[ ETERNITY ]
aroace agender | misanthropic absurdist author | southeast asian | minor!!
and for my next trick I will be torturing you by explaining to you the lore of vampire knight
ETERNITY IS A REALM JUST AS KIND AS IT IS CONFUSING
Hello, I'm Eternity, although other nicknames you may have for me are always welcome.
I'm aromantic and asexual, therefore I naturally prefer writing platonic fanfiction as I love relating to my creations. With that being said, I'm also agender and go by any pronouns, although they/them and it/its are usually the default for people who may not know how to refer to me, so I naturally prefer writing gender neutral reader inserts as well. Additionally, I'm from Southeast Asia, and English is not my native language.
I write very infrequently due to my slothfulness and, if school is open for me, a packed schedule, so I'm going to apologise for that beforehand.
For more information, see below:
WHAT IS THIS BLOG ? This blog is basically an archive of my writings and a time capsule for my writing improvement. I want to, in the future, look back to this blog and smile at how far I've come then.
WHAT CAN I WRITE ? x reader, gender neutral reader, male reader, fluff, platonic, angst, soft yandere, yandere, mild/reasonable amount of gore and blood, dark themes, romantic scenarios ( I'm somewhat detached from romance, so I may not do a very good job ), unhealthy depictions of relationships
WHAT CAN'T I WRITE ? smut!!!, extreme blood and gore, extremely dark themes ( as I fear I won't do it justice writing heavy topics and may come off as insensitive ), female reader ( I'm somewhat detached from my feminine side and generally do not prefer writing about them myself )
FANDOMS THAT I WRITE FOR : DC comics, Gachiakuta, Frieren: Beyond Journey's End, Final Fantasy VII / XV / XVI, Invincible
ARE REQUESTS OPEN ? Close!
you guys are welcome to talk to me about stuff or give me ideas, however. I really missed u guys!! I’m back from an indefinite hiatus!!! I think…
Ouuu shii u fucked up cs I found ur TikTok after seeing ts 👀👀👀
GET BACK INTO BLUE LOCK NOW!!!
Lowkey been thinking ab eldest bat so I’m prolly gonna draw him more some other time…
its okay bc I don't post on tiktok and NEVER will bc if I can't talk or interact with people on tiktok it makes me want to choke myself and die... I just repost stuff once a moon when I remember tiktok exists 🤤
i i i i .. ii i will... maybe later... maybe soon... shakes with tears in my eyes
are u saying... there's a non-zero chance that there'll be... more eldest bat art...? starts salivating like a dog
omg I’m so embarrassed that my message sent like 3 times bur I’m also thanking Jesus cause I was deadass about to write r again just so I could send it omdsss (also it’s not really my problem so idgaf 😂)
I’m not even joking I had a whole ass crashout and called my friend at 3am to complain about how my shit wasn’t sending (and then ended up explaining how tumblr x reader tags work and what y/n AND the progression from Wattpad to AO3 in a fanfiction readers naturally occurring life cycle works… I’m lowkey gonna have him read your eldest bat drabbles cause I was geeking about them)
Also methinks I deserve no.1 eldest bat fan status and for a mini golden replica of me to be put on a pedestal for my hard work btw
I loooove eldest bat, and I deadahh feel like a guy who can’t get over his ex bf 😭 he’s so freaking tufff brooo pls get back into writing we miss eldest bat (and you… I guess)
Thanks so much for enjoying my art btw it means a lot 🥹 I love how you draw eldest bat, and I think he came out a little paler than I’d like in my final rendition, but it’s too late to do anything ab that ig 💔💔💔
You da goat eternal 🫰
P.s I FREAKING LOVE GACHIAKUTA (tamsy 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 unngfhhfh)
Extra p.s. if you feel uncomfortable with me sharing your work I won’t!! ❤️🩹 love u author, nope youre doing good 🤞🤞 favorite ace monarch
HELLO HI ITS THE PEAK ELDEST BAT FANARTIST OML points at you in awe
no.1 eldest bat fan? man idk... you and @cz19y gotta fight it out to the death and we'll see who's the winner /lh
ALSO "AND YOU I GUESS"???? okay i see how it is... clenches my hands into fists
but nah u da REAL goat uhhh... insert name here I saw u got two names and idk what to use uhhh, looks around nervously... both names are cool I can't decide... starts crying hysterically while rocking back and forth like I'm insane
also I checked ur tiktok since I saw your watermark on the drawing and oh meeeein gottt ur art 🤤 ur oc 🤤🤤 I'd honestly read ur fanfic if not for the fact that I fell out of my blue lock phase... just wait till I get back to my bllk fan prime era again... clenches fists again
reply to ps OH MY LORD TAMSY 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 oh ure so peak for this let's torture tamsy together as we hold hands ❤️🩹❤️🩹
reply to extra ps no I'm not uncomfortable at all, dw!! and wow im a monarch..? blushes and smiles... thank you... scratches my chin as I ponder about writing about more eldest bat
dude I’m gonna freak out I finished the eldest bat fanart (like fully rendered and EVERYTHING) but I can’t SEND IT AND I WROTE SO MUCH BREAKING DOWN THE DESIGN ELEMENTS AND WHY I CHOSE WHAT I DID OH MY GOOOOODD KILL ME NOW
bro I think your tumblr bugged out real bad because you sent the same ask in my inbox like 3 times... 😭
Started watching the Batman animated series and locked in on this ❤️🩹
The specific image I had in my mind while drawing this was eldest bat fighting joker. Not sure why, but it was just what I was envisioning 👀 Eldest seems like a bit of a messy fighter, imo—and I can totally see him pulling some nasty shit and biting you (hence the blood by his mouth and teeth).
I genuinely see him as kind of an eldritch horror—constantly fading in and out of shadows, running around, landing dirty hits from blind spots, and full out brawling when “the feeling calls”. Totally the type of guy to purposely seek out violence for the aura hype moments.
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Design elements (and why they’re there):
- gave him a tongue piercing because I thought it was tuff, nothing else behind that.
- the lighting is green to match his pit eyes. I personally see his eyes as a: pitch black most of the time, green when he’s feeling 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 (ripping somebody apart). Eldest seems like the type of guy to have the most lifeless, dead fish eyes until something interests him, leading to him perking up like a dog (albeit a very violent, rabid one)
- I imagine that originally, his hair had kind of a blueish hue underneath light, but after being in the Lazarus pit so often, his hair was also tinted green.
- scars on his neck, as I can see him in moments of stress or “irritation”, he scratches at it. Think gyutaro scratching his neck whenever Tengen flexes his mad hoes (if you’ve seen Demon slayer). He’s definitely a bit unstable, and takes it out either on himself or others, all while giving off a jittery, eye twitching, three toe stubs away from a generational crashout vibe. (Imo)
- I’m not sure what kind of fighter you envision him as, but I consider eldest a “condescending fighter” towards weaker opponents (e.g. sinister mark, gojo), where he’s extremely mocking during fights, “flirts” in a demeaning way, and is constantly flitting around and laughing at his opponents. I think that’s why I envisioned him fighting joker during this drawing, as Joker is technically a “weaker” opponent who’s extremely irrational and easily provoked (which Eldest would enjoy imo).
Against stronger opponents, he comes off as the rabid, brawler type, where he employs dirty tactics (or tanks, depending on how he feels) and spams gut punches/slugs the other. Still very mocking, but in a more “yeah you’ve got this, HAHA! This is great 😊” kind of way, compared to his “cmon, you can do better, yeah that’s it— try again!” against weaker opponents.
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Here’s a little conversation example cause I’m hyperfixating like CRAZY
Eldest (E) V.S Joker (J)
(E) : *hanging over vat of lava or whatever*
(J) : I’ll kill that little Arabic boy you care so much about, you Arkham rat!
(E) : Double or nothin’.
(J) : what.
(E) : Double or nothin. If I get out, I’ll kill you AND Harley. If I die, you can kill EVERYBODY.
(J) : ???? “I thought Batman’s little circus freaks didn’t kill.”
(E) : yeah, but I’m an Arkham rat. Double or nothin’, fucker.
