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[dexfiles]

here is a star for everyone who’s not feeling their best today (🌟)

[justalineinasong0]

Billie Eilish - Bored

[tenwordstory]

“It’s kinda late and I’m a little drunk. My mind is spinning but you’re at the center like always. Cause I can not go a day without thinking about you and it makes me crazy. Why am I always thinking about you? Why am I so infatuated with you? I’m so fucked. Because you’re so goddam great and I don’t know if I can’t live up to it”

— a little drunk 6.28.14

[secretstream]

I realized that I’ve grown to “normalize” dad’s suicide. Not like, it’s totally a normal thing that happens, but like, I don’t think it’s an important thing that happened. And I realized that because I’ve been noticing lately, when I tell someone about it and they respond “i’m so sorry that happened” I’ve just been replying “yeah…” and then continuing my story or sentence without acknowledging that it was a painful thing, or even giving my dad’s pain a second thought. It’s like I’ve become so dead to the idea that losing him to suicide at such a young age, or even any age for that matter, was infact a tremendously bad thing that happened in my life. I used to use it as a way to get out of stuff or to get pity from people, but something changed at some point and now i’m just brushing past it as if i’m telling someone about a casual, everyday event or experience.

Once I realized this and sat with it all day, it opened some doors in my mind on why this could have happened. One reason is that there are many many people who, in the past couple of years have said things to me, or about me like “jeez, it’s been so long now. Do you still have to cry over it?” Or “god, move on already”. Now I get that people think that grief is a step by step process in which theres so kind of end, but I believe that the idea that “time heals all wounds” and “just get over it” have played a huge part in my inability to recognize our remember how horrible of a thing losing my Dad to suicide actually was. It’s been drilled into my head that I should have strong feelings about it because it’s been 16 years now and I should be over it. Another reason why this has happened is because no one in my family talks about it much. Especially not when it happened. And definitely not without also bringing up that he also was a very flawed person. This created the narrative that he was to blame for his demise and not the system and people around him that failed him. Over the years I’ve heard multiple people tell me that they knew that he was suicidal. They knew he was always talking about dying young. They sat with him countless times while he cried and talked about suicide. But not one of these people took him to the hospital. Not one of these people took him to a doctor. But all of these people have said “you can’t help people who don’t want to be helped” because I think that’s what they need to tell themselves so they can sleep at night.

Most people who have mental illnesses dont ask for, or want help because they don’t think they deserve it. They don’t even think that they deserve to eat, or be with their kids, or be awake. That’s why the world is failing people like my father. Like myself. Because we constantly reinforce the idea that people cant be helped if they dont want it. But they can be helped. And we need to start talking about it and teaching eachother that sometimes the thing that can help someone is persistence, unconditional love, support, and a hand on the back, gently pushing them forward when they are pushing back.

This is the last thing I realized.

I don’t want to not acknowledge his death anymore. I don’t want to brush past it. When someone offers me their condolences, i’m going to take it and sit in it for a minute. I’m going to give my dad the space he deserved in life. I’m going to use it to speak up for the ones that are deemed “unhelpable”. I want to do everything in my power to give space to people who have never been given the space they deserve.

I think I’ve finally realized what I’m going to do with this life I’ve been given. I want to leave the world a bit better than I found it.

[paciencia-y-fe]

If there’s one thing I hate is trying to find motivation to work while in a depressive anxious state.

[scum2000]

The last couple of weeks I have exploded out of my comfort zone. New social settings, a new job, new skills to learn and practice and hone, new clients, new work flow, new new new. Everyday I’m doing something else for the first time. And you know… it’s actually going well.

This last year has been monumental in terms of recovery and addressing the ways my mental health and past have created vicious cycles of thinking, self deprecation, lack of confidence. And I’m starting to see all of the work I’ve done pay off in terms of giving myself a larger threshold in handling daily life activities.

I’ve developed self soothing, been working on establishing healthy boundaries for my personal needs, developing daily habits to work towards a variety of goals, and an array of other really cool tools that help me every day.

I’ve never wanted to be more in my own life. This year is going to be a year of climbing incredible peaks, experiencing endless amounts of self love, and believing in my story and my ability to write it.

[colorful-habit]

me: *dissociates for no reason at all and spends the whole day zoned out, emotionless and unable to focus*

me: this is fine

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[ghostdog07]

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

[deathklaue]

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

[doryishness]

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

[victoriaringsinyourears]

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

[lenshade]

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

[themixedbagofwhat]

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

[wodkat]

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

[acstiel]

THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.

GUYS.

HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER

20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.

[juststrokemyglabella]

I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.

[adweeb-deactivated20160228]

OKAY SO I ASKED FOR A HEDGEHOG AND NOW GUESS WHO HAS A PET HEDGEHOG

[thatvirgofangirl-deactivated201]

I wish that I pass all of my upcoming exams and don’t move down any sets.

[informativeastrology-blog]

star,

make me a goddess

[rallyattackmoving-deactivated20]

this is the money face. reblog to get riches, ignore and you will never get money again.

[veinitas]

support post for geminis

i support yall staying the hell away from me

[bitchydan-deactivated20151122]

say that to my face bitch

[veinitas]

which one? :)

[onlyaglimpseortwo]

Which Baby Are You?

