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Currently fixated on Buck and Tommy from 911. I have reignited my old love of Stargate by doing a rewatch and review - a 911 rewatch will be happening soon. Sometimes I write fic

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It's Not Home, But It'll Do Chapter 16

Buck moves into his new place and recruits a few helping hands.

Links to previous chapters:

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15

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“Hey Elena, what are you doing – woah crap!”

Buck’s feet slid out from underneath him, his arms and legs flailing as he struggled to regain his balance on the damp floor of the fire house.  Elena, meanwhile, watched on in amusement, her eyes sparkling with mirth as she leaned against the mop, the source of Buck’s predicament.

“You okay there Bambi?” Elena chuckled as Buck was finally able to grab onto the nearby kitchen counter and halt his momentum.

“Yeah, I’m o– wait, Bambi?”

Elena gave him a look that once again reminded him of one of Tommy’s patented bitchy stares (and boy, did he now want to see the two of them in an out of work setting – their similar sarcastic wit would either result in chaos or hilarity).  “Are you seriously telling me,” Elena said, “that with a name like Buck and those baby deer legs of yours, no one has ever thought to give you the nickname Bambi?”  Buck shook his head.  “Oh, that is shameful.  Anyway, what’s up?”

“I’ve managed to find a new place to live – mind giving me a hand moving on Saturday?”

“You’re moving?” Elena asked, dipping the mop back in to the bucket and resuming her cleaning of the floor.  “Trouble in paradise?” she asked softly, and a quick glance up from her chore revealed to Buck a face filled with concern.

“No, nothing like that,” Buck reassured her, moving carefully over the wet floor to the dishwasher and starting to unload it.  “We’ve uh, we’ve actually sorted things out.  We’re not back together or anything,” he added hurriedly at Elena’s raised eyebrows, “but we finally had a good talk and hashed out some of our issues, and there’s hope for us in the future.  But we need our own space before we can get there, so I’ve found a new place.”

“Sure, I can come give you a hand Bambi,” Elena said, her grin widening at Buck’s pout at the nickname.  “It will just be me I’m afraid – Joe coaches Little League, and they have a game on that day.”

“That’s so cool,” Buck gushed.  “That’s fine – you’ll be plenty of help.”

“Oh, I know I will.  Doesn’t mean we can’t recruit more though.”  Elena peered around Buck’s tall form to look towards the gym on the other side of the station.  “Yo, Whiskey!”

Jack sat up from the bench press he had been lying on, and he and Daniels, who had been spotting him, looked over the weight rack to meet Elena’s gaze.

“Saturday, you two are helping me move Buck into his new place.”

“Yes boss,” Daniels joked, whipping off a snappy salute.

“Yeah, that’s no problem, but I can only do half a day – I’m picking up the kids in the afternoon,” Jack added.

“What’s only for half a day?” Elliot asked, emerging from the locker room.

“Buckley is moving house, and we need muscle,” Daniels said as he walked over.  He grinned.  “That’s why we haven’t asked you.”

“Asshole,” Elliot fired back, but he was grinning in response.  “I’ll show you muscle.”

“Oh yeah?”  Daniels moved to the counter and propped his elbow on it, his arm raised in the traditional stance for an arm wrestle.  “Prove it probie.” 

“Oh, you’re on,” Elliot responded eagerly, moving to the other side of the counter.

Elena rolled her eyes.  “Boys.”

*****

“You know,” Tommy huffed from the other end of the couch that he and Buck were carrying into the lounge room.  “You just had to pick one of the hottest days of the year to move.”

“Well, it was either pick the stinking hot day today, or the stinking hot day tomorrow,” Buck retorted as they placed it down on the floor.  “I could have always pushed it back to the stinking hot day next week if that’s what you would have preferred?”

“Hmm,” Tommy pretended to ponder, unable to hide his smile.  “I’m afraid I’m all booked up next week, so I suppose today would have to do.”

Buck and Tommy grinned at each other before being bumped aside.

