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Ahh, A Sigh of Amazement

Today, as with many other days lately, I have felt absolutely amazing. My life is not perfect, nor is anyone’s, but the way I have lived it has brought me here, and I must not have any GSR: Guilt, Shame, or Regrets. It’s liberating to realize how good it can feel to just cut loose, and go with the flow. I work a coffee job at a local joint too far out of the way for typical drive-by tourism. I have made such great friends there, and have learned so much. I’ve come so far. While not every day is great, every day is new, and with every new day is the possibility to be great. I love my friends, I love my pets. I have five rodents; three mice and two rats, all female. They’re great.

I’ve found so many good friends online, supportive friends, fun people, lively folks. They’ve helped me so much, as much as my local friends. I love all my friends, and I know they love me. The community I have become a part of has helped me realize where to find myself and how to get where I want to go. It is amazing.

This is my life right now. Congratulations to me. Congratulations to you. Congratulations for making it this far and keeping on keeping on. We are fantastic, and let’s not forget it.

#positivity #Loch lives life

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If you’re ever somewhere past closing time and an employee says “it’s no problem take your time :)” they’re lying through their fucking teeth it is 100% a Problem and you need to go

#truth #customer service

Exciting News! Updates and Ramblings

I’m getting mice! I’m trying to be more active, find things that spark joy, and get out and do things, and part of that involves me acquiring mice! I’ve done a good amount of research, and I’m convinced I can provide a great home for a mouse or two. I’ve gotten a few items I need, already. All we have around here at the stores are feeder mice, but that’s totally okay. I’d love to take care of mice, no matter their function. The pet shop guy said they’ll not be too large, and that’s what I was aiming for. Rats are great, but I would like to have mice, just personally.

On another note, I’m going to try to volunteer at the local shelter to help walk dogs and/or groom dogs. Since the place I’ll be living is about 45 minutes south of the shelter, I might have to construct a schedule, but that’s good. I do well with a list of things to do and places to be, as long as they’re places I wish to be, and not places I am being forced to go. It helps structure my life, which is what I need.

I think blogging about this will help me catalogue my life and be able to look back and see my own achievements and shortcomings, to build upon them. I hope I can remember to do this.

#mouse #volunteer #mice

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college is not fun or better than high school everyone is lying like ya u go to mad parties but when u in the middle of taking shots you’ll remember that online quiz that was due 5 minutes ago and then just sit there and stare at the ground the rest of the night

Life Update: Emotional State

Alright, so I don’t now where else to put this that literally no one will see but I can still put it out there. I decided to post it here because it also relates to my college experience I guess. This blog is about to just become my life experience blog.

Anyway, here’s the scoop. My roommate has seriously broken my trust. It’s not like that, I’m pretty sure you’re conjuring up some awful scenario. Really all he did was give a guy a ride home. But in the process of doing so, he was robbed of his wallet. By giving this douche canoe a ride to what might or might not have been his own apartment/house/abode, my roommate chose him over me. I had just gotten out of class and I was waiting for the bus, this was about 7:20 or something, and he texted me that some guy wanted a ride. I texted him back to just say that he was supposed to drive me and some friends home. I’m not usually so cold, if that seems cold, but I mean we had already established a plan. My roommate would wait for me to get on a bus to ride to the bus station where he had arrived just a bit earlier, and we would both come back to the apartment together. However, this guy threw off plans and I was a bit concerned when my roommate didn’t text me back for the next 20 minutes. By then I’d nearly made it to the station on the bus. The sky was dark, the weather was drizzly, and I was tired and in a vulnerable place emotionally and mentally. I’ve been having a hard time concentrating on my studies and such because I’m very sad and very lonely, and I just want to go home to Washington (state).

