Goodbye

| TW: Sh, ed | ✨Music is my safe space✨

[55deadsoul55]

I think I'm addicted to sadness...

[29xo]

my toxic trait is isolating myself in order to feel better when all i really need is a hug and someone that tells me it’s gon be alright

[55deadsoul55]

You promised to protect me.

Little did I know it was you I needed to be protected from...

[55deadsoul55]

"If I can't help myself breathe properly, it's better to stop breathing at all"

- Jonghyun

( quote is from his final letter )

[55deadsoul55]

Just relapsed again after 4 months. I missed it so much. I'll do it again and again, and again...

There's no turning back now :))

[55deadsoul55]

They told me I was foolish for thinking like this...

Look at us now... You left

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

It's been long since I've relapsed...

But by now... I know it's not a matter of if, but when.

I miss it... And at this point I don't know if I actually want to recover. I don't think I even deserve it in the first place.

At any moment, I'll go back to where I was at the beginning of this. Like always.

It always ends the same... And I don't know how to feel about it anymore.

I'm sorry for being such a failure. I'm sorry for not trying my best...

[moonblacckkk]

[55deadsoul55]

- Cover up your scars!

- Why?

- They are ugly and disturbing.

- ... They are?

- Yes.

- Oh...

- You want then gone, right?

- I do?

- Totally. You look pathetic with them...

[55deadsoul55]

I thought this could brighten your day <33

- Dazai Osamu "The setting sun"

[remanence-of-love]

[55deadsoul55]

Future me, hear me out!!!

[55deadsoul55]

I'm so fucking tired of my ADHD!!! I swear to gooood. I am taking pills and I'm seeing my therapist, but it's still just getting worse. My memory is killing me. School is getting harder and harder, I can't concentrate. When I'm talking to someone, I forget what I said literally half a minute ago! It's exhausting!!! Many people seem to notice that I'm struggling even with the slightest sentences and it's giving me so much anxiety.

I hate ADHD so much!

[55deadsoul55]

Why is this world so ugly ?

[stay-close]

“When you care for someone more than they deserve, you get hurt more than you deserve.”

— Unknown

[55deadsoul55]

Been there, done that ...

[55deadsoul55]

And despite that, I still don't want to get better ://

This is me.

[55deadsoul55]

"when will I ever be free from my own brain ?"

- Phil Stamper

[55deadsoul55]

"you never really understand the value of something untill it's gone"

And today, I once again ruined something that was so important to me.