Summary: Leon helps you when your struggling with you mental health.
CONTENT WARNING: Thoughts of $uisde, Sh, just in general a bad mental state (don’t read if your uncomfortable with the topic), and brief use of y/n (literally one time)
An: I write all my fanfics from personal experience and what I go through. I do struggle a lot with my mental health but after all I am still here. so I like to spread awareness about what I and probably others go through. I have really bad spelling and grammar so if theres mistakes it’s either that or the fact I am writing this at 1 am, but anyway hope you enjoy.
Leon came home earlier than usual today. He walks into your shared house and sees everything the same way it was when he left. The kitchen was untouched no dirty dishes in the sink, your coffee cup was still tucked away in the cabinet, the book you were reading was in the same spot as the night before, and the most noticeable part of all was that you where nowhere to be seen. Leon calls out for you and there’s no response. He then walks into your shared bedroom looking for and sees you in bed still. He walk around to the side that your face is facing and crouches down.
“Oh your here already? i didn’t notice.” You sounded tired weak even
Leon knows what’s happening hes not stupid. It’s not the first time he’s seen you like this, he knows you struggle with your mental health. And how he wishes he can stop it from happening.
“Yeah I am home, are you going to wake up?”
“Oh uhm y-yeah, i didn’t notice how late it is…”
“That all right, I am guessing that you haven’t ate yet want me to go make you something.”
“Yeah sure, I-I’ll meet you there in a sec.”
Leon walls out of the room heading downstairs. You now sitting up in bed deciding to get up, you feel so dizzy you can faint. You were able to get to the bathroom. You stand there gripping the sink your head hanging down feeling sick. You stare at you covered wrist the guilt and regret coming back to you again, you stand there thinking to yourself if the 1 second of relief was worth the slashes on your wrist. You wonder what Leon would think, you’ve been clean for so long, what would he think? That’s all you could think about. Leon’s the whole reason your still here. You feel so guilty for making him have to go to work and come back and have to take care of you.
You’re able to gain enough strength to start and walk down the stairs to meet Leon, but the dizziness comes back almost immediately but worse this time. You were able to make it down the stairs before you blacked out. You can’t remember much besides seeing Leon right before it went dark.
When you wake up again you can remember a thing. You’re lying down on the couch, you start to think how why you passed out. Was it the fact that you haven’t eaten since yesterday morning or the layers of clothes that you were wearing it the summer. Wait your sleeves they’re rolled up. You realize that Leon is next to you, his arms are covering his face and it seems like he hasn’t noticed that you woke up.
You can hear a muffled sniffle before he lifts his head up.
“Hey, your ok? You fainted on me.”
Leon’s eye look to be filled with sadness although he try’s to hide it from you. But eyes always tell the truth.
There’s a long pause that can seemed to go on forever, until Leon broke the silence.
“Why, why do it again? Y-you could have came to me. Why suffer in silence?”
Thats all you could think to say cause Leon was right. Why suffer in silence, why cut again, why? He told you if you were ever struggling, ever needed anything you could go to him but you didn’t.
Tears roll down your face. The past week even month finally got to you. If your being honest it already had ever since the day you started think if the world would be better off without you, ever since you started thinking about what Leon would do if you actually did it, ever since you picked the blade up again.
“Hey, hey it’s ok I am here now. Tell me what’s wrong… please.”
“I-I don’t know how much longer I can do this for Lee. It to much, I can’t even bring myself to get out of bed anymore. What if-“
“No, don’t. I don’t know what I would do without you.”
“You don’t have to. I know it’s a burden to go to work and come home and deal with me.”
“Y/n, don’t ever say that cause we both know that it’s not true. And if anything I would be more of a burden to you than you are to me.
“You don’t even realize it but from how much you try to make sure I am doing ok you forget to take care of yourself. I think it’s about time I help you. So tell me, when did it happen?”
“The cuts at the beginning of this week… The thoughts started at the beginning of the month.”
The truth is that Leon did notice. He noticed how your smile didn’t reach your eyes, he noticed how you were always “tired”. And how he regrets not pushing more for the reason an answer the why. Cause he could have prevented this, he could have prevented you from getting this bad, could have he?
“It not your fault… It’s just that life has been so tiring. I feel like I have no reason to keep going, no will to live. I just so done with e-everything.”
Tears run down your face. Leon takes you into his arms. You hide your face in the crook of his neck as you continue to sob.
“It’s going to be alright ok, I am here now… and I am not leaving.”
You continue to cry letting the weight you’ve been carrying out. Leon holds you and doesn’t let you go. He makes sure you know you’re not alone, not anymore.
An: hopefully you enjoyed this poorly written story. This is like half proofread cause I am literally writing this at 3:00 am. Likes and comments are always appreciated, thanks for reading!
