it by focus groups and tweak it, and eventually, it would hit the market with great success. Seungcheol always thought it was because of you.
“You run your magic over it, and it becomes a hit.” He would say, kissing your cheek over and over. You would just grin and take it, never ever pushing him away.
It was all Seungcheol, everyone knew this. But when he looked at you so softly, that glint of awe in his beautiful eyes, you would just indulge whatever he had to say.
“You wouldn’t know what to do without me, mister.” You would tease. He would squeeze you so tightly.
“You’re right. I wouldn’t.”
All those memories are ghosts now. The truth is, you don’t know what to do without him either. He was part of you, intertwined with your soul, and he was painfully ripped away after so many glorious years together. Sometimes, you think you imagined that time in your life. It feels so far away. But then you walk into your office, you look at the logo he designed, the furniture you picked out, the many, many unfinished files in your server that you are still working on, his creations, and you would be reminded that he was real. All that time, all that delirious bliss, was completely real.
Jeon Wonwoo is the current head of your Product Development branch, Seungcheol’s previous post. You had brought him in after the tragedy that killed your husband. Well, not you, but Joshua, who suggested overhauling the entire team after the attack. He is brilliant, quiet and a little reclusive, but whip-smart. He became intimately familiar with Seungcheol’s work when you brought him in, and he respected the integrity of it, which made you respect him even more. He’s no Seungcheol, but he’s the closest thing, and you think he might be the only one you can trust to answer the questions in your head.
“Bionic weaponry isn’t exactly novel.” He murmurs. “We know it exists. Not openly yet, but it’s being manufactured in a lot of places. Companies we know as well as around the world. Yoon Tech is just the first one to unveil it publicly.”
Joshua is pacing your living room floor, and watching him makes you feel dizzy, so you close your eyes instead. Your face is still tingling with pain, and you’re so tired that you just want to sleep. But you also need some form of explanation.
“So it’s possible? Modifying Seungcheol’s body like that?” Joshua asks.
Wonwoo hesitates, holding his chin and staring at the far wall. “Theoretically, yes. Practically, I haven’t seen or heard of it yet. Not to the extent you describe. Establishing neural connections in that many body parts and making sure they work in perfect coordination is a huge undertaking.”
Joshua looks at you pointedly, as if to say ‘I told you so’.
“But,” Wonwoo clears his throat, “if anyone can accomplish it, it would be Yoon Tech. Their R&D team is the best in the game.”
You return Joshua’s look the best that you can through your marred face. He huffs.
“What about the fact that he attacked her? Why would he do that?” He asks.
Wonwoo blinks. “Oh, that’s easy. Memory modification. Brainwashing. CIA has been doing it for years. A lot of assassins operate under that frame of mind. It’s easier to control them that way.”
A small silence stretches over the room. Joshua is chewing on the inside of his cheek.
“So he doesn’t know who I am.” You mumble. “I’m just….. what, a target?”
Wonwoo nods. “Likely, yes. And you know Jeonghan way better than me, ma’am. It’s very like him to toy with you by using Seungcheol specifically.”
You can’t argue with him on that. You know how ruthless Jeonghan is about his company, about his standing in tech circles. You’re catching up, dangerously close, and some would say you’ve even surpassed him. You won't put it past him to knock out competition under the table.
You never did find out who ordered the hit on Seungcheol five years ago. But now, you think you know.
“Can we undo it?” You ask. “The memory change, or whatever?”
Joshua stares at you. “What do you mean?”
Wonwoo answers you, though.
“I think so, yes. It’s not my area of expertise, but I know people who can tell us more about it. The memory isn’t the problem, though. He’s basically a walking weapon. Subduing him long enough to do anything about his brain is going to be an issue.”
“Whoa, hold on.” Joshua steps closer to you, cutting off your reply to Wonwoo, holding a hand up. Both of you look at him as he stares at you in bewilderment.
“What the hell are you planning? Are you insane? He almost killed you!”
“What do you want me to do then?” You grit your teeth. “Nothing? Should I just lay down and let him kill me?”
“We need to call the police-”
You laugh dryly. Your face twinges with pain.
“I have no proof. You think any agency in this city is going to mess with Yoon Tech? And by some miracle if they do believe me, do you think any of them are going to spare Seungcheol long enough to save him?”
Joshua’s mouth opens and closes, like he wants to protest, but no words leave him. He huffs and shakes his head, running a frustrated hand through his hair. You turn your attention back to Wonwoo.
“I know you’re not a biotech expert, but you’re the best IT guy I know. Any ideas on how to hack into Yoon Tech’s mainframe?”
Wonwoo looks a little taken aback. “That’s….. illegal.”
You roll your eyes, ignoring the pain that comes with it. “I’m pretty sure trying to get your business competitor killed is illegal too. Jeonghan seems comfortable attempting it twice.”
He nods slowly, still slightly hesitant. “I will need help…”
You stand up, essentially declaring the meeting over. You’re tired, as you often are these days. Your injury might look like it affects your face only, but you feel the exhaustion bone deep in every part of you. You want a soothing cup of tea and then a million blankets to lie down in. That's it.
“Call in anyone you need.”
…………………………
You know he will come again. The only question is when.
The bruises around your nose and under your eyes take a long time to fade. The slow move from a deep purple, to blue, to a sickly green and then yellow surprises you every day. You’re breathing easy now, only a week later, but you know going to the office looking like this will raise serious questions. You can’t risk any eyes on this right now, since getting Seungcheol back needs to be as discrete as possible.
That’s what you plan to do. Get him back.
It’s idealistic, almost. Maybe something out of a movie. He has been altered, mind and body, for years. You don’t even want to imagine how much he was been put through. How convoluted must his mind be now? How dangerous would tinkering with his body be?
Every few minutes, your hand reaches into the pocket of your jeans, toying with the small, rectangular chip that Wonwoo had given you a couple of days ago.
“You need to get close enough to him to get this on any bionic part of him.” He told you. “Arm, leg, doesn’t matter. We can’t hack into Yoon Tech’s mainframe, it’s too secure. But we can isolate him from it. This chip can do that. Once that’s done, we can figure out a way to rewire his mechanics.”
It’s easier said than done, of course. For one, Seungcheol is nearly twice your size. He’s always been massive, but he seems even more so now. You wonder if he has worked covertly for Yoon Tech to do other dirty work. How long has he been their weapon? How much training does he have? Can you, a novice civilian, even get close enough to him to do any lasting damage?
“You managed it once, didn’t you?” Joshua replied to your mind’s worries. “You got out of that alive, somehow. I’m willing to bet you can do it again.”
“He’ll be more careful this time.” Wonwoo mumbled. “For one, he won’t try again until you’re completely alone. For another, he will make sure you are isolated from any weapon you might be able to access.”
So now here you are, meandering in your kitchen, watching your television blankly, staring unseeing at your laptop. Anything and everything to make yourself look as unassuming as possible. He’s watching, you know he is, and every fiber of your body is silently asking him to come to you. You wait, and wait, because you would wait endlessly for him. Somehow, you’re not afraid. In your head, this ends in one of two ways. Either you get the love of your life back, or you die trying. You’re good with both options.
It’s Tuesday by the time he finally shows up.
You think you sense him, because the hair on your body stands. You feel the chill, and then, that very soft whirring sound that comes when he moves his limbs.
You stare at the contents inside your refrigerator. You don’t turn around. And yet, he doesn’t shoot. He doesn’t swing.
“I was expecting you sooner.” You finally say.
When you turn to look at him, your eyes catch his visible brown one. Your breath hitches. He has ditched the mask, and you can see his face. Well, what’s left of it.
Metal pieces are carved into the shape of his right ear, curling forward to form a cheekbone, encroaching all the way over his eye and stopping right before his nose. It covers the ridge of his right eyebrow as well, but spares his forehead. A white, flat circle is fitted where his eye should be, and now that you look closely at it, it swirls and moves, no doubt mapping your every move.
The rest of his face is gloriously, warmly human. It’s him, it’s his left eye, his thick, furrowed eyebrow, the strong bridge of his nose, his lips, set in a hard line on his face. His hair has been cropped right to his skull, dyed a dirty blond with brown roots already growing out, slightly spiked and dishevelled around his head. Finally, your eyes dart down to the pistol in his hand, pointing directly at your chest.
You clench your teeth.
“Shoot me.”
He doesn’t reply, but his mouth tightens. From your chest, the gun rises to your head. The shifting of his aim is your window. Your hand shoots back, grabs and throws the first thing you can find at him. It’s a glass. His metal arm comes up, makes contact, and the glass shatters. His stance does not falter for even a second, but he flinches at the shards of glass, and before it even makes contact, you are sprinting forward, hand curled tight around the chip, and with one leap, you collide into him. Hard.
Your momentum is enough, and you both fall in a mess of limbs. You scramble, finding the edge of the plate in his shoulder, but before you can wedge the chip in it, his human hand reaches up and smashes hard against your jaw. You cry out, the sharp sting blooming, the taste of blood already in your mouth. But your hands are still moving, and before you know it, the chip hits hard against his bicep, immediately lighting up a pale yellow, the tiny spikes on its edges sinking into the metal.
Seungcheol shouts and roughly pushes you off. You fall limply on your side, trying to see through how dizzy you are. Everything hurts, your face is on fire, but your eyes are focused on the pale yellow streaks spreading over Seungcheol’s arm, glowing between the plates making up his leg, part of his face. His arm and leg jerk hard, seemingly out of his control. He shouts again, trying to stand up, but it looks like his limbs aren’t cooperating with him anymore.
The human part is still his though.
You force yourself, despite the excruciating pain and the blood now sliding down your throat, and you rush into the living room. Under your couch, you’ve stored what you need. Electromagnetic cuffs, both for his wrists and ankles, shiny grey steel with a light that blinks on when you press the buttons on them. You can hear Seungcheol stumble onto his feet in the kitchen, and you’re already rushing back before he can stand properly. The cuffs hum, slam hard around his human wrist and the light on them turns red. The arm goes limp on his side immediately. He can’t react, not with his only remaining limb, and you are able to secure the other cuff around his ankle as well.
With that, your husband crumples to your kitchen floor.
He’s motionless from the neck down, but he strains hard. You can see the muscles in his neck bulge. He is flushed with the exertion of it, grunting and snarling. His glare is venomous as you back into the kitchen island, trying not to choke on the blood dripping down your throat as you breathe hard.
You drape yourself over the sink, trying not to throw up, spitting blood into it so you can breathe. Behind you, Seungcheol is still groaning and straining, to no avail. You stay leaning over until the wave of nausea passes, and the bleeding slows. Finally, you grab a bunch of paper towels, wiping your mouth and chin. The metallic taste still lingers.
Your hands leave some streaks of blood on your phone as you dial Wonwoo’s number. He picks up on the first ring, and when he speaks, you realise he was anticipating your call.
“The chip just connected to my server! I’m working on decrypting and isolating him from Yoon Tech’s servers right now.”
“How long is it going to take?” You ask, not recognising your own, broken voice. Your jaw is sore. You’re in so much pain.
“I don’t know yet….” Wonwoo’s voice is more subdued. “Are you okay? Do you need help?”
You shake your head before you realise he can’t see you.
“I’m fine. It’s just a scratch.” Big underreport. “What do I do while you work on this?”
Wonwoo doesn’t immediately answer, but you can hear shuffling in the background.
“What I’m doing only changes the physical.” His voice sounds apologetic. “The mental barrier, his lack of memory, I can’t fix that.”
You know what he is implying. You turn your head to look at Seungcheol, still on your kitchen floor, heaving but no longer futilely straining.
“Thanks, Wonwoo. I can handle that part.”
The truth is, you don’t know if you can. You don’t know what was done to him. You don’t even know if your husband still exists somewhere inside him, or if he was wiped out completely. Are you even cut out for this? With your modest business degree and a company that is successful only because of Seungcheol’s genius, where do you stand in this situation?
As you walk back into the kitchen, watching the man writhing on the floor does nothing to soothe your confidence. Suddenly, all your clarity is gone.
You don’t know what to do.
……………………………..
Seungcheol was a very clingy man.
You always liked that about him. To you, he was like an overgrown bear, curling around you tightly while you chopped vegetables until you complained that you still needed your mobility in order to cook dinner.
“You’re too heavy, Cheolie!” You would whine, but his grip on you would only tighten, pressing your back harder into his front.
“Five more minutes.” He would mumble into your hair. You would laugh incredulously.
You’re reminded of that moment as you drag this immobilised, half human, half robot man into your living room, using every bit of your strength to plop him onto the armchair next to the couch. You’re heaving, your head pounding so severely that it makes you dizzy. There’s no fight in him anymore, and he stares blankly at you as you cough a little, still feeling drops of blood hit your palm as you do so. You huff and go to the bathroom to clean up, rummaging in your medicine cabinet for anything that could ease your pain. You leave him on the chair, knowing he’s incapable of escaping anyway.
Fifteen minutes later, you’re sitting on the couch with a cup of tea, your legs curled under you, a blanket draped over your lap. You stare with bleary vision at the dark, steaming liquid. Seungcheol stares at the ceiling, head thrown back. Neither of you says a word.
“Do you speak?” You muse out loud, not looking at him. “I haven’t heard you talk yet, so it makes me wonder.”
No reply.
“Jasmine tea was your favorite, you know?” You mumble on, not even fully aware of what you are saying. “You were always a coffee person, but when you had tea with me sometimes, it would be jasmine. It’s the only one you could stomach, actually.”
A mirthless laugh leaves you. He still stares at the ceiling. You watch him, the stiff cut of his jaw, the streaks of yellow glowing under the plates of his bionic attachments. There is a distinct, soft hum coming from them, but both of you elect to ignore it.
“Seungcheol.” You whisper. He doesn’t react beyond a small flick of his eyelid.
You’re so tired. You can feel it tug on your limbs, like invisible weights making it difficult to even move. With every ounce of strength in you, you stand up, walking to the closet in your hallway. You return with a pale blue blanket, the one Seungcheol got for himself years ago and never let go, claiming it was a comfort for him. Now, his eye trains on you as you shake it out and drape it over his torso and legs. You don’t look at him, just loosely tucking him in before walking back to the couch, pulling your own blanket around yourself and sinking into the uncomfortable cushion.
You don’t notice his eye on you. You don’t notice anything else as you welcome the pitch black of dreamless sleep. You send out a little prayer that by morning, somehow all of this will be over and you will wake up in bed, wrapped up in your husband’s warm arms.
You’re wrong, sadly. There is nothing but cold.
He’s exactly where you left him before drifting off. He stares into the distance, looking disconnected until you shift and his eye catches the movement. You wince at the crick in your neck, somehow even more tired than you were before sleeping. You sigh and rub your eyes.
“Did you sleep?” You ask.
No response.
You leave him on the couch, opting to putter to the kitchen to make yourself a cup of tea. You eye the cabinet against the far wall, staring at the bottles inside and the amber liquid that gleams in them. A glance at the clock tells you it’s barely noon.
Fuck this.
Seungcheol doesn’t react in any way when you walk into the living room with a bottle of whiskey and a glass that’s too big for a drink like that. He just watches you from the corner of his eye as you sit back on the couch and pour yourself a concerning amount, wincing when your throat protests against the first sip.
“You would not approve of this at all.” You chuckle humorlessly. “You’d be appalled, I think. Drinking this early? Whiskey of all things? That was never my drink. I didn’t have the tolerance for it. You’re the whiskey guy.”
He doesn’t interrupt. You take another sip and stare at the glass. Already, on an empty stomach, you can feel your senses dimming.
“Sometimes I think,” you whisper, “you would really hate the person I’ve become.”
His head lolls in your direction, the only part of his body he can control. His eye meets yours and you feel your heart squeeze.
“I don’t know you.”
His voice is hoarse, a little crack in it from disuse. But it’s his voice, the voice you’ve yearned to hear for so long. You remember laying in your bed at night, wishing you could hear him whisper one last time, maybe even just the sound of your name from his lips, just once more, to hold you over. Your breath hitches, and you can feel your vision blur under newly formed tears.
“I’m your wife.”
“You’re my target.”
You stand abruptly, walking closer to where he sits, or rather, lays sprawled out under the blanket you draped over him. You tug it aside, eye the yellow lines of light that pass over his bionic limbs. You reach down to run a finger over the chip you attached to his bicep.
