Altostratus System

DID haver. Genderfluid

[altostratussystem]

This is my sideblog for talking about and connecting with others with DID

The intent is being allowed to just be myself! I want to connect with the community. That said, expect osddid relevant topics to come up.

I try to tag, feel free to ask me to.

I am a polyfragmented system! Here is a list of alters in their approximate areas of system (things will move around!)

🌌✨️ :

- The Orb (they/any) (gatekeeper)

- Brooke (they/any) (frequent fronter)

- Leorna (they/them)

🍂🦜:

- Kait (she/her) (protector)

- Mirrors (they/she) (a gatekeeper duo of middles)

🩵🐦‍⬛:

- The Raven (they/them) (will respond on behalf of littles)

🕸🍃:

- Ves (she/her)

- Verdant (she/her)

💭💭:

- Malary (he/him)

🖤🐈‍⬛️:

- Six (they/them)

❄️🧡:

- Seven (they/them) (frequent fronter)

- Citrus (they/she)

Over time we may add tags and post separate intros for everyone.

Feel free to send specific asks to anyone listed, keep in mind we can't always help that a response may take a while!

Im generally not here (at least not on this blog) to talk about how osddid forms, or give you terminology but I'll happily give advice based on my personal experience on navigating system things! Keep in mind, I am not a professional, I'm just sharing what works for me and my friends, whom are all traumogenic systems (if that word doesnt make sense to you yet that's fine, its not going to be a focus here).

This is a social blog for us, I'd love to learn more about your system and share about mine.

[altostratussystem]

lost the og post so

send me an ∞ and we'll shuffle our personal playlists and tell you a favourite lyric

feel free to ask about a specific guy

[altostratussystem]

lost the og post so

send me an ∞ and we'll shuffle our personal playlists and tell you a favourite lyric

feel free to ask about a specific guy

[gyulps]

Does anyone know why our brain made alters tend to be more joyous than our introjects

[altostratussystem]

your introjects are brain made too! Maybe it feels easier to attach a sense of whimsy to the hard stuff. The reasons why things happen a certain way are deeply personal.

-Unknown

[foresttalkingtoitself]

Someone else also feels like they're invalidating/intruding space not meant for them when talking/lurking in cdd/osdd/did spaces because they're only suspecting being a system?

[altostratussystem]

this is a hard thing to figure out! You're not intruding. Connecting with community is a great way to learn. You're also not alone, many people have questioned in this space. Your answers will come to you with time and care.

-Brooke 🌌✨️

[opossum-et-al]

i might write more/make a longer post about this later but it's occurred to me that something we've never really talked about (online or in person) is how we just..don't have a host. we used to. we don't anymore. we haven't for at least 3 years i'd guess but probably longer.

it's something i never really see talked about online, at least not frequently, and idk why that is (bc having a host is the most common experience? bc the clinical field still runs on the assumption that theres a host? bc people cling on to the residual idea of there being "the Real/Original One" in a system? bc im just not looking in the right places? who knows) but then again, we haven't talked about it either

again, might write more about this later, but in the meantime feel free to ask questions or start a discussion ab this bc im kinda curious to hear other peoples thoughts on this

[altostratussystem]

no ur so real though. My first therapist kept trying to ask me who the host was but thats something weve never really connected to, at least not in the ways others do. We do have frequent fronters, but the word "host" feels less and less relevant the more we learn to share our lives with eachother and make space for everyone.

I think when we were younger we had a few hosts, guys that others revolved around.

Even the label of frequent fronters is more of a way to let other people find stability in our identity than us these days. We're fine with sharing.

The word can mean anything to anyone though, its not like theres official terminology. I tend not to like whats tied up in it.

- Brooke 🌌✨️

[clutching-our-plurals]

I just saw something really interesting about system members who have different physical disabilities to the host body.

Seems... normal, to me, with a bit of thought, I suppose. I think it would be very odd for an able bodied person to have a disabled alter, but it makes sense for disabled folks to.

I admit I did find it a bit of a strange thought upon first seeing it, because we're kinda the opposite? Even though our body is cripple³ none of us, internally, are disabled. We all walk and move normally as things are, hell, some of us have wings and one of us shapeshifts. It makes sense, because our disabilities are progressive and we didn't really struggle with them in childhood and early adolescence when we would've formed, and we haven't really had anyone split in a long time to my knowledge? So I feel like that tracks given the circumstances.

I'm curious though, for my fellow disabled plurals, do your headmates share the body's disabilit(y)/(ies)? Do they have any disabilities the body doesn't have? What're your experiences with this?

[altostratussystem]

I hold a lot of the experience of our disability, and that does extend to how i view myself in the headspace.

However, I split as a teen around when the disability started hitting and dont remember our childhood. I wonder if that has something to do with it. Theres no "before" state for me, just how Ive always been.

My internal expression is malleable, though. I am a part with many copies of self and some of us have disability aides, some of us have claws, some of us go kaiju mode for no reason, theres some guy in here thats also me whom is made of crystal. It's a wide spectrum.

If someone other than us does front, we've also noticed that their symptoms are experienced differently based on who's fronting. We've watched a long time, its a consistant thing. Makes sense, the mind impacts the body and vice versa.

When the pain is high though, usually one of us Brookes is holding it dissociated in the back somewhere while someone else functions.

- Brooke 🌌✨️

[mg-system]

It's interesting coming far enough to feel our life is "normal". Our systemhood and everything that includes just feels natural now. It doesn't terrify us like it used to, it doesn't feel as heavy and awful anymore.

We just live our life.

And even though there are alters who have their moments of wishing we weren't a system or wishing they had more time, and the occasional bad mental health episode, we are mostly stable. We typically work well together.

I believe it's been 7 years since we realized we had OSDD

[scooterplastic]

Gets so mad my pronouns change

[lustcannibalism]

me and my losing dog think you suck btw

[bugshroom]

my mind palace is not up to code

[boxheadpaint]

And like who the fuck is this guy [gestures to reflection in mirror alone in bathroom

[anshablog]

Either an alter is regressing into a child (6-7) or me and an alter are regressing. Not sure.

I have never made an agere blog but yesterday I felt I really wanted to. Haven't chosen what to theme it properly yet because we have questions. Today we are very tired and I it keeps happening in a pattern:

Alter is a child => feel they can't keep fronting because their presence will affect negatively our situation => someone enters to talk (mom for example) and we automatically talk like an adult again, not like they talk, or we go mute and can't talk, and they feel half there half not there, feel "see I can't be here" => we start feeling tired, having ocd, maybe scream or throw something, probably need sleep the next entire day.

What can I do to change this? When I say someone comes to talk, it's therapists or mom, they perfectly know our disorders, it's no one who we should hide from and it would actually help if we could act like we truly feel so they understand better what's going on. At least I want to know how to do so we can keep being ourselves when no one is around again instead of having to sleep rest of the day.

[altostratussystem]

nonverbal communication aides are great for us!

Have a picture printed, or even saved in a folder on your phone, with a little-friendly image and a "can't talk rn!" or "small, need space" or "small, need help" or something.

Personal fav is the "going nonverbal" meme from danny phantom.

Little-friendly activities are also great. Colouring pages, playing, floor time with a snack. When littles process or get support with age-appropriate methods it might feel less overwhelming

- Brooke

this really helped us :] they may also just need a friend. Stuffed animal is a good substitute. Cartoons are good!

Also, if they get upset pay attention to little guy needs like sleep and snack. its important for us.

- The Raven