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"You still want?" "I still want."
Thank you for all that you do! Do you have any fics where either Shane or Ilya has to safeword out of a scene and aftercare ensues?
Oooh lets see what I can find! Also check out my Dom/Sub list. Currently working on a part 2!!
Safewords & Aftercare
🏒 put the lime in the coconut, then you feel better (safeword) | <1k
Shane uses their safeword and Ilya worries
🏒The Secrets that Keep Us | 2.3k
Ilya accidentally triggers Shane to remember an encounter he never told Ilya about that wasn't consensual. And Ilya comforts Shane as he has to tell him about the one guy he never told Ilya about.
🏒Distance Between Us | 2.3k
While trying something new in the bedroom, Shane uses his safeword and goes into subdrop.
🏒You Are Nothing Like Your Father | 2.4k
Shane finally gets out the fact that he has a kink, and wants to be hit in bed. They go through with this later in the day, Ilya not realizing what he is getting himself into. He gets reminded of his childhood trauma, and panics, so he uses his safeword. And fluff ensues.
🏒coming apart at the seams | 3.1k
Shane knows what dropping feels like. He just never expected Ilya to experience it.
🏒Let Me Worship The Ground You Walk On | 3.5k
Shane and Ilya try something new in the bedroom, it doesn't go very well. So much fluff ensues.
🏒gifts ungiven | 3.5k
Now that they're settling down, Shane and Ilya know they should really be more responsible about the kink they both enjoy. So they set up a safeword. Shane really doesn't like having one.
🏒Swallow what you bite off | 3.8k
Shane wants to try something new. Despite the discussions, things go wrong.
🏒take me, don’t hesitate | 3.8k
Shane says no in the middle of sex, and then gets confused about why Ilya has stopped.
🏒Freezer Burnt | 4.5k
Shane comes to the realization that cold things and sex don't mix well for him. He and Ilya freak out about it.
🏒Backcheck | 4.5k
Shane gets his first real punishment and experiences sub-drop. Ilya cares for him, and necessary conversations follow, including the establishment of a safeword.
🏒win a losing game | 5.0k
When a scene goes wrong, Shane finds it easy to forgive Ilya. It’s not so easy for Ilya to forgive himself.
🏒 Damage Control | 5.6k
Shane gets hurt during a game and lies about it. Ilya finds out, of course. Shane runs away from his problems (aka the dentist) and his pain, but Ilya is there to find him
🏒 ten minutes for deliberate injury | 5.6k
Shane safewords out of an intense scene, and aftercare ensues.
🏒 handle with care | 5.7k
So he’s there in the hotel room, and Ilya Rozanov has him pushed up against the door, and he’s saying all sorts of filthy things that should send Shane running and instead very much make him want to drop to his knees, which is also a relatively new feeling—and he won’t quit grabbing Shane’s face.
🏒 baby, kiss it better | 6.2k
Shane just needs to be taken out of his head for a while. It doesn't go exactly as planned, but they make it work
🏒 tie me up (be nice to me please) | 7.2k
While the whole "tying Shane up" thing sounds fun at first, it is not so fun anymore when Shane has a panic attack when trying it.
🏒 you can ebb and I can flow (and we'll take it slow) | 10.0k
🔒 Shane uses a safeword in the middle of an argument
🏒you’re so pretty when you take control | 12.0k
if Shane wanted to try something new, Ilya could indulge him. This was Shane after all, Ilya’s sweet, desperate bottom. What harm could it do? It wasn’t like they didn’t both know how this would end, with Shane face down on the bed, begging for Ilya’s cock.
🏒The Boston Year | 63.6k
A look at the year that Ilya still played for Boston, except they explicitly state their dom/sub relationship, and explore that dynamic (and kink) together.
🏒Denial | WIP
five times Shane doesn't use a safeword, and one time Ilya does.
🏒Unholy Days | WIP
5 times Shane and Ilya participate in free use, and 1 time Shane tells him no
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hollanov fic rec list ten!
[i meant to post this a week ago, and then i had a highly stressful two weeks. februrary, man.]
(one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, eleven, twelve, thirteen fourteen)
drink me up, swallow me whole explicit, 5k, oneshot. lactation kink. shane tries to hide the fact that his body is... doing things... during a hookup. he should know ilya always finds these things out.
jealous of your cigarette explicit, 9k, complete. lactation kink, except this time, it's ilya. shane hollander puts that oral fixiation to WORK.
sandcastles (all the pleasure, none of the burden) explicit, 7k, oneshot. cnc, feminization. shane says he doesn't want to fuck before the game. ilya knows better. HOT.
autoclave explicit, 18k, ongoing. omegaverse, a/o. ilya starts his rut before the party. shane has to deal with the boston raiders, ilya himself, and the complications that come with sharing a rut. the porn hits you so hard you are not ready for the emotional stuff to come back around and knock you out.
unstoppable force, immovable object SERIES, explicit. omegaverse, a/o (omegas have vaginas, here's your warning). both very good porn (shane freeuse and cockwarming! who cheered!!!) and emotional exploration of them getting together.
puzzles teen, 5k, oneshot. ilya does puzzles with david hollander, thinks about ottawa, and doesn't kill himself.
boston's greatest love machine mature, 5k, oneshot. shane is personally offended by people besmirching ilya's name when it comes to sex. he runs a tumblr blog about it. significantly sweeter and also more realistic than you'd think.
something in the static explicit, 4k, oneshot. shane likes ASMR. ilya makes his own forays into the matter. (as someone who personally despises asmr with the fury of a thousand suns (bad noisee), this was almost enough to make me reconsider. almost.)
come to me slowly mature, 5k, oneshot. feminization AND possessiveness for shane. it's porn and it's a character study. and it's also HOT as HELL.
ilya rozanov: baby whisperer gen, 6k, oneshot. what it says on the cover. ilya rozanov just has a way with babies.
rough new prizes mature, 5k, ongoing. ilya smokes, semi-accidentally goes to the kingfisher, and tries to be normal. it's... well, it goes.
see it for myself explicit, 3k, oneshot. shane sends ilya a sex tape. as in, a literal sex tape, because what says internet safety like VHS?
dinner tonight? explicit, 15k, oneshot. they're married, but they've never dated. of course, they decide to roleplay about it. and it turns into a competition. because what else would they do?
saving myself for marriage explicit, 4k, oneshot. post-show, but before TLG, hollanov get drunk and get married in vegas.
captain vs. captain explicit, 16k, ongoing. in an au where they never had that moment in the showers, the rival captains of the bears and voyageurs shoot a series of challenges together. they get closer as it goes.
good luck tonight explicit, 2k, oneshot. the vegas bathroom scene, except shane gets to be even subbier and suck on ilya's fingers. should i even say it? hot, hot, hot.
progression teen, 7k, ongoing. david hollander's pov, struggling to handle the reality that is ilya rozanov. a harder take onto what the realization of who your son is dating than canon, but very good.
dark out and still thirty degrees explicit, 30k, complete. omegaverse. a/b, but shane is a trans beta. shane's doctor needs a mate's signoff for shane to get his hysterectomy. there's only one person to call. my emotions hurt, but it's a very good read.
longer by the day explicit, 6k, oneshot. shane grows his hair out. ilya likes it. maybe a little too much.
twin cinema mature, 5k, oneshot. they decide to start building their public image together- being seen having a coffee is the start. it turns into roleplay pretty soon.
you are my first pick mature, 3k, oneshot. shane gets valentine's day gifts from someone- he's pretty sure who. 5+1 fic.
take me where the light is mature, 11k, ongoing. ilya has temporary amnesia. he thinks he's in 2007. it's 2019. turns out, his life fucking rules. while it still has some angst, it's one of the most joyful amnesia fics i've read.
pierce through me (hit me so physical) explicit, 7k, oneshot. ilya gets his ears pierced. shane can totally, super, really be normal about it.
at pinpoint explicit, 19k, ongoing. ilya wants to mark shane up. scar him. piercings are a perfect method. some mild blood and obviously painplay, but also jesus christ. fucking god. i love piercing fics.
change, like the sky mature, 31k, ongoing. HEAVY trigger warning for this fic: suicide talk and attempts. shane gets outed a little after the cottage. he drinks, and he goes out onto the balcony, and he falls. the rest of the world, and ilya, hold on for the aftermath. (NO mcd, but holy shit this fic makes me UPSET.)
