Yap yap yap yap yap anyway in honor of trans awareness day (which was a few days ago and i did not think of writing this then) throwback to the time where i was still in the closet and thought that since i was nonbinary and not strictly MTF or FTM i couldn't identify under the transgender umbrella
Little me was also dealing with a LOT of internalized homophobia and transphobia and trying to ignore a lot of things about my identity, but accepting that being nonbinary DID mean that i was trans and in fact got to share solidarity with other trans people and share my experiences instead of hiding myself away as a secret, 'disgusting' third category took considerably more time.
I can't even count on both my hands how many nights i spent just feeling so out of place and alien before i came out of the egg, and knowing then that the things i were feeling were normal, and so many other people experienced it would certainly have saved me a lot of trauma and mental anguish. Like learning that the feeling i got when i was forced to wear makeup or wear dresses to school was actually dysphoria™ and i could have gotten help with it if i knew!! That i!! Was trans!!
Anyway, what i mean to say is, please go tell your nonbinary friends a happy trans awareness day if you haven't already, because that shit is so validating. Love to all my egg homies out there, it's tough in the trenches but there are people who are in those trenches with you, so don't feel scared to reach out and share the feelings inside you. I guarantee that hiding them won't make you feel half as alive as being your true self.
