Kaffa

Something is wrong here ~{READ PINNED}~ 20yrs (he/they/neos)

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Info Pin

This is kind of like a journal account to keep track of what’s going on in my head.

Basically, I have no idea what’s going on but putting my ideas down will be better than nothing.

I welcome people to relate and share their experiences in the notes :D

General Info

I change my name often so just call me by whatever is below the pfp at the moment.

I typically use (they/them) pronouns but theyll be added to the bio if they’re different.

I will take advice and suggestions in the notes if anyone has them. Just don’t be super invasive.

Before You Follow

I will be talking about derealization, dissociation, self harm, suicide, eating disorders, rape, pedophilia, fake claiming, discourse, obsessions, drugs, mental hospitals, therapy, psychiatry, mental illness, and many more.

I won’t step around topics and if I do, there’ll be super uncomfortable.

I will express my interests on here too so it won’t be all gloom. Im obsessed with certain animes so they will be on here time to time.

Boundaries

I don’t mind people giving me advice and suggestions. I don’t mind people relating or sharing their experiences. I’d like to relate to people if I can. Do not go diagnosing me with anything based on my posts.

Don’t invalidate experiences and be an ass. We all got issues and if this account bugs you, just block it and move on.

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Thought my friend killed himself the other night

He didn’t

Was scary though

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When I’m trying to address the elephant but these bitches go to their alts and start shit talking me for addressing the elephant

You guys are the ones sneaking off and abusing someone’s money. I’m just bringing it up

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I daydream about people caring about me

It’s so terrible

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I need to start paying people everytime I cause them trouble

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I hate people making fun of my gaming accounts

It pisses me off but saying something feels annoying and childish. I just don’t like when some criticizes the way I play something

But it seems so stupid to be upset at so i don’t bring it up.

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How do I atone

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I have to atone

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Its gotta be karma

It has to be

It’s cause I did something to offend god or something

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I wanna die

I wanna cut my fingers off and eat my own muscles

I don’t wanna lose this

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I have so many ideas and they’re gonna throw them out

They won’t see what I have planned

I just wanna die

I wanna die

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They’re gonna replace me with some half ass who doesn’t even know what my brain is full of

And I’m gonna die

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I wanna curl up and die

I messed up and I’m lol gonna lose it

I’m not gonna finish it and I’m gonna die

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Man I wanna kill myself

I know I messed up big I got distracted and I messed up and now I’m gonna lose it all

I just wanna die

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Love having dreams of ultimate demise fresh in morning

Cause what do you mean I got shot in my dream and now I’m shaking

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When I can’t find the words and I just start making sounds and yelling noises

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I fear I’m unlovable

I want to be loved so bad but i fear there’s no one in the world who can love me for me