Y’all, I’m about to say something I never thought I’d say in my life: I’m actually feeling hopeful for bellarke.
I know, I know okay but think about it. Bellamy was ultimately convinced to join the cult because The Conductor was right; he is missing something in his life. He thinks he can justify all the hurt and the anger and the sorrow he feels because it’s been for the sake of his people, but in reality it hasn’t. It’s been for the sake of Clarke. With a few exceptions, all of his most defining regrets were for her. Mount Weather, letting Gina die, poisoning his sister, risking everyone’s lives to defeat Josephine, he did it all for her. That’s the truth he’s been running from: he loves selfishly, yes, but not in favor of his own desires. He loves selfishly because he puts Clarke above all else, over and over again, and he knows simple friendship can’t justify that kind of sacrifice.
It’s clear in the next episode Clarke is being tortured for her memories much like Octavia was, and I truly think that watching her memories, their memories unfold in search for answers about the flame is what’s going to snap Bellamy out of it. She’s going to make him realize that the emptiness he feels is born of his love for her, and the fear that she doesn’t return those feelings. Ideally, he’ll get to the radio calls in her memory and realize she does, and that will be the catalyst for their confession, but that may be too perfect even to dream :) Regardless, what really struck me during Bellamy and the conducter’s conversation about love was that Bellamy feels empty because he does not love the right way, and that’s so true. I think he believes Clarke loves him, to some degree, but he is in love with her and he’s terrified she doesn’t feel the same way. Until he realizes that she’s in love with him too, he’s going to feel empty, and no amount of greater good cult mentality propoganda will change that. Thus, the only thing that can truly break him out of this trance is finally reaching the answer he’s been searching for all these years: Clarke
Plus I mean the bellarke hurt comfort torture angst? Are you kidding? Bring it on