“If I pull this off you right now,” you stare directly into his eye. “Would you kill me?”
A small silence. Then he nods.
You let out a shaky breath, standing back up. The air is tense, and by now, you’re sick of it. You need to get away from him for a bit, no matter how badly that very thought pains you. Whiskey ignored on the coffee table, you walk to the door to tug your shoes on. You eye the back of his blond head with your hand on the doorknob, feeling a certain sense of defeat.
“Ironic, isn’t it?” You mumble, but he hears you. “You’re the one who created that chip.”
The door closes softly behind you.
……………………………………
There is a mess in his head. A tangled web of wires. He doesn’t know how to begin unraveling it. He can’t even find a single free end to tug on.
In the quiet of the room he is sitting in, he can hear warped voices from inside his own thoughts. He can’t make out any words, only tones, soft and loud both, some conversational, some that sound like laughter. He knows the voice, can recognise it. It’s the woman whose armchair he is sitting on.
Something presses on his temple, like a weighted force, insistent, as if urging him to listen more closely. But he can’t, because it makes pain bloom between his eyebrows, pain so severe it makes his eye water.
Every now and then, he feels intense heat, a kind that’s less uncomfortable and more painful. As suddenly as it comes, it goes away, and the blanket draped over him does nothing but elevate the sensation of it. He sits in the quiet, with the floating voices, the laughter, the weight on his head, the pain between his eyebrows, and the bursts of painful heat that bloom on his skin.
His ears perk when he hears the front door clink open after what seems like hours. He can’t turn himself around to look, so he just listens to the stumbling and mumbled cursing, shuffling and then a soft thud of cloth hitting the ground. Bare footsteps, a quiet sound, and then the woman from before enters his line of sight.
You’re clearly inebriated. He has stalked enough victims before ending their lives to know what alcohol intoxication looks like. He eyes you carefully as you putter around the living room, not doing anything in particular. Then, you look straight at him.
“I don’t know what to do.” You finally speak, and the words are less slurred than he expected them to be. “I don’t know what to do with you.”
He doesn’t reply. You move closer to him, and his face, the only thing he can move, tenses when you pull the blanket back and sink onto the chair by his side. He can feel the press of you against his skin, even if he can’t move. Your shoulder fits under his arm, you head on his collarbone. You drape the blanket over your joined bodies.
“Let’s just pretend everything is okay.” You whisper, your voice cracking slightly. Your arm drapes over his torso. “Just for right now. Just one night.”
He stares at the wall, his side warming quickly under the added weight. It’s different from the heat he felt before, stinging and sudden, disconcerting. It’s different from anything he has felt in a long time. No one touches him. No one has been near him for years, except the people he has taken the lives of, or the scientists that fitted his limbs. This heat right now, it is dull but constant, like how the sun feels on your skin. He hears laughter again, but this time it’s clearer, and it sounds familiar, like something he has heard before. In another life.
He stares at the far wall as your breathing evens out. Your weight doesn’t feel very uncomfortable anymore as time passes. The clock ticks softly, and the rise and fall of your chest is rhythmic. He can feel your heartbeat against his ribcage. There is a whisper in his head. A name. His own. In a voice that is quickly becoming familiar.
He’s tired, but he doesn’t sleep. He can’t remember the last time he slept.
…………………………..
Going into work becomes out of the question immediately, since you can’t leave a brainwashed assassin on your couch unattended for a whole day. Joshua pays you a visit with some stuff that needs taking a look, but otherwise, you sit on the couch, your laptop in front of you, and get through meetings and daily logistics that way. As you work, you think out loud, talking to Seungcheol about random tasks that come up, some hiccup at work you’re fretting over, and how your head of accounting keeps pissing you off. It’s mundane stuff, but it is exactly the things that you used to talk about on the daily. You loved debriefing with your husband, especially because he worked in the same place as you, so he knew all these people just as well, and knew what you were talking about.
Now, he doesn’t respond much. But you’re okay with that. You’re just glad he is here, and not dead like you had assumed for the last five years.
After your moment of inebriated weakness, spending the night curled up in his warmth, you suddenly feel some semblance of hope again. You had heard his heart beat, had felt the twitch and shift of his skin under your touch. He is still your Seungcheol, even if half of him is cold and unfamiliar, you are certain that he is somewhere in there, deep inside. And you’re convinced that if he didn’t remember at all, he wouldn’t have let you sleep on him the way that he did.
(Granted, he had no choice since he was paralysed. But you choose to ignore that reality.)
Joshua has been very wary of this quiet, motionless version of Seungcheol. He steers clear when he visits, not engaging in any way and just choosing to finish up on work with you and leaving. One night, you ask him to stay for dinner, and for the first time, he hesitates. You see his eyes flick to where Seungcheol is sitting, and you sigh in irritation.
“He’s not a piece of furniture, Josh.” You mutter. “He’s still my husband.”
“Is he?” He counters, dryly. “Because it’s been weeks and there’s been nothing. I assumed if he was really in there, we would’ve seen something by-”
“He’s there.” You hiss, cutting him off. Joshua blinks at your harsh tone. “I’ve been here with him every second of every day. I see it in his eyes. He isn’t gone yet-”
The crack in your voice cuts you off. You take a deep breath, blinking vigorously to keep your tears at bay. Joshua has fallen silent, eyeing you with a forlorn expression. After a few seconds, when he realises you won’t continue, he simply nods.
That night, after Joshua has gone, you still have his uncertainty on your mind. You eye the back of Seungcheol’s head, and remember the last few weeks. A seed has been planted in your head, plaguing your brain with doubt and pain. And once again, you feel that bone deep exhaustion that comes and goes frequently these days.
You make up your mind quickly, and your body follows in resignation.
Slowly, you walk back to the living room where Seungcheol sits. You walk closer to him, reaching for his flesh arm, the thick, metal cuff on his wrist. It sizzles a bit, recognises your thumbprint, and clicks, loosening. You don’t look at Seungcheol, despite the fact that he is eyeing you in surprise. You simply kneel down to quickly do the same to the cuff around his ankle before standing up again.
He moves with a little hesitation, stretching his leg and flexing his arm, his fingers. The limbs are stiff, and you’re sure weeks of no activity have left them sore. His bionic arm, and his pants clad leg, both still glow with pale, yellow light, the symbol of your and Wonwoo’s control of them. You reach forward, and yank the chip on his arm hard, disconnecting it. The yellow vanishes, leaving only gleaming, silver metal.
The chip is warm inside your palm. You step back, blinking away tears of what feels like a chapter closing.
“You can leave if you want.” You mumble. “Or kill me, since that’s your mission.”
Slowly, Seungcheol stands. His metal attachments click and whir, buzzing with life again as he twists and moves them, feeling them out. You take a deep breath and realise you can’t stand to look at him anymore. So you head to the kitchen.
You shuffle around mindlessly, just waiting to hear the front door open and close, or maybe you wait for searing pain from wherever he chooses to attack you. You can’t predict what he will do anymore. There was once a time you knew him so well, you could even count his breaths in your head, could mimic the rise and fall of his chest under your palm. Now, you feel like you are lost at sea and he’s nowhere to be found.
There’s shuffling behind you, but you don’t turn around.
“I don’t know you.” He says, and the words hurt just as much as they did when he first spoke them weeks ago. You grit your teeth hard.
“But,” he continues. Hesitates, “I did know you. In another time.”
You feel yourself stiffen, turning just enough to look at him. He fills the doorway, but his figure is hunched, uncertain. You wonder if he is just as tired as you. If he can feel it tug on his limbs like you do, like it’s anchoring him to the floor. How has he felt, watching you for weeks and weeks, nowhere to go but to sit and listen to any word that falls out of your mouth?
“I want to know.” He continues. “I want to remember.”
You stare at him for a long time before you finally move to where he stands. He doesn’t step back, doesn’t react at all, even when you stop just inches from his face. His human eye, brown like the earth, flicks with something you can’t place, and the metal that covers the other half, plain grey, cold and distant. Just where the metal meets his face, the skin is raw and red. Up close, you can see how angry it looks, and you wonder how careless the person was who put him together.
Your heart aches.
“Okay.” You say simply. No promises, no guarantees. Only a commitment, and a hope to see it succeed.
…………………………
It’s a little strange to settle into a routine with this new version of Seungcheol.
For one, he doesn’t do most things humans would. He eats very little, maybe one meal a day, and sleeps even less. He spends a lot of time to himself, mostly silent rumination, something that wasn’t part of his personality at all before. He’s always been loud and jovial, so this change takes some adjusting. You suspect there is a lot about him, maybe all of it, that isn’t the same anymore. The thought hurts you, so you try not to dwell.
You open your spare bedroom for him, since lounging in your living room day and night can’t really be comfortable. You still have his old clothes, whatever you managed to salvage after the explosion in your shared home. He is deeply intrigued by them, and asks, in a low voice, what other belongings of his you held on to.
The answer is: everything.
You make a trip to the storage unit you bought before you moved to your new, drab apartment. You lug back boxes of Seungcheol’s incomplete inventions, designs he was working on at the time, little contraptions that were half functioning, his diaries, his notes. You even bring back his absurdly large collection of watches, every brand and every new, cool tech that existed in the market.
“They were your one vice.” You smile at the memory as he opens the gigantic box. “You actually designed a few yourself too. This one-”
You point to a shiny, square shaped one in the corner. Seungcheol eyes it closely.
“This one was connected to me. You installed something in it that links to the one I wear, and it clicks at the same rhythm as my heartbeat. So it’s not really for telling time.” You shrug.
“I made this?” He asks, lifting the watch from its snug case. It’s not functional anymore, probably out of battery after so many years. It’s strange, because it has no hands and no numbers. There is an engraving of your initials just under the glass, over a black background.
You nod. “You said it made you feel like I was by your side all the time.”
Your voice is low. It almost cracks. He doesn’t say anything more.
You stick to working from home for a prolonged amount of time now, which isn’t difficult, since you’re mostly confined to your office when you go into work anyway. A week or so after Seungcheol asked you if he could stay, you’re due for a site visit. And you offer for him to come with you.
He hesitates.
“No one is going to recognise you.” You reassure him. “For one, it’s an all new staff. And for another, you’re blond now. And short haired.”
He subconsciously runs a hand over his head, his lips pulling together in what can only be a ghost of one of his infamous pouts.
“It doesn’t look bad.” He mumbles.
“I never said it does.” You reply, holding back a smile as you put a plate of eggs and toast in front of him. You tilt your head as you appraise his hair. He’s trying to flatten it down on his head.
“No, don’t do that.” You swat away his hand, running your fingers through the short but soft locks and lifting them up a bit. You mess around with it, distressing it a bit more. You know he’s watching you. It makes your cheeks heat a bit. You try to ignore the feeling.
“There.” You withdraw your hands. “It looks so nice now.”
When your eyes meet his, you realise his ears are tinged pink, and so is the back of his neck. You try to ignore the racing of your heart.
Wonwoo meets you on site, and he’s a little taken aback by Seungcheol being there. His face is covered with a mask, but the metal eye gives it away. After some stumbling, Wonwoo elects to ignore Seungcheol’s presence in favor of just getting work done, and you become immersed in it as well.
“This is where the problem is.” Wonwoo points, handing you the tablet. “There is definitely something wrong, but I can’t tell if it’s because I messed up the configuration or not. I’ve been trying a few different options but they all haven’t worked so far.”
Just over your shoulder, you feel Seungcheol lean in to look at the screen in your hand. You try not to think about him being so close.
“Maybe request a consultation.” You respond. “There is a reason we have engineers on call-”
“The configuration isn’t the problem.” A voice speaks from behind you. “Your base algorithm is wrong.”
You blink and turn your head, eyeing Seungcheol’s human eye, which is right beside you. Wonwoo frowns and steps closer, looking down at the tablet.
“How so?”
You tune it out, only registering his voice and not his words, watching as he points and explains where to make the change. You’re reminded of a time where Seungcheol would do this every day, and you would step back to let him do his thing. You can feel him now, right at your shoulder, his warmth so close you can almost perceive it. As you eye the side of his face, you fight the urge to kiss him. Or hug him. Anything. Your fingers twitch with it. Your heart yearns for it.
It’s over too quickly. And then he steps back.
Wonwoo is already taking the tablet from you, making adjustments as he thanks Seungcheol. You send him a little smile as he walks away, turning to look at the man on your side.
“That was very nice of you.” You say. He just nods a little sheepishly.
“It was an obvious solution.”
You shake your head, patting his arm as you move to walk past him. The metal is rigid and unforgiving under your fingers.
“Don’t be so modest. You were born for this.”
Seungcheol seems to be in a particularly good mood after that.
……………………….
Things get smoother as time goes by.
Something about going into work with you that one time clicks with Seungcheol. With all the material from your storage room, he starts tinkering with his old things again. There’s so many notes and designs, complete and incomplete blueprints keeping him occupied. He does it mostly in the living room, which you don’t mind. You’re glad he isn’t confined to his room. You like seeing him putter around the house or sit crosslegged on the floor, his metal arm whirring and clicking with every turn and movement. Sometimes, he sits out on the balcony when the weather is nice, and you join him with some tea or coffee. You don’t understand most of what he does, you never have, but you listen to him anyway. You bask in the way it lightens his voice, injects life into it. Sometimes, when he has come up with a new idea, he almost sounds exactly like he did before.
Your hope is increasing, tightening around your chest in a way that warms you up but traps you as well. Fear lingers, that this will all go away, that you’re balancing on a poorly strung tightrope and soon enough, you will fall.
And then that moment comes, the inevitable snap.
It’s a bright day, and you’re out for some groceries because you didn’t anticipate living with another person again, and your pantry is getting dangerously empty. You’re actually considering fresh produce instead of all the prepackaged crap you’ve been eating for so long. Seungcheol barely eats one meal a day, so it seems unfair if that one meal comes out of a box.
You’re considering which veggies to buy, lightly squeezing a tomato in your hand, when you feel something at your shoulder. It almost makes you jump, because it feels ominous, and your intuition is correct when you turn your head and come face to face with Yoon Jeonghan.
He’s in a black trenchcoat that nearly swallows his frame, a black cap on his head with dark strands poking out from under it. He looks particularly unassuming, just a casual shopper alongside you. His eyes are not on you, his lips pursed in what looks like consideration as he picks up another tomato, turns it around in his hand.
“This one is firmer.” He finally says, and his voice sounds jovial, casual, like it always does. “It will rot slower. You should get this.”
“What the hell are you doing here?” You grit out, your voice low to make sure no one hears you. One look around the aisle tells you that it’s empty. It’s just him and you. Your nerves are on high alert.
Jeonghan tuts, finally looking at you from the corner of his eye. “Is that any way to talk to a peer? You’ve become so rude, Y/N.”
“Oh, I’m sorry.” Sarcasm drips from your voice. “I didn’t realise I still had to extend common courtesy to you after you’ve tried to kill me. Twice.”
Jeonghan winces, then chuckles. “Yeah, that was my bad.”
You blink, waiting for him to continue. He doesn’t. He drops the tomato in his hand, picking up and inspecting another.
“That’s it?” You scoff. “‘My bad’? You try to get me killed by turning my husband into a half human killing machine and your response is ‘my bad’?”
“Well, you got him back, no?” He responds. “I would say that’s a huge improvement on whatever sad, bachelorette life you’ve been living all this time.”
You scoff, incredulous. “You’re so…. you’re-”
No words come. You just shake your head. Jeonghan looks at you again, this time, a sly smile crosses his face.
“How about a truce? I don’t try to kill you again, and I don’t demand my asset back from you. Consider it an apology for the attempts on your life.”
You glare at him, feeling anger bubble in you again. “Asset?”
He blinks, like he’s surprised. “Well, yes. Do you know how much Yoon Tech invested in developing him? It wasn’t easy. But it’s fine. I’ve made a lot of progress on bionic weaponry since then. So you can keep him.”
Your rage is boiling over at the way he is speaking of Seungcheol, but you know there’s a reason Jeonghan decided to ‘run into’ you at a public place. You can’t react the way you want to, which is the intense need to strangle him where he stands.
You know there’s nothing you can do about anything Jeonghan has attempted. His company is a mammoth, that and his military contract make him basically untouchable. The only proof you have of his doing is Seungcheol’s own person, and you don’t want to drag him into the legal mess that would ensue. Here Jeonghan stands, offering you a truce because he thinks he has won already, which is new bionic weapons branch going over so well and elevating him to a status no one else would dare to achieve. To him, you are not a threat anymore, and so he is discarding you just like he does with everyone else.
Considering all your options, you think being discarded by him might be the best case scenario here.
“Fine.” You finally relent, watching him smile and step back, almost in finality.
“Great. See you around, Y/N. You should attend next year’s New York expo. I’ve got great things lined up, you know? Maybe it will inspire something in you too.”
He winks and walks a few steps backward, that characteristic smirk on his face still, before turning around and sauntering away, the basket in his head still empty. You watch his back as he leaves, feeling some sense of resolution, no matter how bittersweet it may be.
People like Jeonghan never get justice, because they are too valuable to lose. He has made himself indispensable, which means he will continue to achieve new heights despite whatever operations he conducts in the dark. That’s the reality you live in.
The only saving grace here is that it’s not Seungcheol who will have to do his dirty work going forward.
………………………………….
You’re not really here, Seungcheol can tell.
There’s a distant look in your eyes, like you’re lost deep in thought, as you stir the pot sizzling on the stove. You’ve been like this since you got back with groceries, not greeting him with that usual sweet tone you always use. It’s a little detached, even though he can see that you're clearly attempting to appear normal. He offers to help make dinner, and you take him up on it, so he is quick to begin chopping vegetables as you prepare the rice. You work quietly, which is unlike you. Usually, you don’t stop talking, something he’s grown quite fond of.
The truth is, Seungcheol remembers you, in bits and pieces.
Voices and pictures pass through his brain, like flash cards being held up in front of him. There’s no rhyme and reason to them, no chronological order, like a CD stopping and starting at random intervals. You’re there in so many of them, right by his side, watching him, talking to him, touching him in places he wouldn’t dare let anyone touch. His fingers twitch when he feels it, like a ghost caressing his skin. Sometimes, he thinks he can feel you in his bones, coursing through his veins, and he wonders if he is connected to you in some way.
It scares him.
There’s nothing tangible there, no memory he can reach for and grab. As soon as he tries, it scatters like whisps. He knows he has lived a life, but he has no idea how that life went beyond rusty recollections that come and go. It sets him on edge, and so he never brings them up. He can’t, not when he knows for certain that you will cling onto them with unyielding hope. And he can’t have that burden on him when he already feels like he’s a shell of what he once was.
The only thing solid is you. But today, you’re far away as well.
“Something is bothering you.” He finally says when you’re eating at the kitchen island an hour later. There are dirty pots and pans in the sink. You will clean up after dinner. Right now, you move your food around absentmindedly, and Seungcheol doesn’t like this distance.
You blink and look at him, giving him a small smile that barely reaches your eyes. “Sorry, I’m just thinking about some stuff. Don’t worry about it.”
But he worries. He always worries, because you are all he has. So he pushes.
“Maybe I can help.”
You look a little surprised, and very touched, so your smile this time is more genuine.
“Thank you, Seungcheol, but really, I’m fine. The situation has resolved itself, I’m just going over it. There’s nothing to do.”
Seungcheol hesitates, but his intuition urges him to speak. “Is it Yoon Jeonghan?”
Your shocked expression tells him that he hit the nail on the head.
“How did you know?”
Seungcheol shrugs. He didn’t know, not for certain, but he had a feeling that Jeonghan wouldn’t just give up without one final attack, be it physical or psychological. It appears it was the latter.
“I’ve spent a long time with him.” He replies, pointedly ignoring your stare. “He’s- there’s a lot to him. Most of it isn’t good. I assumed he wouldn’t just leave this alone.”
Your chest rises and falls with a deep breath. “That’s just it, actually. He kind of has.”
Seungcheol’s eyebrows furrow. He listens intently as you finally open up, telling him about the encounter you had with the man at the grocery store. He lets the story linger for a bit after you’re done, absorbing the words.
“So, that’s it.” He finally says, but there’s uncertainty in his voice. He knows you hear it too. You sigh.
“I think, in his head, he’s still won because you’re not who you once were.” You add, turning back to your plate to push your food around. You don’t meet his eye. “He doesn’t think you’re a threat to him anymore because you have no memory. So by extension, I’m not a threat anymore either. I’m sure that to him, you’re-”
You pause, avoiding his stare. “You’re more like something he’s dumped on me. Because you’re not who you once were.”
You immediately look up as you say it, your eyes harder now, more resolute. “Which is not true. You’re still Seungcheol, even if you don’t remember. And I’m so happy you’re here with me, because I thought I would never see you again. Even with half of you still gone, you’re worth ten of him.”
Seungcheol’s heart squeezes, a feeling that is foreign to him, as he takes in the heated determination in your eyes. He realises that his fear, the sense of self he lacks, is not something that is well founded. You wouldn’t care that he remembers just snippets. You’re willing to accept him even as an empty husk.
He makes up his mind.
“You used to pour water into your half full shampoo bottle.” His throat tightens as he speaks. You blink, taken aback. “When we were in college. Because you had to make it last until your next paycheque.”
“And you liked those animal print socks. The pink panther ones. They were so warm. I was pretty annoyed that they wouldn’t fit me. So you got me black panther ones my size so we could match. I loved those so much. Every winter, I had to be careful how often I wore them because I didn’t want them to fray.”
You’re watching him speak, a thin layer of tears is shining in your eyes, and Seungcheol tries to soldier on.
“You got a bird clock for our first apartment that chirped every hour. God, I hated that thing. But you loved it so I never said anything.”
“I knew.” You speak, finally, your voice higher and breaking at the end. “You always got the most annoyed look on your face when it chirped. I thought it was funny to see how long you could take it.”
You let out a wet laugh. Seungcheol gives you a bitter smile.
“It’s only bits and pieces.” He explains, trying not to let guilt overwhelm him. “I don’t remember a lot. It’s just the little things that come to me.”
“It’s enough.” Tears make tracks down your cheeks. You reach forward, and Seungcheol feels the warmth of your hand as it curls around his human one. The contact makes something sizzle. It’s familiar. He remembers this clear as crystal. “It’s more than enough.”
He doesn’t let go. You don’t pull away.
………………………….
Things feel different. They are different now. The hope that felt like a noose around your neck, ready to tighten and kill you, is a much warmer feeling, blooming in your chest and transforming into a joy you haven’t felt in a really long time. You think Seungcheol has noticed. He notices more than you were previously giving him credit for. And it looks like he welcomes the change too.
Despite not eating much, Seungcheol busies himself with making you breakfast every morning. You tell him he doesn’t have to, but he shoots it down.
“I’m not sleeping anyway.” He retorts. “Besides, I used to do this before, didn’t I?”
You nod, smiling as you watch him scramble eggs in a pan. It was always this way back then. He would take care of breakfast, you would have lunch at the office, and then you would do dinner and he would clean up after. The domesticity of it, the harmony, is returning. Sometimes, when you’re getting ready to go into work in the morning and you can hear him hum in the kitchen, it’s almost like nothing has changed. Then, you take in the massive metal arm under his sleeveless tank top, and you’re reminded of what he has been through, and what you two have lost.
Sometimes late at night, you wonder what he would feel like. You wonder if he would let you touch him.
It’s hard being so close to Seungcheol but not being able to physically be too near him. Casual intimacy was always a part of your relationship, and you aren’t used to a version of Seungcheol you have to hold back from. When he often picks up on your moods, like being tired after work or being frustrated when something isn’t going right, you wonder if he can pick up on this, the intense yearning need you have to just feel his cheek on the crown of your head, or his hand curling over your hip like it used to all the time. Or his lips, always so soft and inviting, pressing delicately to yours.
You wonder if he knows. You wonder if he remembers, because he seems to remember so much these days.
A few days later, you ask Seungcheol if he feels at all ready to come back to work. The suggestion catches him off guard.
“Are you sure?”
You nod, shovelling large helpings of chicken into your mouth. You’re usually ravenously hungry by dinner time, and Seungcheol is always amused by it.
“Everything you’re doing at home, working on projects, improving on previous work, you used to do the same things at work. Project Development is all you, and after you helped Wonwoo work out that little algorithm problem, he’s been wanting to work with you more.”
You give him a smile, and it’s more teasing this time. “I don’t know if you remember this, but you were kind of a legend in tech circles before.”
Seungcheol huffs out a laugh and shakes his head. “I don’t remember, but that thought makes me feel a little nauseous.”
You laugh, nudging his shin under the table. Seungcheol has always been shy about attention, but you know he secretly loves being recognised. He’s ambitious, even though he worries often, and acknowledgement from peers and juniors always affirms to him that he’s on the right path.
The next day, he’s getting ready to go into work as well.
He’s nervous, more so about his appearance than anything else. Bionic prostheses aren’t exactly common yet, even if they are getting more talked about recently. You know he’s conscious about the stares he will get, you can see the troubled expression on his face from a mile away.
“We don’t have to tell them you’re my husband. We can tell them you’re an employee.” You offer on the drive there. “From overseas. We’ll make up a story or something.”
His lip quirks up in a half smile.
“You think that's why I'm nervous?” He asks. You shrug.
“That’s the one thing I was never worried about.” He supplies.
Your heart flutters. You try to calm it down. It doesn’t mean anything, you try to tell yourself. But every word from him, every action, weighs so heavy with you. It always has. He’s the most important person in your life.
Seungcheol is relieved when the first person he sees at work is Wonwoo, the one face that is familiar to him. You know he is nervous, but he doesn’t show it a lot. That’s always been him, confident in stature, sure in his stance. All his little worries and doubts would only be reserved for you, and some part of you is elated that you still hold that position.
Unfortunately, you have to leave him for the day when Joshua finally catches up to you with the daily agenda. You’re swept up in work, but he’s always on the back of your mind. You’re just considering making a trip down to PD when a knock sounds on your door. A head of spiky blond hair pops in, and Seungcheol looks a little sheepish as he speaks.
“Lunch?”
For a second, you can’t breathe, swept up in memory after memory of him doing this exact thing since the day you started your company, when it was nothing but two rooms and a dinky office space. It’s so mundane, almost a negligible occurrence, but it was always the highlight of your work day. For five years, you would eat cold lunch at your desk on Joshua’s insistence, or you wouldn’t eat at all, because you no longer had someone to share that precious hour with. But he’s here now, part of his face reconstructed, but he’s here, and it feels like every second of your grief is washed away with one little word he says.
“Hey.” His soft voice breaks you from your thoughts. You blink, realising that your face feels wet. He has stepped inside the room, his face more cautious now.
“Sorry.” He sounds somber. “Did I do something wrong?”
You immediately shake your head, wiping your face hastily. “Not at all.”
Your voice wobbles. You elect to ignore it, standing up and quickly straightening yourself before walking to him. “Come on, let’s go eat.”
Seungcheol’s hand on your arm stops you from walking past him. He holds it softly, pulling you back so you can face him. You’re embarrassed at losing your composure like this. You don’t want to freak him out, or make him worry. You realise that in your happiness of having him back, you haven’t processed at all how overwhelming it is to have the love of your life come back from the dead, half of what he used to be.
It seems that he understands that as well.
Slowly, at an almost glacial pace, Seungcheol’s hand loosens its grip, but it doesn’t move away. Instead, he wraps it around you. His other arm follows, and while the juxtaposition of his arms is noticeable, one warm and forgiving, the other cold and stiff, you barely register it, because you can feel his heartbeat against where your ear presses to his chest. You feel yourself giving into his embrace. You’re starved for anything that is Seungcheol, you’ve been without him for too long. Your face crumples, and the tears come again.
You don’t stop them this time.
………………………………..
“It doesn’t look right.”
“It looks exactly like it should.”
“No, it doesn’t. Look again, I think you went wrong somewhere-”
“If you’re not going to be supportive, get the hell out. I don’t need this energy.”
“I’m just saying, if you had just gone to the store-”
“And I told you, she likes it better this way.”
“Right. And we’re supposed to trust your half-fried brain.”
“Man, fuck you.”
You try to tamp down the laugh bubbling in your throat, but it’s hard to do that when the bickering coming from your kitchen is so amusing. You resolutely keep your eyes on your laptop screen, because you promised not to intervene. But Seungcheol and Joshua keep getting louder the longer they work on baking this cake, and by the sound of it, Joshua is not impressed.
“You’re seriously going to serve this turd-pile to your wife? On her birthday?”
“It’s a turd-pile made with love.”
You know why Joshua keeps nagging Seungcheol. This is an age-old tradition. Seungcheol is not much of a baker, but you’re decent at it. You make all his birthday cakes because you know what flavors and icings he likes. And because you love doing it. Seungcheol always wants to return the favor, no matter how bad he is at it, and it always ends with a spectacularly dense or horrendous looking cake. The difference this time is Joshua dropping in to wish you a happy birthday and give you your present. Unfortunately, that was the exact moment Seungcheol started icing the cake, hence the racket in your kitchen.
But you don’t mind. In fact, you love it. You love that he keeps trying, every single year, and that he blocks off so many hours just to do it. When he had suggested it this time, you were taken aback. While you and Seungcheol had made steady progress in your relationship so far, you didn’t anticipate that he would remember this little tradition of yours. He holds your hand sometimes, he hugs you when he can. You both talk and talk, about previous memories, and about making new ones. You tell him often that you missed him badly, that you love him so much, and that you’re okay with him not saying it back, but you need to tell him because you always felt like you should have said it more before he was gone. Seungcheol is soft with you, careful, letting you explore your emotions as you let him explore his. Now that he’s with you again, you often feel like you have all the time in the world to just be in his presence.
Is it enough for you? Not by a long shot. Do you want to kiss him senseless? Every second of every day. But you will get there eventually. You have faith.
Joshua stays for the cake reveal, and when you gush over it, he merely lets out a pained sigh. You know it’s all an act. He is unbelievably happy for you, but you like it when he teases Seungcheol, baits him enough to irritate, even anger him. He excuses himself pretty quickly afterward, even when you offer for him to stay and have a slice.
“No offense, but I would rather chop off two limbs and let myself get brainwashed than taste whatever this is.”
“That was really offensive, actually.” Seungcheol replies dryly. You laugh, dipping your finger in the frosting to taste it. Coffee. Your favorite.
The cake is dense, almost inedible, but you love it regardless. You eat two whole slices, even though Seungcheol himself can stomach only one. He gives you a pained look.
“Well, you’re always going on about how you love the things about me that are the same as before. Are you glad I’m still a shit baker?”
You giggle and stand up, carrying your dirty plate to the sink. Then you walk over to him and give him a hug, wrapping your arms around his torso. He immediately returns it, and you can physically feel yourself relax.
“I love it even more.” You reply. You can feel his chest shake with a tiny laugh, and you feel his lips on the crown of your head.
“Happy birthday, baby.” He whispers. Your breath hitches at the petname, your old favorite, and you look up at him, your chin on his chest. He’s watching you, eye like a warm pool, soft and inviting. His human hand reaches up, caressing your cheek. You wish, for a split second, that he would just lean down and…..
He does.
When his lips meet yours, they’re hesitant. It’s barely there, like a ghost of a sensation, but you melt into it, pushing up on your toes a little so you can feel him more as you kiss him back. He melts into it, sighing into your mouth, his grip around your waist tightening when he registers your enthusiasm. The metal of his left arm feels solid, and it almost leaves you immobile, but you love it, because it presses every line of your body to every plane of his. Your hands find his neck, his jaw, slipping back to run over the tiny strands over the back of his head. It makes him shiver. You feel it. Your lower stomach stirs.
The kiss gets firmer, hotter. Seungcheol tilts his head, slots his lips deeper into yours. You feel his tongue against the cushion of your bottom lip, and your mouth opens almost out of instinct. You let out your first moan when his tongue slides hot and wet against yours.
“We should-” His voice cracks. Your head spins. “We should slow down.”
He kisses you again, fiercely. Your thighs are already crushing together for relief.
“Yeah.” You agree, pulling him down more by the shoulders, wanting him to curl and wrap around you. He complies immediately, hands sliding lower until he’s tugging on the backs of your thighs and lifting you up onto the kitchen island. You’re level with his face now, not willing to stop kissing him, not willing to take even a breath that doesn’t come straight from his mouth. You tug hard on the hair at the top of his head, the ones long enough to grip. He groans, and the sound makes your hips jerk hard into his.