“You know, you would move in a lot quicker if you two actually, you know, helped to move things?” Elliot griped as he nudged past carrying a stack of dining chairs.

“We just moved this couch!” Buck protested, pointing at said couch at his and Tommy’s feet.

“And there’s still more out there,” Elliot replied, a note of authoritarianism creeping into his tone.

“Oh God, it’s another Buck,” Chim commented, following Elliot into the house with his own set of chairs.  “Is he a demon with a clipboard too?”

“Dunno, we don’t trust him to have that much responsibility,” Munroe piped up from her position in the kitchen where she was bouncing Robbie in her arms, Maddie standing next to her.

“Hey, I’m responsible,” Elliot whined.  “I’m here, aren’t I?”

“Speaking of being here, how is it that Ravi and I are the only members of team 118 helping you move?” Chimney asked.  “What exactly were Hen and Eddie’s excuses that they were able to escape this torture?  For future reference.”

“Hen had to take Denny for a check-up.  Follow up x-rays or something to see how his leg has healed up,” Buck said, grasping the end of the couch and making a show of moving it back and forth a few inches in an attempt to find the perfect spot in order to avoid Chim’s eyes.

“And what was Eddie’s excuse?” Chim asked as he accepted a bottle of water from his wife, gulping down the cool liquid gratefully.  “I would have thought out of all of us, he would have been here to help his best friend move.”

Buck’s eyes flickered up to catch Tommy’s eye, the only one who knew of Buck and Eddie’s last interaction.  Buck noted the set of his jaw, Tommy still clearly unhappy with Eddie, but regardless of how he felt, Tommy didn’t say anything, allowing Buck to reveal as much – or as little – as he wanted.

He chose the latter.

“I think he was busy,” Buck mumbled.  “Oh hey, just lay that against the wall over there, I’ll sort it out later,” Buck said to Ravi and Daniels as they carried in his mattress, relieved to have the diversion.  “I’d rather unload the truck as quickly as possible so we can get out of this heat and then organise everything after I’ve returned the truck.”

“Watch your step,” Munroe teased, as Daniels stumbled while walking backwards with the mattress.  “Just helping,” she added sweetly when he threw a dirty look her way.

“What would be helpful is if you actually helped to move some stuff,” Daniels fired her way.

“Hey, I helped,” Elena protested.  She shifted Robbie’s weight to one arm so she could free up the other and point at the admittedly impressive pile of boxes not far from her feet.  “I carried all of them in, didn’t I?  And besides,” she added, using her now free hand to tickle the squishy stomach of the child in her arms.  “I’m keeping the baby occupied.  Do you realise the hell we’d be in right now if he was cranky?  I’m keeping everyone sane by keeping him happy.  You’re happy aren’t you little guy?  Yes, you are, you handsome little man.”

“Do my eyes deceive me?  Our Munroe going goo goo over a baby?  Are we going to have some mini-Munroe’s in our future?” Jack asked as he strolled in carrying several boxes stacked on top of each other.

“Hell no,” she replied immediately.  “I can appreciate a baby’s cuteness without wanting one myself thank you very much.  Joe and I love being DINK’s.”

“You’re what?” Buck asked, his head whipping around to look at his coworker.

“DINK’s.  Double Income, No Kids.”

“Ohhhh.  I thought you said…”

Elena flashed a wicked grin.  “I know what you thought.  Gutter, gutter, gutter Buckley.”

“What did you think she said, Uncle Buck?” Jee asked innocently from where she was sitting on the floor playing at Maddie’s feet.

“Uhhh…”

“Aww, Uncle Buck?  That’s hilarious.” Daniels said.

Buck frowned.  “Why?  It’s my name.”

Daniels exchanged incredulous looks with Jack.  “Because of the movie.”

“You know, the movie,” Jack added when he noticed Buck’s blank look.  “Uncle Buck?  With John Candy?”

“Never heard of it.”

Jack and Daniel’s jaws dropped in shock and Chim came up between them, clapping his hands on their shoulders.  “Oh, I understand completely.  Our Buckaroo is highly uncultured,” Chim sighed in exasperation.

