🌱 Welcome to my account for people like me (but really anyone).
Alt: @zoophilic-confessions
This is a primarily positivity blog for those with zoophilia, but I will work to have education, discussion, and community as well.
If you're a zoophile and struggle with finding any sort of community outside of pro-contact/animal abuse rings, please have hope. There are resources and places for you to be okay and not worry about harming an animal. These thoughts can be violent, scary, and deeply uncomfortable and unsettling, but you will be okay, and you will not act on them.
Feel free to send requests for posts! (ie. "Can you make affirmations for zoos who..."Can you make a positivity post for zoos who are..." or anything really, as long as it's relevant).
🌱 This blog advocates for:
• destigmatization of paraphilias, primarily zoophilia.
• anti harassment against anyone.
• pro fiction- acting out fantasies and attractions in fictional settings to cope does not make you a bad person, and you are not failing at "repressing" your paraphilia.
• anti offending/contact stances for any paraphilia that's harmful to act on. there will be no posts that cater towards other stances.
• understanding that paraphilias cannot be "cured" and instead must be accepted and coped with healithy to survive.
• saving people. you should not die simply because you have a paraphilia, your life is valuable and wanted, and you are not disgusting.
🌱 About Me & Tag Key below the line...
My name is Sprout (they/them)!
I'm 22 years old, and I'm physically disabled, which may cause me to post less than I want due to flareups. I'm also wasian- I'm unsure if this will be entirely relevant here, but I'm mentioning it regardless in case discussions come up about the POC community (especially asian) when it comes to paraphiles, and the differing experiences.
And of course, I've suspected being a zoophile since I was a young child.
I've struggled with thoughts, urges, and attractions for a long time, bringing in self-harmful or otherwise self-destructive behavior. I've been riddled with guilt for simply existing and having a disorder I had no control over, one that made me absolutely miserable (and still does to an extent).
Looking for community was impossible. It felt like there were two sides- people who wanted those like me dead, and people who genuinely wanted to act on their thoughts. Both were insufferable, but I ended up choosing the side that hated zoophiles out of disgust and fear.
I also wasn't certain at the time whether what I was experienced was zOCD, or an actual zoophilic disorder. This year, 2024, is when I finally came to the understanding I do not have zOCD, it became impossible to ignore anymore. I felt so ashamed and embarrassed, with nowhere to go.
I wonder if the reason the pro-beastiality side of the community got so large is because people kept running out of options and eventually gave up looking for a better one.
So I want to try and help mend that, and try to start proper support groups for those like me, who just want a shoulder to lean on, someone to talk to, and comfort.
🌱 Tagging System
#🐾 discussion - talking about zoophilia in any way. I wish this was a general tag that all zoos would use so we could find each other, since any other zoo tag is entirely taken over by people who want us dead.
#🐾 help - resources and advice.
#🐾 positivity - positivity posts specifically for zoos.
#🐾 therian - posts catered towards therian with zoophilia.
#🐾 system - posts catered towards systems with zoophilia.
#🐾🥩 - posts catered towards zoosadists. (im not a zoosadist, if I spread misinformation please let me know).
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#🍐 positivity - general posts for positivity, not aimed specifically at zoos.
#ask recieved - answering asks.
#snarling - discourse or potentially triggering discussion.
a reminder that you are worthy of love, and if nothing else, worthy of loving yourself. you are enough, you simply being here is enough. I am very proud of you for making it this far.
I like to call this the harmony flag, born from me not really being satisfied with other flags plus having a vision for a really cool cloudy looking one. I like making flags occasionally, and especially experimenting with them!!!
This is an inherently anti-contact and anti-abuse flag, and encourages recovery from paraphilic disorders by finding ways to manage your paraphilias, as you can't force them to disappear.
Color meanings, horizontal stripes flag, layers, and 2 versions of the symbol (one vector and one hand drawn, personally like hand drawn keke) below cut
Meaning
Horizontal stripes
Layers & symbol
Vector on the left, hand drawn on the right
I also could release the kra files. Anyone interested ? Idk how converting to psd may work. I think Krita can just do that ????? It's a powerful software what can I say
Feel free to make variants of this flag (i.e species-specific stuff, intersections with other paras, etc)
i'm not a zoophile myself, though one of my partners confided in me last night about wondering if he was having intrusive thoughts about being a zoophile, or if he was actually a zoophile.
i provided support, and if anyone else needs or wants it, i'll paraphrase.