“Fuck, don’t do that.” He rasps.
You do it again, grinding slower this time, your legs around his waist keeping him in place. He hisses. You can feel the bulge in his jeans, and you clench around nothing, registering how hard he already is. You need him so badly that it makes you dizzy. If he stops now, you think you might cry.
“Cheol-” You gasp, your hands digging into his shirt and tugging hard. You need it off, you need to feel all of him, properly, and it feels like he’s on the same page, because he’s reaching back, pulling the shirt off his shoulders until it’s gone. His hands are quick, sliding under your blouse until it’s bunching up, making you raise your arms. He pulls it off.
Finally, you see him.
Seungcheol was always well built. Broad in all the right places, thick neck, wide shoulders, the large expanse of his chest, his abs. Now, he’s even more cut, and you wonder if it has to do with the life he was living for the last five years. Your eye catches his bionic arm, right at the junction where it meets his skin. Your hands, idly running over his bare skin, follow your gaze, stop just where the skin looks more pink.
“Does it hurt?” You ask, voice low. Seungcheol shakes his head, watching you intently.
“It used to, when it was new. But it’s more numb now than anything.” He mutters. He flexes the arm, the plates click and whir, a low, metallic sound that echoes in the silence of the kitchen. You let your thumb run over the skin, right at the edge. Seungcheol doesn’t react as he watches your fingers except with a tiny laugh.
“I guess if they were more careful, it might have looked a little better.” He mumbles, eyes still on your movements. His own run absentmindedly over your bare waist. You shrug.
“I don’t know, it’s pretty hot.”
He looks up at you, his single eyebrow shooting up in surprise. He barks out a laugh, shaking his head.
“Freak.”
You hum and tighten your legs around his waist again, pulling him closer. “You used to love it.”
Something in his eye gleams, a mischievous little twinkle. The white, flat circle on the other side seems to turn and shift, almost like it’s gleaming too. You wonder what he sees through it. His lip ticks up in a tiny smirk. “Oh, I know.”
He leans down, running his lips over the side of your neck. His hands are more purposeful now, sliding up to fiddle with the buckle of your bra. He unhooks it smoothly, letting his touch float up your arms so he can pull the straps down. You sigh when his tongue runs over your skin, nipping just under your ear, the spot that has always made you shiver.
“I remember a lot of things.” He rasps. “More and more as the days go by. And I like to go over them sometimes, when I lay in bed at night, or when you walk around in just that large shirt of mine you wear when you sleep. You think I don’t know what you’re doing, baby? Goading me, baiting me, testing me.”
“I’m- I’m not-” But your brain is melting at the moment his teeth dig a little harder into your skin. He’s going to leave a mark, not that you give a fuck, and all it’s doing is making you even more lightheaded.
He hums. You know he doesn’t believe you. His hands are already circling around, kneading softly on your breasts, making you sigh. He thumbs over your nipples, nipping at your neck a little harder when they peak under his touch. His touch sends shivers down your spine, one hand soft and warm, the other hard and cold. You’re not used to the contrast, but it feels wonderful. You wonder how it will feel in all the other places you want him to touch, and your impatience grows.
“Cheol, take me inside.” You whimper, clenching around nothing again and feeling your desperation grow. He doesn’t respond verbally, but his hands find your hips, gripping tightly to lift you up. You wrap yourself around him, using that moment to tongue at his neck as he walks you both down the hall to your bedroom. He has been inside only a handful of times, since he still sleeps on his own, but you know that’s about to change today. You’re never letting him leave again.
He doesn’t separate from you for even a second, laying you down on the mattress and joining you on it at the same moment, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that is even more heated, but not any less exploratory. His weight on you feels familiar, glorious, and you bask in the feeling of being pressed down. His tongue runs over any crevice of your mouth it can reach, saliva mixing with his in a way that makes you shiver all over. When you run your hands over his back and feel the familiar muscle shift and tense under your touch, you remember how much you missed this, and it makes your breath hitch.
You want him completely naked against you, and the need feels as urgent as air entering your lungs.
Your shirt and bra are already gone, but his clothes and the rest of yours now quickly follow. He kisses any part of you he can in between every article that gets tugged off by you or by him. Your right calf presses against the cold metal of his leg, and it shocks you back into reality a little bit. You’re aware that while you’ve done this countless times with him, it’s different now. You slow down the kisses, nibbling more indulgently at the plush on his bottom lip.
“Are you okay with this?” You whisper. “I know this is a lot-”
“I was going to ask you that.” He chuckles into your mouth. His eye flutters open, and it has softened, shining with reverence. Your lips twitch up into a smile.
“I’ve wanted this for so long.” You reach up, running a gentle hand through his hair. His metal ear feels rigid and cool. “I’ve missed you more than I can say. I didn’t-”
Your voice catches. Seungcheol waits with all the patience in the world.
“I didn’t think I could ever have this again.”
His forehead rests gently against yours, and your eyes flutter when you feel your breaths mix where your lips touch.
“I know I’m not all the way there.” He whispers. “I know there’s so much missing. And some days, it’s so difficult to reconcile the older version of me with this new reality. But I’m getting better every day. And I…. I miss you too. I miss what we had and who I used to be.”
Your eyes cloud. Seungcheol carefully thumbs under them, not letting the tears spill. When he kisses you again, it feels far more meaningful, like parts of you and him are coming to an understanding together. It’s easy to build up the heat again, and there’s an underlying layer of need in it now that has you writhing and moaning under him in no time.
“Easy, princess.” He hums, carefully running his hands up your thighs before fitting his hips between them. “I’ve got you.”
Princess. You whine. That’s an old favorite bedroom nickname of his. Seungcheol loved to spoil you. He’s a giver at heart, so the name is apt, and one he used to shower you with frequently. He grinds on your core, and you can feel the slide of his hard shaft through your wet folds. It makes you gasp, the slow drag making you feel each and every ridge of him. Your opening clenches hard, you arch into him, and your nails dig into the skin of his back.
“Don’t-” Your chest rattles with your inhale. “Don’t tease me. Please, I’ve waited so long, Cheolie. Don’t make me wait even more-”
When his head catches against your opening on the next grind, you moan low, eyelids fluttering. His nose brushes yours, you know he’s watching, and you bask in the feeling of his gaze on you. He pushes a little more, breaching you, and takes his glorious time sliding in at a snail’s pace. Your walls struggle with his girth, not used to being penetrated, left empty for too long, but you think at this point, Seungcheol is embedded in your DNA. Your body knows him, recognises him, like it’s an old, dormant instinct. You open up for him like he’s meant for you, and when he groans in shaky approval, you know he feels it too.
“Made for me, aren’t you?” He whispers into your mouth, taking advantage of your moaning to lick over your lips, nipping and sucking at them. “Taking me like you’re meant for me. Haven’t fucked you in years, but your little pussy still knows me, right?”
God, he needs to stop talking like that. So vulgar, coming from his mouth, but so sexy that it makes you dizzy. The ceiling is spinning, half from the feel of him, and half from the words he is whispering right past your lips. He bottoms out finally, and stills, throbbing and twitching inside you. You can feel it, it tugs on your walls, sending little sparks shooting through your core.
“Love how tight you are, baby.” He continues, pulling away from you to sit back a bit. You almost whine in protest, but then his thumb finds your clit and rubs tight little circles over it. You sigh, toes curling. “But I need you to loosen up a little bit, okay? Need to fuck you properly and I can’t do that when you’re gripping me like this.”
It’s a combination of his words and the waves of pleasure traveling up from your clit, but he finally feels enough give to rock back and forth, his back undulating with every stroke. He starts off slow, both of you just enjoying the delicious drag of him in and out. Every movement makes him brush up teasingly against your sweet spot, makes stars burst in your vision. You feel like you’re already on the brink, and he has barely started.
“Fuck.” He chokes, and you can see his throat bob as he swallows. A thin layer of sweat coats his porcelain skin, making the light of your bedside lamp shift over him. His hair, not almost fully brown with just the tips of the blond remaining, is matted on his forehead. His eye is closed, eyelid fluttering, mouth slightly parted as his breath rattles in and out. He grunts quietly every few strokes, his abs clenching, his neck and chest flushed a pretty pink.
You could come just looking at him like this.
He picks up the pace finally, and you gasp at the change, arching into him a little. He’s watching you now, but you’re too busy registering how good he feels, the perfect, tight drag of him, now more forceful, hitting every spot that sends pleasurable shocks up your spine. The bed groans, his thrusts get harder. On either side of your head, his fingers fist the bedsheet. Beneath the moans and sighs, you can hear the very low but distinct whir of metal emanating from his moving limbs.
Your brain stutters, and your hands move before you can think about it too much. They find his metal wrist, circling around it slowly and lifting it to place it right at the base of your throat. Seungcheol’s eye widens.
“You’re sure?” He asks. You nod.
“Please.”
Your skin is so heated that the cool contrast of his hand feels relieving and glorious. Something in his wrist clicks, and then his hold on your throat tightens just a bit. Your eyes flutter, mouth dropping open. You whine.
Seungcheol groans and his thrusts get harder, hips now slamming into yours over and over, the tip just gently kissing the cervix in the way that lights your lower stomach on fire. His grip is unrelenting, just tight enough to make you a little light headed and every movement feel even more intense than it usually does. You can’t speak, can’t warn him as your orgasm comes barrelling into you at full speed. You can only clench hard and cry out as it washes over you. Seungcheol doesn’t slow, but watches you with something akin to awe and unbridled lust in his eyes. His hand loosens only as you come down, letting you take in a long gulp of air.
“That was so sexy, baby, fuck.” He sounds as wrecked as you feel. He’s grinding into your pussy, pushed all the way in to the base, letting you feel every inch of him. “Can’t believe I didn’t do this sooner. Could’ve had you under me every night looking like that.”
You find the sides of his neck, tugging him down to kiss him fiercely. “Get your fill now, Cheolie. Make up for lost time.”
Your words spur him on. He pulls out abruptly, but he doesn’t let you miss him for too long, tugging your leg to maneuver you so you’re on your stomach, arms folded under your head, and his body draped over your back, warming your sweat-cooling skin. His knees frame your thighs. He nudges your legs apart just enough to slide inside, and the shift in angle has your jaw going slack. You feel his grip on your hips, one soft, one hard, holding you in place as he immediately sets a brutal pace. You don’t mind, you’ve always loved it when Seungcheol uses all that impressive muscle he has built to manhandle and use you like this. It’s unbelievably hot to you. This position feels even more intense, leaves you even more boneless, and your previous high has left you so sensitive that this one builds up in no time.
His thrusts are getting sloppy, less precise and more like he just wants to plop you into the mattress. His moans are more uninhibited now, his grip tighter to the point you know he will leave bruises that you will wear proudly. His breath hits the back of your neck. He reaches down, biting into your shoulder at the exact moment he groans loud and empties himself in you. The warmth of him, the grind of his head into your walls, is what sends you over the edge for a second time. Both your bodies writhe on the mattress, him pressing you into it until you feel like you are melting into him. He curses low in your ear as his body relaxes, and the sound makes you shiver.
You lay like that for what feels like an eternity, letting the rise and fall of his chest guide your own breathing. When he finally moves, detaching himself, you grumble in protest.
“I was warm.” You complain. You can hear him laugh a little.
“I’ll warm you up again, baby, don’t worry. Come on.”
Your interest is piqued, and you turn your head to the side to peer at him. His whole face seems to have smoothed, soft and glowing in a way you haven’t seen him in a while. It makes a smile tug on your lips, and you turn over slowly to face him. He doesn’t waste any time in lifting you up, another sensation that will take some getting used to. His human arm is warm on your back, but his metal one digs just under your knees. You don’t mind, not at all, it’s part of him, something he got involuntarily but made his own. He has used it to inflict pain in the past, but from now on, he will do nothing but good with it.
You watch him with heavy eyes as he places you on the bathroom vanity and gets to running a warm bath. You admire his back, soft and pale, smattered with little freckles, and slightly pink at the edges where skin meets metal. The plates dig into the skin, and you know he said it doesn’t feel like anything now, but you wonder if it hurts even just a little.
The slightest hint of his pain, even a negligible smidge of it, is unacceptable to you. You make a mental note to ask Wonwoo if he can look into bionic prostheses. Not weapons, like Jeonghan has developed. You have no interest in that. He can have his military contracts and his glory. There’s nothing in it for you.
Everything you want is in this tiny bathroom, dipping his metal fingers into the water to check the temperature, only to realise he can’t feel with that limb. You collapse into giggles and he smiles sheepishly, ears turning red, using his other hand as a toothy grin takes over his face.
PAIRING: Detective!Mingyu x f. Reader
SUMMARY: In a city where technology makes it possible to shed your body as easily as changing clothes, Mingyu has built his reputation hunting criminals who disappear behind new faces. So when you become the prime suspect in a brutal string of serial murders, he should have no trouble closing the case. Except… the more he investigates you, the less he’s convinced you’re guilty.
CHAPTER WC: 9,415
AU: Cyberpunk, Mystery, Crime
GENRE: Strangers to Lovers, some angst, smut
RATING: 18+ Minors are strictly prohibited from engaging in and reading this content. It contains explicit content and any minors discovered reading or engaging with this work will be blocked immediately.
WARNINGS: This contains vivid depiction of a dead body that has been intentionally disfigured/messed with by a serial killer - I will call this body horror simply because I want to play it on the safe side, mention of dead bodies in general, depiction of gore and blood (in the dead body scene), bodies being referenced to as ‘Skins’ because replacing the body is possible in this world, lots of commentary on wealth gap, lots of references to how humanity just doesn’t care about human livelihood the same way it did once, mentions of deep poverty, mentions of throw away Skins (bodies) being dumped in an alleyway, Mingyu is kind of emo, Mingyu is a cigarette smoker because what is a detective fic without cigarette smoking, lots of reference to a terrible justice system, reader is a stripper and there is a brief scene of her dancing on Mingyu, lots of random body modifications but nothing super weird or in detail, Mingyu in general just has a lot of general dislike for the world, explicit language, um.... I think that's it for this chapter?
A/N: This is for the Cyberpunk: Reload Collab hosted by @studiosvt and I could not be more excited to be bringing this to you! This is heavily inspired by Altered Carbon, Ghost in the Shell, and Blade Runner. This fic is a bit gritty because we all know me. I do not currently have a schedule set for the second chapter, but I am going to try to write the remaining three in total and then post them on a quick schedule basis to shorten the wait between them.
A/N 2: No beta we die like Jedi during order 66
BANNER CREDIT: Thank you to @joshujin for the amazing, beautiful banner!
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it has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly’s wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. - chaos theory
"THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS A PRINCIPLE IN CHAOS THEORY THAT STATES THAT SMALL, SEEMINGLY INSIGNIFICANT CHANGES IN INITIAL CONDITIONS CAN TRIGGER MASSIVE, UNPREDICTABLE, AND VASTLY DIFFERENT OUTCOMES IN COMPLEX SYSTEMS-"
Mingyu knows what the butterfly effect is. In fact, the exact audio recording playing on loop throughout the penthouse apartment is the same audio that's been haunting his dreams and the moments of almost sleep he's been having at his desk while filling out piles and piles of paperwork at the station.
Now, the audio is playing again at the third crime scene in as many months, and he's had it.
"Turn that shit off," he barks, walking through the flickering holograph of the caution barrier. His legs disrupt the light only for a second, shadows bounding off the walls as he enters the main living area. "I'm tired of hearing about the fucking butterfly effect."
He was tired of researching it, too. Researching why a serial killer would leave the same recording playing at each crime scene over and over again, researching what the murders could possibly have to do with one another. So far, the first five victims have no connection to one another, nothing that clues Mingyu into what's going on beyond the same audio on loop. He doesn't expect this sixth victim will have any connection to their predecessors, but he has to try.
A grisly scene paints the penthouse. It's a nicer home than anything Mingyu will ever afford with floor-to-cieling windows that overlook the neon smear of the city. Rain blurs against the glass, turning the glow beyond to a muted opaque color that clashes with the bright caution banners and the lights of the investigative unit called to the scene.
