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āHow do we feel about being the last when we should be the first? It doesnāt matter. Our favor comes from God.ā Sharing my notes from yesterdayās worship service at VCF Ortigas. ā¤ #identity #purpose #nofilterseries #whoweareinchrist #victoryortigas https://www.instagram.com/p/B0NJBBUh8Ci/?igshid=14zbtkwxfk4tl
You donāt help a plant grow by berating it for not being big enough yet or comparing it to other plants that have grown faster - you help it grow by giving it the water and soil and fertiliser and space and sunlight it needs to give it the best chance of flourishing. And if it needs it, you give it something to lean against to help it grow tall if itās struggling to stand up by itself.
Thatās how you should treat yourself - give yourself the tools and care you need to flourish, and donāt be afraid to lean on other things for support if you need to. Itās easier to flourish that way šø
āThe most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.ā
ā Ernest Hemingway
Morning meditation on the train has become a staple through these tougher days. Mostly Iām using RAIN meditations.
Iām also exercising every day. Yesterday it was a Pilates stabilision class. I 1000% did not want to go. The only way I motivated myself to get there was constantly reminding myself that itāll help me get better at pole faster. Iāll go to an advanced yoga class on the way home so my mind is occupied with movement and breath for an hour today.
I wanted to call in sick today, but somehow Iām here. Iām not smiling or in any way joyous - my strength for skills isnāt limitless - but Iām here and I will do my job well despite wanting to throw things, cry, and scream that life isnāt fair. Intern year is a hell I canāt escape, so I may as well grit my teeth and get through it.
I sent my Dad a message. Our relationship is fractured and challenging, but he is my dad and he loves me. He is getting so much better at saying āIām so sorry youāre going through thisā rather than āfix yourself.ā Trying to strengthen that bond because they say family and relationships are important.
This is all I have to give today and itās enough. In some ways itās more than enough. I love him. He doesnāt love me. I still find myself daydreaming of a life where we are together. He doesnāt want to be together. He is gone and I am here and there is nothing I can do to change that because he doesnāt want it. That I am being so effective in amongst it all makes me proud and I still need to try harder.
Somehow, some way, I will find a path through all the pain, sadness, and grief attached to all of this. Somehow it will eventually stop hurting so much and feeling so raw...
youāreĀ healing, slowly but surely. you will move on from this, there is light in your soul and your heart, you will make it.Ā
I can, and I will do this.
Wildflower
Great song. It's speaking so much to my heart right now that exactly it describes what I've gone through and what I'm going through so far.
God heals what He reveals.
He wants us free from whatever mess is now within us. That is why He has illuminated that situation me and you.
āYou are not free until you have no need to impress anybody.ā
ā Joyce Meyer
Self, Forgive me for the times Iāve wounded you. For the times Iāve criticized your worth. For the times Iāve depreciated you with all those negative self-talks. For the times Iāve compared your downs with the ups of someone else. For the times I did not chose you. For all those years, forgive me, for mistreating you.
You deserve so much better. You deserve the brightest dreams. You are worthy. You are beautiful. Lovable.
Itās time to heal now, self. I love thee. Let me love thee, even more.
#selflove #selfappreciation #sefkindness #selfcompassion #lovethyself
Just remember this
Your highest weight is someone's goal weight.
Someone out there is in love with you.
Your flaws may not be flaws in someone else's eyes.
Numbers are just numbers, and we are so much more than that! We are people with dreams, ambitions, beautiful personalities and great minds. Don't let all of that go to waste because of your obsession with weight.
If you are losing weight for a wrong reason, you will never be truly happy. Never. No matter what size you are, once you get there, to your UGW, you will realise that you don't even want those people anymore. You will realise how shallow and toxic they are.
People who say mean things to you about your appearance are so,so, so unhappy. Once you realise that it was never about you, it was about them, the game changes.
Parents can be cruel sometimes. They can make big mistakes that can leave a huge scar on us for the rest of our lives. Learn to forgive them, so you can be truly free. Do that for you.
Don't hang out with people that make you feel like shit. Don't be so afraid of being lonely. It's better to have a quality time alone or with your family or pets than to listen to another mean "joke" about yourself and pretend that it's funny.
Mental health is a journey. No matter how bad you feel right now, you WILL get better. I promise you. Just be patient.
Learn to love yourself the same way that you love someone else. Learn to love your flaws the same way that you love flaws of that one person that you are in love with. It is possible.
Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for all the times you thought someone else was better than you. Forgive yourself for all the times you talked yourself down in front of others. Forgive yourself for all the times you stood in front of the mirror and told yourself that you were ugly and worthless. Forgive yourself for all the times you put your needs and wants second; for all the times you did not choose yourself. It is time to apologise for all those years of mistreating yourself, my love. You deserve so much better; you are so worthy, so beautiful and absolutely lovable. It is time to put your weapons down and end this war - it is time to heal.
āTo know that God knows everything about me and yet loves me is indeed my ultimate consolation.ā
ā R.C. Sproul
I am loved, no matter what.
Day 1/30 - List 10 things that make you really happy.
I couldn't think of anything catchy to open this blog properly, but here are the top 10 things that make my heart leap into joy!
1. Sweets! I have no idea where I have inherited my deep love for cakes and donuts specifically š but because I am a sweet tooth baby, I would always crave for one.. Yay! I could hardly get this out of my system. Too much of anything can become bad for us. And I'm also scared this can be bad for me in the long run, So, I am glad to have learned about intermittent fasting because it's gotten my back now! šŖHence, I both have the freedom of tolerating the sugar rush and calming my insulin down. š
2. Brewed coffee - What a perfect match for number 1! I came to love brewed coffee when one my colleagues bought a coffee maker for our team. And the rest is history... filled with great cups of aromatic brewed coffee on a daily basis. šā
3. Watching #kdrama! Annyeong! I have no regrets for getting myself caught in the hype. Medical and action K-dramas are saranghae! ā¤ā¤ā¤
4. Rest days - Of course, coz these are days when I am free to do anything! I am able to gather up all my excited brain cells to indulge on a good book and begin to write down my fresh ideas, basically just anything under the sun, whatever may inspire me.
5. Unlocked skills - Yep! Skills that make me look like im a type of person with a superior IQ level. Haha! Let me repeat, just "makes me look like". Haha! I believe it's always a great achievement to learn about things we do not know, things we are not interested to learn about in the first place, things we are forced to learn, and things we just dream of learning. These are the moments when we deserve a tap on our shoulders with a compliment, "GREAT JOB!" It's just fulfilling.
6. Traveling - By God's grace and provision, I was able to set my foot on some famous travel destinations locally and abroad! I look forward to having more and more travels while I'm still on the prime of being a happy single kid. š
7. Funny people and wacky friends - I would carelessly laugh out loud because of them. They are the savior of my supposedly grumpy, moody days. :)
8. Great news and surprises - Pathetically, I seldom get one. š„. But they say that no news is a great news because it means things are doing just pretty well. Hence, let's all remain thankful with the neutral.ā¤
9. Special treats from anyone - Because in this life nowadays, free is almost a rare thing. We must be grateful and happy if we receive one. Well, I will be jumping in happiness if anyone's gonna treat me with (please read back my numbers 1 and 2 and 6!) I'm not really ambitious, am I?
10. My man - my only man. He may not be able to read this, but I wanna tell the whole world that all his little efforts always make my heart beat faster than the usual. Staying beside him does so too, all the time. ā¤
So, there you have it. Now I can move on to the Day 2 of this writing challenge! šššš
Whoever you are, thank you for taking time to read my blog. Please hit the follow button if it's not too much to ask for. And please, I hope you won't get tired of reading my write ups and seeing all my selfies to be uploaded in the future. LOL. š Have a great one, y'all!
For the love of sweets and coffee, always! ā¤
Okay, so we're gonna see how far I can go here. I really hope to go as far as Day 30! Yaaay! Please root for me!
you donāt have to be more attractive. you donāt have to be attractive at all. you donāt have to attract anyone or anything. you are not a magnet, damn it. you should be you for you and only you. and yes I am talking about you and you and you. Ā
You are not a "magnet". Haha, makes sense.
Just, thankful. š
Looking back, I'm thankful for all that God has given me. I praise Him for all the blessings, big and small. I thank him for all the good and bad reflections. I thank him for the strength and patience to continue on my present journey. I thank Him for the grace, enough to cover my imperfections. I thank Him for reminding me that I am worthy and loved.
I am not faithful enough, but my God is. He's more than true. And with that, I will always be humbled and thankful. ā¤
To anyone who wakes up another day and tries life again, I'm proud of you.
Self, thank you for hanging in there. Great day ahead. ā
