shitty pipe dream lessons of a case-sensitive life

Here lies the attempts for all i can't write, probably can't draw, put on any physical or technological surface & 4 sure can't say that is in me and will never leave. I was a dork before it was cool, liked Deadpool b4 the movie, hate the word preemie & I am destined to be the weirdest cat guy like, ever +10%. I am random, passive-aggressive and stubborn as hades. No one has ever truly known me and never will. This God-forsaken world truly makes me sick, both physically and to my soul's core. I used to believe in ♡, but now I know the only true love is God's. In turn, I will practice the song chorus "So im never gonna dance again, the way i danced with you." {Thank you. Sincerely, T.P.B., Cracker, Big Pun, Tiger Prior 'the Repressor', A Man Asunder, And/Or &...&... to be continued.}

[a-man-asunder]

Throughout my life I have always told people to never give up, but apparently I never saved any for my own pep talk & now I just want to hide away for good.

- June '26

[a-man-asunder]

Everything points to failure.

- june '26

[a-man-asunder]

I don't f*****g need anyone.

I am back & forth on the want.

Heck, I guess on the needing part, too;

But F it. I am mentally (even rarely physically) in the fetal position enough as it is.

- june 01 '26

[a-man-asunder]

What is it like, to have the courage to be happy?

- 5/9/26

[a-man-asunder]

I can't make myself love myself let alone ask you to. Dammit all to hades.

- friday 05 26

[a-man-asunder]

It's hard to think that it's not you against the world - especially in this f n world.

- 4/16/26 11:25 p.m.

[a-man-asunder]

Awhile back I put up a post saying 'I suck at life.' A friend replied that we all are just out here 'wingin' it. So I guess I will add 'sucking at winging it' to my list. Haha. Just kidding? I do appreciate her and those out there who have been there for me (or tried to be). Thank you.

- 4/9/26

[a-man-asunder]

It doesn't matter if you think you are a good friend to another or others.... it's their call.

[a-man-asunder]

I wish life was like the movies - the good ones anyway. That one day you finally get to live your life to the fullest, not realize that's it's already more than half over & you blew it. Good heavens, don't forget the happy ending - but in some cases it's maybe best that we do because there's no reason to torture ourselves for what never was.

- 3/10/26

[a-man-asunder]

I'm a loner, okay? Just the way it is. I guess it works out since I am alone.

- 3/6/26

[a-man-asunder]

If no one is around to see you do ordinary, everyday things then all you do is ordinary, everyday things. No potential for anything special, ~like ever.

[a-man-asunder]

i

am

all

alone

- 2/20/26

[a-man-asunder]

Sometimes living life doesn't seem worth it - the bad and bs of life outweighs the good & the happiness. I am suspect - whether it be if I fit this conclusion or caused it half-ass living life when I should have stepped up. Sure I have potential or did - I just needed an asskick then to be kinetic instead of kicking my present ass now. :/

- VaL Day '26

[a-man-asunder]

I wish I could 'Block' myself. Out of my head, my life, everything. Then just live the best one can with what I have instead of dying a little more each day because of what I don't.

- Feb. 5th, '26

[a-man-asunder]

Years ago, I made this meme after I watched multiple friends on social media date, break up and get with someone else & do the same thing ~every other week. (Almost pair off) I never understood how someone could fall in and out of love so much & so fast.

P.S. It's complete horseshit, that's how! ;)

[a-man-asunder]

I am almost 100% on this. I can & will never trust another woman in my lifetime. It's safer for them, safer for me. This isn't me extending an invitation or a challenge, just a realization.

- 1/28/26

[a-man-asunder]

I'm not sure exactly what I believe about fate and destiny. The only thing I am sure of is we are all going to die - and some of us die in parts along the way. The only hope that keeps me going is faith that I will see my heavenly loved ones and cats again. My loved ones that are still here on earth are enough reason to stay. For now. ♡

- 1/'26