tough cookie @yourwhatnot - Tumblr Blog

it must been the sun that shines and the breeze that blows gently. taehyung looks so much softer and ethereal.

jeongguk’s heart skips a beat.

wandering on the vast skin belongs to taehyung, his fingers slip inside the hole. the warmth makes him lost focus momentarily.

and taehyung whines as the intrusion did something to his sleep but he doesn’t open his eyes.

jeongguk waits for awhile before moving the fingers.

“ah....”

#kookv #jungkook #bottomtaehyung #topjungkook #taehyung

raw

i just want to see:

soft taehyung being pampered by his daddy guk and he becomes so pliant baby when jeongguk eats him out

#kookv #taekook #bottomtaehyung #taehyung #jungkook

[FANFICS] KOOKV(≧▽≦)

I was thinking to post my written fanfics of BANGTANBOYS' JEON JEONGGUK & KIM TAEHYUNG here. Hohoo. Wait for it . Bang!

lemonflufff

Who are we?

Too bad but it's too sweet, it's too sweet it's too sweet too bad

"Jeonggukie..." His eyes trails slowly to the standing still boy in front of him. They are not moving for sure but Taehyung feels the room is spinning. And too hot. "Tae,Tae, Tae..." His voice drags unusually lower than his usual tone. Taehyung's breath hitches when Jeongguk steps closer to him. He shuffles backward, hands are staying behind his back, shivering. "You have been so bad, kitty. Should daddy teach you the manners?

#jeonjungkook #kimtaehyung #bts #drabble #shortsmut #fanfic #taekook #kookv #vkook #topjungkook #bottomtaehyung

I want to wreck kim taehyung with jeon jungkook

i always have this tendency to slip my perverted thoughts out in the room and tainting my roommate. Oh my god, i feel horrible. I really need to get the innocent me back but ...

darkfrinda

..electrifying atmosphere.. (/^∀^(^ε^*)/ ♡

yourwhatnot

the ship is still sailing - yasssssss!

so what?

today is lethargic day for me, well - literally because i’m starting to feel bored to go to class. i only got two weeks solidly of classes, a study week and i’m ready for the final! whoopie!

however, i don’t know people are searching troubles during my bad day. i don’t have any mood to keep fooling with people around and yet, they come to me and searching for trouble.

haih, it’s hurt when your friend calling you are a selfish person. it hurt as hell and i’m still hurt with that word. that, was a big word to say to someone that gave everything to you.

and yet, today. someone was trying to find problem with me by recalling what they had done in the past.

what. a. bullshit. dude.

what do you take me granted for? are you thinking i’m as your toy? that you could throw and take back?

go get drowned at somewhere else. and don’t you ever come near back to me

#friendship is a bullshit

BTS’ HYYH ENDING...?

“BOY MEETS _”

That was the last sentence for the last music video of HYYH, SAVE ME. so, apparently -more like a mere thinking about the chronology of the trilogy for the most beautiful moments in life.

first, let’s get through for the meaning of the most beautiful moments in life where it could be the years where we’re been growing up. the happiness, the warmth of love, the pain, the sadness, the gloomy days we had and everything that we experience din our lives when we -oh well- still live in this earth.

we could have many experiences on how our parents were happy with us, they angry with us, we met our friends, we lost our friends, we had our first love and we lost them. just like how the life supposed to be.

everyone will experience the same, eventually.

that’s how beautiful our life is when we’re reminiscing back on our death bed.

(actually, this what i’m thinking only - solely on the lyrics, so it might get boring from the start and yeah, feel free to ignore this. this is for my self-satisfied)

it started with bts - butterfly.

“Don’t think about anything Don’t even speak Please just smile for meI still can’t believe it Everything feels like a dream Don’t try to disappearIs it true? Is it true? You You So beautiful, so terrifying Untrue Untrue You You YouBe by my side Will you promise me If I touch you I’m afraid you’d fly away or break I’m afraid afraid afraidI wanna stop time When this moment is done Would it be like a fantasy Would I forget you I’m afraid afraid afraidButterfly, like a Butterfly Almost Butterfly, bu butterfly like Butterfly, like a butterfly Almost Butterfly, bu butterfly likeYou’re like a Butterfly I stare at you from afar If I touch, will I lose you? This mud like Night, you light it up A little gesture And I suddenly forget about realityYou’re like stroking wind You’re like a softly lying dust You’re there but I can’t reach you Stop You’re like a dream to me, butterfly, highUntrue Untrue You You YouBe by my side Will you promise me If I touch you I’m afraid you’d fly away or break I’m afraid afraid afraidI wanna stop time When this moment is done Would it be like a fantasy Would I forget you I’m afraid afraid afraidMy heart lets out a desperate sound I can’t tell if it’s fantasy or reality My paradise Please don’t go deep into the woods My heart pours affection on you My feelings melt and leak (I just wanna dissolve) My love is eternal It’s all FREE for you babyBe by my side Will you promise me If I touch you I’m afraid you’d fly away or break I’m afraid afraid afraidI wanna stop time When this moment is done Would it be like a fantasy Would I forget you I’m afraid afraid afraidButterfly, like a butterfly Almost Butterfly, bu butterfly like Butterfly, like a butterfly Almost Butterfly, bu butterfly”

