All or Nothing

What it do Holmes? This tumblr is a blog, a simblr and a random place where I gather my thoughts, document my struggles, chart my desires and post about my many interests. Thanks for stopping by!

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LOL! Where are you?! 👍🏻😊

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Never stop thanking God.

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Credit where credit is due! Glory to God for these bodies! #recognize #fitness #god #success @gps_fitness

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Flying around. Throne of the Four Winds😍. Can I just live here in this elemental plain please? #wow #gamer #worldofwarcraft #gamergirl #preist #playing #gaming

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Game shenanigans with new friends. #squad #wow #worldofwarcraft #gamers #fun #gaming #wowlover #priest #alliance

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Taking a lil mental break this week from all social media. I need to re-group and re-focus and rest. #takingabreak #takeabreath #selfcare #enjoythesilence #channel #meditation #energysaver

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Word.

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We're not married yet, but this was so us today. How you "fight" is just as important as knowing when to fight. #relationships #commitment #love #divorcesucks #chooseyourbattleswisely

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Will the beans kill me? Let's find out if I have any tolerance to them, finally?! Please God!! 🙏🏻 #morgellonsdiet #lymediet #chronicillness #aip #paleo #instagood #instafood #womensmarchnyc #dinner #yum #salmon #salad #eatyourgreens #effortisneveruseless

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I probably walked at least 20 NY blocks today! Not to mention the 3 miles I had already walked before finding out about and then deciding to run over into the city for the march! My hip is killing me now, lol! At least we did it, right my Lymies!? #represent #womensmarch #womensmarchnyc

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This sign is everything. Her age you would think by now our rights as women, mothers, sisters, and part of the human family would be a given, and yet it's systematically been invalidated, abused, insulted and being overturned! Today is a small day of energy and best believe that I WILL be using that to march in NYC for women's rights. For my mom, for my sisters, my aunts, my friends, my nieces and even for yet unknown future female loved ones. As sick as I am - I am not bed ridden today, therefore, I simply cannot afford to have let this opportunity pass me or any other women by! I can walk today, so I AM going to. I am shooting for a 2-3 mile march and not pushing it any further as that wouldn't really be wise in my condition. #womensmarch #babesia #peacefulprotest #womenmarchnyc #lymelife #womensrights #dosomething #maketheeffort #walkit #effortisneveruseless

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I must guard my wisdom, repent and give praise for the wonderful fact that I'm here yet another day 💪🏻 and I still have breath and life in me, however faint it may feel on a given day. Gods Word and wisdom says I can "be lifted up as on wings of eagles" and promises that I "will run and not grow tired"! That isn't always literal, obviously, but wisdom is that I am stronger than my circumstance because God is my Healer. My Deliverer. My Strength. My mental state does not have to be given over to any despair today. Wisdom says "God's Word is healing and life to the bones!" I will therefore sing and choose praise in my weakness AND in my strength! #therace #runtherace #grace #scripture #godisgood #turnandbehealed #provision #teachings #wisdom #singanddance #lymelife #morgellons #faith #words #love #christ #proverbs #meme #bible #live #life #laugh #guardyourheart

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So many reasons to like and love Usui's character! @davidmatranga so grateful for his voice acting work bringing him to "life"! What do you like about Usui?! #maidsama #usuitakumi #davidmatranga #keepcalm #ladies #meme #anime #animelover #loveusui

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But I'm happy to say, today is NOT that day! I refuse! Yesterday I had a spill at the supermarket where I/we were just walking naturally and then my left foot and left leg just kinda gave out and I was in intense (joint, bone and muscle!) pain for like 45 mins & unable to walk on it at all. Wtf?? 😩 Why? My fiancée calmly picked me up and carried me out of the store and placed me in our car /-- leaving our planned dinner there. I realized today looking at me walk and help out around the house, no one would have ever guessed that happened to me just yesterday. This this is a reminder of that now truly crazy Lyme life, new as it is, it's still my life for as long as I'm living and I'm choosing to make the best of it as I can, when I can. #devastation #lymelife #lymedisease #chronicillness #meme #fatigue #bedbound #keepcalm #choosehope #setbackshappen #herx #somedays #morgellons #makethebest

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Best breakup letter ever! This is extremely CLEVER. This makes me appreciate my faithful sweetheart so much much more! #breakup #note #byecheater #cheatingboyfriend #cheatinghusband

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What's really got me down today: I cannot help anything - feel stuck! We have loads of laundry that I can't do I want to work, but I still can't!! I can't stand these damn symptoms anymore! I can't write now to even make us some side money! There are so many fibers and a general mess everywhere in and I can't clean it up to save my life! There are fibers everywhere! I just want to be able to eat normal food! We are having car problems on top of everything else... I'm really getting sick of well meaning people who urge me to "hurry up and get well" - F off! You are insulting me! As if I enjoy living like this and I have complete control over my "getting well"?! Stop! Just stop! In fact, just STFU! Everything about this makes me feel so sad and angry!#help #sad #overwhelmed #chronicillness #depression #sadness #lymelife #morgellons #lymedontkillmyvibe #angst #crying #cantdoitalone

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No, but really? Where are the exercise workouts for those of us with chronic pain and debilitating chronic illness? I found a quote from Teddy Roosevelt which is "fitting" fitness for us chronic sufferers: “Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” 😊We’re all dealing with different situations as Lymies/Morgellons sufferers, and we all have to attack each physical situation differently. Don’t worry what others are doing, able to do, what YOU were able to do, and don’t worry about what you can’t do now that you want to be able to. Focus on what you CAN do and work on getting a little bit better in that way each and every day that you can. 💪🏻Yesterday, after being sick (Lyme, herxing, and fluish on top of the actual flu😔) and in intense pain for 2 weeks and half - I got out of bed, as I was able, and slowly began to work out lightly. I managed 8 push-ups, 30 bicycle crunches, 7 super mans, and today I was even able to do 5 sumo squats, 5 regular squats, 8 calf lifts with 2 lb weight and stretching both days. Yes, I used to be able to do SO MUCH more reps and weights but, who cares? Not me! 🙌🏻 I/we can't live in the past. I'm able to get out of bed today. I can move and breathe cleanly just for today and I am doing what I can with what I have; keeping in mind wisely my spoon count. #meme #spoonie #chronicillness #gift #praisethelord