“He’s your family – how have you not rectified this?” Daniels asked.

“The man is surprisingly stubborn.”

“The man is standing right here!” Buck objected.

Tommy laid a comforting hand on Buck’s shoulder.

“I blame you,” Chim accused Tommy, pointing a finger at the man.  “All those months you were together, and you couldn’t expand his cinematic horizons?  I expected better from you Tommy.”

“We didn’t get around to it.  We had other things on our minds.”  Tommy looked slyly over at Buck and Buck couldn’t help but grin back, a light flush to his cheeks.

“Oh no, no – don’t want to hear about it, nope!”

“You brought it up,” Buck added gleefully, enjoying his brother-in-law’s discomfort.

“Boys,” Maddie admonished.  “There are children in the room.”

“Sorry,” chorused Buck, Chim and Tommy.

Just as she had a few days prior, once again Elena rolled her eyes with a muttered, “boys,” echoing Maddie’s sentiment, although unlike at the fire house, this time she had support as Maddie nodded in reply.

*****

By the late afternoon, the majority of the heavy lifting had been completed, so Buck had insisted that everyone could head home with his sincerest thanks.  Daniels had volunteered to return the truck for Buck since the depot was on the way to where he lived, and Ravi had offered to follow behind so that he could give him a ride from the depot to Daniel’s house (the pair of them had very quickly established a rapport during the moving process and Buck had been happy to see the people of his new life meshing so well with those of his old one).  Tommy had offered to stay behind and help get as much sorted as they could so that Buck could at least access the things he needed for day to day living. 

“Interesting place you have here,” Tommy said from the back door as he peered out into the garden.  He turned to face Buck who was in the kitchen, putting things away in cupboards that were missing their doors.  Tommy pointed a thumb back towards the garden.  “You do realise there is a toilet sitting in the middle of the lawn, right?”

“Uh, yeah, I had noticed that,” Buck replied with a small laugh.  “The contractors have kind of been using the back yard as a dumping ground for the things they’re having to rip out until they can take it all away.  Hopefully it won’t be out there for much longer, but it doesn’t bother me too much.  I won’t be spending much time out there for the time being.”

Tommy took another glance out into the backyard, before taking a longer look around the inside of the house; the kitchen in its half state of repair, the open doorway leading to one of the bedrooms that was missing its carpet, the lounge room with a boarded-up window.  “Are you sure you’re going to be okay?”

Buck looked around at his new place.  “I know it doesn't look like much, but Melissa – my new landlord – is getting things fixed up as quick as she can.  And it’s liveable.  It will be a proper home in no time.  No need to worry about me.”

Tommy smiled and joined Buck in the kitchen.  “Old habits die hard I guess.”  Opening the cooler that Maddie had left behind so that Buck had something to fill his refrigerator, Tommy reached in and pulled out a bottle.

“Champagne?” Tommy asked, turning the bottle in his hands.  Looking carefully at the label, his eyes widened in recognition.  “Is this –?”

Buck turned to find Tommy holding a very familiar bottle of champagne.  “Uh, yeah, it is.  I’ve been holding onto it.  Waiting for a special occasion.”

“The birth of your nephew didn’t warrant cracking it open?”

“It did, but it wasn’t the occasion I was waiting for.”

Tommy’s eyes softened.  “Evan –”

“I wanted to apologise,” Buck interrupted before Tommy could venture into territory that both had agreed they weren’t ready for yet.

“Apologise?” Tommy asked, accepting the change of subject and watching Buck from the corner of his eye as he placed the champagne in the fridge and grabbed two beers out of the cooler instead.

