mostly, i want to be kind

madina (she/her), 24, jakarta. also at terhangus (studyblr) / humaintain (writings & art)

[07planetarium]

📂💻🧠❤️‍🔥🔬💭📖🧪🌃  pt. 4

we're so fucking back etc. the latter half of 2026 was the continuation to the first half of 2025 i think, so my benedictions are still the same as in pt. 3. i will be quoting what i put in mutabilitas__ here:

Let me etch this mark of my mind into the contours of this world. Let me help you understand the way my cognition interprets and weighs this world. Let this care and ache seep and blur into your marrows, too. I need to take this work — my life — seriously. And for that to happen, sometimes the fragmented pieces of myself and my work I’ve put out in the world need to shift into focus from time to time: this is the purpose of this page. To collect and concretize the refractions of my heart-brain-body. Time and time again I’ve always said (justified?) that I was pulled to many directions. What my 18 year old self did not know was that even then my hands still have work to do.

reiterating my research areas:

poetical science | sains puitika

aphantasia & cognitive science as a whole | afantasia & ilmu kognitif secara luas

critical approaches to tech & AI | pendekatan alternatif-&-kritis terhadap teknologi & AI

Indonesian literature & history | sastra & sejarah Indonesia

memory- & archive-keeping | perawatan ingatan[memori] & pengarsipan

usual disclaimer that this is not exhaustive & carrying over a lot of the books from previous parts & c.

books i’m reading 2026 + i’ll be at literal in terms of book-logging as always! ( *^-^)ρ(^0^* ) tho i am very much considering lit.salon (AND i need to be saving my reviews using literal's API tools for my own archives)

currently reading + on hand Waktu Bintang (tr. Gladhys Elliona) oleh Clarice Lispector The Hero of This Book by Elizabeth McCracken Habis Gelap Terbitlah Terang; Boeah Pikiran oleh Kartini (Raden Adjeng) Workers of the Earth: Labour, Ecology and Reproduction in the Age of Climate Change by Stefania Barca Lost in Work by Amelia Horgan Short Talks by Anne Carson The White Book by Han Kang Audition by Pip Adam

to read Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer The Political Unconscious by Fredric Jameson The Cipher by Molly Brodak Ultramarine by Mariette Navarro Empire of AI by Karen Hao The Prose of the World by Maurice Merleau-Ponty WHEREAS by Layli Long Soldier The Technological State in Indonesia by Sulfikar Amir Decreation by Anne Carson Economic and Philosophical Manuscripts of 1844: Human Requirements and Division of Labour by Karl Marx On The Calculation of Volume I by Solvej Balle Terminal Boredom by Izumi Suzuki Experiments in Imagining Otherwise by Lola Olufemi Matahari Yang Mengalir oleh Dorothea Rosa Herliany Kejatuhan dan Hati oleh S. Rukiah Catatan-Catatan dari Bulan oleh Rieke Saraswati Alternatif Sebagai Strategi: Akses, Infrastruktur & Pengetahuan oleh Nuraini Juliastuti Membisikkan Bekal untuk Perjalanan yang Sangat Jauh: Pendekatan Feminis dalam Kerja Seni Budaya by various writers, with the support of Peretas (Perempuan Lintas Batas) and Puan Seni (Jaringan Seni Perempuan)

etc Innate: How the Wiring of Our Brains Shapes Who We Are by Kevin J. Mitchell On Decoloniality: Concepts, Analytics, Praxis by Walter D. Mignolo, Catherine E. Walsh

[stuckinapril]

today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern today I’m going to break the pattern

[stuckinapril]

you will never guess what I’ll be doing today

[feral-ballad]

Kevork Emin, from Anthology of Armenian Poetry, ed. & tr. by Diana Der Hovanessian and Marzbed Margossian; "The waiting"

[killyridols]

untitled lll by virág benkovics, 2023, needlework in artist's frame, unknown dimensions

[thetendertongue]

blurry — from Moten: resistance to clarity that becomes capture; to refuse the sharp outlines that would turn you into a category or spectacle; diffraction, dispersion, opacity; allows for movement, improvisation, multiplicity. like: "i am not a high-resolution image for your comfort."; to remain fugitive

[molabuddy]

a little personal response / tribute to "here's the life i've always longed for" by Anna Haifisch. the original means so much to me, and even though it's hard, I feel like every day i'm making more steps toward finally being on the other side of that fence <:)

[valtsv]

always remember the Final Girl Code:

- do it alone

- do it scared

- do it with a knife in your hand if you have to

[feral-ballad]

Mosab Abu Toha, from Forest of Noise: Poems; "No Art"

[Text ID: "You know everything will come to an end: / the sugar, the tea, the dried sage, the water. / Even your shadow will abandon you / when there is no light."]

[random-brushstrokes]

Alexander Labas - Metro (1935)

[japkevanuffelen]

Jenny Holzer, Protect Me From What I Want, date unknown

[suhaylah]

meeting (2021) oil pastel on paper

shop: suhaylah.bigcartel.com instagram: @suhaylah.h

[homunculus-argument]

I hate the sound of babies crying, but I can't hate a baby. They've been here for like five minutes and approach this situation with an unhesitant attitude of "my needs are unmet and I am going to make it everybody's problem", and I respect that.

[trekbec82]

Something I read years ago and completely agree with, is that human babies are pretty helpless compared to many other species. We can't walk or run within hours of being born, as many mammals can. We don't have teeth yet, to defend ourselves. We can't get our own food for a long time.

But one thing human babies are really good at - often within seconds of being born - is asking for help.

As we mature and gain new skills - vocabulary both verbal and written, gestures, facial expressions, and so forth - the way we ask for help changes. But babies have just one way of asking for help - filling their lungs with air and wailing. And they're right to do so! Their needs are unmet and they cannot do a damn thing about it except request assistance.

There's plenty of adults who could stand to take some pointers.

[homunculus-argument]

Throwing in some vintage @foxes-in-love

[brokenimageswherethesunbeats-de]

A capitalist society requires a culture based on images. It needs to furnish vast amounts of entertainment in order to stimulate buying and anesthetize the injuries of class, race, and sex. And it needs to gather unlimited amounts of information, the better to exploit natural resources, increase productivity, keep order, make war, give jobs to bureaucrats. The camera’s twin capacities, to subjectivize reality and to objectify it, ideally serve these needs and strengthen them. Cameras define reality in the two ways essential to the workings of an advanced industrial society: as a spectacle (for masses) and as an object of surveillance (for rulers). The production of images also furnishes a ruling ideology. Social change is replaced by a change in images. The freedom to consume a plurality of images and goods is equated with freedom itself. The narrowing of free political choice to free economic consumptions requires the unlimited production and consumption of images. - Susan Sontag, On Photography

[funstealer]

Jewelry by TÓ GARAL

[catcrumb]

[weepingwidar]

Guy Rubicon (Belgian, 1979) - Blue Night (2023)

[a3n3g3el]

6 new burdens are in store now : ) 250-255

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