(J) : idk how to characterize this guy bro
(E) : *breaks out and slaughters joker* (sowwy Batman 🥺🥺 he didn’t mwean it)
(Please bless us with a Eldest bat fight scene)
Uuugh also the bricks n mini figs thing is crazy, did you see reckless Ben’s new video about the cease and desist 😭😭 these guys bro
I'm actually going to start crying bro you get eldest bat so MUCH i have NOTHING to add onto this you get him SOO BAD UAGHHH I HIT THE GOLDEN BUZZER LIKE WE'RE ON AMERICANS GOT TALENT I LOVE YOU FOR THIS
about the scratching part, I've actually been thinking about this since I've created him. Although, not on the neck. I've always thought that when he's stressed, irritated, or just having some insane mental episode, he scratches at his arms, nape, or even scalp sometimes. hehh 🤤
Eldest Bat is definitely condescending in nature to people outside of his family. Not to say he's not a bit of an asshole to literally everyone, but his family just has a soft spot in his heart.
It hurts to fight him as someone weaker than him because he insults you at all the right spots while he's smiling and taunting, "You can do better than this, right?", "Surely, that isn't all you got", etc. And yes, he does flirt, and more importantly, only in battle! In daily conversations, he literally cannot intentionally be flirty (although sometimes he does come off as one unintentionally), but oh wow, him in battle? He'll point out how you're kinda cute when you miss him, how your accent is also kind of cute, how it's kind of adorable you're losing so hard. He means them, but not in an "I love you" way, more like someone watching a little puppy stumble down a hill into a ditch brutally. Like, you tried your best! Your best just isn't enough for him.
Eldest Bat would go INSANE against a stronger opponent. He's like a Kryptonian when they realise you can take a punch without disintegrating. If you watch Gachiakuta, he's kind of like Jabber against stronger opponents, just not much on the sexual/masochism part and more focused on "wow, you can take a punch to the gut without kneeling over. I NEED to try and kill you now." This proves to be very troublesome for everyone, including his opponents, because he's the type to hunt and chase without rest. Nobody knows the actual limit of his stamina reserves because it seems endless with the way he'll hunt you down like a bloodhound.
More times than he'd like, Batman has to stop him. When he can't, he calls in Clark to knock out the eldest. You need a superhuman to stop this man.
Also about the eyes... I think I've mentioned this like once but I do love the idea and I'm gonna make it canon that Eldest Bat's eyes are normally very bug-like and are just dead, empty holes of endless void for eyes. His eyes themselves aren't very expressive (it does move, narrow, frown, etc. but it's kind of all fake and for show), so you can't read anything out of them, but he does move his lips a lot to help let people know how he's feeling most of the time because he kinda pities them when they don't know if he's mad or bored. So he smiles, he grins like a psycho, he smirks, his lips comically curve downward when he feigns sadness. It's only when something interests him that you can, for a few seconds, see the genuine insane smile of interest on his face.
IM IRRITATED AS FUCK IM IRRITATED AS FUUUCK 💔💔😂😂 your Batfam posts got me out of art block for a total of 20 minutes before I blanked out again
Blaming you btw
Fanart btw
I feel so cringy and corny for legit saying ANYTHING here but maybe ive been infected by the mainstream virus and need to go back to my roots of nerding out on AO3 😳😳
Anyways here’s a breakdown of the art because I’m geeking ‼️‼️
I personally HC eldest bat to have tattoos along the back of his neck/spine (along with moles), so I decided to scribble some designs there. I read one of your drabbles ab him having long hair or whatever and was lowkey enamored 👀 I LOOOVE long hair, so this is him in that era. I know he’s supposed to “be you” but ive lowkey started seeing him as his own character 😭
His eyes are green cause there’s been mention of him willingly jumping (??? I guess bro) into the Lazarus pit.
I see him as a very bloodthirsty character (especially when in the field), but that could be a misrepresentation of him. Not bloodthirsty as in he enjoys killing, but bloodthirsty as in he loves the adrenaline that comes during a life or death battle (bro is NOT madara, gwt outta my house sonnnn 😂).
Made him say double or nothing cause my gf was watching the Reckless Ben video on the Lego drama (I recommended it! You should watch too, it’s long but mad interesting), and he was saying double or nothing, and I thought it sounded cool, and like something eldest bat would say.
To be so honest, I know a total of jack shit about DC and Batman. All of my knowledge comes from either your tumblr or the “neglected reader” side of the batfamily fanfic spectrum ❤️🩹
I’ll finish this maybe.
