Darker Not Better @ajokefrombirth - Tumblr Blog

if my 1 & 2 yr olds can tell that something is wrong and say "what's wrong mommy? You okay?" Why can't my husband?

They've been hugging, kissing me all day, and trying to make me laugh. It really makes me feel even more depressed but I guess it's sweet.

On days like this I wish I wasn't around to make them feel like they have to fix me.

#Momfail #depression #Pregnant #mommy dearest #borderline thoughts #life is hard

I feel like such a failure as a mom that i want to digh.

my boys deserve more from me.

Why would you take a special moment and add your two cents in just to make me feel bad about our baby's potential name ?

Not only that but you're technically making fun of our other two children.

#toxic mil #mother in law #borderline thoughts #i hate it here #coming soon #married life #marriage problems #marriage #pregnancy

All I want is for you to care about me. I want you to care before I get so depressed I have to stay in the hospital for a week or two. I want you to care about me like I care about you. I would never let you feel so bad your only options were to shut down, ¢vt, or sewer side. I don't even let you cry alone! I'm always there to help. Why do you not love me? Why am I too much to handle??

#i’m too much #i hate it here #borderline thoughts #marriage problems #married life #mental illness #cvtting is silly #sewersidal

Cut the whole heart out. I don't need it anymore.

#i hate it here #borderline thoughts #i’m too much

Every time you make me cry I want to be with you less. At this point, I'm almost to my breaking point.

ajokefrombirth

MY BLOOD IS SCREAMING FROM THE INSIDE OF ME.

my body is whispering sour temptations.

I don't want to start ____ on a regular again. I came so far just for you to bring me back down over and over again.

#borderline thoughts #i hate it here #i’m too much #marriage #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bipolar #bad again

thequotespot

"Sometimes the fatigue is not of the body, but of a soul tired of pretending it’s fine."

neverbreakheart

asensualgurl

Life itself is nothing more than the blink of an eye....

thequotespot

I forgive myself for all the times I stayed where I wasn’t wanted. I didn’t know then what I know now that love is not proven by suffering, and loyalty is not measured by how much pain you can carry.