Love Isn't An Illusion (10)
Pairing: Todoroki x Bakugou, Todoroki X Reader x Bakugou, VERY SLOW BUILD
Summary: I'm sorry, you weren't fast enough.
Words: +- 6800
Warnings: Swearing, talk of cannibalism (moonfish), fighting, hurt Midoriya, scared/crying Tokoyami, Dark Shadow, crying, platonic Tokoyami, the truth of quirks, Toga, possessive, Mr Compress, loos of control, hurt Shoji, Dabi, fear, kidnapping, screaming, shaking, comfortroki, being carried, survivor guilt, confessions, passing out, softroki, paramedics, hospitals, confessions.
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A/N: I wrote this for the fans. I do not own My Hero academia or the characters, I don’t own most of the plot for this story, I had watched the show and re-written the dialogue and plot as if the reader was the main character. Everything is centred around the reader. Please comment, makes me happy. Ask if you wish to be tagged.
A/N explanation of absence at the end.
Masterlist
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 ___________________________________________________________
Chapter 10
“This freak looks like a scrawny little sidekick to me” Bakugou was fired up and ready to go. I walked closer to Todoroki, he had someone on his back. Class B, I didn’t recognise him. “Come on you bastard” he was angry, furious even. We didn’t have time, we needed to leave but the villain was up again.
“This isn’t his first battle” Todoroki stated and I crouched down as the man was now in the air upside down and his teeth were coming out of his mouth in uneven mental like spikes.
“Show me, show me your exquisite flesh” the man growled out, the teeth made sense now. Bakugou was mad and Todoroki couldn’t do much with someone on his back.
“We can’t start fires around here because the flames will spread” Todoroki but in just as Bakugou was about to let off an explosion. I was right they hadn’t been the cause of the smoke, there was someone else here with some sort of burning quirk. “Everyone could die if we aren’t careful. Do you understand me” and here I thought the two of them were getting along.
“Yeah I get it, I’m not stupid” was the blondes angry reply, his eyes narrowed at the villain. How many were here, were the others ok? Where was Aizawa? Why was this guy alone? Why had they come for Bakugou and me?
“I don’t know his name” I whispered and they both looked at me “There were two more with Mandale, fire as well and the gas. I can protect your blindspot but I don’t think I can attack him head-on” I grit my teeth, I wasn’t much help right now. I let all illusions fall, they were back at camp. “But” I smiled and raised my hands sending the villain into the air mist circling him in a quick spin of air “I do know the name of your little group, loopholes am I right” it was only a guess but I was right. My quirk didn’t have many downfalls.
“Flesh, pieces of meat” the male groaned out again, he seemed in pain. He was cannibalistic from the way he was talking, we couldn’t get near him but I was long distance as well as close combat. I bent down his teeth missing my skin by a hair. He was fast, very fast.
Todoroki was putting up ice walls but his teeth were able to just push through as though it was nothing. How strong were his teeth? I was running before I realised, he didn’t care for Bakugou or me, he had something else on his mind.
“Teeth attacks, serious” Bakugou was close-range attacks without his gauntlets. I could make them if he told me how they worked but it could start a fire. Ice and illusions were all we could do. “It’s time to blast this freak with everything I’ve got” leave it to Bakugou to want to save the day.
“You can’t” Todoroki gasped out as I moved to dodge another tooth, sending myself back a few inches. He was persistent. I had to give him that. Where was everyone? I was so worried but I couldn’t send out another wave without using a lot of energy and after today I had less than I usually did.
“If the trees catch fire just cover them in ice stupid” they needed to stop the fight, I pushed up a wall to stop the teeth, it was weaker then it should be. I didn’t know his name, I wasn’t sure how long it was going to hold.
“A big explosion will impair my vision though. I may not be able to see the fire” He had a point and with the other fire or fires right now we couldn’t cage an exit, there may be a villain here but it was still an exit out of the forest. “And how are you going to get close to him anyway” I pushed the wall up again trying desperately to buy them time.
