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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson, Joyce Byers/Jim "Chief" Hopper Characters: Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson, Robin Buckley, The Party (Stranger Things), D'Artagnan "Dart" (Stranger Things) Additional Tags: Robin Buckley & Steve Harrington Are Best Friends, Eddie and Robin Friendship, the party, Mike Wheeler isnt a little shit, Well okay he is sometimes, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canon till S3 Finale, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Kidnapped Steve Harrington, Blood and Injury, Dart is just a little guy, the russians , Sad Joyce Byers, slow burn, Steddie will happen eventually in this series Series: Part 1 of The Monster, The Man, and The Super Soldier Summary:

Steve disappears in the moments after Starcourt. The Party is worried for him, Joyce has given up hope on Hopper or Steve being alive, and Eddie Munson is about to adopt a flock of sheep that will change his entire life.

Can they find Steve before its too late? And if they do, what will they be bringing home, their Steve or a whole new kind of monster?

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Oh, hey there.

Punk Steve's been talking to me again, is there still an audience for Punk Princess?

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Heres the thing about Evan 'Buck' Buckley and who he DESERVES to end up with.

Buck deserves someone obsessed (healthy) with him. Someone whos all in and can't get enough of him, because lets be honest, hes fucking sunshine. Should that be Eddie? Sure, the foundation is there for it and they are good for eachother.

That being said though, I'd be perfectly content seeing them stay just best friends. Because they are good together and its beautiful to see friendship like that shown on tv especially between two guys.

Heres the thing though, if they just stay best friends Buck cant' end up with ANY of his past partners, especially Tommy.

Now hear me out okay? I don't dislike Tommy because he isn't Eddie, I dislike Tommy because hes a jackass. Hes biphobic at best, emotionally abusive at worst. Look at how he talks to Buck, how he treats Buck like hes stupid or immature because Buck is 30 something and just found out he likes dudes and is scared?? Get real, thats a dick move. Baby gays are still gay and know what they want but its terrifying to learn this at an older age, to try to embrace something new. (Its terrifying at any age but you get what I mean) and then Tommy shoves Buck out of the closet in front of EVERYONE and dosen't even try to stop it, to make sure its something Buck would be okay with. And he talks down on Buck, talks to Buck the same way his parents do and if you care about Buck in ANY capacity youd want better for him.

I'm sick of the writers acting like its okay to have these on again off again relationships that are hurtful, especially to a character that has been used for nothing but other peoples needs his WHOLE life. Like sure people can have on again off again relationships that aren't bad but thats not the case with ANY of Bucks past partners, and to have him end up with any of them would be a real fuck you to people like Buck. People with abandonment issues and trust issues and so so much love to give with nowhere to put it.

So if Buck ends up with ANYONE, even if its not Eddie I BEG the writers to make a new character for that place in his life. A KIND person who sees Buck as an equal, who wants to just be around him and his amazing friendship with Eddie. Someone who sees who Buck is, what hes been through and understands that Buck DESERVES weird crazy obsessed with eachother friendships because hes fought fucking HARD to get them. Worked for them and keeps working for them.

Im a Buddie shipper through and through, but I'm okay if they don't end up together as long as whoever Buck ends up with LOVES him, all of him, and its a healthy beautiful relationship. Because those are real and people find them and if anyone deserves it, its Buck.

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To all of my fellow Americans, I am here for you. If you need to talk, need a friend or someone to confide in. If you are LGBTQ+ or AFAB, BIPOC or are just upset by the results of the election, I am here for you. This blog is a safe space for everyone. Even if we’ve never spoken before, we’ll get through this together.

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Im terrified

Im so scared

Please no

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Me: wants to watch something spooky

Mike Flanagan: heres this super compelling ghost story, sorry not sorry you're gonne cry

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Woah hey there!

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I have no idea why these keep uploading a little blurry bit I did a thing!!!

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Punk Princess

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Hello and welcome to the story that I most would like to finish, It's been a while friends, and I have missed all of you. I'm going to go ahead and get this chapter uploaded now, it was written way back in January, when things started to go a little south for me in life, but I figured I could give you guy's this, while I work on making sure I can keep giving you this story in the most authentic way. So here's to you guys, and this shorter Chapter that I never got to release because life kicked me in the face. The next one I'm able to release, I want to be longer but I needed a 'fresh start' to keep telling this story and that meant getting this part out for you all to enjoy. And I really hope you enjoy. thank you for sticking around, and for being so understanding. I hope you enjoy this chapter, and I hope I can keep bringing these boys to life for you soon<3

Steve had been on dates in the past, so he’s not really sure why he’s freaking out so hard to Robin while he’s getting ready. He knows how to do this, he used to be the king of doing this.

