all right now

16. bay grove. always going somewhere.

[alrightwstn-blog]

Happy New Year’s (eve) or whatever

to whoever, wherever you are. I hope it’s everything you wished for and you’re with the person you want to be with. 

[kelskrellin]

so how weird is it for me to actually be excited for school to start again?

[alrightwstn-blog]

Pretty weird, considering everything that’s going to have to change once we get back.

[wildefatale]

Who knew that a Christmas bonus could feel so good?

But really. Because as of today, yours truly is officially done with working at Sweet Treats for the rest of 2015. Sure, it’s only a couple of days, but I also get a week off next month, fully paid, as my bonus, so that’s something pretty sweet. Pun totes intended. As for the rest of the year, this Kitty-Kat is going to spend it with nothing but R&R. That’s right – it’s massage time. See you all after my relaxation coma.

[alrightwstn-blog]

How did you manage to get paid time off after two months? That’s the kind of thing you find in an American Girl book.

[alrightwstn-blog]

FINN || text

Finn: dude like.. what I want out of friends right now is to not be pushed to talk. I'm already seeing a therapist, I get enough of being forced to talk about my feelings there, you know?

Finn: I don't wanna sit around talking about how fucked up I am over Prescott, I just wanna have people who wanna hang with me just to chill, not to think about the other stuff.

Finn: that's the only reason I got all weird about things.

Finn: like... even Kitty made me feel messed up for a bit cause she wanted me to talk feelings and crap about it all. Quinn's kinda been the only person who wasn't asking if I'm okay or if I need to talk, she just, let me be and talked to me normally.

Brody: But see, you used to be able to at least tell me that. "I don't really feel like talking about it" and then we'd get pizza or play video games.

Brody: Things are confusing for everyone and that's not trying to take away from you or anything, but like... you're not the only one.

Brody: All I'm saying is it's fine if you don't want to talk about being okay but you're not the only one who feels that way.

[thegreateststar-blog1]

I’ll see what I can do. The idea of celebrating the New Year on a sandy white beach is very, very tempting, but so are you.

I know that I’m not. I know that part of my weirdness was irrational jealousy that I have no place to hold onto all things considered. I know that the fact that I love someone else as well as you hurts you. But I do want to be better, for you. 

[alrightwstn-blog]

You’re good for me. I promise. 

[effbenn-blog]

I love the smell of police fear

[effbenn-blog]

What witty repartee, what was I thinking not inviting you to the island?

I always tell the truth - you should know that by now. 

[alrightwstn-blog]

That’s basically Effy Bennett for “I know you are but what am I?” so I’ll take it.

About almost everything, yeah.

[thegreateststar-blog1]

I wouldn’t blame you for skipping the party festivities; if I make it home in time, maybe we can head to Wichita or Kansas City and watch the fireworks in a bigger city. 

I miss you too. But when I come back I will be a relaxed, happy girlfriend who can be a much better person to be around. I know I’ve been a mess these past few weeks, but we can put 2015 behind us and start fresh. You and me.

[alrightwstn-blog]

It just seems like a lot of work right now and I couldn’t even tell you who’d show up. There’s really nothing worse than having a party and no one being there... your idea sounds better. If you get back, I mean. No pressure.

You’re a good girlfriend, Rachel. You’re patient with me most of the time and I’m lucky to have you 

[thegreateststar-blog1]

I am. I don’t think I’ve actually managed to relax lately, so maybe some time out of Kansas will help. 

You know I would have loved that, until Effy tried to kill you. She knows people, Brody, I wouldn’t put it past her.

[alrightwstn-blog]

Yeah, getting out of Kansas might help. Or just out of Bay Grove. Maybe that’s what I should do for New Year’s. I don’t know if I really feel like having a party this year. But then again, it’s tradition at this point.

You’re right. I know your’e right. Besides, it wouldn’t really be fair for me to tag along on your time with her. I just kind of miss you.

[effbenn-blog]

I love the smell of police fear

[effbenn-blog]

You spend most of your day caring about horses; I don’t think anyone should be too flattered to make the grade. 