"the thought police do not exist. all thoughts are inherently neutral—it is the value we personally attribute to them that makes them positive, negative, or stay neutral. if you cope with zoophilic (or any paraphilic thoughts that are harmful to act upon) through fiction, it doesn't make you a bad person. you are simply taking the route that allows you to not hurt a living soul, whilst indulging your fantasies. but if it makes you feel more shame, take a step back. identity those triggers that make you feel either shameful, or horny in a way you don't want at this time. ask yourself 'how can i mitigate these thoughts?' because it's more important to feel comfortable with your thoughts passing by, rather than trying to 'fix' yourself and constantly focusing on them until you go crazy."
i always want to be a safe space. when he came to me with these thoughts, i didn't judge. i never thought about judging. because one, i understood what it was like to deal with being a paraphile. and two, i have looked at zoophilic art before in my life, and felt immense guilt afterwards.
and i hope that everyone here who doesn't currently have a safe space, finds one. you all deserve to feel at peace. your thoughts do not make you a bad person. it is how you handle them, and your actions that follow.
you are not an evil person. you are just someone with an atypical attraction. you cannot help this fact of your brain.
much love to you zooey folk 🩷 you can get through your hard times, i promise
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This is really lovely for you to say, wish you and your partner the best.
I'm around and always checking on things! Not sure how to define okay, but I'm not dying.
Every time I go to return to online things, stuff keeps happening! I'll be back sometime, I promise, but this past month or so I've: gotten very sick, had to travel and went completely offline, got entirely wiped out from traveling (I'm physically disabled!) and had to take a whole week off just to rest, had to deal with government things, and now I'm due for a surgery in a few days. I'm also working on finally moving out of my abusive home.
I will be back and posting, I read everything sent to this account, but I don't have as much time as I want to go through and answer things as I want. You guys deserve actual attention when it's called for.
In the meantime, please love yourself and stay safe.
u can have a feeling and not act on it. howEVER, and this is the fucked up part, u do have to still feel it. like there's things you can do to help urself stay stable while feeling it but it's gotta go through you somehow. it's messed up I know
I’m not gonna say too much, but thank you for this blog! I can’t find much of a community, so it’s nice to see this blog and asks from others. I recently realized I might be a zoo, but also my S/O might be a zoo too, both of us anticontact but it’s been really hard to accept myself and make them feel normal/okay. They’re afraid I might leave them or hold it against them for feeling any attraction and I can’t find the words to let them know we’re both the same.
Lots of love to you and all!
You're so so welcome!!! I hope you two have a great time together and truly believe that it will be okay, that you will be okay, that they will be okay.
@zoophilic-disorder 's account for confessions of any kind, vents, or otherwise, I will be slowly making a tagging list for any tws depending on content of asks received.
blog is friendly to all but may host 18+ topics. minors (or otherwise sensitive parties), please block the "#zpc-mature" tag.
I won't necessarily be giving full responses to everything like I would on my main! This is simply a place for you to be heard.
🌱 Tags Unique to This Blog:
#zpc-mature - anything I consider for mature audiences, including violent or sexual contents.
#zpc-violent - anything with violent contents, towards oneself or others.
#zpc-sh - anything that describes self harm or suicidal ideation/attempts.
#zpc-negativity - anything that is negative/self deprecating, or otherwise.
#🐾 confessions - tag for every confession post.
#🐾 non-confessions - tag for every non confession.
🌱 Tags From My Main:
#🐾 discussion - talking about zoophilia in any way.
#🐾 help - resources and advice.
#🐾 positivity - positivity posts specifically for zoos.
#🐾 therian - posts catered towards therian with zoophilia.
#🐾 system - posts catered towards systems with zoophilia.
Adding on to my positivity about my supportive gf.
You aren't destined to abuse or harm animals. You're not. Support from someone that loves you and listens helps a lot. I still struggle sometimes, but my thoughts have gotten a lot better to manage with my gf supporting me.
Even if you don't have someone in your life supporting you, we do. Your thoughts do not make you destined to harm. Your attractions do not make you destined to harm. You can have pets and love them too.
Wishing every anti c zoo much love and support. Wishing everyone that struggles with thoughts whether only zOCD or zoophilia the best. You deserve to not have to hate yourself to be acceptable. And you are not an abuser and you are not destined to harm any animal.
I'm doing well myself now after a long period of feeling isolated and hating myself and ashamed and scared everyone would love me. So here's a reminder to everyone struggling. You decide your actions, not your paraphilia. You are not a monster for your paraphilia. There are people that will love and support you. You're allowed to have pets and love animals without it being dirty or abusive or wrong. Whatever is right for you is something others cannot decide. You do not deserve to live in shame and self loathing. You deserve to be able to accept it as another part of yourself. You cannot control what you are attracted to. Be kind to yourself. Especially if the world won't be. You deserve to be able to just live.
Just wanna share that I'm super lucky to have my girlfriend. He helps me when my ocd and thoughts of shame and self hatred get to me. He listens to me talk about it so I don't have to keep it in like some dirty secret. He even makes jokes when I start getting uncomfortable by my own feelings. I'm very lucky to have her supporting me. I thought everyone would leave me if I ever made it known that I'm a zoophile (and experience autopedophilia) especially with how mine are personally very linked to my trauma and my ocd as well.
I've found a lot of love and support from my gf and even when I start spiraling, they remind me that it's just the way it is and I am someone that deserves love and understanding. I've been able to develop a healthier relationship to my philias with her love and support.
