Side blog to everything and anything that happens between Jack Barakat and Alex Gaskarth. These guys are so totally in love, and it's my job, along with my Master Jedi to do what's right. Oh. Don't worry though, unfortunately, all of this is entirely fictional and is linked to the Lurkers RPG. ♥ By the way, be aware that there will be smut written and I won't put it under a read more. kthxbai ♥
"I'm not leaving, Lex." Jack said, pulling off the remaining blankets before throwing them away in the room. He sat on the bed beside the older male, looking at him. It hurt just seeing him like that, so demolished. They stayed in silence during moments that seemed forever to Jack, and when he decided to speak, he didn't stop.
"I know it hurts. I know you hate everyone right now, but trust me, you can't stop there. If she's gone, well that's too bad for her. Lex, you've suffered more than enough for that girl. That's pushing things way too far and I can't just stand there and watch you just... being like that." He moved his hands, motioning to Alex. "You can't just spend the rest of your days crying and being angry at everyone. Lisa is the one that's stupid for leaving and you know it as well as I do."
Jack looked at him and swallowed hardly. He knew that bitching out Lisa wasn't a good idea, but it was the truth. He hated Lisa. He always did, because he was jealous of her. Jack simply hated every of Alex's girlfriends because he wanted him. Still, right now wasn't really the time for that. He moved closer to Alex, looking at him. "Alex, please." He began, his voice soft. "Don't let us down. You're worth way too fucking much to me... Please."
The last few days had been literally hell. Not even for him, but for Alex. Jack was there as usual, being the classic best friend that was always there when nothing went right. He spent days at Alex's place, watching over him and taking care of him. Forcing him to shower, to eat, to live was the least he could say. Lisa was gone. Jack didn't know for how long, but he knew that she broke his best friend's heart for good. The guitarist hated to see him like this; destroyed, sad. The last time Jack saw Alex like that was when his brother passed away. He bit his lower lip, sighing. At the time, Jack had a key to Alex's place, and he spent his days there. Sitting on the couch, petting Pey, Jack let out a sigh and stood. He had been there for nearly one hour now, and Alex didn't bother get out of his room.
Biting his lower lip, cursing Lisa for doing such a thing, he walked over Alex's room and scanned the place. "Lex, get up." He called, seeing the pile of blankets that covered him. He sighed again, knowing he wouldn't even move. Jack's heart ached. He loved Alex more than anything and it killed him to see him like this. It wasn't some fraternal love, the kind they did share. Jack had developed feelings for Alex that he didn't tell anyone, because they would've probably laughed at him. He literally feel for his best friend and he felt stupid for it. Entering the room, he reached and pulled the blankets. "Get the fuck up, Alex." He said, his voice a little harder. "You can't stay there for the rest of your life, bro."
"My plans are... Cuddles, you, you and some more of you with a little bit of Tay on top." He said with a smile, kissing her forehead. He turned in the bed to face her, eyes admiring every little detail of her face. Alex enjoyed the fact that Tay was so genuine. She didn't need two inches of make-up in her face in order to look beautiful. Of course, Alex was her boyfriend. In any condition, he would find her pretty. He nibbled his lower lip, watching as Baz approached. "Hmm... He better be careful. I don't share very much." He said with a grin, wrapping his arms around her.
Baz moved, jumping off the bed and running in the living room. Growls and happy barks could be heard, so it was obvious that he and Pey were playing together. With a sigh, Alex looked at Taylor and smiled at her. "I've missed cuddling with you." He said, pouting a little. "And... what was that 'important' thing you were talking about?" Alex asked her with a large smile on his face.
As Tay pressed her lips against his, Alex wrapped a hand around her waist with a sigh. He loved how simple she were. The fact that they were both vocalists made them understand how precious moments like those were. They were just lucky that they just had two tours together back to back, because after, their relationship would end up being shared through text messages and late-night conversations on skype. As they parted, he stood while she explained how her flight was delayed. He nodded, understanding it way too much. He pulled out a pair of boxers, turning his back to her as he dropped the towel and slid them on, not really bothering if she looked or not. They knew each other for a long time now, so being naked around her wasn't really a problem. It wasn't like he'd never seen her naked, too. Alex came back to the bed, laying down by her side. There was a few moments of silence when he twirled his fingers around her hair, looking at her face. She seemed so tired, but so happy at the same time. It was like her own body didn't know how to react to all this.
Alex cuddled closer to Taylor, an arm around her body as they looked at each other. "I really want to spend time with you. But you really look tired." He started, biting his lower lip. "We can just stay like this all day; it's not like I had something planned for now." he said, smiling. Actually, he did. But it wasn't for tonight.
Just before entering the bathroom, he smiled lightly. "Don't wanna get me jealous, there, sweet peach." He said, closing the door behind him. Alex was expecting her to fall asleep while he took a shower but it didn't really matter to him. He opened the water, letting it heat a little before stepping inside, sighing as he washed his hair and body. He took a few moments to just relax, the fact that Tay was with him sink in. He was happy, right now. He wasn't really the kind of guy to get super excited over anything, but having Taylor around him when he was lonely made him feel really good. Of course, before she came over, he chilled around with Jack. But Jack lived life without taking a break. As of now, Jack was with his family. And Alex ended up spending time with Taylor. That was just perfect. He turned off the water, stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his hips. After he shaved, he walked in his room, seeing her balled up in the bed with his two dogs. "You want to take a nap ?" He asked her, sitting on the edge of the bed, water dripping down his face. He ran his fingers through her hair, looking at her with a soft smile on his lips.
His eyes met hers and he couldn't help but smile. She was gorgeous. Her small nose, her smile, how her hair fell around her face. He was glad that they finally had time together. Their european tour was tougher that he expected. They were always together on Warped since he often showed up to sing Kiss me Again with her. Now that they had his house to them both, it was going to be some nice enjoyable days. He closed his eyes when she kissed his face and reopened them when she asked about the last time he showered.
Turning lightly red, Alex cracked a smile. "Actually, I was supposed to take a shower this morning." he said, a little embarassed. He knew he didn't smell bad, but his hair needed to be washed and he clearly deserved a shave. He let go of her, turning to head to the bathroom. "Hmm... wait for me? I won't be long."
Alex smiled at her kiss and looked at her, taking the cup in his hand. She did choose the coffee he liked the most and thanked her. He was still tired and as Tay said, he wasn't a morning person. He leaned against the counter, looking at her, seeing the slight concern on Taylor's face. "I did. I went to bed at nine." He smiled.
He was glad that she was the way she were. Taylor was ideal for Alex since she was so... positive and fun to be around. Still, she was the ideal person for him. He needed that feeling of being relaxed and having zero pressure. When he was on days off, he really didn't think about anythng that had to do with 'work'. All that mattered was that he and Tay were together for a short while. Might as well enjoy it. The older male took a breath, putting the coffee aside. He reached around her and held her in his arms without really having a reason to. How he missed her scent and her face. Exhaling softly in her hair, he smirked. "I've missed you being around all the time."
Seeing Tay's text, Alex let out a low growl. Too fucking early to get up. He was on a day off; he needed his beauty sleep. But he knew that Tay arrived early and that she would want to spend the day with him. He fell asleep again, waking up in a jump when Baz let out a happy bark when Tay slipped inside the kitchen. He fell down his bed, standing up with pain.
The singer didn't bother putting on jeans on top of his boxers, running a hand through his hair when he stepped out the room. "I'm up, I'm up." He said, his voice still sleepy as he walked into the kitchen. He smiled, walking up to her and wrapping an arm around her. "I won't kiss you, my breath must smell like shit." Alex was happy to see her. He actually missed her more than he expected he did and it made him glad that she was here.