“For what I said that morning after we slept together,” Buck said, accepting the beer that Tommy offered.  “I know we talked a little bit about it before, but I never actually apologised for it.  So, this is me, apologising.  I didn’t mean it.  Or at least, I didn’t mean for you to think that I was talking about you.  I wish I could say in that moment that I didn’t want to hurt you, but I did.  I was angry, and it hurt to think that you didn’t trust me in our relationship, so I lashed out.  But I regretted it the instant I said it, because I really, really didn’t mean it.”  Buck paused and waited for Tommy to meet his eyes.  “You could never be just a one-night stand for me Tommy, you have to know that.  And I’m sorry for not telling you this earlier.  I wanted to, I really did – I was going to call you and apologise.  But I always found some excuse to put it off and before I knew it weeks had gone by, and I figured you wouldn’t want to hear from me anyway.  So, I know it’s a few months late, but I’m sorry.”

Tommy nodded and placed his beer on the countertop.  “Well, speaking of long overdue apologies, I’m sorry too.”

Buck frowned in confusion.  “What for?”

“For running out on you that morning.  And the night that we broke up.  In case you hadn’t noticed by now, I tend to do that when things get tough.”

“Yeah, I’d noticed,” Buck said with a teasing lilt to his voice.  “You’re a bit like Maddie in that regard.”

Tommy raised his eyebrows in surprise.  “Really?”

“Oh yeah,” Buck said.  “Remind me to tell you all about her and Chim’s relationship woes in the early days – they weren’t always as settled as they are now.”

“Well, regardless, you deserved better.  The night we broke up – yes, you freaked me out a little.  One minute you’re telling me we share an ex – a significant ex for both of us – and the next you’re asking me to move in.  I freaked out, but I should have stayed so that we could talk things out.  Instead, I made the biggest mistake of my life, and I have regretted it ever since.”

Buck vaguely remembered Tommy saying something similar before, but it had been in the midst of them arguing, so it hadn’t really registered at the time.  This time, it did.  “You – you have?”

“Yeah.  I told you back in the bar that I thought of calling you, that I used to drive by your place and try to gather the courage to go and talk to you.  What I didn’t tell you was how often I did it.  It was honestly getting to the point where I could have been charged with stalking,” he joked.

“I wish you had stopped by,” Buck admitted.

“Me too,” Tommy said softly.

Silence hung heavy in the air for a few moments as they watched each other, a twinge of regret in the air.  Breaking eye contact to ease the tension in the room, Buck took a long swig of his beer, then placed the bottle on the counter decisively.  “Well, no more wishing and “what if’s”.  What’s done is done and we have a chance to move forward – eventually.”  Looking around the room, his eyes fell upon the mattress leaning up against the wall.  “Speaking of moving, mind giving me a hand moving that mattress into the bedroom, so I have something to sleep on?”

“Your bed isn’t set up,” Tommy pointed out.

“Yeah, the carpet is getting laid next week, and I really don’t want to have to set up the bed only to have to break it back down when they come in.  I’ll just sleep on the mattress on the floor.”  Buck couldn’t help but send a sly look Tommy’s way.  “Besides, it’s not like I haven’t done it before.  As you know.”

Buck felt a shiver of satisfaction down his spine at the faintest of flushes that spotted Tommy’s cheeks.  Tommy wasn’t one to be easily flustered, so Buck always counted it as a win whenever he managed to get a reaction out of Tommy.

Tommy cleared his throat.  “Right.  So, mattress?”

Buck grinned.  “Mattress.”  He followed Tommy over to where the mattress lay, and together the two of them continued to get Buck settled into his new home.

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[peppermintquartz]

i don't CARE if canon has Evan Buckley dating or sleeping with or hell getting married to someone new in the next season/s, he is never getting over Tommy Kinard in my book and they WILL get back together

[1thesewordsaremyown1]

Hi, hon. I hope you don't mind if I offer you a suggestion. In your pinned post where you have the latest chapter/update of your fic, you might consider putting the chapter/update under a 'read more'. The pinned post is very long otherwise. I hope this doesn't make you angry, as I don't wish to.

Omg thank you! You didn't make me angry at all, I'm actually glad you pointed it out as I had no clue there wasn't one. I ALWAYS do a read more with my fics as I don't want to clog up people's dashboards, so I have no idea why I forgot to do it with this one. I shall edit now!

