Some things changed quickly.
You don’t have your lovely dog anymore.
You live alone and far away from your family.
Your circle of friends has gotten smaller and only a few true ones remain.
You seem happy, trying to feel happy but there are some days in a week when you feel strange.
You want to be heard, you are talking to someone and letting everything out of you.
But in the end nothing really change.
You are coming back to yourself with full of thoughts.
Sometimes you look back and you feel like you were a robot. Everything was did automatically and you repeated the same things or even mistakes you were struggling to overcome.
At the end of the day you are re-thinking your day’s situations and trying to learn from them.
You trying to figure out why some things happened, why some things not.
And you know. What I understood after living like that? If you are not changing any thing, it will repeat like that forever. It is you who will decide how to survive or react in various circumstances. There are two ways of reacting ; you can get through the situation with a nice, positive attitude and get the best lessons or feel so sad about all the things that happend and get a feeling of guilty.
EVERY.THING.HAPPENS.FOR.A.REASON.
All the situations, chats, little details during your day - trying to show you something you need. You have to open your eyes and start to see things as they are. Without your own bias , without prejudice.