He never really knew why he did that. Why did he decide to marry him? It was what made him genuinely happy, after all. Jack Bassam Barakat Gaskarth was the happiest man alive since august 28th. He said yes to the man he loved for so long, and he didn’t regret the decision. The celebration had been really private: they went to Paris with their friend and crew between two dates and had the reception during the day, since they went to the Netherlands by train during the night. Right now, they sat together in a place to Paris. Why? You had to know that because of the European tour, they didn’t really get a chance to celebrate their union. So, after the tour was over, instead of going back to Baltimore, they headed together to Paris. Right now, Jack stared through the window quietly. Alex was asleep by his side as they held hands and sometimes, as he dreamt, the singer would twitch and hold the younger male’s hand tighter. It made Jack smile and turn around for a few minutes as he hoped his husband would wake up. He bit his lower lip and sighed lightly, knowing that Alex needed the few hours of sleep. Lately, he was really stressed and their vacation in Paris together would make him really relax. Jack knew how stressed he was: anxious, getting angry easily, not laughing at dumb jokes like he used to. The last few shows were harder than ever, because they had to keep their wedding secret. Both of them didn’t really want to make their wedding public, so when they played, they would remove their wedding rings. Jack would put his on a chain around his neck and Alex did what he wanted to with it. Jack didn’t really bother; he expected Alex to put it in a ring box, hidden in one of his guitar cases. It wasn’t that important, because he knew that as soon as they were done playing, both of them put it back. He let go of Alex’s hand for a few minutes, removing his own ring and stared at it. It was simple ; a gold, thin circle engraved with delicate writing inside.
“Forever & Always.”
Their rings said. Jack had the first part while Alex had the second. It was a saying that was important to them since they’ve always said it to each other, even before being married. Jack didn’t expect Alex to propose to him. Never had he been happier. He slipped his fingers between Alex’s again, and then, the oldest woke up. “Good morning, sunshine.” Jack smiled, kissing his husband’s knuckles. Alex smiled back, still looking exhausted. “You didn’t sleep?” he asked, yawning. Jack shook his head. He was unable to. “I’ll sleep when we get to the hotel.” He said softly, reaching to kiss his temple. Alex wore one of his famous beanies and Jack’s black vest. They smiled at each other and exchanged a soft kiss. “Are we there soon?” Alex asked, crossing his legs as he stroked Jack’s thigh. “Mmhmm… About fifteen minutes.” He wanted to reach for Alex, kiss him and touch him. They barely had time to just be together alone and Jack longed for his husband’s touch. It was almost hurting because he needed it so bad. He bit his lower lip and sighed. “I should’ve got some sleep. Gonna be too tired when we get to the hotel.” Jack sighed annoyingly. “Jack. Please. You're never too tired for sex.” Alex responded with a grin. “True.” Jack answered.
A staff member walked up the aisle and with a fake smile on her face, calling after the passengers. “Attention to all passengers. Since we will be landing soon, it is asked that you please put on your seat belts. Thank you for boarding with us, and… Bienvenue à Paris!”
He yanked on my hair, pulling out a moan out of my mouth as I fell on my knees onto the hard floor of our living room. My eyes looked up, and I knew what he was going to do. I couldn’t move away even if I wanted to, as my wrists were tied together behind me. I was naked, almost ashamed of what I really looked like right now. My hair was still wet and I looked… Yeah. He undid his belt, lowering his pants as he released in front of me a hard on that was hard not to look at. I swallowed, eyeing him as I felt his hand pull my hair again. I winced, not allowing myself to let him hear me whimper weakly. “You know what to do.” He said, tightening his hand in my hair. I opened my mouth, not letting my eyes move from his. As I felt his warm heat between my lips, I slowly moved my head and started to do my thing. I sighed, closing my eyes as I started to move my head, taking him as deep as I could. I felt his second hand in my hair and he thrust his hips forward, literally fucking my mouth as I sucked him. He enjoyed it way too much right now. I let him do what he wanted. He was in fucking control. I’m sure he was glad that I could actually deep-throat him. “Holy fuck, Jack,” he growled, pulling out his cock from my mouth. I felt spit fall on my legs and I saw he was covered in it. As I looked at him, panting, he motioned me to stand up.
