Fingers Crossed for Jury Duty

Sorry for the vast amounts of untaged pitt. It will continue. (18+) (my age, that is. I don't care how old you are)

[almostoutofmilk]

i am completely normal about the pitt.

[meatdiaz]

absolutely hate it when the pleasurable activity procrastination hits. i’m going to do something fun that brings me joy but not yet. yeah, not yet. not yet. maybe i shouldn’t do it at all, it’s not that fun

[feluka]

guy with depression: idk stories about time loops just kinda really resonate with me haha idk why

[feluka]

guy with depression: it's so sad when they're doing the same thing over and over again insisting this time it'll be different. it sure would suck if time loops were real!

[gunsandfireandshit]

[driftwoodsix]

still living with my parents as an adult is just like. i'm grateful to not have to pay for groceries. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful to have a roof over my head and not have to pay rent. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful to not have to worry about sending out endless job applications that all lead to nowhere. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful i'm grateful i'm so fucking grateful. i have to get out of here

[puppiegracie]

I've posted about this several times before but dennis whitaker is SOFT he's canonically soft and the only time he's been "bratty" is mainly towards santos and even then half of his interactions are meek and "did I do something wrong?" esque. like. sorry. "oh I hate how fandom turns him into this soft submissive thing" I'm so sorry like. he is. yes, he's a grown man, yes, he has strength, no, softness doesn't equal weakness?? and being sexually submissive doesn't equal weakness either???

people are just soooo fucking weird about submissiveness in general like it's not weak it's not degrading it's not feminizing. all of that is rooted in misogyny. it's a preference. dennis whitaker is a soft man. he's kind. he's mild mannered. he's a people pleaser. sure, he gained a new edge of confidence in s2, but even then, if anything is exaggerated about his character, it's that. sorry 💔

also I don't mind brat whitaker or cocky whitaker and I do think there are ways to have multiple different characterizations of a character and all of them make sense do whatever you want forever

[alexisneverokay]

gently soft launching the fact that I'd really like to write more drabbles about chubby dennis whitaker getting fucked so nicely by robby who's actively worshipping his boy. gently soft launching and all. chubby dennis just feels natural to me and he deserves to be made to feel so good. as ever I am worried I will be shunned

[alexisneverokay]

hmmm oh yes im going to make chubby dennis sunbathe naked in their garden and make robby lose his goddamn mind because of how hot it is

[alexisneverokay]

"i HATE robby because hes a disgusting misogynist who yells at women!! he's evil and i dont EVER want to see him again!!"

oh okay, sure, so you keep up this energy for all the characters, right? because you're saying this is about feminism and morality, right? so you've made all these same posts about frank langdon, right?

you know, frank langdon who was racist to princess and then again about native american culture, and who screamed at trinity and tried to start a smear campaign against her on her first day? frank who regularly disregards how hard his wife works? you've made all the same posts about him because you care about addressing misogyny and racism, right?

oh... you haven't? you've not even made *one*? you've not reblogged a single thing about him either? not one?

so it was never about addressing misogyny, was it? it was you smearing a character you don't like and looking for reasons to justify your hate rather than actually caring. okay, I get it, thanks for helping me clear that up.

it was never about misogyny in the slightest- in fact it seems like you don't care about misogyny at all unless it's robby. pretty shallow morals there, no? hmm.

[alexisneverokay]

(i made dennis really chubby again and made robby obsessed with him... also again)

it's hot outside, they both have the day off, and dennis is sunbathing. robby's stood by their full length back windows watching- because dennis had decided that he was going to sunbathe as naked as the day he was born.

he's staring unashamedly at the deckchair where dennis is sprawled, and he's taking in every plump, glorious inch of his stunning body. robby can't help himself as his eyes run down his whole form, starting with his round and rosy cheeks and his double chin that sits pretty permanently under his jawline, something the older can't help but leave hickies on.

he moves down to looking at dennis's chest, where he has sweet little tits that are just about big enough to fill robby's hands if he cups them and plays with the pointed nipples, with he does often. they aren't really pecs, they have zero muscular definition to them, and so robby can fondle and squeeze dennis's chest fat like his own personal stress balls. over time, faint stretch marks have dotted the undersides of them, and robby likes to lick along them as his boy giggles from the ticklish sensation. the way dennis is currently lying on his back, his tits are ever so slightly drooping to the sides due to gravity- and robby's dick gives another throb as he notices.

then, his belly.... oh, robby loves it. he adores it. he'd spend all his time worshipping it if he could. where robby's belly is firm and largely unmoving due to its makeup of thick muscle and fat together, dennis's is very different. dennis's belly is malleable in his hands in the same way that his tits are, rippling like soft, warm water when he pets and rubs at it, his head sinking into it like a pillow when he snuggles into the youngers ample lap. where he lies, it bulges out into a curve that makes his pale skin shine in the sun, shadows catching in the divot of his belly button and in the lines formed by the slight rolls that he sported on his sides.

