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i dont know what im doing

[zenix12]

Been feeling like shit lately about the way i look, i havent gained weight in 2 yrs but i still wish i had a smaller belly.

Another reason is that i havent been able to fully pursue my "dreams" ive dabbled a bit in redlcording myself playing drums along to songs but i dont really have the privacy for it and my room is a mess, ive also wanted to try streaming video games for years which i also havent tried due to no privacy. The solution to this would be to get my own apartment but shit is fucking expensive and i dont make enough at my new job....yet, ive been promised promotion once more worked started coming in but it could take at least another 3 months and the realization of time moving so goddamn fast just makes it even more frustrating.

[thecruzship]

What have I done

[zenix12]

One more weekend to go and donionrings with this place

[selfdistractive-blog]

[ruinedchildhood]

[zenix12]

Ive got a wedding to go to next month and im having the WORST time finding a date for it. I wont know anyone there apart from the spouse and if i end up having to go by myself its gonna a looooong night.

[sweetvladislav]

“Dont ask what the meaning in a song is, find one for yourself and that way you’ll sing it louder”- Dave Grohl

[zenix12]

Undecided

Idk what my next move should be, i wanted to try being a musician but its difficult finding people with the same goals as me, i also would like to try being a twitch streamer ive always loved video games theyve made me happy when no one else could, but id also like to get better at cooking as well as woodworking

[zenix12]

ALMOST FORGOT

How could i forget, kh3 finally came out! I cried happy tears at dearly beloved and again when i got to toybox, running with buzz and woddy was a childhood dream of mine! Also when lea reunited with xion and roxas! Agh my heart! Oh and saving aqua! RIGHT IN THE FUCKING FEELS

[zenix12]

Havent been on here in a while, heres a few updates:

-i no longer have anxiety attacks or get super depressed, i still get a little depresso from time to time though.

-i got a promotion at work but im ready to move on cause management sucks chodes

-i refinanced my car

[zenix12]

Second night in a row that i only get 3 hours of sleep and the rest of the night tossing in bed someone please end me

[punishedtradchad]

[funnystories]

funny story

Once when I was in elementary school I went to a friend’s house, and during dinner time my friend’s dad never showed up to eat. After dinner we were playing in my friend’s room and I was like ‘hey, where’s your dad?’ and he just kind of stared out the window at the sky and he said very sadly ‘he’s not here right now, but he’s always watching over me’. And I was like ‘OH. Oh my god. I’m so sorry, I didn’t know he passed away’, and my friend turned to me with a look of horror on his face and whispered “he’s an astronaut.”

[zenix12]

Hey im alive lol, so far ive seen QOTSA and foo fighters this year(played for 3 hours!) I would say this is shaping up to be a good year buuuuut im still stressed the fuck out, more than ever

[glowcrown]

The drive home from a concert where you’re tired but you’re so happy to have witnessed something so great so you just sit there engrossed in memories from the show reblog if u agree

[zenix12]

“most of the amps he uses in the studio are the size of a Kleenex box. He knows how to mic ’em. He’ll line up four of five pedals in front of a tiny Gorilla amp with a six-inch speaker, and it’ll sound like God is pissing in your ears.”

-dave grohl (discussing JH’s guitar tone in TCV) from some blog i read earlier i cant remember

[ripatopsy-deactivated20190108]

this is my fav video now

[isleptthroughanotherday]

I watched WITHOUT sound at first and can I just say, big mistake.