“Turn around, spread your legs.”
“ Alex…”
“I told you to shut the fuck up, Jack.”
I bit my lower lip, nodding as I turned around. I felt him undo the tie that held my hands together and moved my arms. He pushed me on the closest wall and for a second, I was scared that the neighbours could see us. The curtains were open, but there was nobody in the streets on a Tuesday. I grunted, avoiding smashing my face in the wall by putting my arms in front of me. I wanted to beg him. I was so hard even though he was so fucking rough with me. Alex shoved two fingers in my mouth and I knew what to do. Make them slippery as fuck. And then, he pulled them out and not even five seconds later, he was fingering me. I let out a loud moan and he bit me. “What did I say?” He looked at me with a stern look on his face. “T-To shut the fuck up…” I said quietly. He nodded, scissoring his fingers inside me. I resisted as hard as I could, biting my tongue. “Now, babe, you’re going to cum for me.” He ordered me and I couldn’t refuse that to him. Anyway, how could you not cum for that fucker? I nodded slowly and he disappeared behind me. He moved his fingers inside me, and I couldn’t do anything but whimper and moan like a slut. He pushed on that so-sensitive spot inside me and made me twitch in pleasure. Then, he removed his fingers. Oh, that’s cool, Alex. Just remove your fucking fingers and leave me hanging there, in the living room. Fucking naked, horny and hard as fuck. That’s really cool. I was mad at him right now. Tying me up, fucking my face and then leaving me there? I was raging inside for the ten seconds he left me. And then, he pushed his erection inside me in one thrust. “Fucking shit-,” flied out of my mouth along with a moan and he wrapped an arm around my waist, the other grabbing my hair. He pulled again, biting my skin and leaving kisses everywhere. “Watch that tongue of yours, baby. I don’t want to have to rip it off your pretty mouth.” I moaned and he moved quicker inside me. Damn, how he felt so amazing. He was even more dominant than normal and it turned me on so damn much. I didn’t know I was turned on by that. Hm. He thrust harder, clenching his hands on my hips like metal clamps. One hand slid in front, stroking slowly my dick. It was too much. “Damn it, Lex… I won’t last long.” I whimpered, closing my eyes as I let the pleasure take possession of my whole being. It was way too good. My arms were sore, my throat was sore. I hurt almost everywhere.
“Cum for me, Jack.”
Alex growled in my ear. It didn’t take me long before I covered Alex’s hand with my jizz. I moaned again and again, cursing and whimpering his name and then, he came inside me. I could feel him twitch inside me and it made me gasp lightly. He let out a small “Fucking shit, Jack,” and it made me grin.
He pulled out, turning me around to kiss me fully on the lips. Now, it was all tender and sweet. I sighed against his lips as he whispered countless times. “I love you.” And I simply answered. “I love you too, Lex,” to my one and only. Alex and I were rough and assholes to each other. Constantly throwing insults at each other. But in the end, I couldn’t bring myself to hate him. He was my soul mate, my other half. As cheesy as it seemed, Alex Gaskarth was my husband and whatever he did, I loved him with all my soul.
It was official. As their lips pressed against each other, Jack cracked a smile. "I love you, too. More than anything." He whispered against his soft lips, looking at his husband. As Jack turned, seeing all their friends there for the celebration, he knew he couldn't ask for anything better. His life as it was now was just fucking perfect. He was married to his best friend and soul mate, had the most amazing friends ever and had the life he always dreamed about. He held Alex and walked down the aisle. "For once in his career he's not getting fired." He grinned as they walked to the reception.
Actually, it was true that Matt outdid himself this time. Jack and Alex both knew that he did his best to arrange all of it at the last minute. Still, it was simply perfect. The couple took place at a table and then watched over their friends take place on the few other tables that were there. Jack leaned forward, putting his elbows on the table as he rested his chin on his hands, staring at the ring on his left hand. Alex had the same. The only difference was that inside Jack's ring was engraved 'Forever &' while Alex's had '& Always' He made it turn around his fingers, turning to look at Alex.