well, when we read about the lyric, it might tell us about the disappearing love and how that someone couldn’t accept the truth. it could be how the boys couldn’t adapt of the loss of their friends thus making them having tough times. they were afraid of the world out there. that’s the prologue for all of us to see how it happened.

and the real story started on bts - i need u.

“Fall Everything Fall Everything Fall Everything it passes by Fall Everything Fall Everything Fall Everything it’s trembling I’m this messed up because of you can you stop, I don’t have you anymore I can’t do this, it seems like something please don’t make things like excuses you can’t be like this to me I can’t accept any of these words distinguish the truth and tear me apart spear me through, I’m going crazy, I hate everything take everything, I just hate youBut you’re my everything You’re my Everything You’re my Everything You’re my please just leave me huh I’m sorry I hate u I love you I hate u I forgive you I need you why do I love you alone and say farewell alone I need you why do I need you even though I know it hurts I need you you’re beautiful I need you too cold I need you I need you I need you I need you It goes round and round why do I keep coming around I go down and down at times like these I’m the idiot no matter what I try to do you say it can’t be helped it’s clearly my heart, my mind, my chest but you ask why I can’t hear your words I’m talking by myself again, I’m talking by myself I’m talking by myself again, I’m talking by myself you say nothing ah please, I’ll do well the sky is blue again the sky is blue again the sky is blue, the sun is shining, so it seems like my tears will show even better why is it you for me, why does it have to be you why can’t I leave you I need you why do I love you alone and say farewell alone I need you why do I need you even though I know it hurts I need you you’re beautiful I need you too cold I need you I need you I need you I need you I would rather you say we break up please say it wasn’t love I don’t have that kind of strength please give one last gift to me so I won’t ever return to you I need you why do I love you alone and say farewell alone I need you why do I need you even though I know it hurts I need you you’re beautiful I need you too cold I need you I need you I need you ”

if we cut the ‘girl’ parts (changing it into “i need u” only), so we could see that the boys are really, really in bad shapes. like how they’re going to manage themselves when there’s none to look after them, taking care of their shits. everything was fallen apart and they didn’t know the ways to restore it back and how they wished that their friend was there. the phrase where it was said that ‘i would rather you say we break up’ could be mean as they would glad to lose the friendship rather than the life. at least, if they’re losing that friendship, they still could see each other and act as normal.

but, when the friend was dead. they could not move on and stuck in the past times, where they’re happily together.

and each times they done something alone, they might heard that friend’s voice, as the memories kept flooding back when they had done together before.

when they tried to move on, they always remember the activities thus making them back to square one and they tried to struggle with themselves. they might lose the battle with themselves or they just been confused between the present and the past.

that’s how i’m translating for their friendship.

however, in our youth... we’re just not losing our friends. we have crushes and love. so, what if we read the actual lyrics. it could be they were breaking up and one of them couldn’t accept the truth. he was broken down and never listened to their friends. he ruined himself and soon, letting himself wallowing in the self pity. not minding about the people around him.

we, could have been like that.

bts - run.

