Figured I’d make an intro post because I’ve realized yall actually don’t know much about me. Other than the basics.
Identity: So I use contradictory labels of course. Why? Let me explain. As a transgender man my experience with gender is unique. (Probably the autism.) I partly consider myself a demiboy, with the intensity fluctuating, but there’s always a part of me that’s a demiboy. But there’s also a part of me that’s always something called genderfaunet. Meaning that I’m fluid between any gender but I never encompass being fully female. So. I don’t really know how to label it simply. Therefore I don’t. I consider myself a lesboy because even though I’m always partially a man, I’m also always partially not. And my attraction to women is queer due to that. Lesbian by itself doesn’t feel quite fitting, so I use lesboy. I use the term gaybian for the same reason but opposite. My attraction to men is queer, but I also consider myself attraction to women to be queer. So I mix the two terms personally. To keep things less complicated to most people I just consider myself abrosexual and a flavor of genderfluid. I think a part of this is also due to the fact that my types of attraction fluctuate as well. I consider myself aceflux, meaning my intensity of sexual attraction fluctuates. And I also consider myself demiromantic-flux for pretty much the same reason; except I don’t gain attraction regardless unless I’m already close to them in another way.
|Tldr; I’m genderfluid, abrosexual, aceflux and demiromantic.|
Disability: I’m physically and mentally disabled, and have been for at least three years now. Partially. I’m autistic and was diagnosed when I was about six, with minor impact on most of my life (compared to currently). I became disabled around the first week of September in 2022 due to a Covid infection. At first, I thought nothing of it. Sure, my body felt heavy after I tested negative for the first time afterwards, but it was because I was in recovery, right? Wrong. I never got fully better. In fact, I got worse over time. I started struggling with muscle pain all over my body, fatigue, increased headaches and a high heart-rate no matter what. I experienced dozens of other symptoms at the time, but it’s a lot to list. On January 15th of 2023, I hit my head on a patch of ice. I still describe that day as the worst of my entire life. I’ve had daily headaches every single day since that moment. My migraine attacks increased and I was nowhere near the person I was just a year ago. Hell, six months ago. I’m now aware that my Covid infection led to the possibility multiple chronic illnesses being something I either got, or I was made aware to. I’m not gonna list everything because I barely know myself and I’m not actively diagnosed with anything. But I have my suspicions.
|Tldr; I’m mentally disabled and became physically disabled after a covid infection three years ago.|
Now for the actual reason I’m making an attempt to actually be active on this account and creating this post? I’m hoping to find community, advice, support and make a few friends. I’m mostly stuck inside these days due to my health and pretty fucking lonely. I’m a decent person to be around (I hope), but complex. I hope whoever follows me enjoys whatever I talk about, because it’ll be whatever is on my mind. Just behave.
DNI; Bigots of any kind, (yes this includes people against contradictory labels, bite me.) Anti-furries or therians, age regressors or anti literally anything that isn’t actually problematic. TransIDs (fuck off and you’re ableist btw!) Endos and their supporters. Anyone who supports generative AI. And kindly, please don’t interact with me if you’re a minor. I may occasionally talk about 18+ content, although it’s not going to be a main focus of my blog, stay away for your own safety. And since I’m only human, PLEASE dm me if I follow any minors or problematic people as things occasionally slip through the cracks!
|Tldr; be nice and no children.|