The penthouse reeks of the metallic tang of blood and the faint tang of the chemicals the collection team uses to take samples all around the apartment. The victim lies splayed across the massive obsidian coffee table in the main entertainment area, arms and legs extended at unnatural angles. It's a male body, the torso filleted open from sternum to pelvis with surgical precision, the ribs cracked outward like grotesque wings.
Mingyu has seen five of these now. Each one has been more elaborate than the last. Each one leaves him with the same hollow frustrating gnawing at his gut.
"Lee," he barks at the lead forensic tech hovering nearby. "Anything different this time? Prints? Core signature? A confession, perhaps?"
Chan shakes his head, his rain-slicked jacket shedding beads of water onto the floor. "Same as the others. No prints, and the audio rig is the same ghost job as the last. The victim owns the building, his name is Harlan Voss. He got a new Skin a few weeks ago at Sync Corp. Nice model, nothing too extreme."
Mingyu crouches beside the table, his boots squelching in the thin layer of blood that has spread across the marble. Through the windows, the city pulses below, bright signs for body rental shops and upgrade clinics flashing in the downpour. Towering buildings disappear into the clouds, connected by old elevated trains that rattle in the distance.
Mingyu looks at the body. Chan had said the Skin upgrade was nothing too extreme, but in a world where people swap bodies regularly, the word extreme has lost most of its value, especially for people like Harlan Voss who are wealthy enough to transfer the Core implanted in their brain stem to a new body anytime they want.
It makes permanent death uncommon for people of this caliber. Mingyu tilts his head to the side, examining the back of Harlan's neck where his Core is. Like the others, it's damaged, which means Harlan is dead dead. No transferring his Core to a new body after the death of this one, no regeneration.
It unsettles something deep in Mingyu like satisfaction, and he pushes it down. He has no time to be disgusted by the Skin jumping of the wealthy while the people below scrap together money to upgrade their Skins to something new or broken just for the prestige of doing it.
Mingyu pushes up to his feet, joints popping and back aching. He groans - unlike the dead victim in front of him, he can't pay to have the tiny device buried in his neck to be transferred to some upgraded flashy skin. One would assume that as law enforcement, he'd get some kind of special discount or offers to enhance his speed, strength or something, but Mingyu has quickly learned that only the wealthy benefit from anything in this city.
He looks around the room slowly, eyes scanning for anything out of place. A broken glass on the bar counter. A half-empty bottle of cheap whiskey tipped over, mixing with the blood into a pink mess. Framed pictures on the walls show vacation spots in brighter cities, the kind most people only see in ads. One frame lies smashed on the floor, exposing basic wiring behind the fancy cover. Typical rich place that looks expensive on top but cheap underneath.
"Why butterflies?" Mingyu mutters to himself. "Chaos theory. One small change leads to big results. Like a butterfly flapping its wings and starting a storm somewhere else."
The killer isn't hiding the message. Each killing has happened once a month - not on a perfect timing, but approximate. Each scene is bigger - more wing shapes, more lights, the same audio. But the victims are never the same and thus far, there's no link between them. No shared friends, no common jobs, nothing on the basic records. A nobody found in a cheap rental unit. An escort pulled from a job. Nothing ties them together except this ritual.
But Mingyu doesn't know what this ritual is.
Frustration burns in his chest. Five months of this, nights bleeding into days at the station, staring at paper files and holoscreens while rain water leaks onto his desk. His own body feels worn out - aches deep in his joints, eyes burning constantly from lack of sleep. Unlike the dead man in front of him, Mingyu can't afford a new Skin on a detective's pay.
"Detective Kim?" Chan calls, voice unsure. Mingyu spins on his heel to find Chan crouched by the body, holding a small device in his hand near the core in the victim's neck. "I think the core is damaged but not dead."
"What?"
Mingyu strides over, his long legs making it easy. Chan crouches lower, the glasses on his face sliding down his sweaty nose. Mingyu leans over, tilting his head as Chan gently nudges the victim's head to turn it more. The Core is exposed to the elements and cut, like the attacker had been cutting it out to kill it, but as it catches the light, there's a small blip of cyan along the side, flickering as it tries to regain connectivity.
"Holy shit," Mingyu whispers. "If it's still alive, can you re-gen this guy?"
"Maybe, but it's potentially damaged enough that he would come back with high-level personality disorders or other cognitive issues. We might be able to repair enough to access memory or information, though." Chan hesitates. "Legal might get involved. If he's got family or others left behind, they might demand the Core be delivered to them to figure out what to do with it or refuse access to us."
Mingyu's hums, thoughtful. The possibility of interference is higher than he'd like to admit. In the few cases that Mingyu has dealt with the elite, their spouses or family left behind have always been nearly impossible in active investigations. He's since learned that those who sit in gilded glass towers have more to hide than the criminals crawling on the ground, and they'd rather a case go cold than unearth their secrets.
"Are we required to notify them?" Mingyu asks, glancing at Chan.
"Yes?"
"What if we only found it was discovered functional later in a proper autopsy."
Chan looks uncomfortable for a moment before nodding. "Yeah. That would make sense."
"Autopsies get delayed, right?" Chan sighs and Mingyu grins, slapping him on the back as he stands again. "Glad we understand each other, Lee. Take care of this while I walk around the area, yeah?"
"Yes, Detective."
Mingyu leaves the apartment and takes the stairs instead of the elevator, his knees protesting with each step. The exercise feels good though, so he jogs down the winding stairs, mind racing. By the time he reaches the ground level, he's sore and his heart is pounding, both reminders that he's human and that he's in his natural body, two things he's grown to be proud of.
The lobby is sleek, made up of polished obsidian and soft blue recessed lighting. Mingyu strolls through the automatic doors, the air locks hissing as he lets himself out into the rain, shoes tapping wetly on the pavement.
Reaching into his pocket, he fishes out a cigarette - an ancient, old world habit in comparison to the sleek vapes most people use - and sticks it between his lips, digging around his pocket for a lighter. He finds it and flicks it, the orange flame licking upward as he lights the cigarette, taking a brief drag. The flame catches and he flicks it shut, taking a heavy drag and lets the smoke settle in his lungs before he exhales into the neon smear of rain.
The street level is quieter this time of night, most of the storefronts closed, their holographic signs still flickering anyway. The street is full of advertising and marketing for Skin modification services, Core implant repairs, temporary Skin rentals for people too poor to own one permanently but desperate enough to spend a night as someone else.
Neon bleeds across the wet pavement in streaks of magenta and cyan, reflecting off the rain to create a blurry kaleidoscope of light that makes Mingyu's eyes water as he takes another drag, flicking ash into a puddle where it melts.
He walks, letting his feet guide him around the perimeter of the building, cool raing tapping down on his head and neck like soft fingers. He doesn't bother with an umbrella, the rain sliding off his jacket as he examines the exterior, cigarette wedged between his lips.
The neighborhood is a mix of high-rises towering over strip malls, luxury boutiques selling pricey mods next to hole-in-the-wall clinics offering illegal and questionable upgrades. It's one of common liminal spaces in the city where the almost wealthy clash with the lower glass, each fighting for dominance on the ground while the megaliths of the city exist in their towers far above.
Mingyu wonders what the rest of them look like from on high. He imagines that they can't even see people like him, rotting beneath the clouds and scurrying around like ants beneath a boot that's constantly waiting to step on them. Mingyu has been stepped on plenty of times, but he hasn't died yet and he doesn't plan on it now, heading to the back alleyway behind the building.
Dumpsters filled with broken tech litter the alleyway, but Mingyu pauses when he sees a bunch of old, rotted Skins. He lifts his arm, covering his face with it to ward off the smell. Skins are still bodies - they're still organic material like any other living organism, and they break down the same way. Seeing tossed Skins isn't uncommon, especially near body-mod shops, but Mingyu is unsettled to see them just tossed, flies buzzing around them.
Pulling out his phone, he dials Chan up stairs. "Send a team down to the back alley, there's discarded Skins. None of them look fresh or functional, but maybe our killer tosses theirs."
"On it."
"Also have someone dispose of these before someone wanders around and tries to take them. They're rotted beyond use, the last thing we need is some kind of infection going around because people are re-genning bad Skins."
"Understood."
Mingyu hangs up the phone and takes the final drag of his cigarette before flicking it toward the dumpster. He continues on his way, searching - for what he doesn't know. Something. Anything. He just wants to find something to help him unravel the mystery upstairs, something he's missed previously.
As always, he finds nothing except the smell of wet concrete and biological decay, the distant hum of an elevated train line cutting through the noise somewhere. He circles back to the front of the building and finds himself looking upward. The building is a vertical monument to wealth that juts up into the rain-soaked sky, but it's got nothing on the monstrosities the corporation owners and mega-rich of the city live in.
The rain grows heavier, coming down in sheets. Mingyu slips under the overhang in front of the building, watching as the world vanishes to a blur of light behind the rain. From here, he knows the city by heart - it spreads out in layers, the commercial district with aggressive neon signage, the old industrial zones still smoking from plants that are ready to collapse any minute, and beyond, the entertainment and wealthy districts.
Trains arc across the space between buildings while autonomous vehicles move through the streets in perfect formation, headlights occasionally cutting through the dark toward him as they pass by the building.
They city pulses on despite the death upstairs, the desperation and money and excess and filth all tangled together, and somewhere in it, is the person Mingyu is hunting, the butterfly that haunts his dreams and all of the hours in between.
Mingyu sighs, jaw clenched as he watches the rain, the same words on loop in his head: The butterfly effect is a principle chaos theory that states that small, seemingly insignificant changes in initial conditions can trigger massive, unpredictable, and vastly different outcomes in complex systems.
-
Mingyu stares at the six projected faces in front of him, the cyan of the holoscreen only broken up by the flicker as he switches from viewing all six of them at once to one at a time. The fluorescent lights overhead buzzes, glitching for a moment as it threatens to go out. It's been dying for three weeks now, humming like an insect trapped in a glass. No one has bothered to fix it, of course. The maintenance budget at the precinct is nonexistent, most of the funding funnelling into the new autonomous patrol units they send to patrol through the wealthy districts.
Down here in the bowels of the city, everything is falling apart. Water drips from a crack in the ceiling two desks over, landing in the metal track can with a constant metal drip that drives Mingyu nuts. The air smells like mildew and stale air undercut by the burnt coffee that tastes like battery acid every time he takes a sip. He drinks it out of a chipped mug anyway, needing the extra jolt of energy and unwilling to take any of the stimulants or quick fixes the young deputies prefer.
Mingyu's fingers drum on his mug to the rhythm of the dripping. He cannot unstick his thoughts from the six victims over six months, struggling to find the connection. He drags his finger across the holoscreen to pull up the first victim's file again, despite having read it a million times. The first victim is a male nobody, found in a cheap Skin rental unit in the lower districts, his body laid out with the same surgical precision and same butterfly effect audio playing on loop. The victim had no family, no friends, and the damaged Core had said unclaimed in evidence for two weeks unclaimed and uncared for before being incinerated per protocol.
Sighing, he swipes to the second victim, a female escort pulled from a job in the entertainment district. She'd been with a wealthy client a few hours prior, but the client had a clean alibi and had no problem letting them scan his Core for memories of the entire night. The escorts Core, like the first victim, had been damaged beyond recovery, just like the first, though the job had been done a little cleaner, a little better.
The third victim comes up as Mingyu stares. Mid-level corporate suit who worked in data analysis and had an entirely boring and normal life. No enemies, no debts, no reason for anyone to want him dead. His family had come to claim his Core two days after they'd been notified, and Mingyu was surprised to discover that in a world full of abnormal, the man had been even keel and plain with enough money to provide for himself and his family but not enough to do much else than that.
The fourth and fifth victims' only similarities were their involvement in the black market, though neither had crossed paths. The fourth had been a street vendor selling neural mods, but the fifth had been a retired surgeon who'd started performing illegal Core augmentations that had landed him with a fine and warning - not jail. Never jail.
And now Harlan Voss, the owner of an apartment complex. All of the victims had been from different parts of the city, the only thing linking them together was the ritual by which they had been left for him. Though Mingyu can't prove it, he feels like there's a joking edge to it now, like each death is meant to tease him and his inability to figure it out.
He leans back in his chair, the springs groaning under his weight. His eyes burn. He hasn't slept more than three hours in the past two days, and even that was broken up by the fragmented dreams of the butterfly effect audio bleeding into his fucking subconscious until he woke up gasping, the words echoing in his skull.
There's something he's missing. Mingyu knows he's on a timeline to figure it out now that Voss has been killed. Before, his superiors hadn't thought much of a serial killer stringing together some useless skins - people who didn't matter in the system. Though Harlan Voss doesn't matter, exactly, he's a step closer to the people up top that the city is obsessed with protecting, the people worth protecting.
Mingyu had learned a long time ago that people have become disposable. Bodies are just shells now, things you can rent or buy or discard when they stop serving you. Cores get pulled, transferred, reinstalled into something younger and prettier, and the person moves on. Humanity has been reduced to data, consciousness stripped down to the electrical impulses that can be copied, moved, and erased.
Death is so common to those at the top that it barely registers. But when real death happens - Core death - it turns heads, especially when it's a little too close to the gilded.
Mingyu's jaw tightens. His body aches, knees stiff, lower back throbbing from too many hours in this shitty chair, too many hours in the field in his original Skin. He feels every year of it, and though it makes him feel human, he can't help but be bothered how the wealthy don't age like this. They just buy new bodies by the dozen. Transfer over. Keep going. It's immortality for anyone who can afford it, cheating death over and over again.
Cracking his neck, Mingyu refocuses on the work at hand and pulls up the financial records again, cross-referencing bank accounts, transaction histories, anything that might link the victims. There's nothing, of course. Everyone has different banks and different spending patterns, different lives and different histories. The only thing they have in common is the way they died.
The butterfly effect is a principle in chaos theory…
Mingyu's phone buzzes on the desk. He picks it up to see Chan's name flash across the screen and he answers right away. "Lee, what have you got?"
"Core is ready," Chan says on the other side. "I've stabilized it enough for a read of the memory logs. You should come down."
"How long do we have?"
"Hard to say. It's pretty damaged. Could be an hour, could be less. If we're going to pull anything, it needs to be now."
"Heard. On my way."
Mingyu ends the call and stands. The holoscreen glows faintly in front of him, the six faces of the dead he can't seem to bring justice too staring back at him until he swipes again and they vanish. He grabs his jacket from the back of the chair and heads for the door, shrugging the leather over his shoulders.
The forensic lab is two floors down, a section of the station most detectives like to avoid. Mingyu takes the stairwell, refusing to get stuck in the elevator for a sixth time, leaping down the steps as he takes two at a time.
Bright, sterile light greets him as he pushes into the lab, making him squint. Banks of equipment link the walls, shelves full of neural readers, Core analysis stations, data extraction devices and a section for biopsy and medical analysis. The air smells faintly chemical, kind of like the inside of a machine. He prefers the smell of the burnt coffee and damp upstairs than whatever it is that permeates the forensic floor.
Chan is standing at the far end of the room, hunched over a workstation where a cylindrical containment unit glows with a faint, sickly cyan light. Voss's Core floats suspended in the translucent gel, its surface marred with dark fractures that spiderweb across the neural casing, damaged from the attack. Mingyu watches as the light flickers, pulsing in irregular intervals while Chan tinkers with it.
"Lee," Mingyu greets, crossing the room in a few long strides.
"We've got maybe thirty minutes before this thing goes dark," Chan says without looking up, his fingers tapping on a tablet next to him. A holographic interface appears over the desk, cyan numbers and date reflected in Chan's glasses. "Give me a sec."
"Can we reanimate him?" Mingyu asks, crossing his arms over his chest as Chan works.
The lab technician shakes his head. "No. The damage is too extensive. A system reboot would require full neural integration, and the Core can't support that kind of load. It would collapse the moment we tried to initialize consciousness."
He taps a section of the holographic display, pulling up a three-dimensional model of the Core's internal structure. Half of it is shaded black, dead zones where the neural pathways have been damaged beyond repair. Mingyu sighs, nodding. They're lucky they have anything at all - a damaged Core is better than no Core at all.
