I Don't Even Know:)

She/her. I'm fairly gay and in a whole bunch of fandoms kudos to you if you actually enjoy your stay here

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Last year, I discovered The Magnus Archives through some fanart created by @sock.on.shoes on Instagram. At the time, I was at the peak of my Good Omens obsession, figuring out my sexuality, and looking for solid gay representation. Based on the fanart I saw, I assumed JonMartin were a cute gay couple from a tv show I never heard about. A quick Google search told me I was wrong.

I hated horror because I associated the genre with cheap jump scares or images that would haunt my nightmares. I hated podcasts because I didn’t think I was an auditory learner. I’m the sort of person that would usually zone out and lose focus trying to listen to someone speak for too long. Back then, I was only starting to tolerate audiobooks because I wanted something to do while I ate meals alone, but I restricted myself to books that I already read before.

Nothing about The Magnus Archives should have attracted me, and yet, I found it on Youtube and decided to listen to it. 

Right away, I fell in love with Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood (because Jon merely mentioning that Martin “would contribute nothing but delays” was enough for me to project all my love into a character I haven’t even heard the voice of yet). I found the horror intriguing because the statements were short, interesting scenarios that didn’t try to randomly scream in my ear just to make me jump. The podcast made me stop and think about ethics and morals, what the right thing to do was or even if there was a right thing to do at all.

The more I listened, the better the podcast got. Outside the beautifully crafted statements, there was an actual world. More characters were introduced, more characters for me to fall hopelessly in love with because of how well-written they are. Fears were given names and I could point at them like warped up Hogwarts houses, latching on to the ones I blamed the most for my effed up head. I’m still in awe of it all.

This podcast got me through the second half of the pandemic. Because of this podcast, I found myself drawing and writing for fun again. I made a Tiktok as an excuse to cosplay some of my favorite TMA characters because I didn’t want to wait till Halloween. I became more active on Tumblr because I had no one to share this experience with in real life and I needed to rant somewhere. Then, I found @m-e-w-666 and from there I joined a Discord filled with so many wonderful new friends (you all know who you are and I love you guys <3).

I don’t know where I’ll go from here or if I’ll ever find another podcast that will match the obsession that I feel towards this one. I know there are other good ones out there and I have a list of some I want to try, but this one will always hold a special place in my heart because of the community it led me to. Thank you to the Rusty Quill crew for giving me much more than a podcast. It’s been one hell of a ride and every day I’m glad I jumped on.

[amphitritemists]

American life insurance sounds so dystopian. Imagine that you pay a person a certain amount every month in exchange for that person promising to help you when you need them. Then, one day, you say "hey, so I've been paying you for a while and I actually do need your help now" and legally that person can go "oooh thanks for the money but we don't think we will help you". And there's no alternative. You just have to take the gamble that maybe your insurance company will hold up on their end of the deal because you can't afford the medical bills without the help you paid them in advance to give. Wtf am I paying you guys for then?

[amphitritemists]

If Die Hard is considered a Christmas movie then so is Little Women.

[lonicera-caprifolium]

a nearly ready to hatch eggy for mermay ✨✨✨

[lonicera-caprifolium]

Hatched!

[amphitritemists]

Finally reading Crimson Rivers

Me waiting in full anticipation for James to pull a Peeta-esque love confession on live TV: Say the line, puppet boy! James: If I return home a Victor, they'll be no one to confess too Gods yes I hate Rita but oh boy do I thrive on the drama 😂

[amphitritemists]

Haymitch never got to tell Lenore Dove about how he drank the last bit of milk while Snow was choking on poison :(

[amphitritemists]

"Guess Ohana means giving up your little sister to CPS so you can go to college” Ooo how I feel like comments like this accidentally fell into Disney’s propaganda even when the commenters are attempting to say the opposite cause comments like this sound like they’re blaming Nani. Nani did not give Lilo up to CPS to go to college. She did not abandon Lilo to the system to follow her dreams. She was a young woman that was forced into a difficult position where she had to give Lilo up for Lilo’s own good. Nani was up to her neck with bills that she couldn’t afford because she didn’t have a job. When Lilo almost drowned, I wanted to scream “Don’t call an ambulance” because I knew damn well that this wasn’t the cartoon version and that this version of Nani damn well couldn’t afford an ambulance out of pocket. For the social worker to sit her down and say “Hey, the government has the money to pay for Lilo’s hospital bills whenever she needs it BUT we have to separate the two of you” is what we should all really be mad about. Stop blaming Nani or telling people that Nani gave up Lilo to go to college because that dismisses the government’s role in splitting these two apart. Nani was all but forced to give up her little sister to keep Lilo alive. Nani didn’t even really leave her behind because Lilo got to stay with David and his mom who were already like family to them, the government still pays for Lilo’s health care, and Nani can visit anytime she wants thanks to alien portal highjinxs. If Disney was trying to make a positive spin on CPS, they failed. I was sobbing when Nani realized what she had to do for Lilo because so many families are going through that now except those kids end up with strangers not the next door neighbors that they already know. It’s because of this accidental/purposeful commentary that I gave the movie 4/5 stars.

[amphitritemists]

Are you winning son?

Yes, thanks, dad!

[amphitritemists]

"Can 100 unarmed men kill a gorilla?"

The Romans were onto something with the colosseums cause they'd just test out the problem to get the answer. