I'm asexual. I really don't bother with specific labels anymore. Cause for me sexuality and attraction are very fluid and I don't see a point in stressing myself with finding a label that caters to the microspecific way in which my asexuality is manifesting this month. I'm done. I know it works for some people, some people have a healthy relationship with it, they try different labels as a way of explaining how they feel and expressing their experiences and I tried, but honestly I was obsessing over it, it wasn't helping me in any way. Asexual and queer and even gay as umbrella terms work just fine for me.
I've experienced sex repulsion but I've also been indifferent to it, was the first a one time only thing? or the times I was indifferent had to do with the person involved? I don't care. I've experienced sexual attraction to One person exactly One time, does that make me demi? or was I just horny and touch starved that day? I don't care. It doesn't matter, it doesn't change the fact that I'm asexual.
I'm done overthinking my sexuality. I'm asexual. Period. I don't have to prove that to anyone anymore, I don't have to find micro labels that "allow" me to still be asexual when my experiences divert from the "norm".
Fuck that. I'm ace :)