There are people out there that will treat you well and give you love and support and understanding. I know that no matter what happens, I'll have him supporting me. There's good people out there. There are so many people that may not be zoophiles themselves, but do try to understand and learn and won't just treat us all as awful abusers.
You're not alone. There is hope. You've got this everyone. No matter who you are, me and my gf are rooting for you guys too. Cause we all deserve better understanding. Stay safe and take care of yourselves everyone. <3
I'm so glad you have this relationship, genuinely.
my sibling and a few people close to me love me dearly while being fully aware of my paraphilias. we make light of them, make jokes, encourage healing. it's very rewarding.
I can fully confirm that anyone reading this can and will be loved by people who know everything about you. even the scary stuff, especially the scary stuff.
Hey guys, I've noticed I get a lot of asks that border more on confessions, vents, or otherwise—and I was wondering if you guys would want an account dedicated to that? I want this account to be more educational and positivity centric (at least as of now!), and I see there's a probable need for a more "talk about everything you want" account, especially for more intimate or heavy topics!
(I want THIS account to be accessible to everyone, no matter who they are).
are there any resources you know of for questioning/unsure zoos? i'm finding it difficult to know if my thoughts are zocd related or paraphilia related. every site i've found so far for zoos seems to condone contact in some way or another and i am vehemently anti-contact, no exceptions. do you also have any advice for going forward with this identity/label and coping with inner shame or guilt? thanks so much if you decide to answer this ask!! ❤️
Sadly not, which is why I made this blog in the first place! I'm sure some exist somewhere, but I can't find them :(
For advice, just accept that you're going to be you, no matter what label you use. There's nothing wrong with being yourself, and you deserve as much love as any other person. Being a zoo is not inherently bad nor good, it just is.
Love yourself, and understand feeling conflicted is normal, but doesn't mean you're deserving of any hurt, ever. Thoughts do not make you bad, neither do urges. If you ever feel caught in guilt or shame, remind yourself that your thoughts are not your actions, you can choose what you do, and that you will never act on anything that can hurt others.
I don't know if I should just keep my mouth shut like always, but I just came across your blog and you're the first anti-c open zoophile I've come across besides myself, though I've lately been trying to stop having zoophilic attraction altogether by decreasing my exposure to zoo content personally...
Indulging in my zoophilic attractions with fictional animals made everything worse for me personally. It makes me think of it more. It makes me more attracted to animals.
I feel like I'm a danger to other anti-c paras because of this. Because they say the opposite. They say fiction is harmless, and that channeling their desires into fictional animals or kids or corpses helps them. But not me! Nope! I feel like a fucking failure.
You're not a failure, it's entirely reasonable to have negative reactions to fiction. Fiction is not INHERENTLY harmful, but can be to some people. If it does not work for you, it doesn't work, you're not a danger.
Fiction can be an incredibly helpful outlet to some, while incredibly harmful to others. Your boundaries are your own, if fiction makes things worse, you're not a failure, you're not doing anything wrong. It's okay, it's not the only way to handle things.
I think people get so into defending fiction at times that they forget nuances. I've always preferred the statement "Fiction is not equal to reality" over "Fiction doesn't affect reality" because that's blatantly not true. As long as you're not harassing or policing others' ways of coping and self-help, you are not harming anyone.
You are no different than any other being with zoophilia. If indulging hurts, there's nothing wrong with not, if you think it hurts, please don't.
Please take care of yourself, please love yourself.
🌱 Affirmations for zoophiles who feel ashamed or upset.
It's okay to be scared, it's okay to not be sure how to feel about yourself.
Many people feel deep shame, embarrassment, or sadness over their zoophilia. This isn't abnormal to feel, and you're not alone in it. It can be hard to reconcile with your attractions and urges. You might feel the need to punish yourself, to feel bad, to make it so you don't feel comfortable as long as you have those thoughts.
But you do not deserve that, you deserve to love and accept yourself. You never need to be happy that you have zoophilia, but accept that it's okay, that there's nothing wrong with you. Urges and attractions are not actions, and punishing yourself in any way for your feelings will not make them go away.
You're not bad for simply living as you are, feeling how you do. You are good, you will be okay.
Embracing myself as a zoo therian has honestly been so freeing /gen
Sure, I might be officially "problematic" now, but honestly, I don't care!!
I truly feel inside myself that I am just an animal. A creature. Relegating that identity to only fashion, emojis, or a username is not enough.
Embracing the side of me that identifies as an animal has been great. Therianthropy has made my life so much happier and honest to what I really am. But what about the side of me that feels a bond with the animals I relate to? I can't deny that a creature I see myself as is more appealing than one I don't (*cough* humans *cough*).
Obviously I can't just appear in the woods and have everything be hunky-dory, but my mind is free. What I imagine is limitless. What I dream of is up to me.
Embracing freedom of thought, to believe what I believe without needing to censor myself for thinking of quadrupeds - that is the honesty and freedom that makes life really worth living for.
So hey! To the pro-para community as a whole and zoo community here more specifically, thank you~