There was a loud bang to our side and I grabbed the boys throwing us all into the air “There I see ice, they are fighting” that was Midoriya, it had to be. His voice was close, was he making those loud noises. Put down an illusion for us to stand on in the air. The villain looked interested in the noise too.
“Bakugou, Todoroki, Y/N” it was Shoji, I was looking at him, running for his life, Midoriya on his back, eyes wide and scared. What was chasing them? “One of you gives us some light” how much was some, who was I aiming at.
A dark hand came from the forest “Dark shadow” I whispered, he was sensitive to light. He was taking over Tokoyamis’ body, large and rabid. What had caused this, was Tokoyami ok? I dropped us all, the villain had been caught, Tokoyami was crying.
I was running, straight towards the dark shadow, this is my friend. We had gone shopping together and laughed that we all had power points the others didn’t. I helped him pick his swimsuit and I ate lunch with him. This was my friend and he was in trouble.
“Getaway” he screamed as I jumped to miss one of Dark Shadows hits. I had to think of something, a light. A light big enough to daze or at least stop dark shadow.
“We need some light now, he’s out of control” Shoji yelled. I was close but I had to be closer. I jumped again rickashaying off an illusion to get back on course. I had to help him, he is my friend.
“Slabs of meat, can’t allow it the one who gets to slice them all. Don’t steal them from me” I turned to see teeth, throwing myself into the air, Dark Shadow was attacking sounds. I was silent as I watched.
“You don’t matter, insignificant bug” Dark Shadow screamed and hit the male with a purple fist. Breaking all of the males' teeth in one shot. He was strong but uncontrollable, I looked down. Tokoyami continued to cry, tears falling from his eyes. With one throw of Dark Shadows hand, the villain was knocked out. Now was the time. “Not enough, it’s not enough” Dark Shadow yelled out, voice deep.
“Tokoyami” I yelled as I was falling through the air, Dark Shadow saw me “Close your eyes” I screamed and then with all the power I had stored up I created an illusion just like I always did.
Light took over my form as I fell from the sky, I closed my own eyes. It was bright and blinding, he was too strong. Tokoyami and Dark Shadow were my friends, they are the same, they are one. I was doing this not only for Tokoyami but Dark Shadow also. I spread my arms and heard a loud yell as I burst into light around Tokoyami.
I landed on the ground rolling a few times as I let the illusion fall. I was up in seconds running over to my fallen friend. He was on his knees looking at the ground and breathing heavily. Dark Shadow going back into his body. “Thanks, you saved me” I couldn’t help from flinging myself forward bringing him into a hug.
“I’m so sorry” I was crying, I couldn’t tonight. It has been so long and exhausting, I found out things about myself earlier today and seeing my friend so utterly sad and vulnerable, I cried. His arms wrapped around me as I did. After a few moments, I released him. “Sorry, it’s been a long night” I whispered.
“I’m glad to see you are ok, I heard the broadcast” I nodded and stood up with him as I wiped my eyes. Villains still wanted Bakugou and me at least that’s all we knew.
“We could barely defend against that guy and you beat him instantly” my eyes turned to Todorokis’ wide ones. We had struggled with him, Dark Shadow was someone to be recognised in the hero world. He was going to make an amazing hero, both of them.
Shoji walked over to Tokoyami and I and I saw Midoriya, he didn’t look good. Purple eye and arm, had he fought someone while looking for Kota. I knew the kid had to be safe otherwise the green-headed male wouldn’t be here. “My friend, are you ok” his voice was so calm and even. Turning back to the person in question his eyes were downcast and said “You did what we needed you too” they must have been talking about the luring.
“Shoji” Tokoyamis’ voice was so quiet, so scared as he looked down to his hand. “I apologise” I felt like I was going to cry again, he blamed himself. “You too Midoriya” he was so quiet as I looked at him. “I’m still too far immature, anger consumed me and I let my quirk take over” he was shaking and looked about ready to burst into tears himself. “The influence of the darkness combined with my fury, spurred Dark Shadow into a frenzy, until” his head was lowered “It got so strong I couldn’t contain it and I ended up hurting Shoji” that’s why he blamed himself, he hurt his friend.