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Cant get into Batman, eldest bat isn’t there, show sucks now 💔
OHH MY GOOOODDDDDD 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 IM DROOLING OVER THIS I LOVE FANARTT 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
also no ure not cringy or corny... talk more now... i have a gun to ur head.. okay...?
i love ur eldest bat design oh mein gott im choking myself twitching in my chair auhghhaaaaa ha AAAAAAA.. tattoos... eldest bat has both piercings and tattoos to me but I never really specify where he has it. the only specification I've stated is that he's got both ears pierced.
also so real on him becoming his own character... like I feel like rn everyone just agrees eldest bat kind of is his own thing now. I should write an eldest bat x reader or sumthing
green eyed eldest bat yes yes. I have two versions of him in my head where his eyes are either just pure spotify radiation green or his eyes are pitch black with green glowing dots as pupils. I switch between those two in my head depending on which one I thought was cooler in the moment, heh.
also no mischaracterisation here, eldest bat is canonically very blood-thirsty. on the "killing" part, Bruce kinda trained him out of it a little, but his predator instinct never really goes away. The adrenaline he gets from hunting, being hunted, playing cat and mouse with his enemies, and fighting strong opponents is like drugs to him.
also yes, I've been following the reckless ben situation for a while now. it's so ridiculous I just listen to it whenever there's a new video while I do my work. I paused on it for a while 'cause I got busy but I'll go back to it soon...
aaalso I really want you to read the DC comics itself but even then I'm hesitating on saying this because every other book, bullshit just happens or the author came straight out of graduation from the school of mischaracterisation. I mean like, tumblr-level of mischaracterisation sometimes. not to bash anyone here but you gotta admit how ridiculous some posts are, but at least on here it's just fanfiction. it's SELF-INDULGENT. when I'm reading the OFFICIAL DC books themselves and there's mischaracterisation in it...? I just kill myself
anyways PLEASE DRAWW MOREEE i scream as I beg on my knees at ur feet. ur artstyle is gorg...
Twin.. what do u think abt invincible and batbro… or js invincible…….
OHH LAWWWDDD 🤤🤤🤤
Invincible alone I love it. it’s kind of ridiculous and stupid sometimes but I love my chud mark grayson and that stupid show. sighs. I want to write more about the show but I’m doing rituals and dark magic just to get some ideas, ANY ideas, rn…
Invinciblele and batbro… wow, I haven’t thought about that yet. Would he also kind of be Mark’s older brother figure if they exist in the same verse and somehow meet? They’d definitely meet. Mark would probably be wary of him first but he’s our stupid puppy boy so he’ll melt in no time.
If it’s romantic… we could say Mark and batbro met when Mark just started being invincible, at that time batbro (if we’re talking eldest bat) would’ve been much calmer by then, but not that fully mature yet. I feel like lots of interesting things could happen.
wow, wow, wow… i need to write about them together… but I don’t have the time… art fight is also coming up… czy I’m going to CHOKE you for giving me such a peak idea
NEW HAIRCUT IS SICCKKKK TY FOR THE TAG REAP speaking of haircuts, im waiting a little longer before i go to a salon and get actual bangs that arent my mistakes help anyway. . ALSO LOOK IT HAD A WHITE BUDGIE IM CRYING TEARS OF JOY
top ten things ive EVER said
no pressure tags: @livelaughalexisness @aprlsbloom @kiyofiles @jelly-kibtyfish
As much as I would utterly LOVE to think Jason would use the Lazarus Pit if the Reader ever died, I just don’t think he would actually have the strength to.
Every night he remembered the burning pain in his lungs, his chest, his very soul. The way he was stolen from death’s hands and shoved back into his broken body to be used and abused once more.
And you, his love. His fragile, sweet love who lay dead in his arms. It wouldn’t feel right to rip you away from your newfound peace like he was. To inflict the same suffering that he would only wish upon his worst enemies.
So, instead, he would give you the burial he had taken from him. He would dig your grave with his own hands and gently lay you to rest with the flowers you oh so loved. And while nonreligious, after what he’s been through, he would find himself praying to any god that you would never be disturbed.
I just want to ask if there any future update on Second Orbit?
I think I stated this somewhere else but not everyone have seen it but I had discontinued Second Orbit since I literally have no idea where to go with it, it started off as just a one-shot thing but added a second chapter since everybody wanted it. I'd be fine if anyone else were to write their own take of the AU but I might not write anymore series myself.
