Being on dialysis you don't see the damage its doing to your body right away. Its so gradual, you get used to it and it becomes normal. Not until you see the before and after pictures. Emotionally? You feel it the day your Dr says "you have kidney disease and you will eventually depend on a machine to keep you alive " thats the real pain, not the 2,268 times that needle went into my skin, Not the times i felt dizzy and tired because my blood pressure is low. Not the leg cramps, the weakness. It's the emotions of looking in the mirror and seeing someone else. Thinking youll never going to find someone to love cause who wants to deal with someone whos damage.. It's the emotional pain when your told the person who sat in chair 16, 20 and 26 passed away. It's the nights you cry wondering why ? Wondering if you should save death its time and just do it yourself. I wanted to make a video about this but I started to cry every time. I'll eventually do it