My new period-appropriate crack headcanon is that the boston raiders once used akinator to figure out who montreal jane is and it kept telling them if was shane hollander and they kept thinking it was the weirdest fucking bug
Heated Rivalry (2025)
HEATED RIVALRY GIF MEME: SCENES [5/5]
Hey I was wondering if you had any fic pre dating where one of them just has a huge soft spot for the other? thanks❤️
Pre-Relationship Hollanov
🏒 shane's guide to valentines day with your rival— buy russian wine | 2.0k
The day of the shoot landed on Valentines Day and Shane kept the suit on thinking Ilya wanted to be his valentine.
🏒 thaw | 2.4k
shane and ilya sleep together, literally
🏒 six-seven-eight, triple nine, eight-two-one-two | 2.7k
Shane expects texts from Ilya to bring him to his knees. They do, but in another way instead.
🏒 somewhere only we know | 2.9k
After a bad game, Shane seeks out Ilya to relieve some tension in a purely physical way. Or at least that's what he tells himself. It's not that he wants to be comforted. Definitely not
🏒 young, drunk, and alone | 3.3k
Shane's not expecting to be Ilya's emergency phone call when he gets arrested in Montreal.
🏒 I’ll Talk (Like You’re Not Listening) | 4.2k
The greeting wasn’t a joke or an exaggeration—it was the truth. Shane leaves messages anyway, confessions to a digital void that will never judge him, and never push him away
🏒 Give Me Your Skin (I Need Your Warmth) | 4.9k
🔒 Shane loses a bet and has to wear Ilya's jersey.
🏒 Written In Ink | 6.1k
Shane gets drunk after his second Stanley Cup win. Piecing together the night before (a park, a club, and a tattoo shop) is very difficult for him to do.
🏒 Printer’s Alley | 6.9k
They’re not dating. They’re barely even friends. Shane should be in bed preparing for tomorrow’s game. But when Ilya shows up in Nashville wearing a stupid cowboy hat and that dangerous smile, things go from routine to risky: meeting up with Rozanov is a terrible idea. Dancing with him in a crowded bar where anyone could see is worse. But Shane’s never been good at saying no to Rozanov.
🏒 pierce through me (hit me so physical) | 7.6k
Ilya pierces his ears. Shane is feeling…some type of way about it.
🏒 Everything He Needs | 8.4k
Shane gets drugged at a club. Ilya takes care of him.
🏒 chained myself to a friend | 12.3k
Shane and Ilya learn what it's like spending time together with their clothes still on.
🏒 Find Lily | 14.6k
on the night that Shane wins the cup for a second year in a row, the internet learns of Lily and goes absolutely nuts
🏒 Tuna Melts and Longitudinal Studies | 20.1k
Ilya Rozanov goes to the internet for dating advice
🏒 wanna get stuck in your head | 31.0k
lessons in budget-friendly shopping, home decor, and resisting the urge to neatly combine all your situationship’s shit into a drawer in your bedroom because you might be falling in love with him: a seven-ish step guide by shane hollander, who is so, so fucked
🏒 Line Change | WIP
Instead of turning him down, Ilya and Shane become fast friends at the Prospects Cup. Their relationship (and how they hide the truth) completely changes when the media poses them as best friends instead of rivals.
