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free reign of the mind

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You can't help who you fall for spiraling out dialogue prompt

“You can’t help who you fall for.” Isn’t that the saying? The one every friend of mine says with such conviction. The one I refuse to accept.

“I should! I shouldn't fall for someone I know won’t ever feel the same. Not when I pretend it’s platonic. It’s not on my part! Oh, why does it have to be him? Out of everyone? I should be able to stop it. I’m going insane trying to act like everything’s fine. It’s messing everything up. He shouldn’t be the one I fall for, the one I think about every moment. Why can’t I hep it who I fall for?”

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Is It Over Now? inspired poem (I don't even know hat this is)

lover, what was that? the wink you threw at her just as i turned around. i know she’s got blue eyes i know you’ve been staring at her, a bit too long really, i’m not blind. lover, is it true? that you never meant to hurt me, that you love me like no other, that you’re sorry. lover, are my eyes deceiving me? she’s already in your bed, their whispers are quite loud. you’ve got new icons, a new phone, bolder hair. lover, is it over now? i see you everywhere, i’m thinking of jumping. 3000 coffees are not enough, you’ve already moved on. at least, i kept it out of sight. are we done? i think so. you still watch my every move, i go on blind dates and compare, you look for me in every girl, i still write about you. when will it end? is it over now? truly?

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Beloved - poem

‘what happened to you? why are you on your own?’ i ask the question in my mind as i see him oh beloved, what happened? you used to shine so bright, you rivaled Venus. you loved, you wrote, you fought. it was the never ending circle. you charmed the world and they welcomed you in an embrace. you kissed and never told. someone always stood near you, if not on you. beloved, has that much time passed? your voice is heavier, wiser too you hold knowledge but you’re dulled. your mind is still sharp but your diamonds are gone. where did they go? it was your pride, your love that kept them near. spectacularly perfect, elegant and cold you never parted from them nor they from you. beloved, is that truly you? i swear i never thought i’d see you like this, alone, on your own, dulled like stone. what a fate you have received.

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Dialogue prompt

“The only way back to my dignity would be to forget you in your entirety! To forget everything I know, to unlearn every single thing about you. I’d have to reset my whole being to forget what loving you is like. I’d have to part from the knowledge of what your lips taste like, of how your love makes one forget their own name. As bad as it sounds, I don’t think I can go back to my dignity. Not when I still love you.”

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But Daddy I Love Him writing prompt.piece of writing

“I just want you to be happy. He’s no good for you.” Everyone said a variation of those two cursed sentences. It’s like they prayed for our downfall.

“Don’t. I’m dancing in the rain in my sundress, he’s cruising through the night on the six lane, I’m overjoyed. Yes, he’s chaos and revelry. He’s my boy, my whole world, the only thing I want. I’ll scream it from the rooftops if I have to. I know you think it’s madness but only he makes me feel as alive. I’m not coming to my senses. I’ll tell you again. It’s my life to destroy but it won’t happen. He changed my brain chemistry and now I see happiness. My wild boy, as you call it, is my choice. Fuck what everyone thinks! I love him! You don’t have to pray for me, everything’s perfect. My choice, my love.”

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OHMAMI - Chase Atlantic + innuendos (i apologize in advance for the insanity)

he keeps it four on the floor going 300 on the highway fasther than a coventry climax, dashboard going into overdrive, he’s got good rubber. hands on the wheel and on me never losing control, seat belts off. fun, fast, hot, riding till dawn. he loves high maintenance, loud and exclusive. eyes hazy, windows foggy he’s speeding like it’s a race, 69 over the limit. he’s driving like a man possessed and looks like he’s blown a seal so smug, cocky, confident, he’s steady on the front seat. sexy blue eyes now bubbly red like his drink, i’m too far gone. his lips taste like bend me over mixed with pornstar martini. he’s addicting, voice husky whispering ‘love’ and ‘doll’ over the console. he likes that necklace on my neck and the pink silk dress, i’m smirking in the passenger seat. fuel it baby, the night’s just starting. he’s maintaining pace, lights blurring by we’re too high, the sky’s too dark. his touch is electric, hasn’t been out for a month, he’s powering my mind. he won’t pull over, i know him too well, he’ll keep going, bending the corner.

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I Can See You inspired writing

Your back against the wall. Quiet hallways with dimmed lightning. My red lipstick leaving marks on your collar. Crisp white shirt unbuttoned. Your hands on my waist or in my hair, wherever you’d like. Breathless, but smiling at me, jacket abandoned somewhere.You’re my addiction, this is our secret mission. So silent, so full of emotion. I can see you clearly, only you are in my mind. There is just you and I. We are not really behaving, are we? Watching you is torture when I can’t touch you. I imagine hundreds of scenarios, yet we barely get minutes away from them. It’s clear in my mind how this one goes. I know this game, I know our ways. You know it too. Passing secret notes, whispering “now?”, making excuses, laughing as we go somewhere hidden. One look, one second, it’s all it takes. Now, I got you where I wanted: pinned against the wall, your eyes on me only. I’m drawing a masterpiece, in red lipstick. You are inspiring even more adventures.

