My Journey

on this blog i will be showing my journey to getting my life back!

[writtenly]

It’s been a few hours, you’ve just been hanging there. You’ve been quiet, too quiet. Usually there’s music playing, or your foot steps could be heard. But today, you’re quiet. Your little sister, who doesn’t normally come to greet you because you lock yourself away, decides to see what you’re doing. She assumes you’re taking a nap, or doing some homework quietly. She runs up the stairs, eager to see, but she comes to an immediate halt. You’re not doing your homework, nor taking a nap. Your music isn’t playing and you aren’t walking around. You’re hanging there, completely still, now just like her. At this moment, her whole world shatters. Everything she has ever known, looked up to, loved, is hanging there by a thread. At this moment, her life has been changed forever. At this moment, she wishes she was hanging with you.

Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.” No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.” No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.” They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you ever could. They will cry, scream, and break down. They’ll believe it’s all just a dream, praying to wake up. Except, they won’t feel that for a few seconds, or a few days, not weeks, nor months. They will feel that until the day they die. Everyday will be hell. They’ll think of you ever second. They’ll hate themselves for not being able to help or save you. They’ll wish they could die too. They’ll want to give up, just to be with you. They won’t be ever be happy again. They won’t smile. They won’t go back to their daily routine. They’ll die every time they walk past your room, or see a picture of you, or think of a memory with you. They’ll think, but stay quiet. They’ll visit your grave, feeling a knife go through their chest every time. And every morning when they wake up, no matter how long it’s been, they’ll wake up to thinking they’ll see you, only to be let down once again. And every night, they will cry themselves to sleep, because even though they refuse to admit it, know you’re gone forever.

Before you decide to take your life, think of your family, burying you. Yes, your own mother and father are planning your funeral. It’s supposed to be the other way around, but it’s not. They’ll have to call the cops, sign a death certificate, pick out clothing, buy a tomb stone, a casket, pick out flower arrangements, and more; All for their child’s funeral. The morning of your funeral, everyone who loves you is wearing black. Tears are streaming down their face, while their heart is breaking. Everyone who you thought didn’t need you, or didn’t care, are waiting in line to see you. They aren’t waiting in line at a party, or a graduation, or at a wedding reception. They’re waiting to see you, hands folded, lifeless, in a casket.

Before you decide to take your life, think of everyone you will be hurting. Don’t you dare say no one, because absolutely everyone will be affected. Your grandparents, won’t have a grandchild anymore. Your parents, won’t have a child anymore. Your brother or sister, won’t have a sibling anymore. Your pet, won’t have an owner anymore. That person you sit next to in class, won’t feel your presence anymore. Your teacher, won’t have a student anymore. That time your grandparents told you no, will haunt them forever, thinking it is their fault, that you are now dead. That time your parents yelled at you, will haunt them forever, thinking if they didn’t yell at you, you would still be here. That time your sibling said they hated you, will hate themselves, because they believe you would still be alive if they said they loved you instead. Those kids who made you feel bad, will wish they were dead too, because if they just smiled at you instead, you would be here. That teacher that said you didn’t meet her expectations, will feel like a failure, because you would still be here, if she believed in you. Everyone, who has ever been in your presence, will hurt, because if they showed you they cared, you would still be here.

Before you decide to take your life, think. Don’t just think of yourself, think of the consequences for everyone else. No one’s life will be the same again. That person who God made specially for you, won’t have you. That happiness that was waiting for you, will never show again. Before you decide to take your life, realize that you may be ending your pain, but you’ll be starting a lifetime of everyone elses.

If you are feeling alone, and think that suicide is the only way out:

My ask is open, and I’m always here. I’ll never judge you. I’ll try to help you.

If you are thinking of taking your life, call:

1-800-784-2433

1-800-SUICIDE

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[thatpositivelife]

I wish she had seen this.

[mashtonpotatoes]

You could save a life tonight with just one reblog

[sad-butsassy]

oh god I wish he had seen this that night

[destined4nirvana]

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[miss-sad-marshmallow]

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[notthinenough-blog]

This is what keeps me alive. For every one in my life.

[almostfairylight]

When you kill yourself, you kill reverting else too.

[thin-porcelain-doll-blog]

I promise this won’t ruin the look of your blog. It’s worth much more than that.

[nothingbuiltinaday]

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[savetheturtlescanada]

ONE STRAW TO END THEM ALL 💪

Americans use 500 million straws every single day with the majority of those ending up in our landfills and oceans. Here at Save The Turtles, we created a simple and effective method of reducing our reliance on plastic with our Collapsible Straw. 

While the push continues to change how big restaurant chains and corporations operate, we must be the change we want to see. Without grassroots movements like this, companies would continue to operate under the premise that our oceans don’t matter. Make a small difference in your community by getting a reusable straw. 

Here at Save The Turtles, our ultimate goal is to keep our oceans clean. In our pursuit to achieve this, beyond offering our reusable straws, we donate 5% of our profits to Sea Turtle Conservancy. 

While straws are just the beginning, our team is hard at work designing more eco-friendly, reusable products to continue the push towards a plastic-free ocean. 

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[fit-daydreams]

A question that has been helping me from binging/cheating:

What’s worse? The discomfort of a craving for something you shouldn’t eat or the terrible guilt you’ll have after?

[jacethewitch]

The 24th of October is a Full Moon

Perfect time to charge crystals, enchant objects, or perform a deep cleansing! 

[almondmelkk]

Eating after 8pm leads to weight gain?

So about a month ago I took a survey asking if you believe that eating after 8pm leads to weight gain. Both tumblr and Instagram had a result of 52% False and 48% True.

It is FALSE.

And here’s why:

As a lot of you said it’s all about calories. (There are few other factors that can affect certain individuals such as thyroid issues etc.)

As long as the individual stays within their daily caloric needs, the time of day the calories are consumed does not effect weight gain. However, if an individual consumes more calories than they burn this will lead to weight gain.

The reason it can seem as though it leads to weight gain is because typically eating after 8pm is “additional snacking” beyond your caloric needs. It’s easy to mindlessly binge!

Example:

Sally burns 2200 calories a day.

She eats 1500 throughout the day and then eats 700cal at 9pm (2200 cal total) her weight will not be affected.

Now let’s say Sally eats 2000cal throughout the day and then starts eating pita with hummus at 9pm not realizing she just ate 500 calories, 300 beyond what she burned. If Sally did this every night, Sally will gain about 1lb in less than 2 weeks.

3500 calories= 1lb

This can go either way! In a week, if you eat an additional 3500 you will gain a pound. On the other hand, if you reduce your calories by 3500 over a week span you will lose a pound!

calories IN > calories OUT = weight gain

calories OUT > calories IN = weight loss

calories IN = calories OUT = maintainance

If you struggle with nighttime snacking this “rule” may be useful to help you cut back. Every healthy lifestyle requires discipline because we live in a world full of fast, unhealthy and processed food.

So just do your best! Try to eat a balanced diet and exercise ♥️

[16isanewme]

What I learned at 16

I will be turning 17 next week Tuesday (April 3rd 2018). I have come to the realization of many things this past year. i learnt that not every term i can get good grades, i learnt that not all progress is the same, i learnt to not beat up over my problems and to grow from what I’ve learnt. I experienced my first boyfriend and in turn my first heartbreak. I realized that although he broke my heart i still love him (strong words for a young teen i know) so i decided to atleast still be his friend and its perfect its like nothing changed and i am so happy for it. i had applied for the college of my dreams, i reached to the final stage of acceptance and then got turned down. But that taught me that not everything is set in stone and to have back up plans. over this year i also had a body change, from going a size 26 depressed teen at 187 lbs i lost 42 lbs at size 6 and then gained back 5 lbs. although gaining this weight i am a little upset but i don’t cry when i see myself in the mirror anymore.

i smile and say “look how far you have come. i’m proud of you”.

 i even changed religions, this caused me to lose friends and respect from some family members but i think this religion suits me way more and i am okay with it.

 I’m scared to see what 17 brings me, secondary school graduation, jobs, new school, driving, possibly moving out and even my first tattoo (hopefully).

 But none the less i hold my head up high and look to the sky i am ready for whatever is thrown at me.

i have grown

[dolceandveganna]

I’m a fish.

[16isanewme]

this is a really good idea for keeping track of your water intake which can reduce bloating from water weight. @dolceandveganna think i might try this one. good luck for you :)

[raphaellefoczeny-deactivated202]

She was a poetry in a world that was still learning the alphabet.

Foczeny (via raphaellefoczeny)

[cats-tats-recovery]

Here's a fun idea for the Summer:

If you’re at a place where everyone has to wear swim suits/shorts and you see someone that looks insecure and uncomfortable, go tell them how much you love their swim clothes and how hella awesome they look. I can’t count how many times I’ve felt insecure at the beach or pool or somewhere and I just went and sat by myself watching everyone have a good time before I learned the value of self love and how to be body positive. But I do know if someone would have said something like that to me, I would have felt a little more confident and could have enjoyed myself more.

[16isanewme]

today started really slow. school was hard and gym was harder but as the workout progressed the happier and better i was. did arms today and man do my arms need help😅😅

[16isanewme]

Today was a long day at school. My grades are still going up thank god but its only the third day of the third term and im so sick of it. Had a long and late gym day today as well. Usually im here from 3/3:30-5/5:30 but intead i was here from 5-7. ♡The flower didnt dream of the bee. The flower bloomed and the bee came♡

[16isanewme]

this blog is where i will upload my journey into getting my confidence, finding who i am and graduating seconday school.

About me i am 16 as of April 3rd 2017 i spend 2 hours at the gym 6 days a week i recently had surgery on both of my feet and im gonna carve the real me out of the old depressed me. im not going to be a victim of myself anymore.