[robbuckys]

I think the most insidious thing about BuckTommy on 911 is the gaslighting. I can accept the relationship ended, but the way that he's just never mentioned in or out of canon? The way people act like it was not a meaningful relationship and was just Buck's coming out arc?

You (Tim Minear, the writers, whoever) are the ones who said Tommy is the most transformative thus far. You didn't have to have Buck say that.

You are the ones that had them break up and get back together two or three times. You didn't have to bring him back at all.

You are the ones that had Josh ask Buck all of those love related questions. You did not have to include that.

You are the ones that added 'and for you' and the monitor scene. Those were not necessary for a relationship not meant to last.

You are the ones who had Buck pining over this man for EPISODES. You could have just had Buck move on.

And then we're supposed to be like, duh of course it wasn't meant to last. Like what on earth? And we can't even be like well that was Tim baiting us! Like the buddies do, because it wasn't bait. It was a canon queer relationship that he put the utmost importance on and then let it go like nothing???

Everytime someone is like "oh well it was never meant to be more duhhhh" that's just patently false gaslighting and attempts to change the canon narrative.

[harmless-variety-of-garden-snake]

AU five facts: Tommy finally finds out the specifics of how Abby left Buck and maybe starts to understand a little bit why Evan didn’t chase after him, the way he’d half hoped he would

Ohhh honestly this barely needs to be an AU, we could have this! ArthurFist.jpeg but I will AU it.

1. Sometime before the hookup and before Eddie moves, Abby reaches out to ask him if he still talks to an old mutual friend of theirs. Abby's pretty sure she doesn't use Facebook anymore, her phone number changed, and she's been trying to get in touch for months. The only other person who knew her is Tommy, because she was his friend first, so she calls him and it's awkward at first. He does, in fact, still have Mel's number. Well, her new one. She'd changed it after her divorce, Tommy's had the same one since he moved to LA. He asks her if she still talks to Alan and Stacy. "Eh, here and there," she says. "Why?" "Because they were saying some really unkind shit about you and Ev--Buck," he says, having replayed that whole thing in his head so many times. "How do you know Buck?" she asks, and he tells her. She's shocked and more than a little morbidly curious and also apparently only found out he was gay because she Instagram stalked him a few years before after her exes came up in a conversation with a friend.

2. He remembers what Evan said about Abby's relationship with him being transformative, which contradicts the shitshow he'd heard about. So he asks her what exactly happened. He knew her well enough back then to read between the lines of what she says now, and she's apparently done some therapy and realized some things weren't okay, like stringing this young guy along after she'd left the country. She kept giving him hope, and she knew it. He kept messaging her, taking her calls, calling her, and it all ended up the way it did. After she openly told him everything going on in her head for months. She opened up, strung him along, and then that was it. "Goddammit," he sighs. "What?" she asks. "Nothing," he says, even though he wants to ask her some pointed questions. "I gotta go."

3. Tommy builds a bench for an outdoor table he's building, and he sands and tries to think back on things Evan had said about past relationships. There's not a ton. They hadn't really talked about that. But he knows about the traveling, the fact that Maddie was supposed to join him and then basically stood him up because of her ex. Tommy knows what he's been wanting out of this situation, which is to have Evan show that he actually understands their relationship, that he cares enough about Tommy as a person rather than an idea. But maybe he got scared off from chasing after people. He remembers how Evan had asked if he was breaking up with him, when that hadn't been Tommy's plan. Tommy had thought it was what he wanted, but maybe it's just what he expected. He turns off the sander and goes inside to shower.

4. He drives to the loft. Evan's car is in its spot, and Tommy has to circle the block four times before he can find somewhere to park. He goes up and knocks on the door, and Evan opens it. He's in an apron, there's flour all down the front of it, and the place smells kind of like Christmas. He looks tired and surprised and so, so beautiful. "T-Tommy," he says, like he can't believe Tommy's there. "Hey, is this a bad time?" Tommy asks, and Evan steps aside. His hands itch to reach out, to hold his waist so he can kiss him, quick and easy and automatic. "It smells good, whatever that is," Tommy says. "Uh, it's a spice cake," Evan says, and Tommy sees a few cooling racks with cupcakes or muffins. Also cookies. "Did you forget something here? I checked, but--" "Yeah," Tommy says, turning to look at him. "You." And Evan blinks a couple of times and then smiles a little, and Tommy can't help but return it.