PS: I wrote this in June thinking about February and Valentine's day, there is no existing lover for this but this is for my secret romance girlies, for my hopeless romantic girlies or for the ones that love secret dating tropes

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Little 'falling in love' vibes

“Let’s go.” you say, voice all husky, eyes speaking louder than words. Your eyes are on me, fixed, unyielding, lips so close to mine, my thoughts are in shambles. You run your hand through your hair and I can’t breathe. I’m so done for. Let’s get out of here. I drag you out, mind swirling with possibilities. The sooner we are alone we can let go, my lips to find your, hands everywhere, air nowhere. I am slowly falling, no safety net, but who needs it when you are next to me?

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Small writing piece

In retrospect he was right. It would have ended badly. He could have made me mad enough that I snapped with cold, unforgiving words and a list of reasons why I hate him, despite my reassurance that his faults did not matter much. Tears would have appeared in his eyes, he would have tried to say something like ‘you don’t mean it’ and I would have simply gotten angrier. I could only imagine him getting more heartbroken as I scream and act all crazy over something trivial just because everything I held back bottled over. I could have finally made him lose composure. He would not scream but his words would be laced with unfamiliar coldness. He would not stay, he would leave. Chapter closed. He always put up with me. I could only imagine the day it became enough, the day he would stop it all. Calm and cool he would just give me some time to get out of his life. It would have been quiet, typically him. No matter what would have happened, who made who mad enough to leave, it would have been a storm. Booming or quiet, fiery or cold, mine or his to start.

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OHMAMI - Chase Atlantic

foot on the gas, hit that 300 one hand on the wheel, the other on my thigh eyes locked ahead you get me higher and higher i can feel the world slipping away, images blurry. i can get him to stay in for the night but i’d rather see him lose control. i love glares and hands on my waist and fiery kisses under the moonlight. high maintenance, he loves it, all that gold and sparkle and cash on the table. he’s vibing but checking the clock, i’m on the dancefloor twirling, first chance and we’ll go. i know he’s waiting for the ride, smooth and fast, heading to 69 avenue. you open my door, turn the car on engine’s come alive, you’re gripping my thigh i try to hide my smile as you turn on the headlights. we’re in for a long night, it’s just the start.

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Heaven - Julia Michaels inspiered

He’s bad news, the kind people warn you about but his lips taste like heaven, so soft and gentle bring you to a whole other dimension. There’s something in his eyes, that follow my every move in his hands that are always on me. I wasn’t prepared for his whispered affections or his automatic answers to my questions. I know good boys go to heaven, but,oh Lord, he brings heaven down on earth. He’s magical in his moves, words dipped in angel powder with connotations they shall never know about. He’s so good at what he does, favourite of the gods, no matter how they whisper that he’s ‘bad’. I can’t imagine life without him now that he’s shown me paradise with his wicked lips, darling words, burning touches.

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We Hug Now - Sydney Rose inspired piece of writing/writing prompt

“It’s been some time.” He spoke kindly, eyes slightly teary. He looked exhausted, weighted down by expectations placed upon him long before he knew what the word meant. 

I hugged him without a second thought. He was here.

He has achieved so many things, his parents bragged about it endlessly. He got everything he could ever want. I was  proud of him. I always had the feeling he would conquer the world one day. 

His lips twitched upwards, a faint smile appearing. Oh, how I missed that sight.

The shy boy next door was now an accomplished man. He was in a buzzing coffee shop, in my arms. Most importantly, he was no longer mad at me.

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Sad little poem

his smile, brightness overload

his words, sweet and soothing

he walks up to my door, pink flowers in hand

he keeps his hands to himself, doesn’t question why

he respects every single request and mad rule i have

he’s so calm and patient, always gives me time to calm down

he drives like the movie guy, hand on my thigh

he reads my favourite books and watches my rom-coms

he’s so perfect, out of this world

why do i feel like i’m messing up?

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A little sad/love poem

‘it might seem real but not for long’ ‘it might seem real but it’s not enough’ trust me, i know, i’m painfully aware each word you whisper with honey laced in your voice, i fear it might be the end each bright smile that could rival the sun, i prepare for it to change days of blissful joy, i’m waiting for them to end i try to keep my guard up, protect my heart but you’re here, now, you’ve been here for a long time.

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Angsty writing prompt

“We’ve been going at it for weeks. Maybe it’s time to give up. Enough is enough, schatz.” He spoke with utter calmness, like he already accepted this fate. His eyes seemed tired. I concluded he was. Otherwise he wouldn’t give up, he never quit. 

He ran a hand through his hair, his eyes softened slightly when they met mine. “I’m sorry for dragging this out longer than necessary. We should have done this weeks ago, selfishly I held on too long. I apologize for that.”

I wanted to scream, to throw something, to fight for us but he walked away before I had the chance to.His steps were measured, unhurried, classically him.  He did not look back. He never did.

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where did my lover go? poem

all that beauty, all that charisma

where did they go to?

the man i see is a shell of what he once was

he’s made of stone and heartbreak,

talks in metaphors and classics,

he’s melancholic 

he stares out the window, 

watching crows pass by.

where did my ex lover go?

the one sculpted by Michelangelo

with his angelic laugh.

the one who charmed all the ladies

and swore it was second nature.

my lover who danced in the rain

and spoke french at night.

my beloved lover with his heart of gold

and his never ending jokes that lit up my world.

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The Great War inspired poem

i drink my poison all alone, replaying your words you were right, all the time i mess it up, i vow not to cry i don’t trust like i should and now i lost this battle. i try to justify it, it’s not worth trying. we won’t survive this i pulled the trigger when you told me not to i think i really lost you this time no amount of apologies could make it up to you, not this time, not after all the others.