those were another of robby's favourite things about his darling. dennis had already had an ever-present set of love handles when he'd met robby, sitting there on his sides and making themselves known whenever robby would hold his hips to kiss him, something robby would use as an avenue to get a cheeky little squeeze of them to make dennis blush and giggle into his kisses. now he was happy and comfortable and secure in his body, and was no longer homeless nor restricting what he ate, dennis had gained his first proper little side roll that sat atop his love handles and followed the middle fold in his belly. robby didn't want to pick favourites, but this might've been his.

whenever he folded dennis's legs up to rest them on his shoulders when he was fucking him, it always seemed to be this area that robby's hands landed for... stability. the sensation of his thumbs pressing so far into his boy's plump and squishy sides had him thrusting harder, faster, more desperately every time. the cherubic smile from dennis was always the cherry on the cake.

dennis's cock was pretty small and was often overshadowed by the very softest part of his belly- the bottom of it- which would sit on his thighs quite happily. robby loved to suck his boy off until he cried and came down his throat, burying himself against his belly and planting his mouth on that flushed cock- and he was always pleased to report that it was as chubby and cheerful as the rest of him. his thighs were big and milky and soft, and jiggled when robby fucked him, giving the older some extra eye-candy (as if he'd needed any more) and yet more extra stretch marks to dote on.

robby couldn't believe that not only did he have the kindest and sweetest and most loving boy in the whole world to call his own, he also had the boy with the undisputedly hottest body known to man. from where he stood looking over the garden, he opened the sliding door and stepped out.

dennis shifted on the deck chair, causing robby to have to stop and take a breath as the younger's tits bounced slightly and wobbled, waiting until he'd composed himself and ignored his erection again before he advanced closer.

"hey denny, you want anything? it's hot- you want food or something to drink? or just some more suncream?"

dennis stirred properly and sat up, robby unable to avert his eyes to the way his belly plopped down into his lap and bunched more clearly into rolls, hiding where his soft little cock had been laying between his thighs. god, his boy was so fucking pretty and he was so fucking hard.

"hmmm... maybe just some more suncream? you'll have to help me with my back though, i can't reac-"

there was a pause.

"robby, are you hard?"

robby bit his lip and shifted, trying to relieve pressure and not look at his boy's lush body under any circumstance.

"i mean, you know how it is denny, we aren't always in control of these thing-"

"is it because i'm naked?"

dennis had a grin on his face now, and was not-so-subtly leaning back on the deckchair and spreading his thighs a bit, showing off to robby.

"i- dennis, i'm only a man, you're out here naked and relaxed and... fuck, you're fucking hot, denny..."

the younger man beamed and seemed to preen under the praise. then he shifted properly, turning over onto his belly and exposing his ample ass and the shadows of his back rolls.

"our garden has a fence, robby. a big one. and it's a tuesday at midday, no-one's home. come fuck me? please?"

robby's eyes didn't move from dennis for a second as he undid his belt and dropped his trousers, revealing his rock hard cock. dennis licked his lips and wiggled his ass, getting everything he wanted.

[puppiegracie]

sorry hopping on the fandom reception of langdon vs robby to say that the fundamental difference between the two that irks me is how robby tries and langdon doesn't.

in the sense that, while robby lashes out, makes mistakes, hurts his subordinates, shows bias, and a plethora of issues, he's still trying to be considerate of others and trying to be better. even if those attempts fail, it's important that they're made.

when he and baran clash over the incarcerated patient, first he makes sure to ask "what am I missing?" in s1 when he and heather clashed over the abortion, he listened and took it over. when mckay schooled him about how important those girls on the list were, he conceded she was right with "this is a teaching hospital, and teachers can still learn stuff... you were right, I didn't think enough about those girls."

when baran confronts him with "what the hell was that with samira earlier?" he goes to samira and tries to apologize. does this fail? in every way possible, yeah. but the attempt was made. and then later when he scolds victoria for her tiktoks and talks over her, when mckay calls him out on it, he reevaluates and apologizes to her.