JANUARY BABY

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

FEBRUARY BABY

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

MARCH BABY

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

MAY BABY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.

JUNE BABY

You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

JULY BABY

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

AUGUST BABY

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of “that someone”. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by “no pain no gain” caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

SEPTEMBER BABY

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

OCTOBER BABY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

NOVEMBER BABY

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible… Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

[albertothechihuahua]

this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!

[jaxblade]

ehh what the hell

[jaxblade]

OH MY GOD SO NO FUCKIN BULLSHIT I SWEAR To GOD. I reblogged this an hour ago and IM NOT Lying My Tax Refund which I did in late march popped into my Bank Account, and it was a Decent sized amount……

WHAT THE FUCK Is THIS MAGIC!??!?!?! Im trying this again IM NOT BSing hahahaha thats actually pretty cool xD

[jaxblade]

yooooo

yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

FUCKIN YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

no BULLSHIT I KID YOU NOT! Look what I found while walking Home…..

OH MY GOD

OH MY F*CKIN GOD

THIS POST FUCKIN WORKS?!?!?! THIS IS PAST A COINCIDENCE NO WAY!??! NO FRIGGIN WAY!!! 

Im Going to reblog this every day to test this, its MAGIC ITS FRIGGIN MAGIC 

[que-pasadena]

I need to believe in the heart of the post…

[perlexnoire-deactivated20150716]

Oh? Well… *reblag*

[illtoni-deactivated20181211]

Yall exaggerate so much it’s hilarious lmao^ just hit reblog

[empresspinto]

hey guys, hope your skin is clear and you get a text from someone you like real soon.

also that your lunch tastes good, you find twenty dollars on the ground, and that thing coming up that you were dreading turns out not so bad

[loren-vance]

Passing this good karma

[pocketsofroses]

I reblogged this 3 days ago and my skin got clear and I got a message from a guy who refers to me as queen yesterday. Good karma vibes all around.

[princess-peachie]

The Signs - Wants & Needs

[urban-waterss]

♈ ARIES:

Wants: To win. Excitement and adventure. To receive praise. To achieve greatness. To always have fun in life.

Needs: A varied routine. To accept defeat gracefully. To think before they act. To understand their weaknesses.

♉ TAURUS:

Wants: Peace and quiet. To be useful to others. To get away for a while. To do things in their own time.

Needs: A space for themselves. To vent anger in a healthy way. To notice when being taken advantage of.

♊ GEMINI:

Wants: To express all their thoughts. To release their inner child. To make new friends. To feel only happiness.

Needs: To slow down. A soul mate. A shoulder to cry on. Emotional intimacy. To be truly understood.

♋ CANCER:

Wants: Material comforts. To hide away. To rant about their troubles. A long lie-in. Less responsibilities.

Needs: To let things go. To remove their guilt. A good laugh. Frugality. Someone who will sit and listen.

♌ LEO:

Wants: Devotion. To be remembered. To be pampered and spoiled. To make people laugh. To be complimented.

Needs: Kindness. To learn to love themselves without other people's flattery. Loyal friends who won't flake out.

♍ VIRGO:

Wants: To prove their intelligence. A peaceful lifestyle. An organised plan. To be classy. To have a snappy comeback.

Needs: To admit when they need help from others. To understand nobody's perfect. To be spontaneous sometimes.

♎ LIBRA:

Wants: Everybody to get along. To be told what to do. To avoid negativity and conflict. To procrastinate.

Needs: To take charge and make decisions. To do things now. To cut toxic relationships. To trust their own abilities.

♏ SCORPIO:

Wants: To give a good impression. Intimacy. To be in control. To keep secrets. To be mature and respected.

Needs: To stop stifling themselves. Body acceptance. A physical outlet. To admit they are wrong sometimes.

♐ SAGITTARIUS:

Wants: To prove themselves. Good stories to share. To be admired and praised. To never miss an opportunity.

Needs: To relax/meditate. A long hug. To find a balance between work and relations. To vent their frustrations.

♑ CAPRICORN:

Wants: To inspire. To share their wisdom. To play it safe. To be wealthy. To keep neutral opinions.

Needs: To take risks sometimes. To trust in others. To unlock their emotions. Someone/something to care for.

♒ AQUARIUS:

Wants: To be unique. To be independent. To have many different talents. To make good connections.

Needs: A helping hand. To shoulder less burdens. To take their ambitions steadily. A strong support system.

♓ PISCES:

Wants: Emotional support. A knight in shining armour. To escape. To daydream. To cry it all out.

Needs: Independence. To accept the truth. To voice their concerns. To focus. To build a stronger backbone.

[find-the-beauty-within]

The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

[priincessolivee-deactivated2025]

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

[invisiblelad]

I feel like minor acts of kindness and good intentions are really important on days like this. 

[thatadult]

sending “I hope you get that job” vibes to the people out here tryna get jobs

[theeeprotagonist]

reblogging for yall bc the shit worked for me lol

[inritum]

[b4dbxtch]

BW – CHECKING OUT EVERYONE – MSG ME