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TW: mention of familial self-harm

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gentle taper runs • this weekend almost mentally did me in as a received a 2am call letting me know one of my siblings had tried to harm themselves.

It took approximately four hours to stabilize the situation, and we are doing better now but it jostled me.

The thing about living is, we take for granted the amount of will it involves. I remember eons ago right after the crash that I came head to head with learning the brutality it is to lose the will to live. And ever since then I’ve gained an enormous amount of empathy for those that struggle with it.

But the following day, the sun rose, and I kept my sibling close in contact and will continue to do so as we navigate recovery efforts. I didn’t have it in me to run yesterday, and I gave myself grace even though it through off my training plan.

Today though I rose early, ate a slow breakfast, and headed out for a slow 12 miles and I just thought wow what a privilege it is to run.

Came home and soaked with arnica infused epsom salts and took some homeopathic arnica too. I’ve had no OTC pain meds this entire training cycle, anytime I think of it I remind myself we give arnica to newly postpartum mothers who birth unmedicated at home and I quickly silence any internal complaints of soreness after long runs.

I’ll be popping into the acupuncturist, also chiropractor and I’ll get a massage this week. My family flies in next week and I’m both excited and petrified at the realization we are so close to marathon day.