Zoey's Thoughts

Just writing whatever, whenever.

[zoeylouisen]

When the night is young

I want to age with you

I want to hear you laugh

Is that a selfish thing to do?

[zoeylouisen]

If this is your way of dealing with it

I can only agree with it

You get pumped up by my presense

Not just trying to impress me but every other girl in a dress and

If i knew you were coming

I wouldn't be here at all

I don't have to show off that I am over you

You're putting up a pathetic show where you try to get the girl

I almost feel pitty for you but them again

I really don't care, I feel nothing at all

@zoeylouisen

[zoeylouisen]

Cheap bottles of wine

Hold on to that heart of mine

I know I play hard to get

But you know Im not like that at all

Sand in my underwear, everywhere

Tipsy you look even better

Im tangled by your laugh

Caught up in the moment

The high tide comes in

Just like my feelings are kicking in

The pink skies above us must be a sign

But please, be careful with that heart of mine

[zoeylouisen]

I am a overthinker

And even a worse sleeper

You've been walking through my mind

And i've been pretending that's fine

You've been invasing my dreams

And all this time I letted it be

[zoeylouisen]

What if today you woke up

With a blank memory

You'd pass that test, you'd rocked that dress

You didn't remember your misery

What if you walked the streets

without getting pulled back by your own history

Wouldn't that be a relieve

Wouldn't that feel like victory

[zoeylouisen]

He came in with his crayons.

But instead of drawing up some dreams

He came to put colour into my nightmares

[zoeylouisen]

The truth is ugly

harsh even sad sometimes

But the truth never lies

It's honest and outspoken

Reality is unromanticized

Our love was not like roses

Our love could'nt be kept

Even when you found your happiness

with someone else

It was the best I ever had

[zoeylouisen]

We collected memories

Like if they were for free

Stealing dancing, drinking shots

My world was you and me

Time used to be by our side

Maybe I got too self-centered

And this is just the hard way

To learn a life long lesson

I haven't seen you in a while

And even if I did

We would be like strangers

walking down the streets

When the trust is broken

It can't be unbroken

It can't be fixed

But it surely can be missed

[zoeylouisen]

I feel like I got out of the wrongside of the bed, not just today but this entire year.

[zoeylouisen]

I do not know

how I ended up here

In this whirl wind

In this downpour

I tried to run along

with hurried society

But I ain't

doing it no more

[zoeylouisen]

I was already asleep when my roommate decided to party. It kept me up and thinking. Don't get me wrong I like myself I turned out to be a decent person. I have friends, family, I go to work and study is going fine.

But when I was younger I always thought I was going to do big things in life. And I feel like I dissapointed the younger version of myself. Because of my fear of failing I have never really been persistent in pursuing my dreams. I envy famous people because they followed theirs and have so many people who love them. When I die I soon will be forgotten. I would like to leave a big mark on this world.

But when you are a wallflower kind of girl it's hard to do...

[zoeylouisen]

She stumbles and falls

her way through life

She gets stuck in quicksand

But escapes just in time

She is unseen and unheard

Always loves you from a distance

She gives but rarely receives

You won't know about her existence

She is brused and scattered

But she still believes in this world

She is the peace you feel in silence

Keeps fighting for what's it worth

@zoeylouisen

[zoeylouisen]

I am one that overthinks.

I keep on over-analyzing.

Not one or twice but milion times

And I end up feeling paralyzed.

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[zoeylouisen]

My mind wanders

When my legs do not

My conscience asks questions

When my mouth is shut

My tattoos tell stories

When my heart is cut

My smile hides

What my eyes cannot

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[zoeylouisen]

When I step in to my bed and I tuck myself in

My treadmill of thoughts starts working

I am thinking of what could have been

What is yet to come in the morning

[zoeylouisen]

I have lived in every place

Traveld all over this earth

They call me adventurous and brave

I try to hold up the image for what it's worth

My strong desire to travel

Wanderlust is beautiful they say

But this uncontrollable feeling of running

Makes me never want to stay

Somewhere along this ride

My heart started with bleeding

I lost myself and all I ever wanted to have

Was that home sweet home feeling

@zoeylouisen

[zoeylouisen]

I wish I could

But I can't

@zoeylouisen