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In my restless dreams, a starburst of connection

[aishakishi]

They've said death only visits you once, but I don't believe that...

I believe that he's walked with you throughout your life, and only grew distracted whenever a life was fading away

I believe death visited when my grandma's monitor's had made that beeping sound, death knocked and she opened

Death was there whenever I'd see a bug laying upside on my feet

My cat had been death when he's pounced on a bird singing on the branch

I have been death when an ant bit onto my skin in instinct

I don't think death is a singular moment that we meet once in our lives, they've always been beside, just waiting patiently for life to give up its place

[aishakishi]

Have mercy for who you are, and patience on who you will be

[aishakishi]

In the eyes of a cat

My room is a jungle for their games

My clothes of tree trunks

The curtains, barks to climb onto

My trinkets as unsuspecting prey

Their midnight zooms thrash every display

My sheets battered in the storm of play

In the eyes of a cat,

what a wild jungle their humans must maintain

[aishakishi]

Raise them with broken promises

And they grow to give endless second chances

[aishakishi]

In the eyes of a cat

I sat on your lap

Nuzzled my head in your chest

Your heart beating softly in my ears

My purrs mimicking its gentle vibrations

[aishakishi]

As of now, I am a cat full and content

Stretching open in the bed before relaxing into the pillows that bury me, my sheets wrapped around me cozy

My lips curling into a peaceful smile, my eyes closing softly and succumbing to sleep

[aishakishi]

I feel that humans were never meant to settle

We were made to wonder, to thrive, to love even the simplest things

Walking slowly to admire a bush of flowers, trailing your fingers along the wheatgrass, feeling the prickles of rain down your cheeks

Hearing the crunch of dried leaves beneath your boots, squinting your eyes at the shine of golden day's light, hearing the early birds sing their calls

Oh what a privilege indeed, to stop and admire, to feel the wonders of being alive

So take a moment, feel, be grateful

Admire, seek, wonder

Be free, thrive, and live the best you can

[aishakishi]

I am living proof of two souls who adored each other

Two bodies once intertwined in shameless wonder

Hands that grasped without fears of the after

Living proof of regrets and aches that came later

Flesh born from a night of hunger and desire

Here I am, a reminder of their entanglement

Their blood in mine, a vessel of what they try to forget

[aishakishi]

I miss you, I miss all of you... Even your cold shoulder

[aishakishi]

I wish I kept my mouth shut about wanting more, then you would've stayed

I wish I have suffered in silence rather than suffering alone

Now all of you is gone, and I'd rather us be nothing, than lose all of our everything

[aishakishi]

The potentials I have shoved in a box,

stare back at me in the corner of my room

I open it dusty and bare,

full of what ifs and lifeless ambitions

Fingers run through each creation,

hoping a spark would tickle my motivations

But instead I frown, and grieve for my expectations

[aishakishi]

Glass harmonicas

Wet fingers sliding around crystal rims

A birth of vibrations that's hauntingly ethereal

Its chorus of angels singing in gentle sopranos

Celebrating lost hope that found light in the shadows

Gif from @/metopera on tik⏰tok

[aishakishi]

In the eyes of a cat

Its human takes a bath

Water wraps around them like fur

And it quietly wonders,

"are they dead in there?"

[aishakishi]

Rain pricks down my cheeks,

Drops cold and heavy

Yet dancing, splashing, laughing with you in it

Never felt so warm, so softly safe

[aishakishi]

Starlight star bright

First star I see tonight

I wish I may, I wish I might

I wish that all will be alright

I wish my grief would fade away

And my vanity do the same

Starlight, star bright

One of many stars I'll wish on tonight

May my quiet whispers reach your light

And sleep within your shining sight

[aishakishi]

Childlike demeanor caged in mature forms

[aishakishi]

And through my restless dreams

you could've been everything

Instead you've become

a ghost of my longings

my anchor of aches

And through my restless dreams

You gave me a glimpse of almost