5. Tommy tells him what was going through his head, why he felt like he needed to walk away from the situation, how he unfairly thought Evan would try to stop him if he cared. "But I know that hasn't worked out for you in the past," Tommy says, and Evan looks away. "We don't know enough about each other yet to move in together. Clearly. But maybe we could figure out how to get there? Except not...here. I'm sorry, but there's no garage space and nowhere to woodwork and--" He can't even complain about the parking, because Evan is reaching across and kissing him. Tommy's fingers twist in the apron, and he's got flour on him, too, when they pull away, but he doesn't care. "I missed you so much," he confesses. "Y-yeah, I--" Evan looks over his shoulder at the cooling racks and chokes out a laugh, looking back at Tommy with tears in his eyes. "I bake when I want to text you." The chair creaks under Tommy when he pulls Evan nearly onto his lap for another kiss, and he can't believe he ever walked away from this.

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[sad-girl-hours23]

118 bucktommy but they work different shifts.

Buck bakes and whatever is leftover, he leaves for Tommy's shift. Tommy is the only one who ever leaves a thank you note.

One day, Buck leaves a note (on Tommy's locker? in the kitchen? idk) asking Tommy if he has any dessert requests (Buck has already made something special for everyone on his shift and he's out of ideas).

A few days later, in the drawer with all the recipe books, Buck finds a recipe card for blueberry turnovers. On the back, is an anecdote from Tommy, about spending childhood summers with his grandmother and making blueberry turnovers together (though his grandmother did most of the work; Tommy could never quite get the pastry to stick). It's obviously just recently written and Buck realizes Tommy's addressing this to him, he wanted Buck to know this story.

Buck makes the blueberry turnovers and sets half of them aside for Tommy with a note, thanking him for the recipe and the story.

Buck takes the card home and laminates it.

This continues on, recipe after recipe, story after story. Buck starts finding the ingredients he needs already stocked in the pantry.

They leave notes for each other.

Tommy leaves Buck breakfast sandwiches and cut-up fruit and pitchers of iced coffee.

Buck buys a polaroid camera. He takes photos of their exchanged foods and scribbles a caption on the photo, leaves it for Tommy to find.

They're always gone the next shift, so maybe Tommy has started his own collection (Tommy's recipe cards are stored in a small cedar box with blueberries painted on the side that Buck found at an antique store).

Buck's feeling...bold, maybe. He takes a selfie. Captions it, simply: Evan

That, too, is gone next shift.

One of the firefighters on Buck's shift transfers houses to be closer to home and there's a new transfer in and some shuffling between shifts.

There was no new recipe card in the drawer, so Buck's making blueberry turnovers.

Everybody knows to stay out of Buck's way when he's baking (they also know if they linger too long, he'll try to convince them to wash the dishes he's dirtied with his baking experiments), but the footsteps crossing the loft are unfamiliar.

He turns around, sees a man around his age with blue eyes and brown hair, a strong jawline and a cleft in his chin. When their eyes meet, when the man smiles and his eyes crinkle, even though Buck has never seen him before, he is familiar.

"So this is where the magic happens."

Buck ducks his head as his face flushes and he laughs quietly when Tommy stands next to him and gently bumps their shoulders.

Buck gestures to the pastry and the blueberry filling laid out. "I could teach you, if you want."

[kinardsevan]

if you ship bucktommy in any form, can you like/repost this?

I’m trying to see something.

[itsametaphorok]

It will never not be endearing to me that Buck has only ever been flustered when he’s with Tommy. Any other love interest, casual or not, woman or man, it’s Buck being a combination of confident and cheeky. Tommy is the only one who has ever reduced him to just soft smiles and this awshucks me? feeling.