It was there. Right in his face. The official, the very limited crowd, the music. Jack cracked a smile, quoting one of his own tweets he once sent to the singer. "We'd go down with great hair." Jack grinned lightly, looking at Alex quickly. "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck." He bit his lower lip, tightening his hand around Alex's hand. He was scared. Not because he didn't want to, but because he was too excited. They walked to the altar together, and when they finally faced each other, Jack's heart threatened to stop beating. He stared into Alex's eyes as the official spoke. Faithfulness, love and dedication. Three things that Jack knew he would give it all to Alex.Since they started dating, he gave it to him. He would never stop, even if he was paid for it.
They finished repeating the basic shit that they didn't care about. Jack knew that Alex would feel his fingers shake. If you could say, Jack had never been the happiest in his life. They were soon releasing a fifth record, re-signing with Hopeless, had some of the coolest tours ever this year and now... He was getting married to his best friend. A couple months ago, he wasn't even thinking about that. He didn't even expect to actually go out with Alex. Fall in love with him so hard it almost hurt. He never felt this way ; the kisses, the touches, the looks. Everything was perfect. And now, they were making things official forever... The official spoke a little more and then, it was Jack's turn to speak, just before they could put on each other's rings.
"I, Jack Barakat, take you, Alexander Gaskarth, to be my husband. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life."
Jack waited, staring at his cellphone's screen until Alex answered. The first text made him frown, but there was a second one and it made him crack a smile. He took a deep breath, tapping the screen quickly. He was so excited that nothing couldn't actually bring him down. Too much happiness for one single human being.
"Of course I did, moron. Twice. <3 "
He locked the screen, putting the cellphone back on the desk with a sigh. His heart didn't stop beating. He was still alive, and he didn't get struck by thunder. He jumped suddenly, turning around to meet with Rian's smiley face. They looked at each other and the drummer motioned. "Now or never, man." He said, opening the door. They shared a high five, Rian nodding. "Everything's gonna be alright, man. You know you make each other happy. Nothing better than that could happen to you guys." Jack thanked him, smiling as they walked down the stairs. When they approached the doors, the guitarist turned his head lightly and finally met with Alex's eyes. He smiled, shaking and he took a deep breath. He didn't say anything. They knew they'd had a whole lot to say after. Jack nibbled his bottom lip, looking to Matt and Rian who opened the door as the music started to play.
"Let's go, guys. It's your day." Rian said as he and Matt entered before them.
It was just... unreal. How could it happen that way, so quickly without him even noticing all of it. Everything just fell into place in a single motion, perfectly and simply. They went for a quick, quiet celebration that made everybody happy, and finally... It was happening. Jack stood in a quiet room, wearing a simple outfit composed of black pants, a white shirt, a black blazer and a black tie. He wore his hair up as always and he was already sweating. He was tired and exhausted. They took the train overnight, moving from their last town in the UK over to Paris. It was Alex's choice. Telling that they weren't to leave Europe without it being an official thing. He proposed Paris, and Jack just nodded while he cried. The singer's proposal was something special. Jack would remember it forever. I guess that receiving a text saying 'we need to talk' isn't something you're supposed to do. Still, Alex played the game until the end, saying that he couldn't do it. He couldn't go on anymore, without Jack being his forever. Then, the younger male accepted. Crying, sobbing and shaking, he shook his head, claiming 'Fuck, yes!' in the street. But now... It hit him in the face. Jack Bassam Barakat would not be anymore. As he looked at his reflection, he spoke quietly. " Jack Bassam... Gaskarth." He said, cracking a horribly happy smile. His heart was beating like hell in his chest as he took a deep breath. He repeated his soon-to-be name a couple of times, telling himself that his mom would flip and maybe have a heart attack when she'd learn it. They didn't tell anyone. Except, of course, the ones that truly mattered.