Alright, so this guy must’ve really seemed pitiful, because my roommate abandoned his post and took the douche nozzle home. This douche nozzle in return stole my roommate’s wallet. By now I had been waiting in the mostly empty parking lot having figured out that my roommate took the guy home. The longer I waited, the worse my emotional state got. I felt betrayed, abandoned, and utterly alone. And then i got the text that my roommate’s wallet was stolen. I put a whole day’s worth of depressed emotions and sad thoughts on the back burner and kept strong for him so we could get through. He was upset, understandably, and so I volunteered to drive back over to find the guy and try to get my roommate’s wallet back. By the time we made it halfway there, we were passing the gas station and my roommate just decided we should get gas and go home. So I got him some gas and drove him home. I looked up all the ways you can possibly get a new driver’s license, and tried to help him with his police report.

Skip to the next day. Today. I felt a little better but all day i was stewing on low. It began with the fact my roommate forgot to turn off the crock pot last night. We made hot chocolate and I was feeling like utter bull roar, so I put on some Markiplier videos and fell asleep early-ish with my roommate still awake. So when I woke up this morning at 5:30 to find the crock pot was left on, I was admittedly a bit irked, but I didn’t let it get to me much. Then I went to class, went to my roommate’s class, and took notes for him, went to the store, and came home to make dinner. I found out as I was making dinner that my roommate had slept till I came home and had invited someone over without even having the courtesy of informing me. This compounded my exhaustion and frustration, and growing unease. I felt like he was so unreliable! I couldn’t rely on him to even stay in one spot while I rode the bus to him! I was literally coming right to him, and then when he lost his wallet to the butt sniffer that melted his heart with some sob story I assume, I was the one who kept strong through my fear and insecurity and my feeling of utter abandonment. I’m sure he didn’t understand, and I’m sure I haven’t explained it well to him. I’m also sure he has forgotten just how strong an issue abandonment is to me. It’s not entirely his fault that I feel so bad, but it is his fault that I feel betrayed and abandoned. I cried a lot after we went to the police station tonight. I cried about being lonely, I cried about him leaving me to wait in a dark parking lot at night, and I cried because I had been holding all my emotions back for two days. I miss my family, I miss being around people who love me and won’t abandon me. I called my mom and cried to her. For 22 minutes I sobbed and stuttered to my mom, and finally it was all out. I had finally let it all out. I felt a lot better, but I still felt empty. Mom suggested I take a shower and go to bed early. So that’s what I’m trying to do. I took a shower, washed my hair, and now I’m writing this before I sleep.

I don’t expect anyone to read this. Especially not my roommate. I don’t even know if he knows I have a college blog. Regardless, here is my load. I shed it to carry another. Good evening, everyone, and good luck if you’re here in the United States of America with me. The election is quite a nerve-wracking thing, this year.

#Long post #life update #Loch lives life

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Starting College or University

1. Money will likely be in short supply. You’ll find a student loan doesn’t stretch very far.

2. It’s likely that you’ll feel a bit homesick at first, but for most individuals that doesn’t last too long. Just throw yourself into the activities around you and try to avoid any visits home.

3. Your first week of classes will be a huge let down. They’re usually uninspiring – but get better with time. Expect to do a lot of work on your own as you don’t get taught at university. (They just spew out information and facts).

4. When you first meet your room-mates or the others in your class, expect long pauses and awkward silences. You will still be total strangers with no knowledge of each other – but that will pass in a day or two.

5. Your old friends will change as you’re all on different paths - so you’re bound to have fewer things in common now.

6. Romantic relationships will need a lot more work if one of you moves when you start studying. Also, distance relationships can be hard to maintain so think about whether the relationship should end.

On the Verge

I want to cry. This week has been awful on an emotional level, even though nothing has really happened to set it off. School is not awful, classes are not awful. I did miss a test today which wasn’t all that amazing, and my roommate woke me up to take him to class. But those things don’t make me cry.

I am just always on the verge of tears ever since Saturday. On Tuesday something set me off and I ran to the bathroom to cry in a stall. I have never done that before, I felt like I’d hit emotional rock bottom. I cried standing there in the stall for 15 minutes before coming back out because class had started. I spent the next 15 minutes in class weeping intermittently. After that, even though I cleared my sinuses and my pain ebbed, a pressure in my chest would squish me and my emotions would rise, threatening to burst out again.