I might write other things like headcanons or oneshots about it if someone asked and i'm interested, though!
pairing: tim drake x gn! demon! reader (not meant to be romantic but tim's kinda a freak)
Tim thought the figure standing on the edge of his bed when he was awake but couldn't move was merely just some sleep paralysis demon...
Now it's following him everywhere, and it makes him look insane. More than he already was.
cw: no use of y/n / use of [NAME] once, but only as a suggestion / use of they/it/you pronouns for the reader
a/n: idk where im going with this heh smirks / I was thinking of Calne Ca while making this... I love you Calne Ca... You'll always be famous... / trying to get back to writing on here guys ignore my mid ass writing skill / no proofreading we just DIE
He was... bewildered? Is that the right word?
No, maybe not. He's not that surprised, he's just... appalled? No, but it's really nothing scary. He's definitely intrigued and confused, though.
Tim Drake has been plagued with nightmares and restless nights ever since he can remember. Among them, sleep paralysis is one of his many reasons for never getting a peaceful sleep. Not that common, but not sparse enough to be too rare either.
And it seems he's gotten a sleep paralysis demon as a companion every time.
A tall figure in the dark, lithe and lanky. They sometimes stand on the very far edge of his bed, sometimes in the corner of his room, always obscured in darkness. They've always been but an almost invisible silhouette in his eyes. It made him wonder sometimes whether they were real or simply something his mind created to keep him company.
He didn't know why he was thinking about that. He knew it was the latter.
... Or, he thought he knew.
Because then, it started moving.
It truly freaked Tim out the first time, when the figure in the corner of his room took one step closer. It sets out all of the alarms that he could've possibly had.
What the fuck? What the fuck? Why is it moving? Is that an actual demon, or an intruder? What kind of intruder is taller than six feet? What the fuck is that?
The first time, it only took one step before it disappeared and he could finally shot up from his bed in pure panic.
The second time, two steps.
The third time, it was already beside Tim's bed.
Right beside his head, just standing there. Tim, for the first time ever, could not move his eyes either. He could only see its silhouette on the periphery of his vision. Unmoving, and definitely looking down at him.
The fourth time, it's on the far edge of his bed again. Just like always.
But then, he could move.
And the figure didn't go away.
That was... an interesting night for sure. Tim panicked at first, then calmed down, immediately went back to his intrigued detective mode, tried to touch the figure, freaked out when his fingers felt so cold he couldn't feel them, tried to throw his bedside lamp at it as an "experiment", only to not put even a scratch on it and to only end up shattering his lamp to pieces.
The figure honestly makes him feel kind of dreadful at first when it wouldn't stop following him. Not openly, but always in the shadows. Tim could look back, and he's guaranteed to see an ominous tall figure standing in the dark... Ominously...
That is definitely a demon, but a super weird one. It hasn't even spoken to him yet, or even made a noise. It just seems to exist in Tim's vicinity.
Wow, maybe he is schizophrenic, after all.
Then, eventually, after some time, the figure started... moving out of the shadows.
The first time, Tim saw them standing somewhere still in the dark, but only its top half was obscured in darkness. He could see their legs. It was the first time he could literally make sense of any of their "body" parts.
They slowly began to ease itself out of obscurity.
Tim thought he'd slowly but eventually get to see their face, but no.
One day, the demon (honestly, Tim still isn't sure about that. It could literally be anything.) was fully out of the dark, and right behind him. Bent down just enough for their face to be at his eye level.
Tim looked back and screamed like a little bitch when that happened. Dick came running, worried, but Tim had learned literally no one else could see his little (not physically) demon companion, so he had to find some shitty excuse to brush it off. Even when Dick is staring at him suspiciously.
The demon is... tall. Some parts of it are... pretty human, but Tim was wrong. It wasn't fully thin and lanky. Some parts of them makes it look bulky, terrifying, but also lithe. What a paradox. It looks like it could be as fast as a bullet train and punch as hard as a Kryptonian.
Wow, that's kinda hot.
Was he weird for that? Is he? 'Cause he still thinks that. Maybe you just don't get him... That lower half of your face that doesn't have a jaw, but instead several finger-like, mechanical protrusions, and your long, sharp limbs that could stab him in easily, won't stop him from rubbing his hands together like a mischievous fly.
Okay! Okay, he's just a freak at heart. Shut the fuck up now.