If you have any suggestions, feel free to add (:
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Relationship Status -> 2017 Break Up Rewrite | Boyfriend Era Pt. 1 | Boyfriend Era Pt.2 | Breaking Up & Making Up | Cheating w/ Each Other | Different First Meet | Early Relationship | Exes to Lovers | Fake/Pretend Relationship | Getting Together Later In Timeline | Married Hollanov Pt 1 | Married Hollanov Pt 2 | Married Hollanov Pt 3 | Pre-Relationship | Situationship Era
ILYA ROZANOV HEATED RIVALRY (2025 - ) ▸1x04, rose
ilya: *consent king* shane: please just shut up and fuck me
Ilya Rozanov, Heated Rivalry Episode 5, “I’ll Believe in Anything”
Dec, 2025
a semi-comprehensive list of some of my favourite hollanov fanfictions that i recommend reading!!
for some reason i can't adequately express my maniacal adoration of these works well in writing but just know that i went absolutely nuts screaming crying throwing up reading these and they are very special to me.
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Pale imitations - 2.5k - oneshot - ilya!pov
"everything is about smoking, except for smoking, which is about shane hollander." or-- ilya quits smoking for like the bajillionth time. a really good character study! very beautifully written too like omg. those fucking krispy kreme donuts.
like how spring melts the snow - 45k - teenage friends!AU - mixed!pov
after ilya's mother dies, he is sent to live in canada with his aunt. he and shane meet at a hockey camp as teenagers. i found this very nice indeed!! quite angsty i suppose in comparison to other camp AUs i've read
greed in waves of words - 4.7k - oneshot - ilya!pov
really very good oneshot about languages and their insufficiency in describing things. rather fluffy actually. very good :D
new beginnings - 100k - childhood friends!AU - mixed!pov
look i feel very fond over this fic. irina took ilya and moved to canada when he was five. very very unrealistic hockey but this was sooo super sweet and i really enjoyed following along with it while it updated :)
Nutcracker! - 101k words - ballet!AU - shane!pov -
obligatory opalapparition plug because they're the goat. Shane is the stage manager at the royal winnipeg ballet and Ilya is the bolshoi principal dancer who makes his job very difficult. i enjoyed this a lot, it was clearly very well-researched and an interesting AU. shane's anxious-avoidant attachment was well done and his arc was fascinating to read.
I'm reading your lips (you're speaking my language) - 30k - no rivalry!AU - mixed!pov
Shane is fluent in russian. he and ilya bond over this and are... well, they're friends, kind of. with benefits. this fic was a fun read and i thought the concept was really cool! polyglot!shane!!!!! also the model minority myth is explored in a really meaningful way and i like what the author did with that. translation as a metaphor for trust ouuhh...
love and lust (wanna be yours) - 12k - oneshot - ilya!pov
this fic had me STRESSING oh my god. inspired by the fight mentioned in tlg where ilya says shane can sleep with other guys, if he wants. shane takes him up on that offer. two generational crashouts ensue! HEA thank god.
home economics - 38k - nhl lockout!AU - mixed!pov
oh my god. oh my god. i will never be normal about this author's homegrown series. so basically in 2015 theres a conflict between the players union and the league and basically the season doesn't start. so in the months while the players are effectively on strike, shane and ilya both get signed by zürich for a few months and they share a house and team for four months. and then the league goes "fuck you!" *unforces your proximity* and they have to go back to their previous lives. but they're both like haunted by eachother and their time together. SO much more angsty than i was expecting oh my days. anyway their fugly yellow kitchen is treated like a dead wife and i think about it every day. seriously it's so good.
open house - 25k - sequel - mixed!pov
as the sequel to the aforementioned fic home economics, my already decently high expectations were somehow leapt over by this fic. in this sequel, we see the POVs of hayden who's keeping shane on suicide watch, a lady at a hardware store selling ilya some yellow paint, the captain of the zürich lions who is so done with everyone's bullshit, a rookie on shane's team who just hooked up with his fellow rookie, yuna who overhears a lot more than she's supposed to, and a random waitress who really don't gaf. these people bewitched me mind body soul!!!!! like genuinely this was a spectacular sequel!!