Regardless, I don’t need any help. The police are my bitch. 

[alrightwstn-blog]

I live and work on a ranch; it’s taught me how to take care of particularly stubborn breeds. 

That’s the first thing anyone’s said in weeks that I actually believe.

[thegreateststar-blog1]

As usual, a trip to Bennett Island is just what the doctor ordered. 

I have had a fruity drink in hand since I arrived, a bikini on for the past 24 hours to properly tan, and my feet have barely touched anything but sand. For the first time in weeks, I think I finally got a proper nights rest - I may consider never coming back home if this is what paradise is like. 

[alrightwstn-blog]

Yeah, it looks like you’re having fun. You deserve to relax after the year we’ve all had. Maybe next time I’ll just go with you, invite or no invite.

[effbenn-blog]

I love the smell of police fear

[effbenn-blog]

I know Berry likes to think she’s the centre of the universe but, just like anything she says or does after half a shot, she’s irrelevant to this. Hudson, I’m sure, is off crying in a corner about the strains of being completely healthy but once again, irrelevant.

[alrightwstn-blog]

Believe it or not, you’re included on that list of “people I care about”. I don’t know why you have to make it so hard.

[wildefatale]

PRIVATE: 

The best things are worth fighting for, right?

[alrightwstn-blog]

PRIVATE:

Yeah. They are. And they’re worth protecting. It’s just harder when they don’t seem to care one way or the other.

[alrightwstn-blog]

FINN || text

Brody: I know you said you don't want to talk and lately it's like I can't say anything to you without it going wrong but... if you'd just tell me what's going on, I can help you.

Brody: Let me help you, even if it's just like, listening or distracting you.

Brody: Let me be your friend, okay?

[alrightwstn-blog]

when: 12/28/15 where: the Weston Ranch  

I D E N T I T Y  ☄

It’s a little pointless to ask high schoolers who they are, but they’re still sticking to this health class journal thing and I have pages to fill. Especially since I can’t actually write anything real in here.  

So who am I?

☑ male ☑ straight ☑ 16 ☑ aries ☑ athletic ☑ slytherin ☑ neutral good ☑ too susceptible to my nerdy roommate’s influence. ☑ christian but bad at it ☑ used to think i was a good friend ☑ a shitty boyfriend ☑ in love with a girl  ☑ can’t tell the girl because she’s in love with her best friend ☑ a coward ☑ too afraid to tell anyone the truth ☑ lonely most of the time

I don’t really know how I ended up like that. Because at the beginning of the year, I would have said I knew exactly who I was. What I’m about. Honesty was the big one. I was so tired of the secrets and the lies around here, so all I wanted was honesty. To a fault. Now it’s even worse because I can’t even convince myself to tell the truth.

People* I care about are in trouble. I don’t know how to help them. I don’t know how not  to help them. 

*people meaning an individual or group of individuals for anyone actually reading this.

So what am I? Who am I? Who will I be?

☑ a liar ☑ if I have to be

[wildefatale]

PRIVATE:

You don’t have to convince me, Brody. I know that Finn didn’t do it. But not everyone knows him like we do, and to be honest I don’t know if it’s possible to know someone to the bones anymore in Bay Grove. … Please. I’m asking you this as a favor to someone who has more reason to be mad at him than probably anyone else in this whole city. Please just try. You both deserve it. … Quinn doesn’t try with me anymore and a part of me hates it more than what she did to begin with.

[alrightwstn-blog]

PRIVATE:

I did try. he jumped down my throat... look I’ll try. Again. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for him, but it’s exhausting when it just ends in another fight.

[wildefatale]

PRIVATE:

… How do you know he wasn’t there?

[alrightwstn-blog]

PRIVATE:

Because I just... I know Finn. I know I just said I don’t know him that well anymore, but I still know him. And it doesn’t matter how hurt or angry or whatever he might have been, he wouldn’t purposely go to someone to hurt them. He doesn’t do that. So there’s no way he was there.

[alrightwstn-blog]

text ❤ brody

Rachel: I don't usually remember my dreams.

Brody: It's probably better that way. You seemed really scared about something in the dream.