[weewoo911]

Post BT-hookup fic where while Buck is at Maddie’s house moping over Tommy, he leaves the room for a few minutes (playing w Jee or checking on whatever he’s baking in Maddie’s oven)- leaving his phone face up on the coffee table

The phone lights up with a message and Maddie is curious, so she looks over and sees its from Tommy. Knowing her brother’s passcode, she opens the message and it’s an apology and a request to meet. Kind of already disliking Tommy and not wanting to have to try and patch up her broken-hearted brother again, in a moment of madness she texts back “No. Don’t contact me again” and deletes the messages from Buck’s phone

Only two days later Buck decides to take the plunge himself and show up on Tommy’s doorstep with baked goods and apologies. When Tommy opens the door, looking miserable, he says something like “Getting real mixed messages here, Buck, didn’t you say not to contact you?”

Buck is confused and asks what he means and when Tommy shows him the message on his phone it clicks and he. is. pissed.

[yorickalas]

[dharmaavocado]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan “Buck” Buckley & Maddie Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard Characters: Maddie Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley, Tommy Kinard Additional Tags: Firefam Critical, post episode 9.13, Mentions of PTSD Series: Part 2 of Going to Fennario Summary:

Buck didn’t come to the door; there was no sound of movement inside. He was probably still sleeping. She dug through her purse for the spare key. She could let herself in, tidy the place up and get breakfast started. It’d be nice for Buck to wake up to a home cooked meal and a clean house. Buck had done that for her when she got home from the hospital after Braeburn. He meal prepped a week’s worth of dinners and deep cleaned the entire house and then ended up looking after Jee for the rest of the day so she and Howie could get settled in.

Where had she put that key? It wasn’t on the ring with the rest of them. She must have squirreled it away. If she left it at home she was going to—oh, there it was, tucked into the zippered side pocket, put there for safekeeping. Before she even had time to fit it into the lock, the door swung open to—

“Tommy?” she said, taking a step back.

This follow directly after If They Have to Carry My Body There.

[v88sy]

I love it when canon can be whatever the fuck we want it to be for the next 5ish months.

Bucktommy eloped? Nothing proving they didn't.

Buck lovingly helped Theo adjust to a new life until his uncle could be tracked down to come take custody? Totally possible.

Theo has no surviving family and Buck legally adopts him? Why not!

Tommy runs into Evan, they reconnect, finally talk, and decide never to walk away from each other again? Try and stop me!

And, oh.

So many crashed helicopters.

[myspumoni]

Sorry, they'll never gaslight me into thinking that Tommy wasn't the kind of person who loved Buck freely, without expecting anything in return; Tommy was there for Buck, to take care of him and help him when he needed it, even when he was still hurt by what Buck said.

Yes, Tommy was insecure and imperfect, but even (while)after the breakup he tried to show Buck that he was so good that being rejected by him in the future would have destroyed him.

Yes, Tommy was an idiot, but that never stemmed from a place of not appreciating Buck or reducing him to his "bad" moments. Tommy knew how much Buck was worth and it hurt him to think that he didn't have the right to want that future with Buck.

[njwinterquartz]

What if after the lightning strike in season 6, instead of Buck ending up in a relationship, he stumbled across Tommy as a shoulder he could rely on. And not like as in chim or someone else in the main cast introduces them. They somehow run into each other, and they just start hanging out.

Buck finds a quiet place away from everyone asking him if he’s sure he’s alright. Where Tommy knows he can ask if Buck is okay but also sees that Buck is tired of it and doing other things to help take his mind off of it is the best thing in the moment.

So we get them hanging out, maybe Tommy introducing Buck to the pickup basketball and even though Buck isn’t interested in basketball, he still goes to get out of the house and meet new people. And that builds into trivia nights, and semiweekly or however often their schedules allow it, potluck and movie night with Tommy and his friends. Maybe also kickstarting Buck’s baking early, knowing Tommy has a sweet tooth. Buck slowly feeling closer and closer to Tommy but the pieces still aren’t clicking that he might be into Tommy.

And all this time Buck knows Tommy is a firefighter but doesn’t know he’s a pilot too, maybe because Tommy’s out on an injury too so that’s why they met in the first place, physical therapy. Him not knowing will come into play later. Since Buck isn’t avoiding his friends and family but also is making space for himself outside of them and making things for himself. He doesn’t mention Tommy to them, all he mentions is a group of friends he’s made outside of work.

And by pure coincidence Lucy hasn’t been able to make it to the movie nights and trivia and is still the one to be in the helicopter at the bridge collapse so the pieces are still out there but Buck hasn’t put them together about Tommy being a pilot and one of Lucy’s coworkers.

The bridge collapse comes and goes, after they’re out of the hospital then Buck tells Tommy about it and his concussion. Tommy chews him out for vaguely explaining he was injured over the phone when they meet up in person. This all happens as a part of that closing montage at the end of the season.

Jump to season seven, things all start the same. But we get mentions of Buck hanging out with Tommy and his friends. But he still hadn’t mentioned Tommy by name so they don’t know. So everyone’s surprised when they get to the helicopter before hen gets there. Buck realizing Tommy is a pilot, Chim and Eddie being confused on how they know each other, and Tommy putting into place all the comments Chim made way in the past about a probie being a menace.

Blah blah blah, the cruise disaster ends the same way. But since Buck already knows Tommy he’s aware of Eddie and Tommy hanging out. The harbor tour happens because Buck finally knows Tommy is a pilot. Cue Buck’s jealousy, but this time he understands where it’s coming from a bit quicker. He starts off by thinking it’s because Tommy was his first, but as he looks back he sees how that line between them started to blur and how those feelings shifted towards being romantic.

Leading to him panicking while at the game, accidentally hurting Eddie, still leading to the first kiss afterwards. But he’s able to put words to the things he was feeling so he doesn’t panic as much about being with a guy. Both he and Tommy know each other better so they’re more open in their communication. Buck still doesn’t tell Eddie about it being a date while he’s there with Tommy, but doesn’t make a complete fool of himself. So he and Tommy still go to the movie and then talk about what happened with Eddie afterwards.

Season seven wraps up mostly the same, but as I said before, Buck and Tommy are closer and more open about their personal issues and struggles. Buck makes it clear that Tommy does matter a lot to him and is a priority (sometimes the show did make it feel like Tommy was an afterthought to Buck at times, and I get he’s not a main and the others are but still it annoys me).

Going into season 8, we still have the bond between Buck, Tommy and Eddie as a close friends. They’re still there for Eddie after his whole insanity spiral with Kim and chris leaving. “Masks” is basically the same because that was a perfect episode. Then with “confession” I can’t decide if I want it to be the Abby thing or not because that was a whole lot of unnecessary mess in the actual show that led to nothing good. But either way, whatever triggers the awkwardness with that episode aside, leads to an “I love you” at the end.

I could probably keep going with how season 8 and 9 go with Tommy and Buck actually being together. But for now at least I’ll end it there because this went way longer than I was originally planning but it just kept coming so I went with it.

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I'm glad that Sir David Attenborough has reached 100; so many good people die before they should go, and we need to see good people live long, healthy lives to believe that there is some kindness in the universe

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sorry i just had the realization as to how fucking INSANE tommy and buck must have felt during their hookup in 8x11. bc buck is using tommy as a distraction for eddie leaving, but he's not just using him as a distraction, he's still undeniably very happy to see him (among other things).

bc like. dude was practically scenting tommy during the hookup. his brain was not saying anything aside from "tommytommtommytommytommy." he dragged tommy into that bedroom by the shirt and stopped having complex thoughts for like 2 hours minimum.

meanwhile you've got tommy "stuck in the torment nexus" kinard, who is about to fuck his ex in the house of the "competition." that man had to have been possessive as FUCK that night. primate brain firing on all cylinders. buck might not able to physically get pregnant but i guarantee you that tommy at the very least tried.