Robby is FAR from a perfect man. but he still tries.

langdon is more often than not, a self centered character. when he is called out on shit, there is very little effort, and most often a "BUT BUT BUT—" array of excuses or lashing out. when robby gets onto him for yelling at santos, he tries to cover it up, like (heavily paraphrased but the sentiment is true to what he says) "I know it sounded bad but she's been awful all day" when robby calls him out on his shit again in the ambulance bay, his response is to lash out with "I wasn't the one talking to cartoon animals in peds!"

he rarely takes responsibility. he sees rehab as a punishment instead of the consequences of his actions. he sees robby sending him to triage as "exile", even though yeah, this is his first day back as a doctor after months and months of rehab and he's LUCKY to be there at all. and in his confrontation with santos, it continues to be about him. "I almost lost my wife and kids!" which, again, he didn't even lose them, and again, it would've been the consequences of his actions, not some sort of punishment. (not to mention he doesn't ever talk about his wife in a particularly good manner.)

he treated his amends as a checklist, he cared about getting louie a proper funeral to absolve his guilt, frank langdon in many ways is just as (or moreso) biased than robby and a hell of a lot more self centered. even in robby's most self centered moments, when he's ranting about HIS department, he's still saying that because he's actually focusing on everybody else. he's in charge of all these people. it is his department.

if you're gonna hate robby, I'm sorry, it's weird to not hate langdon as well. langdon gets WAY better fandom reception than robby. I could yap and yap about this but like.. i have no problem with people liking and disliking characters, whatever. but it's hypocritical. and also, langdon stans (some of the fans are normal I'm specifying stans) have harassed both me and my mutuals and my gf over saying shit like this lol

[lavenderpanic]

sometimes i get sad about the fact that the fandom is so wrapped up in made-up drama with no basis in reality and discourse about fanon that there is almost NO conversation about the ACTUAL political parts of the pitt. so much criticism and no actual discussion of the pitt’s points about ice, about misdiagnosis of women and poc, about the fucked up insurance systems in the us, about deportations, about child abuse, about mental health, about suicide, about addiction, about federal funding cuts towards programs that benefit people of color, LIKE. you wanna talk about the pitt’s politics but instead of talking about ANY of that you wanna make shit up instead oh okay

[alexisneverokay]

you guys know that when analysing the canonical content of the pitt, the acab sentiment still includes jack abbot, right?

canon tells us and shows us that he still has a *lot* of deconstruction to do about the american military, and is still pretty substantially actively involved with them in a way that doesn't seem to trigger any moral conflict in him as far as we've seen (yes it still counts if he's only there as a doctor, yes that still counts as being complicit in military actions).

when ice agents detain jesse, he still asks what jesse did before anything else, implying that he hasn't been able to disconnect himself from his instilled belief that "agents of the law" (despite ice not fitting this category well, if at all) are acting correctly and in the pursuit of justice, as opposed to being weapons of the state imposing fascism. I'm not saying he supports ice, we know he doesn't, im saying his brain still jumps to assuming law enforcement in any form is automatically in the right before he thinks more deeply.

in season one his letter to the dead veteran (note- I'm not critical of the fact he wrote one, shared experience in that way creates very powerful connections, and it's easily understandable as to why abbot would want to write personally to his family) and the way in which he spoke about him to robby- regarding his surviving several tours just to die back home- didn't show him to be particularly critical of the work the military was actually doing on these tours and the horror they were causing for civilian people, rather just the trauma it causes for the soldiers themselves. his focus in general hasn't directed itself to the majority of victims of war.

we see al-hashimi to be initially unsure of his presence in s2 and then critical of his involvement with swat, and though they find common ground in their similar traumatic experiences quickly, abbot still brushes off her concerned question as to what he's doing with that organisation. overall he doesnt have much of an answer to his involvement, aside from "my therapist said I needed a hobby", or "I suck at golf". yes, I don't doubt that his own unresolved trauma drives him back to a familiar environment, and im not saying he's a bad person, im just saying that he has a lot of deconstruction to do.

he has work to do in separating himself from the military and it's offshoots, and from his assumptions that they're acting in the right, and it's important to acknowledge the fact and this journey as very, very central to his character. he's not a bad person due to this (none of the characters in the pitt are bad people), but he's a character with work to do and flaws and biases galore like all of them, and seeing this either flattened or ignored by the fandom at large is frustrating.

[puppiegracie]

never ever letting go of the concept of dennis being the first to really sweetly praise robby. to call him things like pretty, beautiful, gorgeous. and robby would protest, rebut, mumble you're the pretty one, denny, and dennis would only hum against robby's neck, kissing lightly, and keep murmuring his praises until robby starts to believe them.

and robby does feel stupidly pretty as dennis tells him so beautiful, robby, fuck, my gorgeous man. you looked so good today, green's so pretty on you. so so pretty... and robby knows, he knows, objectively, that he's not the type of man that anyone considers pretty. except dennis... really seems to. robby is helplessly addicted to the feeling of it.

