my thoughts

the words that flow through my mind like the rapids' rush♡

[amatullahaffaf]

It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

LETSGOOOOO

[amatullahaffaf]

Wed, 10 July 2024

My thoughts are in a twist when I think of our what ifs? My heart would not bear your loss. My mind would betray me in seeing you in front of me however you'll never be mine again. So I need to be sure that YOU are sure of us. Don't leave me in the middle ground. We weren't fated to be friends and so my feelings couldn't lie in the depths of my heart. It's real what I feel. As perfectly beautiful as the blue of the sky at twilight. But before anything I need to make sure does that blue reflects your blue. The ocean of your complications you talk about.

[amatullahaffaf]

"Yes self love is important but who is self? Who I really am? My mind is a maze where I lie and rot & lacking a soul. I just wither. I was hoping that one day I'll become better. But what's better? What do I do when I don't feel hurt when my mother cries? And what do I do when it doesn't hurts me as much?"

[grangermonarque]

🍉🍉🍉🇵🇸

[iamheretemporarly]

Ramadan is coming up and I can’t stress enough how much Palestinians have never got the chance to experience one normal Ramadan for 75years

You may not have been subjected to this, but as a person from an Arabic country, every Ramadan from every year there’s always headlines of Israeli iof soldiers or Israeli extremist settlers attacking Palestinians during Ramadan, especially Palestinian worshipers trying to pray in the al aqsa mosque

It’s happens almost every single year

Ramadan is suppoused to be Muslim people’s month of worship, of Baraka and it is very important to Muslim people

But Palestinians never ever experienced a normal Ramadan because Israel attacks them Viciously

Almost

Every

Single

Fucking

Year

And I will dare and say that Israel does it on purpose, it does it every Ramadan on purpose

And now, this year, with Ramadan being only a few weeks away, I doubt that they’ll have a normal Ramadan, not in the West Bank, and not in Gaza

All what I have to say here is that Israel will still follow this trend, something bad is gonna happen this Ramadan, keep an eye on Palestine during Ramadan

[amatullahaffaf]

jeremiad

when the sole art you knew was savoring love from blades' edges, you bleed scarlet. i was also a child, i was also suffering, weeping in concealed corners. my tears, my sobs, inflicted pain upon you, or so you professed. you wounded me in myriad ways, weaving a tapestry of normalcy around the abnormal. i try to calm my boat for its really rough out here, and i haven't seen shore in a while. and you don't remember it like i do. for you, it was you, always the victim. so i endured and endure, an endless ache. hatred eludes me, a sentiment you carefully ensured. you draw me back relentlessly. the love I sip from your double-edged sword bequeaths upon me treacherous vermillion tears.

[amatullahaffaf]

Waltz with Insanity

In remorseful tones, I plead and pray, With whispered words, I must convey, A burdened heart, I can't deny, I'm sorry, it's my fault, I cry.

Again and again, the echoes chime, Yes, my fault, I own the crime, Will you forgive, extend your grace? Accept this flawed and erring face?

"Change," you say, a simple decree, Yet for me, it's a vast, daunting sea, To alter self, a Herculean task, In the tempest of desires, I bask.

I stumble and strive, though tried so hard, To rise, to stand, yet still, I'm scarred, Moments fleeting, I falter and sway, My world collapses, night or day.

Fear grips my soul, for fate's embrace, Seems unstoppable, this wretched chase, My problems dance in insane glee, And hope seems lost, but foolishly,

I pray for the demise of my plight, To shed these shortcomings, gain insight, In poetic whispers, my heart pleads, For a chance to grow from broken seeds.

[amatullahaffaf]

LMAO I AM BACK AGAIN FROM TWITTER ELON MUSK HAS LEFT TWITTER NOTHING BUT A COMPLETE SHITSHOW, EVEN WEEKS BEFORE I'D SAY IT WAS MY FAV SOCMED BUT NOW???? I AM SO SORRY

[amatullahaffaf]

breathtaking, we sit in a meadow

wonder quite a bit,

the aftermost query,mi cielo

my own winsomness exceeds the bygone?

a halt, a shift, its the azure sky,

on flesh never this radiant, it glared, the moon.

[amatullahaffaf]

march sky

06.03.23

[amatullahaffaf]

spotify's best feature would be probably the song radio cause woah i want songs with the same genre, like imma be looking for you and boom there's this Spotify feature ♡♡♡

[amatullahaffaf]

words lost in my heart,

my mind in a haze,

what you doing? where you going?

your caramel honey words,

your silhouette faint yet clear,

what am I doing? where am I going?

[amatullahaffaf]

sometimes life feels like going in dizzy motion. i feel we go round and round. the weeks like the same, there’s whitish sky and no blues. hazy, dreamy days, where you feel like you want to bundle up and just sleep. i fear that sometimes my very well-orchestrated sleep schedule has made me feel this way. somedays the time loses meaning while some day it makes me feel alive in the best possible way. the best times are usually when the night falls, its cooler and breathable. or it must be the time when it has barely started, the sunset. the only times the sky is surreal, gorgeous, beautiful, the pinks, the purples, the violets, the reds, oranges and the yellows. this is summer that has barely begun, this is summer that lasts months.

[philosophybits]

One should not feel shame before others rather than before oneself, or be more willing to do something bad if no one will know of it than if everyone will. Rather one should feel shame before oneself, and set up this law in one’s heart, to do nothing unfitting.

Democritus, Fragments, B264 (via philosophybits)

[amatullahaffaf]

whenever bts release new music (any member or all) it feels as if it's a shift in the air or changes the trajectory of my life a bit, even a tiny bit, which is monumental as they are not singing in my language, which proves the whole point, that music transcends all barriers of language, as dreamers by jungkook has officially released it is safe to say, music brings people from different communities with different goals come together, for the one shared love and the joy it brings, music.

[amatullahaffaf]

the bitter truth for all the haters is that BTS are 5x Grammy Nominees now and no matter you like them or not, we can feel a win this year for sure, and if not (well...scammys) you'll know that how prevalent the racism and xenophobia is in the western world, and how selective their activism is. And it is a 'win no matter what' for BTS always, no matter how bad you want them to lose.♡

[thyrell]

tumblr will always be a better website than twitter because you can only retweet a tweet once, whereas on this website if i really like a post i can make my followers scroll past it twelve times in a row