But it feels like so much more this time. 

Like life or death.

Which is so silly because Steve’s faced life or death before, and it was nothing like this. But god the panic he’s feeling is so all consuming at the moment he barely registers Robin's hands coming up to grasp his face, and squish his cheeks between them.

“I’m gonna need you to breathe, Dingus.” Steve lets out a soft whine when he registers her words, his eyes focusing on her soft smile. “What’s got you so panicked about this, Steve? You’ve been on dates before, and you already did the hard part of asking him out.” Steve brings his hands up to cup around hers and sighs, deflating completely. 

“What if like, what if he wants or-or expects more on the date? Like I know I’m a bit of a slut Rob’s, I own that shit, but, I’ve- I don’t know, what if that’s all he wants, like everyone else I’ve tried to be with? Like, I didn’t really have the best time with- with the hook ups when I was still figuring out my sexuality, you know?  And Eddie’s important, like so important and I just, fuck I don’t even know what I’m trying to say.” Robin squishes his face a little more as he talks, and his words come out a bit distorted. 

“Steve.”

“Yea I know, it’s dumb.” He casts his eyes to the side as she lets his face go. Hands sliding down his neck and arms till she’s holding his.

“It’s not dumb. But Steve don’t you want more on this date? I mean you’ve been talking about sitting on his dick for months now.” Steve groans, leaning forward to rest his forehead on hers taking a deep breath. 

“This is- Rob’s, I’m like, pretty sure I’m in love with the guy. I don’t think I’d survive if this was just a physical thing.” One of her hands releases his and comes up to flick his ear.

“So tell him that dumbass. You guys promised to communicate with each other, So do that.”

And just like that, a lot of that panic that was gripping his throat dissipates, a soft laugh bubbling up in his throat, because she’s right. Of course she’s right, she’s Robin. But that promise is literally the whole building block of his and Eddies relationship. That promise of Steve communicating, and Eddie taking the time to listen and vise versa. It’s what makes what they have now work.  

Steve leans forward and plants a kiss on Robin's nose that has her scrunching it at him. 

“What would I do without you, Robs?”

“Perish.”

“Fair enough”

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Steve has no idea why he was so nervous, walking through the woods with Eddie towards their date destination. Them- this, it’s easy. 

“Stevie, baby, light of my dreary life. You said drive-in movie, not fucking hike for an hour in the woods movie.” Steve laughs, glancing over to Eddie before reaching out and grabbing his hand, placing a swift kiss to his knuckles.

“It’s been like 10 minutes Eddie, and we’re almost there anyways.” Eddie shoots him a playful glare, yanking on their intertwined hands so Steve stumbles towards him slightly.

“Pretty sure you said that like, 3 hours ago.” Steve laughs, groaning and bumping his shoulder into Eddies.  Glancing sideways at him through his bangs, a soft swoop warming his lower stomach. 

“Eddie.”

“Steve.”

“Ed’s.”

“Stevie.”

“Edward.”

“Babygirl?”

Steve kinda short circuits at that, stumbling slightly and shooting a playful glare at Eddie, who's walking next to him with a self satisfied grin taking over his whole face.Steve can feel his blush deepening as he stares at him.

“You’re a little shit.” Steve finally settles on saying, glancing in front of them to make sure they are going in the right direction.  He doesn’t think he’s stopped smiling since the date started, and his face kind of hurts, but he’s so glad he was able to push past his worries and do this. All of this for Eddie. He can smell the food he cooked every now and then, when Eddie swings the picnic basket just right and he’s excited to get Eddie’s opinion on the Chicken Parm he’d made for them. 

Eddie squeezes Steve's hand gently, pulling his attention back over to him, and the smile Steve is met with is blinding. 

“So, what’s with the trek through the woods for a drive-in movie? You secretly a murderer?” Steve snorts so hard at the question he stumbles a bit, Eddie uses the hand he’s still holding to pull him back. “It’s a valid question, Princess. You’re a little bit lethal, and a whole lot hot while doing it.” Steve feels a chill go down his spine slightly at the words, flashes of Demodogs dancing past his eyelids, Billy’s fists mingling with the images. He almost wants to say ‘Yes cause I have to be.” But he holds his tongue, and flashes a cheeky grin in Eddie's direction.

“I’m not gonna murder you. Although if you show anyone where I’m taking you, I might.” He scratches at the back of his neck a bit. “It’s uh- it’s a special place I stumbled upon last year, when I couldn’t sleep one night. It was old and falling apart when I found it, but I’ve fixed it up good as new.” He glances over at Eddie again, seeing him nodding along as Steve talks, soft smile on his lips.” It’s high enough up that it’s got the perfect view of the Drive-in through the trees.” Eddie stops walking at that, using where they are still attached to pull Steve to a halt as well.

“Steeeeve,” He draws out the e’ in a whine, “you’re making me hike and climb?” He’s got his lip pouted as he looks at Steve, and Steve really can’t fight off the blooming warmth in his chest staring at the man in front of him.

“It’s up a ladder Ed’s, It won’t be too bad.”

“I agree on one condition.”

“That is?”

“You climb me afterwards.” Steve barks out a surprised laugh at that, and he can feel a warm blush spreading up his chest to his cheeks, Eddie smirks over at him. 

“I’m beginning to think you have no filter.” Steve muses aloud, knocking gently on a tree trunk as he passes it. 

“Beginning? Stevie, baby, beginning?” Eddie’s still got that smirk on his face as he uses a tree trunk to spin around and get closer to his space. Steve huffs out a laugh, using his pointer finger to push Eddie back by his nose as he glances around the woods trying to spot his marker on a tree he knows is near by. His eyes light up when they land on the soft blue cloth blowing in the wind. 

“Come on, the tree house is over here.” He can physically feel Eddie perk up at the words.

“Treehouse! Stevie, you have a secret treehouse out here?” Eddie stumbles over his shoe laces as he works to catch up to him, and he laughs. God when was the last time he laughed this much? And Just as he’s about to start climbing the ladder Eddies grasping his shoulder and spinning him around, pushing his back up against it and pressing his chest flush against him. There’s a mischievous twinkle in Eddie’s eyes as Steve looks at him questioningly, and Eddie leans in, his nose brushing along Steve's cheek. 

“You really look good enough to eat in that outfit Steve, and if I have to climb up this ladder behind you, neither of us are going to get to taste this meal you made us or see the movie.” Steve shivers at the purr in Eddie's voice as he leans even closer, lips ghosting over Steve’s ear. “So what do you say I do first pretty boy, before I just push you up against this ladder and take you right here.”

Steve suppresses a groan, leaning his head back against the ladder and arching himself more into Eddie, who’s hands come out and brace his hips.

“Down boy, I want to at least get to sample what my baby spent all morning cooking for me.” He laughs softly, planting a wet kiss to Steve’s cheek and shuffling him out of the way to start up the ladder, and if Steve has to take a second to readjust his pants before following him, that's between him and the trees. 

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Me; you need to work on Punk Princess or Clockwork King.

My brain; here’s a whole new idea that you’re gonna hyper focus on and write 20k of in two days

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AW look past me I finally posted 2 of three parts of this one today :)

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

PART 2: Sequel to The Lost Brother

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson, Joyce Byers/Jim "Chief" Hopper Characters: Steve Harrington, Jim "Chief" Hopper Additional Tags: Hurt Steve Harrington, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Stressed Hopper, Tortured Steve Harrington, Blood and Injury, Dart is just a little guy, Eventual Steddie in Series, Hopper loves Steve like a son, Steve gets it real bad in this one Series: Part 2 of The Monster, The Man, and The Super Soldier Summary:

Steve and Hopper get taken to Russia after Starcourt, Steve is the perfect test subject for the Russians new drugs related to the Upside down. What happens when Steve is broken and rebuilt into the super soldier the Russians want? Will he still be Steve in the end?

How do you stay human, when the things in your head are anything but?

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Wip Wednesday: your novel pls!!!!!!