Now I can’t stop. Why am I so lonely?

#sadness #Loch at College

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no one coulda reblogged this a month ago when i spent 500

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Look at KB coming through

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Every time you see this, reblog it. There is always someone in college that will see this.

#college needs

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I officially do not have the money to go to college, and I am about to cry.

My parents are running out of money, I have no money, I have nowhere to live in the state I’m going to college, and to top it all off, my loan program, though very good, will make me pay back my borrowings if I quit for even a semester. I’ve been tanking in my classes, dealing with underlying depression, and now I’m stuck. I don’t want to keep living, I just want to stop time and get things worked out before continuing the flow.

I’ve royally screwed up.

#College financial problems

wolflicked

Skkunnkk

It smells like skunk on my roommate’s side of the dorm. Which automatically implies it has travelled over to mine.

Fortunately for both of us, I like the smell of skunk.

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Three or four years ago I didn’t know what the smell of weed was when it literally hit me in the face.

#College Adventures

wolflicked

The M!A starts when someone replies, okay?

I might halt it because I want to watch Skyfall and it comes on at 8:00 CST

wolflicked

Let me just rebloog this years later when it’s no longer relevant and say that I have never watched Skyfall in my life and I don’t know why I said this. Maybe I missed it, and totally forgot, because I’ve never even seen the movie.

wolflicked

Okay so here’s the scoop.

I was at college apparently waiting for the time when Skyfall was being shown somewhere on campus. apparently I missed it and couldn’t find it, as evidenced by the way I tagged a post sometime afterward.

Life Update: I’m Baaaack

Back in college, back in a dorm. My roommate is nice, reserved, like me. We both seem to come off a little uninviting but she’s a sweet person who can probably hold her own, I’m sure. I, knowing the fastest way to a college student’s heart is food, made some caramel apple monkey bread and fed her some. In fact, my friend and I fed everyone lucky enough to be around at the time some, including the people in the lobby. With Valentine’s day coming up, I’m bound to be someone’s favorite monkey bread distributor. Perhaps they’ll think of me when they need an idea for a date food. Or even a date.

Kidding.

I doubt I’d make it through a date, what with the awful cough I’ve acquired some time on Tuesday. It is now Monday, February 8th at 2:30 AM and I’ve got a worse cough than I did last Tuesday. Whereas on Tuesday I just felt like something jammed itself up my nostrils and wedged itself in my sinuses, now I feel like my lungs are drowning in heavy tar and someone took sandpaper to my throat. I sound like a smoker with a chronic cough. I’m sure my roommate appreciates it, along with the slight cigar smoke smell clinging to my clothing. The circumstantial evidence is too coincidental.

#college adventures

doctorlevitar

Every student towards the end of a semester….

#I can completely agree #and I am not even in school at this time

Big Update

This update is about eight or so months late. I am so sorry for leaving this unsaid for so long, not that I think anyone is really looking. That’s fine, I don’t mind. I keep this blog, I made this blog, mainly to be a record of things I have to say, whether people read it or not.

Anyway, the thing is, I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. It’s not nearly as dangerous as Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia which is initially what the doctors thought I had, but it still is leukemia. I have cancer.

At this point, I’m in remission, and the cancer is nearly completely gone from my body. This isn’t to say I am cancer-free, because you cannot completely cure this. It will come back in probably a few long decades, and I will have to undergo more chemotherapy, but hopefully I’ll be more well-off, having been established in a job and done that job well for a long time. This should not be something that ever bothers me in my college lifetime again, even as I pursue a degree all the way up to a Doctorate. I feel ambitious but eager.

So there’s my biggest life update. I had to put my schooling on hold and now the whole thing is a horrible mess. I am going to fail things, I am sure. I have such a wreck of a degree schedule and an even bigger wreck of a GPA.

I’m tanking already and I haven’t even started back up. I had to skip this fall semester, and the Spring semester isn’t going to be easy, even if I have not so many credit hours. Wish me luck, guys. I fought leukemia, I can do this school stuff, right?

- Loch out -

#life update #serious post