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Yoosung Ryu-Norwood, 25. * ~ here to ruin cis normativity ~ * genderqueer | (he/they) "Check your lipstick before you come for me."

[xyla-v]

Fall was in full swing in New York and Xyla Villanueva was unprepared, as always. Dressed in only a pair of jeans, blouse and leather jacket, she cursed herself for not checking the weather as she left the warmth and comfort of her little apartment. Of course she picked one of the coldest days to leave. Of course. Xyla wandered the streets of Manhattan in search of a coffee shop, any coffee shop, that wasn’t full of patrons lining up for their annual taste of anything pumpkin spice. The odds seemed slim as she walked past shop after shop and saw nothing but full seats and orange decor. Finally giving up, Xyla turned on her heel, ready to go home, only to feel another body crash into her. 

“Fuck, sorry. I’m so sorry,” she said, holding out her hands in the attempt to catch the stranger if they were to fall. “Are you okay?”

[yoosungryu]

A sigh escaped his lips whilst Yoosung waited for the coffee order. He was glad that he definitely wasn’t the only one ordering the infamous pumpkin spice drink, though the urge to tell people that it wasn’t for himself was strong. It was the truth, after all. But he reminded himself that no one cared -- he’d really just make a fool out of himself if he made a scene like that and his therapist was trying to teach him to stop picking fights out of discomfort. Once he was handed the two drinks, he made sure the lids were securely placed on top of the cups and made his way out, only to instantly walk into another person.

He blamed that cursed pumpkin spice latte.

“You--” He cut himself off, reminding himself to be nice. He was fine, there was no need to get angry. “It’s okay.” He finally breathed out, though it took a lot of willpower to keep his voice steady. The ‘please don’t touch me’ was on the tip of his tongue, but he bit it to quiet himself once more. He was LEARNING. “Ah... Are you okay?”

[lovecarson-deactivated20201023]

“I can’t believe I just got fired…what am I supposed to do now…”

[yoosungryu]

“Honey, people get fired every day. It sucks, but it’s part of life.” Yoosung sighed and resisted the urge to roll his eyes. “It’s New York, there’s plenty of jobs available. Nothing to cry over, okay?”

[yoosungryu]

viviwestbrooke‌:

“That fancy stuff not your forte?” She guessed while blue eyes looked over his features for an answer. Lips twitching as he spoke the last sentence. It was so sweet and pure, in genuinely touched her. “Give and take. It’s a thing with love.”

“I guess I just never pictured myself having a fancy wedding. Or a wedding at all. I’ve always been focused on school and work, I wasn’t interested in dating or even having friends, really. It’s safe to say I had no control over this.” Yoosung replied with a slight smile. “It’s a big change -- kind of scary. Guess I’ll just have to trust that it’s going to work out. I can’t afford worrying about things going to shit. I really don’t want to go there.”

[yoosungryu]

hodaya-shapiro-91‌:

“Even though I’m in the film and tv industry and not the makeup industry, I still feel ya on the portfolios. Like it’s supposed to be a representation of your work. Yeah, my parent’s dog answers to anything, too, even though his name is Baraq. Well, I think it kinda stems from me not growing up with pets, but then, as I mentioned, my parents now have a dog. They adopted him after I moved out.” 

“Oh, yes, it was hard for me to ask for help as well. I mean, it’s supposed to represent me and I felt weird letting other people touch it, I guess. But I could use the extra tips and touch ups, so eventually I figured that as long as I approved of everything and was comfortable with how it looked, it was fine. Is that dog named after Obama or is that just a really common name? Sorry, I don’t know much about cultural stuff that isn’t Korean. I don’t even understand American culture. Skylar is technically European, which doesn’t help.”

[navya-rushdi-blog]

“I had a meeting with someone who was thinking about hiring me to match them with someone, only for the girlfriend to come and yell at me for being his mistress. I have a feeling that relationship won’t be lasting too long after that,” she took a long drink of her whiskey, looking over at the person beside them. “So how was your day?”

[yoosungryu]

“Oh girl, you’ve got a hell of a job.” Yoosung couldn’t help but chuckle -- a rare occurrence for the usually frigid blond. “You never know, maybe there was... ah... confusion over a threesome or something. Doesn’t sound like the girlfriend wanted to share, though.” He laughed again, amused as he tried to picture the scenario. “Me? Oh honey, it’s been a day. I don’t even like going out to bars, but Skylar is sober and needs to stay that way, so no alcohol is allowed in or near our house. Either way, I got a job at this agency and one girl had a complete mental breakdown when she saw her face. Like, darling, you can’t be a model if you can’t deal with the fact that sometimes you’ll have to wear makeup that you hate. I’m just doing my job.”