puck interference - 128k - referee shane!AU - mixed!pov
shanes a ref and ilya's a player with a drug and alcohol problem. they shouldn't fall in love. they do anyway. uh so yeah this was quite depressing actually. but HEA so yeah!!
chiaroscuro - 98k - genderswap/artists!AU - mixed!pov
even if you don't normally read genderswap, i cannot recommend this enough. imagine if hollanov were beautiful freaked up lesbian artists in a forced proximity art studio in new england. doesn't that sound divine? WELL IT IS. AND IT'S SOOOO FREAKING UNDERRATED OMG. give it a chance pleeeeeeeeease.
oh well, i guess we're gonna find out! - 95k - zombie apocalypse!AU - mixed!pov
well this was an absolute journey!!!! the night of vegas 2014, zombies happen. ilya and shane fly to boston on the last plane out of nevada. then over the course of like three years they like fall in love and shit. i'm not exaggerating when i say that i had to keep double-checking the 'happy ending' tag because this fic had me stressed the fuck out! but anyway, this fic is like so amazingly spectacular, it was very very realistic like about human nature etc and i sooo enjoyed reading it i was like majorly scared. highly recommend!
apply pads (shock now!) - 34k - paramedics!AU - shane!pov
paramedicine au!!! i really love the author's writing style it's witty and dry and very human. i genuinely considered a career in paramedicine after reading this fic btw.
walking through windows - 38k - wedding chrash!AU - mixed!pov
ten years after they break up in tampa, shane is having a big gay wedding to some other guy. cue ilya's generational crashout. he crashes the wedding. they were messy asf in this and i love it!!!!!!!
another day, another struggle - 115k - crack neighbourhood!AU - mixed!pov
ilya's family moved to america following the death of his mother, his father loses his job and has to go back to russia with alexei, but he stays in the us and joins up with the local gang. after shane tears his acl at 18, he is prescribed narcotics and falls down the slippery slope of addiction in the height of the opioid crisis. their paths cross; ilya is a crack dealer, and shane is a prostitute and junkie. i had never even considered this concept before reading this fic but god... this fic was so damn good!! the author's lived experiences rounded out all the characters and everyone just felt so real. the happy ending was great, and the angst was impeccable. i listened to the lana del ray song 'dealer' on loop while reading this because i swear she has a time machine and travelled forwards to read this fic, then went back and wrote that song. anyway, a really good fic!
the texture of memory - 48k - missing person/amnesia!AU - ilya!pov
i.... idk what to say about this fic other than i cried the entire time i was reading it. the most beautiful prose. such a devastating concept. basically shane went missing eight years ago and ilya goes on a road trip to find... well, something. i'm not even joking when i say this fic changed my worldview. a spectacular piece on memory and identity and grief. that happy ending surprised me because this was an emotional journey where the key emotion was nauseating sadness.
WIPs-
i woke up to infared - bartender!ilya x sports analyst!shane. quite fun so far! i'm putting shane in my pocket! and rose's fiancé is pissing me off.
the burden of proof - they're lawyers on opposing sides of a civil suit... but they were deeply in love ten years ago in law school. i'm enjoying it!
the shape of your grip - top tier frat au like i was not expecting this at all. but this is so peak!!!!! it's amazing!!!!!! the author has a lovely way of describing things, especially head injuries, in a very... tactile way.
raise my heart rate - paramedic!shane, hockey player!ilya. i'm really liking it!
let me know when you get home - okay so remember home economics? and the two rookies in love in the sequel? well, this is their story. and it's SO fucking good. like genuinely i think about lachlan and crawford every fifteen minutes. i'm obsessed with them. like so obsessed. it's fantastic and these guys are veryyyy well written. oou two guys from the deep south making out and their cross necklaces r getting tangled 🤩. the slowburn is sooooooooo well done. you could read this as a standalone if you wanted. and even if you don't want to read the others i still recommend this fic because it's just so good. crawlan.... crawlan..... come home... the kids miss you...
the vocabulary of exile - it's the eighties! the cold war is happening! ilya defects from the ussr to play for the metros. it's very good and very well researched. i'm super excited for this fic's updates!!!
all i want for 2026 is that gigantic rancid AI bubble to finally burst in such a catastrophic way that the consequences will be so good and i'll never have to see another AI generated image ever again
Like to charge, reblog to cast.