"No, don't touch that."
Tim called out without taking his eyes off his laptop, like an owner who knew that their pet cat was about to tear the curtains down with a jump.
Your sharp limb—or finger, as your human friend would like to call it—was a hair away from a random can of drink before you pull away without a word.
Others may not be able to see you—or, rather, you won't let them see you—but you definitely have real effects on the world. Tim has learned that first-hand after you destroyed a random fire hydrant with a flick. Why did you even do that? He'd never know.
You let out a sound. Something inhuman, a mix of animalistic guttural and mechanical.
"Stop sulking, I just don't want you to accidentally explode the can and spill energy drink everywhere. Again."
He sighed, and you let out a more dramatic 'huff.'
Tim could hear someone walking behind him, footsteps heavy with all their 200 pounds plus full-body gears put into each step.
It stopped right behind him, and a voice spoke from the entrance to the overly big living room—
"Who the fuck are you talking to?"
Jason's familiar gruff voice asked, laced with confusion, his words slightly muffled. He's definitely chewing on shit from the kitchen that definitely wasn't meant for him.
"Nothing," Tim answered, voice tired and nonchalant. He could practically see the look of suspicion on Jason's face, but obviously, the older didn't have enough shit to give so he walked away.
Tim sighed, again, before his inner radar started pinging, again.
He could hear your heavy footsteps, practically stomping, as you slowly made your way to the kitchen. He immediately jumped up from the couch to follow you.
You're not a child, not at all. It's just that... What if you accidentally punched the fridge in again—
"...Lad."
"What?"
Tim turned to look at the older man, dressed in his usual coat and dishevelled, dirty blonde hair. Why is John Constantine here, you may ask? Well, Tim is too tired to answer, so just know Gotham has been acting up again. Some magical bullshit, and Batman has called John over. Why not Zatanna, Tim wondered, but then again, he's too tired to question that verbally.
"Why is... it, with you?" John raised an eyebrow, having to look up at the tall figure standing on the other side of Tim.
Tim had to raise his eyebrows, too, with that one. He's not used to people pointing you out, since he's so used to people being unable to see this beast of a demon. But then again, he's not surprised. It's John Constantine, after all.
...He should really think of a name for you instead of just calling you, well, "you" or "it". Does [NAME] sound okay? He'll think about it later.
"Oh... Yeah. Don't mind them. They're just here."
Tim brushed it off, and John was appalled by how nonchalant the younger boy was. This means that thing is not related to whatever demonic magical thing is happening in Gotham right now, because it seems that it has been with Tim for far longer.
... Damn, how does he tell Tim that he got a demon lord, who John has made a contract with once before, following him around?
I really miss writing… I think I’m going to try and get out of my hiatus and start writing again.
I kind of fell out of writing and posting on here specifically since the start of this year. I’ve never stopped actually writing, of course, I just only write short stories for myself and my friends in private.
I missed being on here, and I realized in order to get back, I should stop focusing on finishing the long stories I already have in my draft on Tumblr and start writing short blurbs and idea instead. I’m the kind of person who easily gets bored of stuff, and long stories take a lot out of me.
So I will be coming back!! Not taking requests rn, but do expect some short ideas and blurbs soon!!!
Despite my requests still being closed, but don’t be afraid to come into my inbox and talk with me or give me ideas… I miss u guys sm ;;
I should make a 1.4k special… oml where did u guys come from
.................................................................................................OOOOOOOOHHHHHH FFFUUUCCCKKK!!!!!!!!! Pray for me guys 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Content you’ll see here: Gen!neutral reader, yandere!tim drake, just Tim being an ass as a partner tbh
English it’s not my first language, so please be patient
A long night on February, that’s what Tim remembers it as. It all happened one night when he was scrolling through his phone, waiting for patrol to be over
That’s when his friend told him about you, a small chat about someone he would forget in a few hours, turns out he didn’t. After so many months pursuing Bernard, he never thought about something as falling in love could happen again.
You didn’t talk to each other that day, not even on the next days, but your account following his personal one meant something. He saw you have a life, sometimes replying to your stories in a way to start a quick chat, never doing more than that.