“It’s ok” his eyes met my own as I looked at my own hands' mist falling from them “I have hurt a lot of people with my quirk, I panic and” I stopped and swallowed “I let go. Today I took over this whole area because I couldn’t admit something to myself” I whispered and met his eyes “I scare people off and leave myself alone to my thoughts” I licked my lips and shook my head “But I'm not alone, I have you guys and the class” I smiled and shook my head tears welling up in my eyes, happy tears. “We are here, you aren’t alone” I was brought into another hug as I hugged him back and sighed.
After the hug, we all stood “The villains are after Kacchan and Y/N” Midoriya whispered, he looked like he was about to fall apart only able to talk as Shoji was holding him together. I didn’t doubt the only reason he wasn’t passed out was from adrenaline.
“Are they trying to kill them?” Shoji asked and I turned to Bakugou who had a blank face and I had the same look. Maybe they did want to kill us, we were strong but these were Stains’ people. They wouldn’t kill me. "Why,” he asked, it was the question on everyone's mind.
“I’m not sure” I didn’t think anyone did but the villains. “But I think we should get to camp. It’s the safest place now, so long as Vlad King and Mr Aizawa have regrouped there” at least we were in a group now, we could watch for each other.
“I understand” Tokoyami nodded to Midoriya who was still on the back of Shoji and I didn’t doubt he was going to stay there. “So our mission is to get Bakugou and Y/N back to safety” I could take care of myself, though with the lack of energy and exhaustion I could only do so much. “Serving as their protectors” Bakugou and I stayed silent.
“It’s possible the pussy cats are still fighting in the clearing” they were Pros, they could take on two villains but also trying to protect Pixie Bob. Where was the fourth one, the yellow one? I couldn’t dwell. “Going that way would draw the attention of the villains, plus it’s longer. We should cut straight across” going straight across would be faster but we had no idea how many villains were out here.
“Wait, we don’t know how many enemies there are” I nodded with Tokoyami and looked at a blank Bakugou, he hadn’t said a single word which was new for him. “We might come across some by chance” we would have to fight while also keeping us all safe.
“We could use Shojis’ searchability and Todoroki’s freezing power and if Tokoyami is ok with it we can use Dark Shadow now that we can control it” I wouldn’t call it to control more so just knowing his weakness. “Y/N is tired so we won’t make her use her quirk to shield us” as much as it pained me he was right, I was tired. “Honestly with a group like this we could probably go up against All Might” I smiled, I had done it myself.
“I’d be fine by myself” there he was, Bakugou back to his old self. Brain waking up and ready to pounce, I smiled. I did love his explosive personality, I had to keep them all safe, they were my friends.
“We will surround you two as we walk” I felt useless and looked down, I wanted to help. I wanted them to know I was strong, they knew I was strong but they were protecting me just as I had done them. Friendship and trust is a two-way street.
“I don’t need any of your protection dammit” I didn’t doubt it, he was strong and had reflexes that I hadn’t seen on Pros but this wasn’t fake, they were here for us and us alone. We had to stay together.
I put my hand on his shoulder “Come on, we need to make it back to camp in one piece” he looked about ready to blow up again “Bakugou I’m tired and I need you to protect me, I even put on your jumper so I wouldn’t be scared in their little test of courage thing” he stopped just as the others did. He smiled, small but nodded.
“Come on,” Shoji asked and we were walking along, I still had no idea who Todoroki was carrying but he seemed out for the count. He had missed all the fighting and still hadn’t woken up.
“Just don’t fall behind” Todoroki whispered and looked back to the two of us with a smile. I did love them. I was horrible at keeping secrets but right now I wanted to yell it to the world. I was so worried about them.
Bakugou was now stomping as he called out “Don’t tell me what to do” Tokoyami was behind us as we walked together. I sighed out and shook my head pushing Bakugou with a smile. He groaned.
We walked together through the forest and I continued to look out into the forest to see if I could see or hear anyone or anything. I was scared but I didn’t stop walking. I was worried about everyone in the classes, even the teachers. Until we came across Uraraka and Tsu.
