After Midnight Thoughts

Just trying to express my after midnight thoughts using simple words, if I find them.

[heavenlythoughts]

“I keep having dreams about you. You’re always on my mind, 24/7. Sometimes I imagine what it’s like to be with you, to have you be mine. Those dreams that I have feel so real. It’s almost like they are.”

— dreams about you // 12:46am

[heart2heartwritings]

“I am jealous of the people you give your attention to.”

[unsaidhabits]

“In my head, I see myself walking up to you and smiling, asking you how you’re doing. But why is that whenever I actually see you, my steps reduce to a stop and all I can do is stare from a distance?”

—

[wishing-for-deathx]

If thinking about you and replaying our memories in my head is the closest thing to having you then I’ll do it no matter how much it hurts me.

I’ve always been a masochist.

[beautiful-words-on-a-page]

“Thinking of you is a poison I drink often.”

— A t t i c u s

[apikaliaa]

“And karma said, “You will fall in love with someone who doesn’t love you, for not loving someone who did.””

— Unknown

[heart2heartwritings]

“How can I look at you and feel so much happiness and sadness all at once?”

—

[uhnsaids]

“i wonder if i’m on your mind as much as you’re on mine.”

— or even just a little bit.

[after-12am-thoughts]

I can’t get over it

I was so happy, the night I confessed my feelings for you. You said that you liked me back. And we agreed on taking it slow and to date. I was so happy. I haven’t been so happy my whole life as i was that night. But then you went home, an hour after, texted me and apologized. You changed your mind. You can’t do it!

This literally teard my heart apart. One hour I’m the happiest human being on earth, the next hour I’m stuck in mixed feelings, sadness, disappointment, i felt like a fool. You fooled me.

I kept telling myself that there has to be an explanation!! You told me that you saw it coming, you were expecting me to ask you out! You said that you liked me too and you’re down for dating.. but what changed?

I planned lots of things, you got me thinking about the things that I’d do for you. Now they’re useless. I miss you. I miss hanging out with you. But everything has changed.

I know you won’t ever be mine. But I can’t get over you.

[okay]

[understands]

[21queer]

TRUTH. IT’S MORE IMPORTANT NOW THAN EVER. I’M LIKE YOU, JUST DIFFERENT. WE SHOULD ALL ACCEPT RECOGNIZE AND CELEBRATE OUT DIFFERENCES. THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT MESSAGE FOR THE FUTURE.

[after-12am-thoughts]

Hello again

Sorry my lonely blog. I haven’t updated you in a while! But here are some news. Let’s start with the good news;

I’m talking to someone new, that I think I’m starting to like very deeply! And I love it! God I’ve missed this feeling. He’s adorable, smart, funny, he can be moody sometimes and doesn’t reply fast enough but ugh he’s so attractive in his own way. We matched on tinder, very cliche I know I know! But ugh he’s adorable! I enjoy talking to him, he makes me smile, and his voice is so charming and angelic. And his smile is a whole new level of cuteness! He’s really dope and cool, and very decent at the same time! And we kind of share common ethnic backgrounds! I think we can be a great couple, I haven’t asked him out yet or confessed my feelings but i think he knows that I like him. It’s obvious I cannot hide it. I can keep talking about him forever without getting bored.

Now we come to the bad news;

He’s 9,173 kilometers away.

He’s two contents and an ocean away.

I didn’t get the chance to see him, we only spoke online.

All I really want is to hug him, to feel the warmth of his body, to hear his heart beats and his breaths, and to smell his scent. Is that too much to ask?

I feel pathetic.

Thanks blog for listening, good night.

[likeafieldmouse-deactivated2015]

[bbcsheriarty-blog]

[sansurperdesi]

[saying]