[puppiegracie]

okay am I too tired to make a meta post on it? yeah. I mean what is the use in arguing my points when it's likely no one's mind will change. (edit: I kept yapping)

all I'll say is that I find it weird how much people overinflate robby's poor treatment of trinity. like you want him to be evil to her sooo baddd. you want him, a male authority figure who she miraculously has a safe space in, to be evil to her. like sorry it feels weird. we can acknowledge that he didn't prepare her enough for langdon's return, or maybe he should've done more to truly report langdon, but trinity is also an autonomous adult who (in her words) could've done the same thing. robby is also not her father, he's her boss. he can't be responsible for all of her traumas.

but he still listened to her on that first day when no one else did, praised her for it, and was honestly the least harsh person. ellis with "the patient doesn't give a shit", heather with "they say cursing is a sign of intelligence— I say it's a sign of poor self control. but what the fuck do I know?" samira with "are you aware you have an aggressive energy?" and so on and so forth, and no I didn't forget langdon! langdon with yelling at her, demeaning her, badmouthing her to robby— which, if robby was as awful as yall say, robby would've listened to his favorite white boy about the brand new first day doctor woc and trinity would've been fired or at the very least, not believed.

robby checks in with trinity, he jokes around with trinity, he makes her feel comfortable. he believed her, believes in her, doesn't demean her or diminish her skills. praises her to baran. offers to have baran take over a possible triggering case, but listens and respects it when trinity insists upon doing it. he's generally good to her. they have a good working relationship. WORKING relationship. again. as much as I love fandom and "Robby Santos father daughterism" I feel like sometimes the reason Robby gets painted as oh so evil is because he doesn't coddle her as much as y'all think a father should. he is NOT her dad.

the fact of the matter is, is robby an extremely flawed individual? yeah. is he always the best boss? no. has he been good to trinity on many occasions? yes. does the subtext say he's generally a good boss to most of the individuals working at PTMC, trinity included? yes. we're seeing two days of these people's lives. but like idk, I'm sorry, it feels weird to want robby to be evil to trinity who's already had so much trauma at the hands of specifically male authority. I'm glad he's in her corner. I'm glad she feels comfortable around him. is it perfect? no. but it's not nearrrrr as bad as people make it out to be.

[sh5]

down, boy

[puppiegracie]

huge fan of how isolated they kept robby in s2 because like. he doesn't have anyone. he didn't have anyone in s1, he doesn't have anyone in s2. not truly, not really. it's not the literally no one is there type of loneliness. it's the fact that you're surrounded by people, and you're still deeply alone.

even the people that help him or confront him or reach out to him the most, he barely has. dana, who is first and foremost a coworker before a best friend, who had no idea about robby's abandonment. jack, who's admittedly closer, but I assume is included in "no one knows", + is avoidant, often working, and hasn't faced most of his own shit. not truly reliable.

I mean, that scene where robby is grinning and refusing eye contact and not reassuring jack he'll be okay... and jack doesn't even follow him. just leaves. and later, when dana is practically begging jack to at least say something. do something. but jack is also closed off, so it took that push. he didn't even truly initiate the reaching out.

even duke's connection to robby gets overinflated, and I think it suits the narrative much better to view it as it is: duke and robby are not particularly close. it's implied it's a recent friendship, mainly over motorcycles, which is a recent development in robby's life. and robby, over and over, has to practically plead with duke to stay, have the CT for him, and is generally difficult.

robby is grasping to this friendship because it's likely one of the only ones he has, possibly the only one. and eventually, yes, duke softens at the desperation and comforts him, but it's still just... they're clearly not very close. robby is desperate for connection and unwilling to let it go, he's crying out for help, whoever will help.

him and noelle clearly aren't that close, including the fact that she gossips about something personal to him to dana without a second thought. it's not even a want for robby, the comfort of a warm body in his bed, it's a need. he knows he can't be alone. he can't handle it. but he doesn't wanna get close enough to anyone to be abandoned, so he always leaves first.

yana kovalenko, who is one of the people who cut through to him emotionally the most, is a patient. cassie, who also checked in on him and made an effort, is his resident. the vast majority of people that are considered his "support system" are his responsibilities as well, or at the very least his coworkers first, which heavily clashes.

that's why he latches on so heavy to duke, why duke gets through to him easily, even though he's... honestly pretty surface level, and I assume knows very little about robby's inner self, just as everyone else. all he really knows, from that day, is wow this hospital is draining. but that was enough for robby. because robby is desperately lonely and duke is not a responsibility or a coworker. and duke is older, and robby is subconsciously always searching for a figure like that. someone to guide him. a mother, a father, a mentor. anyone.

anyways I just feel like most of robby's relationships, (even heather in s1 and sometimes especially her,) get wildly overinflated. and it does a disservice to his character. one of the core parts of his character that explains many of his motivations are how completely lonely he is.