Tsu was pinned to a tree and Uraraka was holding someone down but...was that blood. Someone was trying to drain her of her blood. “Quick guys, help her” Tsu yelled out but within a second the girl beneath my friend was up and on her feet and trying to get away.
“There are too many people here now and I don’t feel like being killed tonight” her voice was soft and she looked young, around my age maybe a bit older, dressed in a school uniform. She had to be a school student. “Toodles’" but then she stopped, eyes wide as she looked directly at me with a blush covering her cheeks. Bakugou was in front of me, his hand keeping my body close to his but she was then running off.
“Stop, we have no idea what kind of quirk she has” I thanked Bakugou and walked forward into the group, Tsu had spoken, she was right. We had no idea who she was or what kind of quirk she had. Though she was one of Stains’ lackeys.
“That girl just now,” Todoroki asked as we all ran forward to join Uraraka and Tsu. They had defended themselves well. The girl may have gotten away but it’s better to let her get away then die.
“One of the villains, she was crazy” she looked like it. Her eyes shook when she looked at me, she looked insane. A blush coming to her cheeks and she had been mumbling about blood. She had to have some kind of blood quirk or kink.
“Uraraka you’re hurt” I looked over at the girl in question, she had a little cut on her arm and a hole in the leg from the thing that girl was using. She had to have a blood quirk so there was no reason she would collect blood if she didn’t.
“It’s not bad, I can still walk ok” it was like a needle and I doubted there was anything dangerous about it if the girl had to have blood. I’m sure she was fine. “But you’re the one who looks terrible” she was right. Midoriya did not look good at all.
“We can’t stand here and talk, let’s move’ Shoji pointed out and got a few nods in response. I felt bad, I was one of the reasons so many people were in danger and what I was doing. Just standing here.
“I’m just glad you didn’t get injured too bad, now come on join our group” the more people we had the better, the less chance of something bad happening to us if there was more. “We are protecting Kacchan and Y/N, making our way back to camp” I didn’t want to be protected but I knew I needed it. “We could use your help” could use anyone's help.
“If you’re protecting Bakugou then, shouldn’t he be standing here with you guys” I tilted my head in confusion, he was behind us. I had just thanked him not a few minutes no, not even a minute prior.
“Huh, what are you talking about” we were all confused and I turned in time with the other “He’s right over here, behind us” but when we turned there was no Bakugou or Tokoyami. Where were they, they had been there?
“Nice trick ay” the voice was from up high, I turned slowly to see a man dressed in a yellow coat holding a cane. He was standing in a tree, my heart was racing. “I took the one you’re talking about with my magic” his quirk, he had to be talking about his quirk, he was throwing around a marble “a talent like his would be squandered if he was cast as a hero” was he that marble. My heart was about to come out of my chest, I hadn’t been watching. “We’ll provide him with a grander stage, one where he can truly shine” no, no they couldn’t take him.
I couldn’t think, I couldn’t breathe. I wasn’t listening to their conversation as mist-like ink came dripping from my hands “Give him back” I grit out and I could see the rest of my peers turn to me and froze.
“Give him back, what an odd thing to say. Bakugou doesn’t belong to anyone” yes he did, he belonged to himself and he wanted to be a hero. He hates villains. He has been training his whole life for this. “Oh the illusion quirk, we are after you too” though when my head rose to his eyes he froze too and whispered “He’s his person, don’t be so arrogant”
“I said” I grit out my hands shaking as ink pooled around me “Give him back” I was breathing heavily as Todoroki tried to hit him with an ice attack. My hands were shaking as I looked at the man. Bakugou, he had Bakugou, he had my Bakugou.
He jumped high into the sky “Why the aggression, we merely wish to show him that there are options besides the fanatical world of heroism he's drowning in, it’s important to choose a path that alines with your core values after all” What was he talking about, Bakugou is a hero. He’s my hero.
I couldn’t grab him, I didn’t know his name, I knew the group and I was weak, I’d be lucky if the illusion even made it to the man standing in a tree. “It’s not just Bakugou, Tokoyamis’ gone'' he had two of our strongest. He had my friends.