[yoosungryu]

What song do you want played at your funeral?

“That’s a bit of a morbid question. Ah... I don’t know. I think I’d just want to make people sit through a 3 hour movie, out of spite. I’m so bad with music. Maybe some classical stuff -- I don’t know what people play at funerals. I wasn’t allowed to go to my dad’s, so...”

[yoosungryu]

what's the latest thing that hurt you?

“Shit, Skylar almost dying. Maybe my mother moving back to South Korea without telling me. But I didn’t really want to see her, anyway, so maybe it’s for the best.”

[inblueroom]

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[yoosungryu]

viviwestbrooke‌:

“Hey, it may be legal but it don’t make it official till ya really feel it, I think. Ya gotta feel that shit, ya know? And even if it’s not a real ceremony, ya can still mark it with a nice dinner or somethin’.” She posed up the offered idea that rolled off the top of her head.

“Hmm, yes, I think it might take a while to feel or or even just get used to it. I think Skylar will want some big fancy wedding and I doubt I have much of a choice but to go along with it. I think he’s disappointed that we didn’t have that whole fairy tale moment with flower petals and shit. So maybe that’s something for the future. I’ve never really thought about that kind of stuff, but I think I’d be okay with it if it’s with him.”

[yoosungryu]

hodaya-shapiro-91‌:

“It’s funny, because I was looking at some makeup artist portfolios on Instagram, and I stumbled upon yours, and I would be honored to have you as my makeup artist. And yeah, I named him Onigiri, after the rice balls. He’s pure white, though. Yeah, David and I discussed it before we started looking on Petfinder. I would be annoyed if he brought an animal in without discussing it with me first.” 

“Really? I’ve worked on that portfolio for ages, I was hoping it would look good enough to show off my style. That means a lot, darling, thank you. That’s a cute name, I’m kind of regretting calling our dog Trashbag, but he listens to anything. Skylar found the animals in a box in some alley -- typical. But he just had to bring them home because they would have died, which isn’t something I can get mad about. I’m not that heartless.” 

[yoosungryu]

what's the meanest thing you've ever said to someone?

“I don’t say mean things. I just tell people the truth, darling.”

[yoosungryu]

[yoosungryu]

viviwestbrooke‌:

The more he divulged, the more she could wrap her own mind around the premise. “Ah, now that all makes sense. I’d say it’s pretty romantic, myself. Just cause you’re married doesn’t mean ya gotta change everythin’ anyways. And just think! When ya are ready, ya already did that step. If ya’d like ya could do another ceremony to celebrate it, too.”

“I... haven’t thought of it as romantic before.” Yoosung mused with a small frown. “Maybe because it caused so much stress. I’d love to have an actual wedding some day, even though I’d never really imagined myself getting married, but... I think I’d like to do that. Signing papers was the legal part, but it doesn’t feel very official.”

[yoosungryu]

charles-moron·:

“Fair enough.” Charles didn’t know what else to expect from this interaction. Obviously the other wasn’t looking to have a conversation but rather just to hear himself talk, at least that’s how Charles felt based on his attitude. “Well, enjoy the married life. I’m going to get back to my paper.”

Yoosung cleared his throat, barely able to keep himself from rolling his eyes. “I’m giving you advice and you’re just going to ignore it? That’s not very polite.” He said with a raise of his eyebrow. “I just mean that you have to make your own happiness.” Maybe he was being a hypocrite, for he knew he’d been completely miserable before he’d met Skylar, but the other didn’t have to know that.

[yoosungryu]

hodaya-shapiro-91‌:

“Oh,” said Hodaya. “Well, I don’t want to spoil the surprise of my dress. But let’s just say it wasn’t cheap. Yeah, his name is Onigiri. Aw, I guess Trashbag is kinda endearing.”

“Ah, of course.” Yoosung replied with a small smile. “Not to be forward or anything, but if you were still looking for a makeup artist, I hold myself available for the time being. Onigiri? The rice balls? That’s cute. Is he black and white? I wasn’t prepared for Skylar to bring any animals home, so I just... started calling him that, I guess.”

[yoosungryu]

[yoosungryu]

are there any downsides to married life?

“Downsides? Not really, nothing has really... changed. Isn’t that how it’s supposed to be? We’re working on better communication, I’ve started seeing a therapist. It’s terrifying, but I think we’re only getting better. Maybe the only downside is that I really have to get used to this last name. Not that I hate it, it just sounds... weird.”