all of my stars

I have been irritating people since 1995 😘

[allthestarsofmynights]

Hello to my lovely moots, it's been a while since I introduced myself so I thought I'd make a new one! 🥰

The name's Beccy est 1995. I live in the UK with my partner, our two kids, one doggo and one cat.

I refer to my eldest as Bub (as he was originally called Bubba when I was pregnant with him) and my youngest is Cub. This is partly because it rhymes with Bub, but also because he's a ferocious little lion cub. There's a six year age gap between them, but they're both at home with me 24/7 because I had to home educate Bub due to his SEMH needs.

I'm currently on Mounjaro as I have been trying and failing to lose weight for years. I'm not exactly sure what will happen when it's time to stop but for now, the food noise and the blood sugars are regulated which is helping so much! I have only been on it two, nearly three weeks so far, so it's early days. I'll be updating about that too! I'm currently a UK size 20 and I weigh just over 15 stone/97-100kg (it bounces about on a daily basis), and I basically don't want to be.

You'll often find me tagging things under "mental health" and that's because I have complex ptsd, which is so so so much better than it used to be, but it's still there. I've had a lot of therapy and I am on sertraline so that helps a bunch! I also suspect I have undiagnosed autism as all the research I did for Bub actually pointed at me as well, but since the cptsd and autism symptoms overlap a bit I doubt I will ever find out.. but anyway.. I am pretty sure I do it but I gaslight myself out of getting assessed (not that it would happen any time soon).

I think that's it :) I like to make new friends on here, and I do have side blogs, but I am a scatterbrained individual so expect inconsistency always 🌼🌿

- // 20:15, Wednesday 15th April 2026

P.s. here's Willow the sausage & Bella the catto

[my-dailydreams]

[aquiraxuno]

[artbylittlebug]

Happy autism day to meeee🌻🎊🎂 Today is really important to me so I wanted to make a post to commemorate it! I’m very proud of who I am today and how far I have come since being diagnosed last year. Receiving my diagnosis completely changed my life for the better 🥹

I went 27 years knowing something felt very “wrong” with me, and having no solid answers. I thought I had my answer when I was diagnosed with traits of Borderline Personality Disorder, but that never sat right with me based on what I was experiencing (autistic women are commonly misdiagnosed with BPD).

I used to have obsessive thoughts about my identity, gender and sexuality, and an unstable sense of self (caused by autistic masking). I believed I was a lesbian for years, looked into having my breasts removed as I genuinely believed I was non-binary (I identify as gender fluid today), I cycled through many different “identities”and relationships, and used to abuse alcohol, nicotine and prescription medication. I couldn’t figure out basic things about myself like how I wanted to dress, how I wanted to cut my hair, or what my favourite colour was.

A year ago today I was diagnosed with ASD and C-PTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder). My entire life finally made sense‼️🤯😭🎉

Autism isn’t a disease or mental illness and it also isn’t curable. It is a neurodevelopmental condition that a person is born with. It is not caused by vaccines or taking Tylenol during pregnancy, and it’s also not a funny, quirky and cute condition to live with.

Autism is recognised as a disability and autistic people all have different support needs, sensory experiences, boundaries, interests, self-regulating techniques, ways of stimming, executive functioning difficulties and so on... So, if you’ve met one autistic person, you’ve only met one autistic person. We are all different and that’s why it’s a spectrum.

Thank you for reading my post and for enjoying my artworks! 🌼 Please be kind to yourselves and others and remember that you are not alone in your struggles 🫂❤️

[tragicburnout]

why would i waste your time that's my time too

[giveherswords]

Jenny Holzer, Black Book Posters, 1979

[vibrantessence]

[soulmvtes]

spring on film! [two]

[cheshmenoor]

[lucachangrettas]

Titanic (1997) dir. James Cameron (Pt. 2/3)

[lekythoi]

october 2025 • the lake district

[soulmvtes]

some may moments!

[galina]

A sea of wild garlic in epping forest, it was so quiet and the light was perfect, broke up our walk with a pile of oysters at the shack

[ariangrande]

I have no heart! I feel no love! Nor fear…nor joy…nor sorrow! I am hollow.

VAN HELSING — 2004, dir. Stephen Sommers

[allthestarsofmynights]

Me, to my son who has just gasped at seeing the Lego Titanic set being £999.99: if I was rich, I'd buy you that Titanic lego set 🥰🌸🍬🌈

My son: ah, I would hate that 🔪🫧

[veganpussyy]

i know we don’t know each other but just know i’m rooting for you i’m rooting for all of you

[allthestarsofmynights]

Okay, we have ten days until our first family holiday and I have been stressing. Yes. I am super excited about going on holiday BUT I am *completely* overwhelmed by the to-do list.

What do you mean I need to pack enough outfits for me and the kids BUT also leave enough out of the suitcases for us to wear on the days leading up to it AND then there's the old washing basket situ. Not to mention (but I will!) the fact that we are currently behind with the laundry because of the broken washing machine and yes, we have nearly caught up BUT you should *see* the size of the clean laundry pile. Yikes.

Anyway I'm thinking that the clothes I know I want to take, I might put aside now, if I think there's no way I'll need it. See, I don't have that many clothes and Cub just went up a size and though I've been replacing the various parts of his wardrobe as fast as possible, I actually don't know that I have enough clothes for him, especially considering that toddlers are particularly messy mini people. 😅

I know I'm probably overcomplicating this packing thing but it's likely because I have like 54 other things roaming around my head in whispers, e.g. 'dont forget Bubs swimming trunks', 'remember chargers', 'the house needs to be clean before we leave' - ridiculous since the whole house hasn't been ALL clean since the day we went to the hospital to have Cub. And I mean that with my whole chest. There's always something that's yet to be done, I can never get it all clean in one day. Maybe if Bub actually went to school, it'd be possible, but he doesn't so, it's difficult and everything has to take turns in being clean AND tidy. I try to keep everything reasonable nonetheless, but right now after all the sickness we've had in the past fortnight and all deliveries we had this weekend that required installing and building? Nah. I wouldn't want to invite anyone over right now, put it that way.

But I've been working on getting downstairs back to baseline today, and I'm sure I will figure it all out, it's just a lot for one scatterbrained gal working on single mama mode.