“If you’re monologuing because you think you’ve beaten us. You’re mistaken” we could get them back, we could, right? They were our friends, we could get them back. I could get Bakugou back.
“A bad habit of mine, I was once an entertainer you know” Todoroki was next to me, I was guessing to make sure he couldn’t take me as well. I was glad though I was more focused on the boy in the marble. “Taking Tokoyami was a bit of improv on my part” he showed two marbles, having them in his hand and playing with them. “Moonfish, our dear blade tooth” that was the guy Tokoyami had taken out. “He may not look it, but he’s a dastardly death row devil whose last appeal was denied. When I saw the boy take him down so easily and violently I decided he could join us too” Tokoyami was not violent he was scared. He knew nothing about my friends.
“You bastard you can’t take them” Midoriya was yelling all his emotions into the world but in his condition, I didn’t think he could do much. I couldn’t reach him. I was tired and didn’t know his name, this was bad.
“Midoriya, calm down” Shoji whispered to the fired-up male. Then Todoroki was leaving my side placing the boy on his back to Uraraka who stepped forward to catch him. What was he doing?
Todoroki ran forward slamming his foot into the ground and a large wall of ice spread throughout the forest and over his body. It was in one line straight forward, had he got them? No one could have missed that. One of the teachers had to see the attack.
"Apologies” he hadn’t hit the target, the man was in the air, his coat whirling around him. “But sleight of hand and escapology are my speciality not combat” he was not going to get away, he couldn’t, not with Bakugou, not with Tokoyami. “I’m not foolish enough to fight hero conduits from UA” his hands were placed lightly behind his neck. “Vanguard action squad I’ve acquired one of the targets” was he talking to the others. “The other is a bit of a handful” he was talking about me. “Our show has come to close, meet me at the retrieval point in the next five minutes for the final bow” no, no this couldn’t be happening.
Illusions. I had a quirk. I took all the rage and hate I felt, all the loss and fear. With a scream I let everything out into the air, chains releasing from my body out into the sky as a dome-like object crawled over the camp. I was thinking so fast, Bakugou, Bakugou, Bakugou. The man was trying to leave as I began to leap through the air with speed unknown to my exhausted body.
“You will not take them” I screamed though it sounded like it was coming from everywhere as I leapt behind him. Trailing him, he was fast but I could follow. Chains wiped around and tried to grab him as he dodged.
“The girl” he yelled to his peers “She’s doing this” I didn’t care, I walked him into a tree but before I got there he was up and moving again “I need backup” he screamed and dodged another attack.
“I thought you came for me also” I yelled and saw him turn as I ran along a bridge of illusion. I was running on adrenaline and fear of losing Bakugou and Tokoyami. “Why don’t you fight me?” I yelled and threw my hands down walls erupting around us. He dodged, not well but still did. He was moving faster. “What, are you afraid of a student” I yelled and came down on him with a wall, it stopped him for a moment.
I was running again as I looked behind me seeing Shoji, Midoriya and Todoroki flying through the air, just as they collided I let the wall fall, they went flying through the air together. I had to go faster, I had to meet up with them. I had to get to Bakugou. I had to make sure my friends were ok. A large bang and then I was hurtling toward the Earth I landed with a thud, dust and dirt flying into the air. I let the dome fall and the walls.
“I know these kids, who are they?” one yelled as I walked forward in front of the group, the girl from earlier being with them. The boys could handle the man in the yellow coat.
“Out of the way” I looked up it was a man, though he was covered in burnt skin and was held together by stitches. Eyes glowing blue, reminded me of Todoroki’s eye. He raised his arm blue fire in his palm, so he was the fire maker. “Compress” so that's the man's name.
He made his attack, blue fire coming straight for me though a simple wall and he was stopped. I paused and looked at the shocked faces and my head tilted back “Is that all you’ve got, a little fire” I whispered out and swiped my hand sending the three of them back into the dirt. Shoji had gotten burned by the rickashay.
