so hiii...... 2024 was insane (understatement). so many highs & lows & lessons learned through them - i tweeted about it, wrote at length about it (Whatever the name of the catastrophe, it is never the opposite of love), talked my friends' & love ones' ears over it, & will continually be processing it as I live... but onwards, upwards, forwards. thank you for being here.
i'm really happy to say that I actually did start a lot of my TOWARDS in 2024. i joined kolektif semai🌱🌹 (a local collective focused on learning-unlearning-healing-organizing through a feminist ecosocialist lens) through being introduced to Rafa at purplecode (💗) during DekodeFest 2023, thus my more political-philosophical-theoretical readings will constantly be influenced by what we discuss hihi. menuju penelitian yg militan ygy!!!!!! i've also solidified my research areas as below:
poetical science | sains puitika
aphantasia & cognitive science as a whole | afantasia & ilmu kognitif secara luas
critical approaches to tech & AI | pendekatan alternatif-&-kritis terhadap teknologi & AI
Indonesian literature & history | sastra & sejarah Indonesia
though ofc what I am & what I'm interested in knowing of extends beyond this (& i really hope i/us as a society don't need to keep prefacing this - constantly needing to affirm that we are & can be multidimensional because there still being others who doubt that). as always, carrying over books from pt1&pt2 but reprioritizing & c.
books i’m reading 2025 & 2026
+ i’ll be at literal in terms of book-logging as always! ( *^-^)ρ(^0^* )
though i am definitely going to be saving the data on my local drives ASAP. no dev updates since 2022 is... uhhh......CHANGELOG UPDATED IN 2026.....
currently reading + on hand
Konferensi Asia-Afrika 1955: Asal Usul Intelektual dan Warisannya bagi Gerakan Global Antiimperialisme oleh Wildan Sena Utama (harus tahun ini selesai... Tolonglah....)
Journal of an Ordinary Grief by Mahmoud Darwish
Talking to My Daughter about the Economy by Yanis Varoufakis
Pale Fire by Vladimir Nabokov
Workers of the Earth: Labour, Ecology and Reproduction in the Age of Climate Change by Stefania Barca
The Book of Disquiet by Fernando Pessoa
Deluge by Leila Chatti (terima kasih, kak norman)
Averno by Louise Glück
to read
Human Acts by Han Kang
Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
Alternatif Sebagai Strategi: Akses, Infrastruktur & Pengetahuan oleh Nuraini Juliastuti
The Political Unconscious by Fredric Jameson
The Cipher by Molly Brodak
Economic and Philosophical Manuscripts of 1844: Human Requirements and Division of Labour by Karl Marx
The Prose of the World by Maurice Merleau-Ponty
WHEREAS by Layli Long Soldier
Matahari Yang Mengalir oleh Dorothea Rosa Herliany
Kejatuhan dan Hati oleh S. Rukiah
Catatan-Catatan dari Bulan oleh Rieke Saraswati
Membisikkan Bekal untuk Perjalanan yang Sangat Jauh: Pendekatan Feminis dalam Kerja Seni Budaya by various writers, with the support of Peretas (Perempuan Lintas Batas) and Puan Seni (Jaringan Seni Perempuan)
The Case for Degrowth by Federico Demaria, Susan Paulson, Giorgis Kallis, Giacomo D′Alisa
Waktu Bintang (tr. Gladhys Elliona) oleh Clarice Lispector
The Technological State in Indonesia by Sulfikar Amir
Jalan Raya Pos, Jalan Daendels oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer
Aksi Massa oleh Tan Malaka
etc
Lighthousekeeping by Jeanette Winterson
Indigenous Species by Khairani Barokka
Innate: How the Wiring of Our Brains Shapes Who We Are by Kevin J. Mitchell
On Decoloniality: Concepts, Analytics, Praxis by Walter D. Mignolo, Catherine E. Walsh
will obviously be reworked & mended & tinkered with.... Friday Findings & baca bareng medindin responsible for a lot of that uhuk
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blurry — from Moten: resistance to clarity that becomes capture; to refuse the sharp outlines that would turn you into a category or spectacle; diffraction, dispersion, opacity; allows for movement, improvisation, multiplicity. like: "i am not a high-resolution image for your comfort."; to remain fugitive
a little personal response / tribute to "here's the life i've always longed for" by Anna Haifisch. the original means so much to me, and even though it's hard, I feel like every day i'm making more steps toward finally being on the other side of that fence <:)
Mosab Abu Toha, from Forest of Noise: Poems; "No Art"
[Text ID: "You know everything will come to an end: / the sugar, the tea, the dried sage, the water. / Even your shadow will abandon you / when there is no light."]
I hate the sound of babies crying, but I can't hate a baby. They've been here for like five minutes and approach this situation with an unhesitant attitude of "my needs are unmet and I am going to make it everybody's problem", and I respect that.
Something I read years ago and completely agree with, is that human babies are pretty helpless compared to many other species. We can't walk or run within hours of being born, as many mammals can. We don't have teeth yet, to defend ourselves. We can't get our own food for a long time.
But one thing human babies are really good at - often within seconds of being born - is asking for help.
As we mature and gain new skills - vocabulary both verbal and written, gestures, facial expressions, and so forth - the way we ask for help changes. But babies have just one way of asking for help - filling their lungs with air and wailing. And they're right to do so! Their needs are unmet and they cannot do a damn thing about it except request assistance.
There's plenty of adults who could stand to take some pointers.
A capitalist society requires a culture based on images. It needs to furnish vast amounts of entertainment in order to stimulate buying and anesthetize the injuries of class, race, and sex. And it needs to gather unlimited amounts of information, the better to exploit natural resources, increase productivity, keep order, make war, give jobs to bureaucrats. The camera’s twin capacities, to subjectivize reality and to objectify it, ideally serve these needs and strengthen them. Cameras define reality in the two ways essential to the workings of an advanced industrial society: as a spectacle (for masses) and as an object of surveillance (for rulers). The production of images also furnishes a ruling ideology. Social change is replaced by a change in images. The freedom to consume a plurality of images and goods is equated with freedom itself. The narrowing of free political choice to free economic consumptions requires the unlimited production and consumption of images. - Susan Sontag, On Photography
★ With the current situation in the U.S, parcels might take longer than usual to get to you and I am so sorry about it. Anything within a month is still normal. ★
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