If you believed what internet had to say, Alex had broken up with Jack and hadn't talked to him ever since. Gaskarth stayed with Matt, while Jack was being taken care of by Rian. Lex was being a sassy bitch, teasing the guitarist with photos of him and Lisa together, destroying him even more. They faked arguments over tumblr, as Alex said that he was pissed off and hated everything while Jack simply stopped living to spend his time crying when he wasn't on stage. Of course, it wasn't true at all. It was the end of it. They made it official. It was like a dream for Jack. He wanted Alex forever and always. He gave his whole being to Alex, dedicated to him and only him. And Alex did the same, asking to marry him. He never actually thought that it would happen. It just did. Now, Jack waited in the room until everything was ready and Rian would come and get him. Getting ready to say 'I do.' was one of the most stressful things Jack Barakat ever did in his 24 years of life. Jack turned, taking his phone. He pressed on Alex's name and sent a quick text.
"You ready for this, Babe ?"
A light hiss got out Jack's lips as he entered Alex in a harsh, string thrust. God, how he felt fucking amazing... Alex's whimper was not missed by the guitarist who smile as they looked at each other. Of course, the older one teased him. How he knew that Jack wouldn't let go of that teasing and would probably just fuck him harder. The young male didn't have the time to move that Alex rolled over, straddling his hips. Jack growled as he felt himself dig deeper inside his lover and grabbed him by the thighs. He bucked his hips in one thrust and moaned, throwing back his head even though he was the one that was supposed to top right now. Jack's breathing was deeper and slower now. He tried to keep his composure, to not let Alex get what he wanted. He licked his lower lip, sighing with pleasure.
He lowered his gaze, meeting with Alex's eyes. His own were clearly clouded with a strong desire and lust almost unbearable for a normal guy. But when was Jack Barakat ever normal ? He was childish. He was addicted to sex. He couldn't do anything on his own. He wasn't really what you could call an 'average' person. Jack moved his hips, helping Alex to find a stable rhythm as he sighed softly. "You know I always give you a good reason to moan like fuck, Lex." he said in a low voice, moving his right hand to curl his fingers around Alex's length. "You will. You have no other choice."
Sobbing loudly, Jack stared into Alex's eyes as he spoke. He almost couldn't believe how they got there. Such a childish thing almost broke them for real. If Jack didn't knew how to control his anger, he would've probably done something worse than just hide in their room and cry for days straight. Maybe he would've flicked off Alex and be the one to break up. But Jack wasn't like that. He could never bring himself to tell Alex that he didn't love him anymore. That wouldn't be the truth. The skunk-haired guitarist could never stop loving him. It was written in the stars. Plus, Jack was always jealous of any girl that became close with Alex. Tay being the only exception because she was like a sister to them. But when Alex dated Lisa, it literally broke his heart. He knew that he couldn't get to Alex. He could never bring himself to just say "Hey, Lex, just wanted to let you know that I'm in love with you." How ridiculous that sounded... That's why Jack brought hookers on the bus. That's why he dated Holly, even if she ended up dumping him after they had sex, one time. I mean, it's obvious that when your boyfriend moans his best friend's name when he cums is not really... something you would like. In the end, he didn't give a fuck about her. The only one we truly wanted was Alex fucking Gaskarth. And then, Lisa dumped him. They got drunk, ended up confessing their feelings for each other and making out on Alex's couch, surrounded by empty bottles and crushed cans of beer.
Then, he wiped his tears for good. It was no use crying now that Alex admitted that he had so much more than he thought. It was true that the boys' relationship had evolved with time. They became much closer, of course. But Jack saw how Alex really was in a relationship. Simply perfect. He was so much more than he could ask for. Jack sniffed and started at him with his big, dark, wet eyes. "I'm sorry." He said. "I love you so much, 'Lex. I... don't ever wanna fight like that anymore." The youngest whimpered lightly, holding back tears. "Never again."