We were up and fighting as the one in the full-body suit lunged at Todoroki and the girl ran at Midoriya “Hey Izuku my names Toga” such idiots. I was running full speed towards the fire maker.
We met hand to hand, quick and fast. He didn’t have time for fire, he had to charge it. “You’re strong” his voice was monotone as I jumped, spinning my body and sending him across the ground.
I looked around where the man named Compress, Bakugou's capturer. Shoji was helping Midoriya and Toga looked crazy, eyes narrowed and ice spraying around. Then came Compress.
“I can’t believe you wrecked my exit, amateurs” before I could lay a hit I was pushed to the ground. The fire user was on top of me sending my arms in the ground.
They began to heat a slight burning feeling to my wrists but no real damage “Did you think you can win” he whispered and leaned down more, his face over my own with a smirk. He was cocky, I didn’t like him. He gripped my wrists more “You’re coming with us too” he whispered.
“I know I’m going to win” He was thrown back illusions circling my body “You didn’t get the memo of who I am” he looked shocked as I stood up smirk wide and I shook my head. “Give me back my friends” I yelled.
“Do you have Bakugou?” he called out to Compress. I couldn’t let him near me, he turned people to marbles. More fire, I flipped back over the flames and landed in between my friends.
“Of course’ Compress yelled out, taking the marbles from his pocket as they met up. I was running low, I was tired and scared. I wanted Bakugou, I wanted my friends back. I wanted all this to be over.
“Guys, we’re done. He gave away his best trick” Shoji called out and I turned to look at him from the corner of my eye. What was he talking about? “I’m not sure what your quirk is but it had to do with those little marbles right” Shoji moved to hold two of them up. He got them, we had our friends. “The ones you stashed in your pocket, so I’m guessing these are Tokoyami and Bakugou” he had them, I let out a sigh. He had them.
Compress laughed, why was he laughing, no something was wrong. “Well colour me impressed, just what I’d expect from someone with so many hands. They were running away but I stayed, there was something wrong.
“Moron” the fire user had his hand up again ready for an attack. I put my feet in the dirt ready as Compress put his arm up to stop him. I was right, something was wrong. Todoroki was calling my name behind me.
“No wait” I stopped to listen as they turned to each other. I turned to see the boys run and then there was Nomu and the warp villain. The warp gate that had put me in that room at the USJ.
“It’s been five minutes since the signal, let’s go Dabi” Dabi, Dabi that had to be the fire user. He seemed in charge and ready, that was his name. I turned to the warps appearing as they walked through them.
“Hold on, we aren’t leaving without the kid” Dabi whispered and then smirked, “Or the girl” he looked me up and down with a smirk, he thought he could beat me.
“Don’t worry, they were so proud of themselves for rooting themselves through my pockets that I thought I’d let them gloat. Except for the girl, she stayed, very clever” I was gritting my teeth in anger, I was right. He still had them. “But allow me to explain a basic tenet of magic. If I'm flaunting something shiny” he removed his mask slowly “It’s because there’s something I don’t want you to see” sticking his tongue out there were two marbles. He did have them. “A little bit of misdirection” he held out his hands but didn’t see me as I ran hiding. “Forgive me, I do love a twist ending, one last bow and then the curtain falls” I grabbed him from the warp sending him over my shoulder and into the ground with a loud thud.
“Did you forget about me?” I yelled, appearing as his eyes went wide and my illusion fell. He had thrown the marbles. I moved to slam him into the ground again, vines encircling his arms. “Hard to move huh”
I could see Shoji had caught one and Todoroki went for the other but Dabi got to it first. I had to throw myself back as a warp gate opened beneath the villain. I landed and looked around only to see Todoroki go flying onto the ground and Bakugou in Dabis’ hand.
“Checkmate” I was running, putting all my energy into getting to him, his face was blank as he stared at me, he was getting pulled into the warp gate. No, I had to be faster, I had to get to him. I had too.
“Bakugou” I called out and put out my hand, I couldn’t make anything. I only had one thought on my mind, him. I had to get him back. His eyes were wide but I saw him look around.