"We can access the memory storage," Chan says, tapping something. "It's fragmented and corrupted in places, but there's enough intact data that we can pull maybe a few minutes worth of his life from it. Maybe more if we're lucky."
"How much is a few minutes?"
"Hard to say until we're in. Could be five, could be ten. Depends on how much the Core was actively recording before it got damaged." Chan glances at Mingyu, his expression cautious. "This isn't like interrogating a living witness, Detective. We're pulling raw sensory data that will be from Voss's perception. It'll be disjointed - memory isn't linear."
Mingyu nods. "Do it."
Chan's fingers move across the interface, initiating the connection sequence. The containment unit hums, a low vibration that Mingyu feels in his chest, and the cyan light intensifies, brightening until it casts sharp shadows across the lab.
The holoscreen shifts and for a moment, there's nothing but static and a wash of grey noise that flickers and shifts. Then an image resolves, making both Mingyu and Chan lean forward as Chan tampers with the interface, sharpening the image.
A penthouse. Floor-to-cieling windows. Rain. The perspective shifts as Voss moves, walking across the floor of his apartment to his kitchen and grabs a bottle of whiskey and pours two fingers worth into a glass. Voss takes a swig and then walks back to the living room where Mingyu recognizes the space and the coffee table where Voss's body had been cracked open.
"This is from earlier in the evening," Chan says, his voice quiet. "Before the murder."
Mingyu doesn't respond. He's too focused on the screen, watching as Voss sits down on the couch, picks up a tablet and scrolls. Nothing else seems to happen, nothing that screams he's about to be murdered. Mingyu is about to complain when the perspective shifts again to show a new scene.
Marble floors reflect overhead lights. The sound of Voss's footsteps echo across his memory as he passes a doorman in a crisp uniform and a name tag that reads Martinez.
Rain hits the screen, rippling across the holo in temporary distortion as Voss gets into a car. The driver takes off and Minguy watches as the city blurs past in a mess of lights and umbrellas, the sensory feed blurring and glitching as it tries to accommodate for the sights and sounds and thoughts and feelings of Voss in that moment.
Suddenly the image blurs and shifts so that Voss is standing in front of a strip club. The entrance is unmarked except for a single neon sign that flickers in shades of magenta and violet, hearts climbing up the side as holograms of girls beckon him in. He passes through the door and strobing lights cut through the feed, blinding both Chan and Mingyu like they're seeing it in the flesh.
Heavy base pulses through the feed as Voss moves deeper into the club. A stage dominates the center of the space, and on it, multiple dancers move with practiced precision, their bodies catching the strobing lights in fragmented movements. Here, the feed breaks off into fractal images as the Core flashes - a leg extended, an arch of the back, a turn that sends hair flying.
Mingyu tries to catalogue the faces as he sees them - a woman with pink eyes, someone with a swirling tattoo, another with sharp eyes that seem to track the crowd even as her body ripples across the stage like water. It's your eyes that makes Mingyu pause, cutting him down to the bone, your gaze more present than that of the far-off look of the others.
But then you're gone as the perspective shifts and the image bleeds into Voss in the bathroom, drunk and leaning heavily against the urinal as he relieves himself. Chan makes a disgusted sound as the memory jumps again to a small ramen cart somewhere in an unknown district.
"This is jumping around," Chan says, his voice cutting through the feed. "The Core is pulling fragments non-sequentially. We're seeing his evening out of order."
Another jump. More faces. A man in a leather jacket, arguing with someone Mingyu can't see. A couple pressed against the wall, kissing. A group of young people clustered around a table, their faces illuminated by the glow of their handheld screens.
And then, for just a moment, another face that belongs to a woman standing near the back of the bar, watching the crowd.
Mingyu's breath catches. He knows that face.
"Wait," he says, his hand shooting up. "Stop. Go back."
Chan's fingers freeze over the interface. "What?"
"That woman. The one in the back." Mingyu leans closer to the holoscreen, his exhaustion momentarily burned away by a spike of adrenaline. "I've seen her before. In the club footage. She was on stage."
Chan rewinds the feed, pulling up the earlier memory from the strip club. The perspective shifts back to the moment on stage. A woman with pink eyes, one with a swirling tattoo, one with sharp eyes. Mingyu points.
"Her," he murmurs. "She's in two of his memories."
"Could be coincidence," Chan says, but his tone suggests he doesn't believe it. "She could work multiple venues. Dancers do that sometimes."
"Or she was following him," Mingyu says. The implications settle over the lab like a weight. "Or she was part of it."
The perspective lingers on you for a fraction of a second longer than the others, just long enough for Mingyu to register your face clearly, and then Voss turns away and you're gone, swallowed back into the crowd.
The memory jumps again. Voss is back in his car, then in the lobby of his building, then in the elevator ascending to his floor. The doorman from earlier is talking to someone Mingyu can't see. Security personnel stand near the entrance, their faces blank and professional. A woman in a business suit walks past, her heels clicking against the marble, her face turned toward her phone.
Then Voss is in his penthouse. The perspective shifts as Voss moves, walking across the floor of his apartment to his kitchen and grabs a bottle of whiskey and pours two fingers worth into a glass. Voss takes a swig and then walks back to the living room where Mingyu recognizes the space and the coffee table where Voss's body had been cracked open.
"We're back at the beginning," Chan notes."
In the memory, the doorbell chimes. Mingyu leans forward, his pulse quickening when he realizes this must be it - this has to be the moment the killer entered the apartment. The image flickers and static washes across the holoscreen, distorting the feed. When it clears, the perspective has put Voss back in the living room again as the sound of the doorbell loops.
"It's corrupting," Chan notes, hitting a few buttons on his tablet. "Fuck, it's going to fry."
"Push it anyway. We're right there."
Chan obeys but the containment unit's hum rises to a high-pitched whine as warnings flash across the screen about the Core overheating. The holoscreen sharpens but Mingyu lets out an angry sound when he sees the memory loop back to Voss walking into the apartment building again, ignoring Martinez at the door as he heads for the elevator. The feed glitches, harsh reds and blues blooming across the screen before Voss is back at the club again, with you leaning forward, your eyes piercing even in the corrupted feed.
"No, go back to the apartment!"
"I'm trying," Chan shoots back. "I told you, this thing is damaged and we've got way more out of it than expected."
Audio fragments layer over each other, the pounding bass of the club's music mixing with the ding of the elevator, and the doorman's greeting. It's a mess of sound, too much information compressed into too little time, the Core's final desperate attempt to dump everything before it dies.
"Come on," Chan mutters to himself, trying to sharpen the feed as the containment unit whines. "Fucking come on!"
The doorbell rings again and Voss walks toward the door as Mingyu leans closer, his heart beating in his throat. Voss reaches out with one hand toward the door and the holoscreen goes dark, the containment unit's light dying as the hum cuts off sharply. An acrid smell comes from the Core where it smokes, the electrical wiring fried, filling the air with a metallic, burnt smell.
"Dammit!" Mingyu swears, punching a fist down on the lab table. The containment unit rattles and Mingyu leans on his hands, head hanging between his shoulders as Chan tries to pry the dead, smoking Core out of the unit. "Fuck. Fuck."
"Well," Chan sighs. "At least I recorded it all."
Mingy lifts his head. "What?"
"The data. I recorded it while extracting." He raises his brows. "Do you think I'm an idiot? I put it on a backup file so at least what we have - even if it's fuck all - is on a drive. I can run some facial recognition on everyone who passed through the memory."
Mingyu straightens, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly. "How long?"
"Couple hours, maybe more. Go home, Detective. Get some rest. There's nothing more we can do for a few hours and you look like shit, man."
Mingyu wants to argue, wants to stay and watch the facial recognition run in real time, but he knows Chan is right. He's been awake for thirty-six hours straight, his body running on caffeine and adrenaline, and his mind is starting to blur at the edges. He nods once, sharp, and turns toward the door.
"I'll call you when I have something," Chan says.
Mingyu doesn't respond. He walks out of the lab, through the sterile white corridor, and back up the stairwell to his floor of the precinct. It's quieter upstairs now, most of the day shift gone with only a few officers still lingering at their desks as they pour themselves over paperwork and their own cases. Mingyu grabs his jacket from the back of his chair, hits the power button on his computer, and heads for the garage.
Fluorescent lights flicker above his head as he jogs down the concrete stairwell, footsteps loud and echoing. The air gets cold and damp as he descends, the rain seeping in through the shitty insulation and clinging to the walls. By the time he reaches the garage level, he feels the moisture in his shirt and hair, clinging to him like a heavy second skin.
The garage is mostly empty, making it easy to spot his bike near the back. It's sleek and shining in the reflection of the light fixture above it, black surface gleaming. It's the single most expensive thing that Mingyu owns and his most prized possession, hours of learning how to take care of it and fix it because tune ups are out of his pay range poured into the machine.
He swings a leg over it and removes the helmet from where it hangs on the handle bars, popping it over his head where a cyan heads up display appears across the face shield. He presses the start button and the bike roars to life under him, vibrating as he nudges the footstand and rolls forward, twisting the throttle until he's coasting through the garage.
Rain hits him as soon as he hits the street level, cold and rushing off his helmet in neon rivulets. The streets are slick as glass beneath him, reflecting the towers of the city on either side of the road, ripping as he gasses it and his bike tears through the street.
He cuts through the lower districts and side streets, avoiding the elevated highways where there's always traffic and road closures because some rich asshole has paid a heavy fee for an expedited drive somewhere. Down here, the world is just like Mingyu likes it, all cracked pavement and burnt out street lights, the flickering holographic advertisements advertising very illegal clinics that he ignores because so long as they're not murdering anyone, he doesn't have time to care.
Mingyu doesn't go straight home, too wired to do anything but pace the walls of his tiny apartment in silence. Instead, he cuts into a mixed commercial district a few blocks from his apartment, heading for a stretch of storefronts and vendors that stay open late.
Above, the rain has softened to a drizzle, misting the air as he kills the engine and walks the bike forward to the curb before setting it on the kickstand. He pops the helmet off and takes it with him this time, not stupid enough to leave it unguarded downtown like he might in the garage of a police precinct.
He walks past a pawn shop with bars on the windows, the display cluttered with outdated neutral interfaces, cracked holoscreen displays and retro computers. The shop is closed, but he can see the security bot inside, patrolling as it tips back and forth while driving over uneven flooring.
Next to the pawn shop is a laundromat he's intimately familiar with from the apartment he lived in just two blocks away. In his earlier days on the job, he'd sit here on Sundays and listen to the machines hum, thankful for the warmth in the winter from the exhaust vents while he poured over cases and bitch work given to him until he could earn his keep.
Mingyu keeps walking, passing a convenience store with flickering signs and people that move with hunched shoulders against the drizzle. No one pays him much mind, everyone too preoccupied with their own lives as they scuttle along like beetles.
The automatic door of the 24-hour market hisses when Mingyu ducks in. Bright lights make him squint as he walks the aisle filled with bright neon prices and advertisements calling to him, products ranging from everything to instant meals, cigarettes and cheap liquor to disposable razors and batteries. A clerk sits behind the counter, scrolling through a tablet, ignoring Mingyu entirely.
Mingyu doesn't mind. He picks up a pack of ramen, a bottle of cold coffee from the refrigerated section, a pack of cigarettes, and a pack of caffeine gum in cherry flavor that he likes to chew late at night on the job for an extra kick of energy. The clerk rings him up without comment and Mingyu pays with his phone before scooping his things and heading back outside into the drizzle.
Pausing, he tears open the new pack of cigarettes with his teeth, rolling the plastic and tossing it into the trash. Fishing one out, he sticks it between his lips and searches for a lighter for a few seconds before lighting it and taking a deep drag, feeling his lungs expand as they feel with acrid smoke.
Mingyu can't help but think about you in Voss's memory, the dancer with the sharp gaze who appeared twice. It isn't much, but it can't be a coincidence - coincidences don't exist in Mingyu's line of work. He knows the city is full of people moving through the same spaces and crossing paths without meaning, but seeing you multiple times in Voss's memory is something.
The butterfly effect is a principle chaos theory that states that small, seemingly insignificant changes in initial conditions can trigger massive, unpredictable, and vastly different outcomes in complex systems.
Mingyu sucks in another drag and blows the smoke out in a sigh. As much as he hates for his killer to be right about anything, Mingyu feels instinctually that you are, that something about you has caused a ripple effect. He just needs to figure out how and why.
He finishes the cigarette and drops it, grinding it out under his heel while the smoke lingers in his lungs for a minute. Shuffling the bag in his arms, he heads back toward where he parked his bike, passing by a noddle stand on the corner with steam rising and the smell of frying garlic and chili oil cutting through the damp air. Mingyu considers stopping, but he's not hungry. He just needed to be somewhere that wasn't the station or his apartment.
Back at the bike, he opens the seat and dumps his belongings in the compartment before swinging back on and pulling his helmet on. The drive to his apartment is slow and winding, cutting through back alleys and misting rain until he's parking in the cracked-concrete garage and taking the stairs up to the fourth floor.
Mingyu shoulders into the apartment after unlocking the door, immediately toeing off his boots while he locks the door behind him. It's not much - just one room, a kitchenette, a bathroom with a shower that barely works and has no hot water, and one large window that overlooks the street, the view mostly obscured by the constant rain.
He sets the bag on the counter and pulls out the ramen before going through the motions, boiling water and tearing into the sauce packet with his teeth, mind far away from his little corner of the world while he thinks about you again, a thread among the chaos - a beat of a butterfly's wings, maybe.
-
Mingyu jolts awake in the dim glow of his apartment, his heart hammering against his ribs. The ringing that cuts through the haze is distorted and confusing until he realizes there's a small green hologram lighting up over his phone. He fumbles for it, hand knocking over his reading glasses, his pistol, and the tablet he'd been using to research the stupid butterfly effect again.
Chan's name displays as the phone continues ringing, lighting up the world as Mingyu fumbles to answer. "Hello?
"You sound like hell," Chan replies, the sound of a keyboard in the background. "Facial rec pulled a hit on that woman from Voss's memory. Cross-referenced with club surveillance feeds from the entertainment district, looks like she's a performer at the club Wings. High end joint."
Mingyu leans against his headboard, running a hand over his face. The single window in his unit lets in the never-ending neon glow from outside, casting dull patterns across his bedroom. He hears the rain tapping against the glass, a constant companion.
"Wings. Got it. Send me the address."
"On it. It's in the mid-tier entertainment strip near the old elevated line. I recommend caution. It's on the mid-tier strip but it leans high end - the entertainment there aren't standard rentals."
"Name?"
"Looks like the stage name might be Psyche."
Mingyu frowns as he gets out of bed and grabs a dirty pair of jeans off the floor to shove one leg in, jamming the phone between his face and his shoulder.
"Like the wife of Cupid?"
"Seems that way."
"Anything else?
"Clean on the surface. No priors, no traffic tickets. Nothing."
"Well his memory showed her twice. Can't be random."
Chan sighs. "I'm inclined to agree. Like I said, be careful. Security at these places crack skulls first and ask questions later. You don't have money for a new Skin."
"Heard. Talk later."
Mingyu finishes getting dressed, his heart hammering the entire time. This is the thread - the butterfly's wingbeat. He can feel it in his gut, something sharpening into something purposeful, an instinct that has led him on every hunt for a killer he's been on.
He moves quickly, pulling on a long-sleeved shirt that smells like sweat and cologne, pulling on boots with loose laces, and tucking his gun in the back of his pants before hiding it with the hem of his shirt. He tucks a badge in his pocket, and heads out of the room, knocking his shin against the corner of the bed and cursing loudly.
At the door, he grabs his helmet and heads out into the hall, nearly jogging as he takes the steps down to street level two at a time. Rain greets him outside, making his shirt cling to his frame as he straddles his bike. The engine roars to life, HUD on his helmet flickering alive with the address overlay. He twists the throttle and tears into the night, tires slicing through puddles.
The ride blurs into a streak of neon and the lower streets give way to the mid-level sprawl, where wealth brushes against grit. Autonomous cabs hum past, their passengers hidden behind tinted fields. Elevated tracks arc overhead, sparks occasionally flying from aging mag-rails. Mingyu leans into turns, the bike's vibration thrumming through his bones, chasing away the last dregs of fatigue.