“You’re my one and only sun, only one in the world I follow you but I just end up thirsty It’s too late too late, I can’t live without you Even though the branch is dry, it stretches out with all it’s mightEven if I reach out, my dream shatters Even if I run crazily, I don’t get anywhere Please just let me be yeah please let me be This stupid idiot in love is strugglingLet me run Let me run for you Even if there are scars on my feet I smile even when I look at your faceOnce again Run Run Run I can’t stop Again Run Run Run I can’t do anything I can’t do anything but run I can’t do anything but love youOnce again Run Run Run it’s ok if I fall Once again Run Run Run it’s ok if I’m hurt Even if I can’t have it I try My stupid fate laughs at me(Run) Don’t tell me bye bye (Run) You make me cry cry (Run) Love is a lie lie Don’t tell me, don’t tell me Don’t tell me bye byeIt’s over but I can’t stop I don’t know if this is sweat or my tears oh My bare heart is hit by harsh wind But it only makes me run harderLet me run Let me run for you Even if there are scars on my feet I smile even when I look at your faceOnce again Run Run Run I can’t stop Again Run Run Run I can’t do anything I can’t do anything but run I can’t do anything but love youOnce again Run Run Run it’s ok if I fall Once again Run Run Run it’s ok if I’m hurt Even if I can’t have it I try My stupid fate laughs at meMemories become dry petals It’s getting crushed In my palms and by my feet Behind my escaping back Like a butterfly, it’s confused I follow after your steps [Jikook] Show me the path, please stop me Please let me breatheOnce again Run Run Run I can’t stop Again Run Run Run I can’t do anything I can’t do anything but run I can’t do anything but love youOnce again Run Run Run it’s ok if I fall Once again Run Run Run it’s ok if I’m hurt Even if I can’t have it I try My stupid fate laughs at me(Run) Don’t tell me bye bye (Run) You make me cry cry (Run) Love is a lie lie Don’t tell me, don’t tell me Don’t tell me bye bye"

this is the most crucial point as we’ve reaching the climax -the middle part of the six main tracks in HYYH.

it was the turning point since that friend was dead. it was how the other friends occupying the loss with their own ways. one of them was having depression, anger issue, in denial, regrets and etc.

eventually, one of them had came to the sense and started to wake up everyone else but to no avail. they’re too deep in their own self-pity to climb up. their friend’s death was leaving a deep scar to their heart.

each of them started to follow their dead friend’s step. they wanted to be with him on the another world. but the realizing friend was trying to stop them. without hesitation, he might or might not revealing the truth to them and leaving them slowly to accept the truth.

for the bts - fire ,

“Burning it upFire Fire Fire FireWhen I wake up in my room I have nothing Once the sun goes down, I stumble So completely drunk, drunk Cursing around on the street, street I’m out of my mind, like an insane person It’s all a mess, livin’ like beepJust live how you want Your life is yours Don’t try so hard It’s alright to lose Errbody say La la la la la (La la la la la) Say la la la la la (La la la la la) Put your hands up and shout Burn it up Burning up Burn it all Bow wow wow Burn it all Bow wow wowHey, burn it up Like you want to burn it all Hey, turn it up Until the dawn breaks It’s okay to just live We’re still young Who do you think you are to say otherwise Stop comparing, I’m just me (So what)Just live how you want Your life is yours Don’t try so hard It’s alright to lose Errbody say La la la la la (La la la la la) Say la la la la la (La la la la la) Put your hands up and shout Burn it up Burning upBurn it all Bow wow wow Burn it all Bow wow wow(Fire) The scared, this way (Fire) The miserable, this way (Fire) With your fists up, all night long (Fire) In marching footsteps (Fire) Jump, go crazyBurn it all Bow wow wow Burn it all Bow wow wowFire Fire, burn it all Bow wow wow Fire Fire , burn it all Bow wow wow Fire Fire , burn it all Bow wow wow I’ll forgive you”

hm, how should i explain this. in this song, it could be that they have realise that their friend already dead so they trying to fight their inner self, trying to accept the fact.

they could not longer coping with their own anger, self pity, depression and regrets when they should know they will meet eventually up there. they’re trying to block the dark thoughts to suicide or things to ruin themselves by starting a new life.

this could be shown when the lyrics stated; “it’s okay to just live. we’re still young” means that even the dark past stayed past because they’re young. it is okay to make mistakes because when we’re growing up, we’ll come to learn them, anyways.

and it is your life that you hold, not anyone else. so, they were starting to organise their lives back and they could find the relief upon that.

however, there’s always a person who denied the truth among them.

bts - save me ;

“I want to breathe, I hate this night I want to wake up, I hate this dream I’m trapped inside of myself and I’m dead Don’t wanna be lonely Just wanna be yoursWhy is it so dark where you’re not here It’s dangerous how wrecked I am Save me because I can’t get a grip on myselfListen to my heartbeat It calls you whenever it wants to Because within this pitch black darkness You are shining so brightlyGive me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fall Give me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fallGive me your hand save me save me Give me your hand save me save meSave me, save meToday the moon shines brighter on the blank spot in my memories It swallowed me, this lunatic, please save me tonight (Please save me tonight, please save me tonight) Within this childish madness you will save me tonightI knew that your salvation Is a part of my life and the only helping hand that will embrase my pain The best of me, you’re the only thing I have Please raise your voice so that I can laugh again Play onListen to my heartbeat, it calls you whenever it wants to Because within this pitch black darkness, you are shining so brightlyGive me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fall Give me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fallGive me your hand save me save me Give me your hand save me save meThank you for letting me be me For helping me fly For giving me wings For straightening me out For waking me from being suffocated For waking me from a dream which was all I was living in When I think of you the sun comes out So I gave my sadness to the dog (Thank you. For being ‘us’)Give me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fall Give me your hand save me save me I need your love before I fall, fall”

um, yeah. we’re finally reaching the end. on how that one particular friend that denied the truth. so, when everyone was doing fine, he was trying to find himself. resisting himself from doing thoughtless things.