Until it happened, a small talk got into a daily chat, promises to meet up turned into “where do we go next?” And it felt so weird
So weird to be deeply in love, giggling whenever you got jealous of his friendship with Kon, kicking the air whenever you sent a voice message. That kind of stuff made Tim’s heart flutter like he was thirteen again, a big feeling that stopped.
Yeah, you kept being a sweetheart, loving him in a way everything felt right, it just Tim grew bored of it, your daily chats were boring and he started praying for you to not text him
He was busy doing stuff, but turns out he wasn’t up for having someone as needy as you. Yeah, it was nice to hear someone telling him how much they love him, but now he needs something more… interesting.
Then, if that’s how he feels, why does he suddenly feel so mad at seeing you, the person he thought he couldn’t care less with someone else? Is it something wrong with him? Oh, no, he just knows when someone belongs to him and that someone is you
You belong to him.
So, since you deeply cared about him, he just had to come back to your life.
Life came back as what it once was
Until he grew tired of it, again. But now you gave him a reason to leave, being jealous of his best friend was enough to want someone away right? So he left.
Life felt easier that way, he tried to get with more people, have a life. He swears he did but once life got bored and he found himself scrolling through your account he knew he had to come back
A girl he thought you wouldn’t look at was already getting comfy around you, a girl he despised as much as he despised The joker.
Hello! He is back again, calling you by cute names and pretending to be the sweet boyfriend, except you’re not back together
You don’t want to, and that’s okay, he just needs to have you for him.
He is such a bad person, he knows it, he doesn’t want you because he loves you, he just hates the thought of seeing you with someone else
No one has to know that, right?
So when you’re boring him, he starts doing new stuff. Making you jealous, fighting, making you believe you’re the bad person here
This is so fun, he feels himself smirking whenever you fight over text, already thinking how to turn things around so you feel bad
Ah, but don’t misunderstand him, he does enjoy your company. Whenever you get on call he is giggling like he did when the relationship started.
— You’re so immature — Your voice sent an electric shock through his body, did you really said that? His hands are shaking at the thought of you thinking that low of him
Who gave you permission to do that?
And everything changed, you changed.
You stopped treating him like a partner, more like a friend you would make fun of. Then you started to not care about what he had to say, every day he felt like he was fighting for your attention
And it felt so good.
The trill of wishing for a reaction, even if it was toxic, he felt he couldn’t be more enamored by the thought of a untouchable god in front of him. You really became what he wanted you to be, someone he can blame when he gets too bad
He loves you. He adores you.
Oh god, how much he wants your attention on him. You could literally have everyone and you still want him back. Such a god only can belong to him
— I think it’s best if we stop talking to each other — everything felt cold, you leaving his side just because he failed on replying to your text
This is bad, this is so bad
You can’t leave, you can’t abandon him like he means nothing! You’re his, you will forever be his.
And when he is biting his nail until it bleeds, he finds out you’re setting down with someone new
Someone, he hated, he never talked to him, he doesn’t need to.
He’s desperate, so desperate that he creates an online persona, someone to talk to this person and make him leave you. It all started small, chatting until he trust everything Tim said, then he flirted just the way this person wanted
Small gestures, compliments, everything he could dream off and then it came, Tim started spilling his tongue out, telling this person how bad you were as a partner
How you never cared about him, how jealous you were and he believed it
Fight over fight, he was there comforting your partner until it came
— Could you tell your friend to talk to them? They won’t tell me the truth about their ex — finally, everything got just like Tim wanted it to be
His fingers where already typing a text, now telling you how much bad he was, how much he missed you
Pretending to be the victim.
Now he told you how his online persona was so mean to him, manipulating everything so if you ever discovered his burn account you would think it was someone obsessed with Tim.
Whenever you damned this fake person, Tim only could smile and laugh his ass off.
You’re his, and your attention is back to him
He just needs to convince you to leave your new partner. And then everything could go as he planned
Except it didn’t.
You chose this person over him, no matter how much he tried for you to look at him. You chose the wrong person, the person you weren’t supposed to choose
You’re his! You are supposed to always choose him. But you’re tired, tired of breaking up and getting back together. Of not finding more than Tim playing with your heart until he got bored
If you have to be the bad person, then you’ll be it, you finally chose your happiness over his amusement
And when Tim is doing desperate movements to get your attention back to him
You’re being happy.
If you squint your eyes just a little, you’ll see myself projecting my love life on Tim— who said that?!