Shane naked quaking and moaning hugging a pillow to his chest face smushed down knees slipping on the sheets because Ilya told him they'd just watch a movie to unwind turned the lights low and got him strung out and spit slick in the silver blue glow of his flat screen roughly eating out his 🍑 like he's getting graded for it while still fully clothed it's happening right now
Fingering is something most women LO-UH-VE and consequently something Ilya both loves to do and is extremely good at, but Shane is such a cockslut that he never enjoys the fine tease of fingering because he just wants Ilya to put it in.
So once they're official and living together, Ilya ends up having a rare night of.. indulging himself. Shane trapped on his side, naked in his arms, writhing and pleading as Ilya kisses him languidly and slowly with hands wandering large across his body, fingertips nimble and feather light. He's just grazing skin and teasing with touch and honestly, they haven't even begun but Shane is already out of his mind, ready to start bribing Ilya with cold hard cash and Stanley cups if something doesn't start happening soon.
And then he reaches his restless thighs and hitches one over his hip, drawing Shane even closer as he goes with a gasp, eyes locked on Ilya's. Are you gonna fuck me like this? he asks hopefully, tremble in his voice. They don't do this often, spooning face to face, but Shane would like it, breathing each other in as Ilya ravages him. But Ilya clicks his tongue, calls him a slut in the fondest voice that betrays him, and pushes a lubed finger in, Shane already open from last night but still shuddering at how he feels, how much he always feels, like he is annexed by Ilya and has surrendered without a word. Ilya probes in deeper, thrusting in and out slowly, but the point isn't even that, it's Shane's pink skin and fluttering eyelashes as helpless cries fall from his lips, Ilya pulling back an inch to watch his lover fall apart. There's sweat on the bridge of his nose, the top of his lips, the divot in his throat. He's whispering more, gimme more almost mindlessly under his breath, not even realizing he's doing it. Ilya is gone for him.
Another finger and his back arches, sticking chest to chest with Ilya, hands scrambling all over the Russian for a grip that he can't get because he's overwhelmed, and how can this feel so good? he asks aloud, bewildered. He treated this as a perfunctory prequel to the grand ol' main event but he's aghast at this particular pleasure, Ilya's fingers dexterous and clever, their flexibility playing with him even as he tries and fails to predict the next sensation inside him. Ilya grazing his walls soothingly, then quicker, then tapping where he needs it, soft and fast and alternating 2-2-3-1 until Shane drops his head forward, little cries escaping his bitten mouth, rocking his hips into and away from Ilya's body like a ship riding the waves and whispering you'll let me come, won't you, baby?
And oh, Ilya's heart clenches. Shane is denied nothing ever when he is so sweet like this, always like this. You can come, only from this, whenever you want moy lyubimy, he whispers into his hair, even as Shane's thigh grips gratefully high over his etched hip. Oh God, he moans, because he's close, and Ilya lets him nestle in closer and closer like an alphabet inside an opening parenthesis as he shivers and moans, pleasure breaking in his body, his head buried against Ilya's neck and tears wetting his clavicle as he comes between them, moaning until the feeling slows to a simmer, seeking Ilya's mouth and touch in the after. Ilya grins and meets him for every kiss, a few teasing light to hear the sound of Shane's breathless giggles, cleaning him up quickly so that he can pull him in again and tangle their legs together to ask worth it?
And Shane has stars in his eyes as he says what he wanted to say the first time, with you, always.
"When Shane says "Ilya" back, he's flooded with relief and happiness."
how tender Ilya can be
and how gently Shane is trying to break Ilya's heart, as though such a thing exists