the thing is, it could be that he watched how his friend died and he couldn’t help or he was the one who killed him. you know, that might because they were loving the same person but the dead friend got the girl. well, he was happy with them but he couldn’t deny the jealousy in his heart. that feeling became big and bigger until it killed himself inwards.

thus, an accident happened (who knew what it could be, right?) between two of them, resulting that friend died.

the memories rushed to his mind and he couldn’t forget it so he made a drastic measure. remember in i need u where there’s someone that might or might not revealing the truth, all of them had known and they may forgive this friend.

but he still felt the regret and he could try to end his life but they managed to stop them and help him to crawl out from that deep dark hole.

he slowly realizing himself that whatever it costed, his dead friend could forgive him.

last track, bts - young forever

“The curtain comes down (my breath is getting shorter) I feel so complicated (I breathe out) Did I make any mistakes today How were the expressions on the audience?But I’m still happy that I became this way So that I can make someone scream When I hold lingering feelings And get on the still hot, empty stageWhen I get on empty stage I get scared from the emptiness Between complicated feelings and the intersectionalities of life I pretend like I’m numbThis isn’t my first time, it’s about time I get used to it I try to hide it but I can’t When the empty stage starts to cool down I turn around with the empty house behind meI console myself I tell myself that there is no such thing as a perfect world I slowly empty myself I can’t always get a big standing ovation every timeI shamelessly keep telling myself Raise your voice higher and farther There is no such thing as an eternal audience but I will still sing I want to be myself today foreverI want to be a boy forever AH!Forever we are young Amidst the scattering rain of flower petals I run, wandering through this maze Forever, we are young I may fall down and get hurt But I still run endlessly towards my dreamsForever ever ever ever (Dreams, Hopes, Forward, Forward) Forever ever ever ever, we are young. Forever ever ever ever (Dreams, Hopes, Forward, Forward) Forever ever ever ever, we are young.Forever we are young Amidst the scattering rain of flower petals I run, wandering through this maze Forever we are young I may fall down and get hurt But I still run endlessly towards my dreamsForever we are young Amidst the scattering rain of flower petals I run, wandering through this maze Forever we are young (Ooh~) I may fall down and get hurt But I still run endlessly towards my dreams”

and yay! the epilogue! happy ending everyone!

everyone finally, finally and finally don’t get caught in the dark past and moving forward. those days were being experiences for them, the up and down in their youth where they grow up and be matured to make wise decisions.

that dead friend was always beside them, they never forget them and yet, they could live happily as before because there aren’t any regrets left for them to reminisce.

how about the end phrase for fire mv and save me mv.

“BOY MEETS WHAT”

“BOY MEETS _”

what if i say it is “BOY MEETS WORLD” where the boys are exceptionally grown up, becoming a man. it could be true but maybe not because big hit loves to leave us hanging around. so yeah, this is only my theory, a bored one.

and also, if i’m making the reference from the mv and my theory:

yes, jin is the one who died and namjoon is the one who could not accept the truth and regretting everything so he acts passively around his friends. tae, yoongi, jungkook, jimin and hoseok were only in confusion and denial, added with their own self problems, they couldn’t hold up the burden.

so, that’s it. happy day to watch the save me ACTUAL music video tonight !!!

No More Dr-ama !

so, lately... i’ve been neglected my study and spent times on watching the drama -it’s actually an old drama but still interesting and i may or may not spent twenty hours solidly to this very good drama. assuming on how low my grades were in semester one and final semester two is approaching, nearly around the corner- i should procrastinate and studying instead.

however, i’m dedicating myself to the drama and yeah, no more dramas after this. i should study now and break a leg (and beat my brother since he got a dean’s list for his final semester two) so, i should have to!

let’s see what should i do today with the eight o’clock class in the morning when i haven’t sleep a bit and my roommates are busy laughing watching reality show and the another are busy singing and here am i, busy typing something nonsense.

i should get a sleep, shouldn’t i?