Okay bare with me on this one it's still in the VERY rough stages lol

It’s not like I was subtle about my distaste for him, or the way his eyes scrunched up when he’d smirk that fucking smirk at me. But here he was, acting surprised that I went against his direct orders. I wasn’t his prisoner damn it, I was at the very least his wife, and yet he treated me no better then the people his father had rotting down in that dungeon. I flash him a smirk of my own, one specially crafted for him as I shove my way past him reaching for my cloak. I can hear a soft breath from him as he sits down on the throne. “I can’t believe you would do that, after I explicitly asked you not you.” There’s a sharp edge to his voice I’ve never heard before that causes my steps to falter, my back to him. “You didn’t ask anything Blair, you demanded it,” I whirled around then gesturing wildly with my hands, “And of course if Master Blair demands it, it must be done.” I roll my eyes, taking another step forward and his eyes trail over me, weighing me, there’s an emotion in them that I can’t quite place, and he’s still far to good at masking his scent for me to pick anything up from him at all. He flashes that damn smirk again, leaning back on the throne. “You’re my wife, and by law and decree you listen to me.”  I can feel my anger like a living thing in my veins as I stalk closer to him, leaning in and placing my hands on the armrests  on either side of him, our noses brushing and breath mingling.  “This throne is mine by birthright and magic Belial. If you think I’ll bow to you or any man in order to get it back, then you’re dumber than I thought.”

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WIP Wednesday: super soldier AU!!!!!

I have no idea if I am doing this right haha but here's an excerpt from it!

“Hopper? Is it really you?” His voice is hoarse, like he’s been screaming a lot, and Hopper's heart squeezes in his chest. “Yea kid it’s me, are you okay?” Steve laughs humorlessly. “Define okay, Hop.” He coughs, trying to lean up on his arm and wincing when he puts pressure on it. Hoppers instantly pulling him up slowly into sitting position and leaning him against the wall of the cell, pulling Steve’s loose sleeve up to look at his arm. There’s three long stitched over gashes in it, that look swollen and possibly infected, but Steve’s reaching up to pull the sleeve back down, rolling his head to look at Hopper.  “They’ve got a Demogoron, and a piece of the Mind Flayer.” It’s all he offers, with a soft smile, squeezing Hopper's hand gently. “Oh man Hop, you really look old now with that haircut.” He tries to laugh, but it's cut short with a wince, and the longer they interact, the more Hopper's blood begins to boil, his heart breaking in his chest looking at the boy in front of him. “You’re starting to look like that Munson kid I’m always arresting, with how long your hair’s getting.” Hopper offers back, trying to add a light tone to his words, but his worry coats them heavily. Steve winces out another laugh. “Aw man Hop, don’t go comparing me to nerds now, it’s gonna ruin my rep.” He slides down the wall slightly as he talks, pulling his injured arm across his stomach. “I think the Demogorgon they have is Dustins old buddy Dart, and man, don’t ever tell him I said this, but every time I look at that damn thing, it makes me miss that shit head even more than I already do.’” Hopper chuckles softly at that, crawling over to sit with his shoulder pressed against Steves, he looks too skinny, too gaunt and drawn out, and Hop can only imagine how fucking cold he is in this Russian winter. 

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WIP Wednesday: clockwork King plsss

Ahhhhhhhhh okay uhhh

Heres the link for it on AO3 lol enjoy!

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WIP Wednesday

A little late haha but I was tagged by @zerokrox-blog

Clockwork King- In 1978 Steve Harrington went missing for 5 days, no one noticed. Little Steve Harrington missed an entire week of school and no one said anything; Eddie felt his absence in the empty seat he usually takes up in front of him, and Eddie worries. or; Steve Harrington learns what it really means to be loved while also learning that some of the demons in his head, aren't just in his head (This one is already posted partially on AO3)

2. Punk Princess- Steve discovers the world of punk and queer love, this ones easy going and cute and our boys are gay panicking always with each other. Eddie Wears a cheer outfit. (Also partially available on AO3)

3. Super soldier AU- I've got 2 parts and a little over 20,000 words for this done already, BUT basically, what happens if the Russians grab Steve out front of the burning down Starcourt and he is taken with Hopper to Russia. Thicc, severly truamatized Steve. Robin/Eddie friendship, but of course Stobin platonic soulmates always. Dart may or may not be in it and also just a little guy. I have no idea how to explain this one lmao.

4. My own novel that's enemies to lovers, shape shifters and a throne that was stolen lol

I wanna tag @heart-of-a-rose, @stuftzombie, @whatthemeepever , @manda-panda-monium , @lofaewrites and @tashabeth

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take your time love, and don’t forget to take care of yourself

🥺 thank you 💙

i am working on taking care of me, but it’s hard sometimes.

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This is AMAZING hahaha thank you for this <3