“Stay back Y/N” his voice was weak and raspy as I lunged forward “Please” I had never heard him say the word please but I was too late. I came into contact with the area that was once the warp gate and fell to my knees.
I didn’t save him, I didn’t make it. I wasn’t fast enough, I had lost him, he was gone. I was staring at the ground, I hadn’t made it. My hands shook as I dug my fingers into the Earth with a scream. Guttural and from my soul, I hadn’t made it. I was crying, so many tears just falling down my face, I hadn’t made it in time. I had tried so desperately and I didn’t make it. He was gone, he was gone. The fire continued to spread over the forest and I heard someone running to me as I crouched on the floor crying.
“Come here” the voice was soft and reassuring. I was brought into Todoroki’s arms as I cried into his neck, I didn’t care who was watching. I hadn’t made it in time. I lost him, I lost him. “I know, I know” he whispered and pet my hair. “Come on we have to get back to camp” I was shaking. I couldn’t think, my only thought being I hadn’t made it in time. I wasn’t fast enough. How could I be a hero if I couldn’t even save one person?
“I lost him” I whispered and clutched his back, he had moved me so he was carrying my body. Arms underneath his arms to clutch his back and legs around his waist. “I just wanted to protect you two” I was rambling and I couldn’t think.
“I know, we will get him back” his voice was sad and low as he moved to lay his head in the crook of my neck for only a second. “We will get him back” he whispered again but quieter.
“I love him” he stopped walking for a minute, I couldn’t think. I couldn’t breathe “I love you” why was I still talking. Why hadn’t it been me, why wasn’t I taken. I should have stopped trying to get Bakugou and let them take me. “I couldn’t save him” more tears were falling. Todoroki kept me in his arms as we walked. “I’m so sorry I wasn’t fast enough” I was sobbing as we walked. I knew people could hear me crying.
He petted my head and I felt a light kiss to my head “I know, It’s ok” he whispered and held my body closer to his “We will get him back” his voice was the only thing keeping me from having a full-fledged mental breakdown. I was still shaking “Bakugou would be happy you are safe, with me” I cried more, I didn’t care what he thought I would rather it be me.
All the stress and adrenaline began to fade and so did my mind, I was exhausted and the light bounce of Todoroki was lulling me into sleep. I was so tired, I hated myself. I let him go, I fell into black.
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Todoroki P.O.V
Her body pressed close to my own as she shook, her words falling from her mouth with no filter, she blamed herself. I blamed myself. When the broadcast came through that the villains were not only after my lover but the person Katsuki and I were trying to join our relationship was heart-wrenching. I wished we could have found her and she appeared. I was worried for both of them, she was so strong as was Katsuki but now he was gone.
“I love him” she whimpered and my heart struck, she loved him. This was going to hit her so much harder, he wanted to protect her. He had gone out of his way to make sure she was ok. “I love you” I stopped in my path for a moment. She loved us, she wanted to be with us. Both of us but Katsuki wasn’t here. “I couldn’t save him” I wanted to whisper that neither could I but I held her crying form tighter. “I’m so sorry I wasn’t fast enough” neither was I.
She continued to cry if only the information at our returned affection could be a happy one, not one with her crying in my arms as she shook from shock and exhaustion. She was still wearing his jumper, I wanted to smile but I had lost my lover. I had yelled at him that day he gave her the article of clothing, she didn’t have anything of mine and I was jealous.
Somewhere through the walk back to camp, she had passed out, her arms falling and head staying in the crook of my neck. I could feel her light breaths against my skin, it was reassuring. She was here, but Katsuki wasn’t. We could have died tonight, she saved us multiple times and now here she was, drying tears and leaning on me.
“How is she?” I heard a faint voice, I turned my head lightly to see the others in the group though Tokoyami had voiced the question. He looked worried we all were, the scream she let out was full of passion and hate.
“She’s fallen asleep either from shock or exhaustion. I’m not sure which” we just needed to get back to camp. We needed to, I just wanted to find Katsuki. To make sure she was ok. She didn’t look injured physically other than exhaustion but I was worried.