By the time he pulls up to the curb outside Wings, the rain eases to a misty veil, but the air hangs heavy with the smell of gas and rusting metal, a permanent smell that never really seems to leave.
He parks the bike on a side street and heads toward the front door of the club, uncaring that he's a bit damp and messy. The club is impossible to miss, the facade bright with iridescent panels that shift colors under a massive holographic marque that reads: WELCOME TO WINGS, WHERE FANTASIES TAKE FLIGHT.
Security drones hover discreetly at the entrance, red scanner lights sweeping patrons as they stand in line. The line is mostly men who look better dressed than Mingyu, umbrellas in hand to keep the rain off their backs as a security guard stands at the door checking IDs and taking money.
Mingyu gets in line and ignores the way the others look at him, tucking his helmet under his arm. He's bouncing with energy now, craning his neck to look up at the holograms above, dancers in all manner of fantasy writhing and twisting in shades of fuchsia and red and lavender.
It takes about ten minutes to reach the door where a security guard with one augmented eye looks at him, his lens turning cyan as he scans Mingyu. He holds out his hand for an ID, which Mingyu hands over immediately.
"Cover is two hundred creds. If you want a private room, see the bar. Private rooms start at five hundred."
"Two hundred?" He asks, feeling himself stall out. "Fucking hell."
"Pay or get out."
Grumbling, Mingyu takes out his phone and transfers over the credits, swallowing thickly when he sees how close it brings him to the negatives. He's not sure this qualifies for reimbursement at the station, but he's going to file it anyway.
"Head in. Any trouble and you're out."
Mingyu steps by as the door hisses open. Inside, the air is thick with the scent of engineered pheromones being pumped in through the vents with the smell of liquor. Bass pumps through the room, vibrating through the floor and up his spine. The main floor sprawls under a vaulted ceiling alive with projected constellations that shift in real-time, stars turning as though the club is spinning in time with the world's real rotation.
Dancers move with unnatural grace, and it takes Mingyu a moment to realize that all of them have wings. He spots one with dragonfly wings that glitter as she spends, refracting light. Another has raven wings, inky black even as she twists around a pole under cyan light.
He hadn't expected the theme to be so literal, but he's glad that the wings are wearables and not uncanny body mods. He slinks through the room between patrons, noting the privacy feels that shimmer in the distance to hide the VIP booths from prying eyes. The private rooms are further back, a neon sign above a shadow hall with fly away above it.
Mingyu's eyes scan methodically, cutting through the sensory overload. He clocks exits, security nodes embedded in the walls, the faint hum of surveillance drones disguised as decorative moths fluttering near the ceiling. No sign of you yet, though, so he drifts toward the bar, ordering a cheap synth-whiskey to blend in, the glass cool against his callused fingers. The liquid burns familiarly as he sips, eyes never still.
Then he sees you and the world slows down a little.
You emerge from a side alcove onto one of the elevated platforms framed by gossamer curtains that part around you, moved by some sort of air effect. You're wearing delicate butterfly wings, spans of translucent fabric that looks like real membrane catching the light. You're dressed in minimal strips of iridescent material, accentuating each one of your curves while leaving the wings unobstructed.
Just like in Voss's memories, it's your eyes that make Mingyu freeze. It carries the same piercing quality as you dance, cutting through the room. It's not the same hazy allure of the other dancers, but something more focused like a predator among pretty things.
Butterfly wings. It makes him go cold, the butterfly effect audio recycling through his head over and over as he watches you dance, your wings fluttering. Despite being fake, they look real, catching the light as you shimmer, more beautiful than anything else he's ever seen.
Mingyu finishes his drink and sets it down harshly as he turns to the bar and hails down a bartender to ask for a private room. The bartender slides over a tablet and Mingyu scrolls until he finds your stage name - Psyche - and nearly vomits the whiskey back up when he sees the price.
"Eight hundred credits for thirty minutes?" He growls. He curses under his breath and charges it to his credit card, knowing he's never going to pay it off before it gains sixty percent interest. "Better be fucking worth it."
A room number flashes on the screen and he memorizes it before stalking off toward the hallway of private rooms, glancing at your platform as he does. You tilt your head, hand going briefly to your ear before turning to get off the platform. It's then that he realizes you have an ear piece in. He files that piece of information away.
The private room is small and blessedly clean, the seats plush with a low table in front of them. He throws himself down and shivers, the room unnaturally cold. He glances around but sees no clock or anything else in the room except a private bar which he knows will cost extra, so he doesn't dare, instead staring at the door until it opens.
Mingyu's heart starts to hammer as you slide into the room, sitting up straighter. It doesn't occur to him that up until this morning, he's never done this before. The realization makes him nervous, palms sweaty as you slink toward him, smiling and tilting your head.
"New face," you greet, sliding onto the seat next to him. You lean against the seat, facing him as you cross one leg over the other. "Pretty face."
Up close, the details on your face come into sharp focus: faint iridescence on your skin like starlight, the scent of jasmine and amber, pretty eyes that swallow him whole.
"Looking to forget the rain outside?" You ask him, voice sweet and soft. "I can fix that."
Mingyu leans back, forcing a lazy smirk that does not reach his eyes. He plays the part - client with creds to burn, interest piqued by the exotic. "Something like that."
A small smile tugs your lips. "What do you want tonight? Escape? Or just a pretty distraction?"
"Distraction sounds good. Start with a dance, yeah?"
If you sense his confidence is feigned, you don't show it. You stand, the wings spreading wide behind you, catching the low light and refracting it into soft gradients of color. The music shifts to something slower and heavier, the bass making Mingyu's skin itch. You move with practiced precision, hips swaying as you step closer, one hand trailing along the back of the couch.
Mingyu's breath catches. He reminds himself it's the job and that he's here for information, not this. But his body doesn't listen as he becomes hyper aware of you, his fingers twitching as he fights not to jump out of the booth and away from you. It's not that he's bad with women - he's not - but this is new to him, never having paid for a moment of attention this intimate and sensual.
You turn your back to him now, the wings folding slightly as you lower yourself onto his lap. The weight of you is real and solid, warm through the thin fabric of his clothes. You roll your hips slowly and Mingyu's hands grip the edge of the couch to keep from reaching for you or pushing you off - he's not entirely sure which.
Your hair brushes his jaw as you lean back, your head tilting to rest near his shoulder, and he feels the heat of your breath against his neck. He can't help but shiver, the smell of your jasmine and amber so overwhelming he feels his lashes flutter.
"You're tense," you murmur. "Relax."
He can't. His mind is racing, cataloging details like the way you move, the control in every gesture, the sharpness in your eyes when you glanced at him earlier. This isn't just a performance. There's something calculated about it, something that doesn't match the soft, breathy voice you're using now.
You turn again, straddling him now, your knees pressing into the couch on either side of his hips. Your hands rest on his shoulders, fingers light, and you lean in close enough that he can see the faint shimmer of makeup on your eyelids, the way your pupils dilate in the low light.
"Better?" you ask, smiling.
Mingyu swallows. "Yeah."
You laugh, soft and knowing, and shift your weight, grinding down just enough to make his pulse spike. The wings flutter behind you, a distraction, a spectacle, and he realizes that's the point. You're good at this and he doesn't know why but he hates that it works on him, even if it's your job to do this, to pull focus, to keep the client's attention where you want it.
He clears his throat, forcing himself to focus. "You're good at what you do."
"I know," you whisper, tilting your head so that your breath fans against his ear. "Don't you want to touch me?
"Actually, I uh - want to ask you something."
You pull away from him and though your smile doesn't falter, your eyes shift. "That's expensive."
"No," Mingyu protests quickly, grabbing you and pushing you back a little. You flinch when he touches you and he lets go immediately. "Sorry, I don't want to like - that."
"Okay. Then what do you want?"
"You know Harlan Voss?"
It's the wrong question to ask. Your entire body goes rigid and your eyes lock onto his as your delicate persona shatters immediately. What's left is sharp, cold, and predatory. Mingyu's pulse spikes as you get off of him and put space between you, your eyes icy.
"Who the fuck are you?" you ask. Your real voice is a little deeper than the breathy rasp you'd used moments ago. "And what the fuck do you want?"
Mingyu holds up his hands. "I just need to ask you a few questions-"
"Get the fuck out."
"Listen, I'm not here to cause trouble-"
You hit a button he didn't see near the door and the door opens immediately. Mingyu makes a sound of protest when he sees a security guard appear at the door, his eyes glancing between the two of you.
"Problem?" He asks.
"He needs to leave. Now."
Mingyu stands slowly, adrenaline cutting through the tension in his body. His pulse is still elevated from the dance, from the heat of your body on his lap. He pulls the badge from his pocket and the security guard stiffens further. So do you, taking a step away from him again.
"You need a warrant, buddy."
"Detective Kim. Homicide. I'm investigating a murder, and I need to ask her some questions."
"I don't give a fuck who you are," you seethe. "Get out."
He sighs. "Can we just-"
"Get a warrant," you snarl, barring your teeth at him like something feral.
Mingyu realizes you're afraid of him. Not like someone caught in a lie or someone caught with their hand on the gun, but like someone who is cowering, like he might strike. He thinks it's odd, watching as you shake, eyes wide and trembling.
He could push. He could insist, make this official, drag you down to the station for questioning. But something in him softens, and he pockets the badge, raising his hands. "I'll leave. No trouble."
The security guard steps aside and Mingyu walks toward the door as he looks at you one last time. Your wings are still spread wide, trembling slightly, and your eyes are locked on him. There's fear there, yes, but something else too. Recognition. Guilt. Something. Before he can decide what, the security guard steps between you and cuts off Mngyu's line of sight, ushering him into the hallway.
With a loud shout that's lost to the pound of music, you slam the door. Mingyu sighs, staring at the door for a few minutes before he turns and walks back through the club, the music vibrating through the walls as he winds past the stages and the strobing lights. His mind is stuck on you, of course. The terror. The gaze. The butterfly wings.
The butterfly effect is a principle chaos theory that states that small, seemingly insignificant changes in initial conditions can trigger massive, unpredictable, and vastly different outcomes in complex systems.
He pushes through the front door and into the rain, the cold hitting him sharply. Mingyu shivers but stands outside the door, letting the rain cut through him, washing away the smell of jasmine and amber, clearing his mind a little.
You know something. Mingyu doesn't know what, but he's sure of it. You're the butterfly at the root of it all, and now he just needs to know the cause of the effect.
genre: rivals to lovers, angst, smut, assassin!au, dystopian!au, cyberpunk!au
rating: M (18+)
warnings: warnings will vary by part; blood/bleeding; vomiting; mentions of murder/killing/death; both reader and chan are assassins so there will be killing going forward; if you are uncomfortable with descriptions of violence this is not for you; morally grey characters abound; we're starting with angst and it's gonna get worse; amnesia as plot; use of cybernetics; eventual smut; told in alternating pov's; use of nickname - sable (for reader)
word count: 4.4k
disclaimers: nsfw, I don’t own SVT - they just inspire me
summary: when a job goes bad, elite assassin lee chan ends up the victim of a botched memory wipe. lost on the streets of new seoul and in need of help, he turns to the only person he can remember - just a face, a name, and a feeling. you have no idea why a rival assassin is begging on your doorstep, but agree to help him, thinking it will be an opportunity to steal his clients. but when the client who ordered the memory hit learns he hasn't been wiped, they target you both. can you trust chan enough to work together to save yourselves? or will you lose more than just your memories?
a/n: hello and welcome to another installment of "sunny can't resist a collab." i keep joking that i need to be physically restrained from joining another collab but i'm not sure it's a joke any more 🤡 anyway this is part 1 of what i'm hoping will be a whole little world that you'll want to dive into. the idea came from picturing chan out in the rain begging for it soooooo let that set the vibe here💕
written for the @studiosvt cyberpunk: reload collab. unbeta'd as usual. dividers by @/saradika-graphics. if you like this one, please let me know! 💕
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CHAN'S POV:
Drip.
Drip.
Chan twitches in his sleep. Something keeps hitting his face.
Drip.
He opens one eye. There’s water dripping through a hole in the tarp above him, directly above his head. He sits up, immediately alarmed. Why is he sleeping under a tarp?
A flickering neon sign for a nearby bar side entrance provides him with enough light to take in his surroundings. He’s lying on the hard cement beneath a makeshift tent behind a dumpster, in the corner of a dead-end alley. It’s dark, and it’s raining, and his head is fucking killing him. Gingerly, he touches a spot behind his right ear, where pain throbs the hardest.
Instantly he regrets it, leaning over to vomit onto the wet pavement beside him. Then he glances at his fingertips. They’re covered in blood.
Chan doubles over again, clutching his temples. His head feels like it’s about to split in two. What the fuck happened to him? He rocks in place until the pressure subsides enough that he can open his eyes again, at which point he examines himself. His shirt’s torn and splattered with red splotches. There are cuts and scratches all over his arms, and his knuckles are scraped to hell. He wipes grit from the concrete off his face and pats down his pockets. Empty.
Was he in a fight? Maybe he was robbed. That would explain why he doesn’t have anything on him. Did someone beat him for whatever he had? If only he could remember, but he can’t… he can’t…
He can’t remember anything. Pulse spiking, Chan leans against the dumpster, forcing himself to breathe slowly. He needs to calm down and assess the situation. Figure out where he is and if he’s safe there before he tries to recall what happened to him. If he’s too exposed here, or too trapped, he needs to move.
Wait. Why is that his first instinct?
He squeezes his eyes shut, blocking out the rain, the buzzing light, quickly focusing his mind on what he is absolutely sure he knows, without a trace of doubt. His name is Lee Chan. He’s from New Seoul. Is that where he is now?
SYSTEM REBOOT
“Augh!” Chan yells, grabbing his head again. “What the fuck?!”
SYSTEM ACTIVE. WARNING: CRITICAL DAMAGE SUSTAINED.
His stomach heaves again. He spits to clear the taste of bile from his mouth. The CARAT interface in his brain has rebooted. Reflexively, he attempts to access his memories, stored on the implant, but when he reaches out, he hears a message in his head from the same synthetic voice as before.
REQUEST DENIED. SYSTEM DIAGNOSIS IN PROCESS.
He’ll have to figure out the system later - he’s still hunched behind a dumpster with a wall to his back. If he stays here much longer, he’s a sitting duck. For whom, he doesn’t quite know, but he feels compelled to follow his instincts. They’re probably why he’s still alive.
He staggers to his feet, only takes one step forward before cursing. “Fuck!” He hadn’t noticed the wound in his left leg earlier, too distracted by the pain in his head. There’s a gash in his thigh, visible beneath a giant tear in his pants, like someone swiped at him with a blade. It doesn’t look like the work of a cyblade, thank fuck, but it still hurts like a motherfucker.
Bing!
A gentle chime sounds in his head.
SYSTEM DIAGNOSIS COMPLETE. ERROR INCURRED DURING MEMORY CORE COMMAND SEQUENCE EXECUTED AT 13:27 PM TODAY. DAMAGE SUSTAINED.
“What command sequence?” Chan queries inside his head.
UNABLE TO DETERMINE.
Chan furrows his brows. That shouldn’t be possible - the implant’s diagnostics should be able to recall every command he’s ever given to the system. He’s 100% sure of that.
“How much damage?” He braces himself for the answer.
58% OF MEMORY CORE CORRUPTED. UNABLE TO ACCESS CORRUPTED CONTENTS.
The memory core in his implant stores his entire life’s worth of memories - everything he can remember prior to implantation and everything he’s ever done since. Right now, he’s got literal holes in his memory. No wonder his brain feels like swiss cheese.
Unfortunately, whatever happened at 1:27 today to leave him badly beaten and sleeping in the rain happens to be one of those holes.
BANG!
The slamming of the door to the bar closing ricochets off the walls in the alley like a bullet. Chan jolts, shrinking into the shadows as best he can, sharp gaze narrowing in on a drunken patron swaying their way towards the street. Chan needs to find a better place to hide, where he can tend to his wounds while he figures out what to do about his interface. He tests his leg, finding out how much weight it can bear before it begins to buckle, and then he creeps towards the end of the alleyway.
