hello little icons in my computer screen, if you've seen my previous au art not u didnt I'm revamping personal designs. story is staying the same but i need to allow myself to draw my own versions of show characters. as well as reclaim my oc's origin story. extra tidbits below including trauma mentions
I wanted to go back to my original design for Feather Blade, and give her the proper revision she deserves. She originated as a unipeg, she was not an alicorn, she never possessed all 3 kinds of magic the way alicorns in the show do. She was deliberately abandoned due to her "birth defect." My story for feather got dismantled in the previously mentioned Tenebris Dawn rp forum. I had to abide by certain rules to partake, which is harmless in itself, but the forum owner ended up being my first real case of online grooming. I had no real issues in the forum, everything happened in the privacy (sarcasm) of one on one rps on skype. Role playing was just a front for this person to emotionally abuse me and take advantage of me. I was a puppet for his sadistic sexual desires. His character was a pony of power and I was his dungeon pet. My oc was beaten and abused on "poor behaviour," yet pampered and idolized if I acted how he wanted. He'd use the harsh role playing as an entryway to break character and give me the whole "omg sweetheart if its too much we can stop, I love you" etc etc. I have intentions of using those unfortunate role plays in my story to offer myself comfort in overcoming that whole situation. I refused to use his OC, I will be designing a placeholder that I do not see a happy ending for. I owe myself my own story. I just ask that people who know this information, treat my stories nicely and approach them with understanding. Thank you for reading this far if you have. Please don't shy from hitting up my inbox! I'd love to get back to drawn replies <3