No one spoke for the rest of the walk. Firefighters were brought in to stop the fires and we finally made our way into camp. People everywhere, on hospital beds and wearing masks. Getting checked out and looked at.
Aizawa turned to us and ran over “They got Bakugou” Shoji whispered as I walked before them. I didn’t think he had seen me yet. I had to be strong for the two of them.
Bakugous’ words rang through my head “Just make sure she’s ok” . It was like a mantra. I wished, begged he was here. I had to find him, who knew what they were doing to him but he was strong.
“And Y/N,” he asked looking around, I came into view and he saw the girl in my arms and shook his head “I’m so sorry” I gripped her body tighter, she was like dead weight though she wasn’t heavy. I didn’t want to let her go. “Is she ok?” he asked, walking over and I could see a few of the class gathering and listening in.
“She saved us” I whispered and the class fell silent as they checked on us “She passed out from exhaustion. She wasn’t fast enough to grab Bakugou” I had gotten used to saying his last name when we were around others. The class’s eyes dropped as I held her.
“Go get her looked at, all of you” we walked over to the medics and I looked down, holding her head in my hand. She had so much stress and resentment for herself. I let out a shaky breath.
“Would you like to come to the hospital with her?” one of them asked slowly, seeing my body tense whenever anyone so much as came within two metres of her. I promised Katsuki I would look after her. I nodded and got into the truck sitting on the bed with her still wrapped around me.
On the way they took her vitals and physically she was ok, I let the air from my lungs go slowly. “She’s tired but we’d like her to stay in the hospital. Trauma may still hinder her” I nodded, I knew all too well what trauma could do.
Once inside the hospital, we were taken to a room and she was hooked up to a heart monitor. I laid her down on the bed but her hands never left my body. “You are welcome to stay, I think she’ll need someone when she wakes up” the nurse smiled sadly and I got comfortable on the bed.
I held her close to my chest and sighed out shaking my head, I wanted to cry. I never showed emotions near people but in one night I had lost my lover to the league of villains and watched my friend crumble under the weight of self-hate. I held her tighter and soon drifted off to sleep with her in my arms. A single tear rolling down my cheek.
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I woke up before her and quickly looked at the heart monitor even though I could hear it, last night wasn’t a dream. Katsuki was gone, Y/N may be in some kind of coma again. I couldn’t deal. I kissed her head with shaky lips and she cuddled into my chest. I never wanted to let her go and when I got Katsuki back I was never going to let him go either.
“Todoroki” the voice was weak and frail, nothing I had ever heard from my friend. I looked down to see her eyes wide, she was awake though tears began to fall again as she cried. “It’s real,” her voice cracked.
“I promise we’ll get him back” I held her for the rest of the morning until doctors wanted to do some tests. She was sad, still dressed in Katsuki’s jumper, her eyes welled up every time she noticed. There was news everywhere talking about what had happened. I couldn’t blame them but it was still far too much. She was crying and after going to the bathroom and seeing the reflection of the jumper “He loves you, I love you” she paused and her breathing quickened “We will get him back”
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Chapter 11 in the making
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A/N - TW
Hello. I know most people probably won't read this but I'm writing to the one who might. I apologise for my absence, it was not meant to last this long. I have a lot of mental health and last year a lot of things changed and became too much so I tried to unalive myself. Luckily my partner is here for me as well as some close friends, however, that does not change that I felt so low that, that was my only option. I have been struggling with an eating disorder but as I am still bigger than most it is largely overlooked and took almost a decade to come to light as it did a 180 about eighteen months ago and instead of binging, I starved myself, I am still struggling. With my workload and then my mental and physical issues, writing this was not on my radar. Every time I went to post this, my insecurities and fear made me either not post or I spiralled into a panic attack. I know it's only fanfiction and I understand that people can go without it but my brain sees it as others outlets as it is my own and I deprived so many people who enjoy this series and others on my page. I'm sorry to everyone who I may have let down. I cannot promise I will post once a month like I used too but I am trying my hardest. Feel free to message me anytime, I am here for you as much as you are for me and once again, I apologise for this absence.