He’s relieved to recognize the neighborhood he’s in, though most in his position would likely be alarmed to find themselves here - especially without any sort of protection. He’s in one of the many slums of old New Seoul, where dilapidated, nearly crumbling buildings from the previous century line the streets, and the airspace is crammed full of fluttering ad drones flashing obnoxiously bright advertisements, bathing the sky in an eternal neon glow day all night long. This isn’t a place where most people would want to conduct business, let alone live.
Unless they had no other choice.
It must be sometime in the early hours of the morning, because many of the stores are shuttered, their heavy metal shields covered in electric shock warnings, meant to deter transients and thieves alike. There are multiple sirens going off in different directions around him, heralding the arrival of the armed forces that patrol this area - not to protect the residents, but to protect the corporations that have stakes here from the syndicates that run the slums.
But he’s familiar with this particular section of town, enough to know to turn left out onto the street. There’s a place he’s been to before, about three blocks from here. A place that’s safe. He tries to recall why he knows that, and a face floats into his mind as his memory interface engages. He pauses for a second, ducking into the doorway of an abandoned business to get out of the rain, and leans against the rusted solid metal door there, buried under layers of graffiti, but thankfully not electrified.
“YN,” he whispers. That’s your name. It’s your place that he’s stumbling towards. And then he visualizes it, perfectly recreating the path in his mind. He thinks again of your face. Your eyes. But when he tries to recall more about you, he can’t. Another gap in his memory. But something stirs in his chest when he pictures your face, and again he feels that unshakable certainty.
He follows the feeling. It leads him down streets that are mostly deserted, only a few electric motos zooming by as he slowly progresses down the sidewalk. The people he passes are mostly inebriated, either drunk or high on something, and in their own little worlds. A few of them appear to be surfers, riding along on a designer drug called Wave, and Chan knows innately to keep his distance. Surfers can be dangerous to be around in their altered states. He avoids attracting attention to himself, a skill that he knows he’s taken care to develop, even if he isn’t sure why.
At the next block, he waits on the corner for a moment, shivering as the rain soaks into his tattered clothes. Across the street sits a row of old tenements, each apartment building leaning on the others around it like brothers-in-arms, preventing one another from collapse. He heads towards one of the buildings in the center, for a familiar-looking door. The door is locked, of course. He doesn’t have a key, nor does he have any tools to help him open it. But he has adrenaline, and a very persistent desire to survive, so he grits his teeth and kicks the door in.
He stumbles, then kind of falls into a heap inside the doorway, and curses up a storm from the pain. He’d give his useless leg for some painkillers right now, or a bottle of liquor - any kind, he’s not feeling particularly picky at the moment. He hopes you have something strong that he can take before he starts dressing his wounds.
Who are you to him, that he assumes you’re going to help him?
He drags his fingers along the wall as he walks into the darkness in front of him, searching for a switch, but as soon as he’s far enough away from the light of the city behind him, his ocular implants activate night mode. There’s a long hallway in front of him, with boarded up doors on either side, and the stairwell heading upstairs is barricaded. He knows the place he’s seeking isn’t here - this is just a shortcut. He walks down the hallway, the floor sloping downward for a while before it rises towards a door at the other end, lit by a small band of light through the cracks. He rams this door too when he reaches it, until it spits him out into a little courtyard.
He’s relieved to find there’s no one else in the courtyard this time of night. It’s an open-air courtyard, surrounded on the other three sides by the walls of other old buildings. Someone’s turned it into a greenspace - a few square feet of some ferns and other leafy plants, and in the very center, a Korean red pine growing tall. Trees are so rare in old New Seoul that he can’t help but divert his mission to approach the pine, and run his hand over the twisted trunk. Huh. The roughness of the bark is familiar under his touch. Something happened to him here. The memory is missing, but his fingertips remember for him.
Suddenly, he sways, and has to let the tree hold him up for a moment. His leg’s been bleeding while he’s been walking - how much blood has he lost by now? He’s gotta get inside before he passes out. He continues on his way, a little slower than before, to the corner on the right, where two of the buildings meet. He doesn’t have to force the door here, a fire exit with a blinking blue light above the frame.
Inside the tenement is another hallway, this one lit so brightly by floating ads that he has to shield his eyes for a few seconds until his night mode disengages automatically. These old buildings aren’t on the same grid as the tenements in the newer sections of the city and don't have ad screens built into the walls like those places do. Ad drones are programmed to follow tenets into the buildings, but they are notorious for getting stuck inside, buzzing around the overhead fluorescents like electric moths. Chan swats at an annoying soju ad that keeps strafing his left ear, and it careens into the wall, smashing into tiny pieces.
The elevator doesn’t want to take him anywhere without a keycode, but it uses an old electrical system that’s mostly wires, and he’s always been good with wires. He rests against the panel of the elevator as it rises, and glances at his reflection in the filthy cracked mirror on the back wall.
His face is coated in red splatters to match his shirt. He steps closer, touching his face, searching for cuts. Other than the incredibly sore spot behind his ear, he doesn’t appear to have any other wounds on his head. He’s covered in someone else’s blood.
Shouldn’t that alarm him?
The elevator lets him out on a dimly lit floor that is somehow free from the ad drones. There are a few transients in here, lying on the ground in different relaxed positions. Surfers, coming down from their highs. He gives them their space, heading directly for the door at the end of the hall. There’s nothing on the door to distinguish it from the others, but Chan’s certain this is the one he wants.
He raises his hand to knock, and his head suddenly spins. He loses his balance, falling forward into the door. Before he can regain his balance, it opens.
He collapses in the doorway, barely able to crane his neck enough to look up into the beautiful face of an angel, lit by a soft blue neon glow. Wait, is he dying?
The angel speaks.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
READER’s POV:
As days go, today’s been a little… off.
It starts as usual. Around 4:00 pm, you wake. Afternoon is your morning. Your lifestyle is more suited for the nighttime. Good thing you were born a night person, preferring the dark to the light.
You feel refreshed from sleep, but are reminded by a tender ache on your cheek that you’re not quite healed yet. Your last assignment lingers in the bruises on your body, unfortunate reminders that you’ll be happy to see fade. It wasn’t your best work, but you got the job done in the end. And you’d love to move on, except your liaison has been awfully quiet lately. You consider checking in with him while in the shower, rubbing yourself down with soap before turning the lever for a fifteen-second rinse. Why not pamper yourself a little today with a long shower?
Unfortunately, the shower timer glitches, and you only get the usual ten seconds. You throw on a tank top, then a stretched-out long-sleeved shirt cropped below your chest over that, and a pair of leggings. At least making your breakfast goes better, and you carry your cup of instant noodles and a chunk of cheese outside.
One of the perks of living in one of the oldest tenements in old New Seoul is that your apartment comes with an attached outdoor space in the form of a tiny patio. You’ve got a flimsy metal chair in the corner, where you sit and soak up some vitamin D before the sun sets - as long as the smog warnings don’t force you back inside first.
This evening, there’s a blue cat waiting for you by the chair. You hold out your hand for her to sniff, and she lowers her head, allowing you to lightly scritch her ears.
“Morning, Ash.”
Ash meows, and waits for you to sit before bumping her head against your leg. You break up the chunk of cheese and toss it onto the ground for your favorite stray to nibble on, then turn your attention to the view around you.
Your tenement is buried in a maze of buildings in the heart of old New Seoul. There are more windows than you can count surrounding you. More neighbors than you could possibly ever hope to meet, if you were the type of person to meet your neighbors. The city is loud, the voices of all these neighbors rising into the air to join the drones, and the birds, flocks of pigeons who land on your railing, uninterested in anything but picking at your crumbs. Ash chases them away while you listen to the chaotic call of your city.
You love it here. New Seoul’s been pretty good to you, considering you do not do good things. Not that you see anything wrong with taking lives in order to keep living yours. Everyone makes their choices, and everyone has to deal with the consequences.
You are simply a consequence that they never see coming.
After breakfast, you do your workout, a combination of stretches and cardio intended to limber you up and increase your stamina. It’s important that you keep in shape, because you never know when you’ll need to fight - or run. It starts to rain as you’re finishing up, and keeps coming down steadily for hours.
While you listen to the raindrops hitting your window, you connect to your console, and access Nyx, a private online channel where people with your particular skills can find work. To your frustration, you’ve no new messages from Joshua. What is the point of using a liaison if he’s not going to connect you to any job offers?
You’ve only started using him in the last few months as a connection for work because things have been so quiet lately. It’s not that the market is drying up, necessarily - if anything, your industry is bustling as society continues to crumble around you and people are willing to do whatever it takes to succeed. But competition’s been picking up as more people turn to murder-for-hire as a way to make a few credits, willing in their desperation to bend their morals to the breaking point. If Joshua’s not going to help you get your name out there, then maybe you need to find someone else who can.
You’re scrolling through profiles of other liaisons when your hall monitor sends you an alert. A techhead friend of yours, Junhui, set you up with a system to track any unusual movement on your floor. It’s an impressive array of old-school tech, consisting of motion sensors in strategic spots, along with CCTV cameras aimed at your door. It works without the grid, and it keeps you safe.
There are always surfers in your hallway, since your next-door neighbor Mingyu deals. He’d been the one to explain the term to you - that “surfing” was a sport where people used oval-shaped boards to ride ocean waves. It’s a sport that’s been lost to time, swallowed by the rising tides that have claimed most of the beaches on the planet. These surfers tend not to move so much, but your motion sensors have been calibrated to account for them anyway. A glance at your camera’s feed confirms that it’s not one of them, but rather your best friend Minghao making his way to your door. He’s dressed in a black leather jacket, cycle helmet in one hand and a plastic bag in the other.
You greet him with a warm smile. Minghao’s eyes zero in on the purple splotch beneath your right eye, and he sighs.
“Thought I did a better job of teaching you how to duck than that.”
“I did duck. That’s when they kneed me in the face,” you inform him, locking your door behind him. You have multiple physical and electronic locks, so the process takes a few seconds. Can’t be too careful in your line of work. “So shut up.”
Minghao shakes his head. “No. C’mere.”
He sets his things down on your kitchen unit counter, and opens his arms. You make a face at him, but step into his embrace. He wraps his arms around you, squeezing tight, and you hug him back, resting your head on his shoulder.
Minghao’s the closest thing you have to family. The two of you found each other when you were both way too young to be living on your own. You taught him how to steal. He taught you how to fight. Together, you survived.
“I’m glad you’re here,” he tells you, and you hum in reply. He says that every time he sees you again after you’ve completed a job. “I brought gimbap and soju.”
“Green grape?” you ask, in a playfully hopeful way, and he nods. He always spoils you by bringing your favorites. You’d asked him about it once, and he said he liked taking care of you, in that quietly serious way of his.
You think about that a lot.
Your apartment is a little bigger than the modern tenements’ living units, but it’s still not very large, consisting of two small rooms and an even smaller bathroom with a single stall shower and toilet. The front room contains a kitchen unit, two-chair table, and couch, facing a projection wall that you keep turned off except for mandatory viewings. The other room is your bedroom. You have a full-sized bed and a tall clothing unit in there. It’s the bed that keeps you from moving to a more modern building. You can’t stand the tightness of sleeping pods, don’t understand how anyone could sleep while being compressed like that. You need your space.
Minghao hangs his jacket on the back of a chair, and the two of you sit to eat. You share the details of your last hit between shots of soju. This talk of hunting down a target is nothing new to him. After all, Minghao’s the one who introduced you to this line of work. He thought you’d flourish. He was right, as usual.
As you finish your tale, he shakes his head again, pouring you another round of shots. “I guess that could’ve gone worse. Remember the last time you went to Greater Tokyo?"
He raises his shot glass, and you clink yours against his before you toss yours back. He tilts his head, exposing his elegant neck as he drinks.
You wipe your mouth, nodding. “Yeah. I remember. But that was before I got these.” You raise your free hand, curling your fingers slightly. Tiny, razor-sharp blades extend from beneath your fingernails, then retract with the twitch of your muscles. “They helped.”
“I’m sure they did, Sable,” Minghao laughs, calling you by the nickname you picked up when you got your blades. Everyone finds you cute and unassuming when you’re not on a job, like a fluffy little sable. Everyone always underestimates the sharpness of your claws. “So what’s next?”
“I don’t know,” you sigh, rising from the table to flop dramatically onto your couch. “No offers at the moment. Or leads.”
Minghao hums in sympathy, joining you. He crosses his legs, one boot over the other, and lies back against the saggy cushions. “Have you given any thought to my idea?”
You don’t answer, watching your friend as he sighs, relaxing into your couch. He closes his eyes, and you take the opportunity to observe him unnoticed. He looks tired, forehead creased beneath his blue hair, like waiting for your response is stressing him out. Maybe it is. Maybe you should just talk to him about it. After all, he’s family. If anyone would understand, wouldn’t it be him?
“I have been thinking about it,” you finally begin, slowly, “but I haven’t really come to any decision yet.”
Minghao opens his eyes. “How much longer do you need?” You shrug, and he sighs. “Look, I don’t want to lay out all the reasons I think we should leave New Seoul again. I’m really tired today, and I don’t feel like making my case one more time. But you cannot deny that things seem to be drying up around here.”
Again you shrug, not wanting to agree. If you admit that he’s right, then it will be harder to defend your desire to stay. Because you’re pretty sure that’s what you want.
He lets his head fall back against the back of your couch. He says your name, the real one, in a soft tone of voice. “Please. Think about it, okay? I know you don’t like the idea of starting over, but we’d be doing it together.”
There was a time when you thought you didn’t need anything else in the world, as long as you had Minghao. Things have changed.
BEEDOBEEDOBEEDO
At that moment, your hall monitor begins going insane, letting out a shrill, siren-like alert. Minghao sits up as you grab your console and pull up the camera feeds. That’s a very special alarm that’s going off right now, set up to monitor for very specific individuals.
“Who’s out there?” Minghao asks, leaning over your shoulder to view your screen.
The figure is still halfway down the hall, so you tap on another camera, and gasp. “Oh, fuck me!”
Minghao tugs on the console, trying to see better. “Is that - “
“The Neon Viper,” you nod, mouth set in a firm line. A rival assassin. What the fuck is Lee Chan doing on your floor? Is he here for you?
“Oh fuck,” Minghao agrees. “Get ready.”
You hand him the console, so you can run into your other room, and smash your hand on a tiny panel set into the wall. Part of the wall suddenly sinks in, retracting panels sliding opening to reveal a small array of weaponry. Another favor from Junhui. You grab your weapon of choice and smash the panel again to close the wall.
Minghao’s already waiting by the door, one hand on his hip, where his gun is holstered. He silently hands you the console, so you can check the cameras. Your rival, one of the deadliest assassins in all of New Seoul, is only a few feet from your door now. When he’s within knocking distance, he starts to lift his arm, then he suddenly lurches forward, barely catching himself on your door just in time.
“What the fuck - he can barely stand!” you whisper to Minghao. “He’s bleeding out on my door.”
“It could be a trick,” he warns, but you’ve already lit your cyblade, the electrified dagger humming to life as you nod to the door.
“Open it.”
Minghao sighs, but does as you say. There’s a weak shout from the other side as the wounded man falls over the threshold. The Neon Viper, so named for his ability to strike fast, like a fearsome serpent, lays in a trembling, wet heap at your feet, staining your carpet with his blood. What happened to him? More importantly, why is he here?
Chan weakly raises his head, and you point your cyblade at him. “What the fuck are you doing here?” you hiss.
“H-help m-me, please,” he manages to stammer out, before his eyes roll back in his head, and he passes out.
The hallway is quiet as you and Minghao stare at the unconscious man. When you finally glance at your friend, he looks as confused as you feel.
“Did he ask you to help him?” Minghao asks. You nod. “What the fuck.”
Yeah, today’s been off. And your night is only starting.
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--How are you? What do you do? Do you have kids as well?--
From someone I haven't seen in decades
no i don't have kids. there's not a man on the planet interested in me beyond a single night (maybe two if i'd be open to it) and certainly not to have kids with. i have had more jobs in the time we've been apart than the months that we knew each other.
feel how your breathing makes more space around you.
Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. As you ring,
what batters you becomes your strength.
Move back and forth into the change.
What is it like, such intensity of pain?
If the drink is bitter, turn yourself to wine.
In this uncontainable night,
be the mystery at the crossroads of your senses,
the meaning discovered there.
And if the world has ceased to hear you,
say to the silent earth: I flow.
To the rushing water, speak: I am.