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I'm 29 years old. I live in my head. I'm a writer, a thinker, a journalist, and sometimes an actress. I like to sing in the car, travel, and change the rules. Often, bad things happen and I'll try to make light of them. This is not always easy.

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“HI. R WE TRACKING UR EVRY MOVE ACCURATELY?” - google

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At least my cat loves me unconditionally* *as long as I feed him immediately when requested

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I've moved my #30to30 ramblings into their own location. Have fun reading them here.

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#30to30: We accept the love we think we deserve

And that goes for more than just romantic relationships. This quote popped into my head today as I struggled to deal with someone who refuses to try and understand me. While I once called them a friend, I now go out of my way to avoid them for fear of being cursed at or belittled with no explanation. And while I know I shouldn't want a friend like that, it still hurts a lot. These are feelings I did not expect to still struggle with approaching 30. But the sad thing is, this is a pattern. I have ended many a romantic relationship because of similar treatment. But it always takes me too long to act. This results in me having to spend a lot of time re-building up my self-esteem only to have it take another hit the next time I try. I guess I am attracted to these people because I had a rough childhood and crave unconditional love and acceptance. To be clear: I am not saying I am a victim. I am saying I am clearly part of the reason this keeps happening. I will say the hardest thing to deal with is the fact many of these people in my life never realized they were also part of the problem. I am not sure how to only accept and cherish certain types of love. I assume it starts inside first. My only hope is I have this all figured out by 40.

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So this marks the start of my #30to30 challenge to myself. I am 2 days late but it's something I really want to do so here goes nothing. This picture, sent to me by a good friend, is a reminder to me to start living a positive life. Each day for the last 30 (or rather 28 at this point) of my 20's will be dedicated to living my life to the fullest. I also would like to push for a much more positive outlook; something I have struggled with all my life. I cannot even remember a time in my childhood where I wasn't worried about something. To recap the last two days: I spent April 10th "biking" Costa Rica and "time-traveling" to the 50's. (Which is a fancy way to say I took spin and performed in "The Pajama Game" at a local community theater.) These are 2 things I do for me, and no one else. (Although I hope the show audiences do get something out of my performance.) I spent April 12th in a newsroom covering a really horrible story about 4 missing boaters. By the end of the day we learned 3 of them were dead, one of them just 9 years old. It served as a reminder to tell all my loved ones how much they mean to me, because you never know when something could change. Now... Onto the next post.

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This is everything.

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The most followed love blog on Tumblr.

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FLASHBACK FRIDAY!

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This.

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I'm late to this party, but never have I found a smartphone game that I actually loved like I loved this game. I recommend it and can't wait to play the sequels!

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~ just doggy things ~ [x]

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This is me, every time.

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I'm sorry if this is offensive but really. I'm technically a millennial, and I see this every day.

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Why am I hungry all the time?

#deepquestions

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Deep Thoughts (Not Really)

Am I said because I can't sleep or can I not sleep because I am sad?

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Can I tag myself?

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31. Rediscovering tumblr

Guys, I totally forgot about this blog. And guess what? Going through this list made me happy. I plan on coming back and listing more things starting now.

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thedailywhat:

Impressive Resume of the Day: Dear companies: Please hire this man for every position.

Sincerely, Awesome.

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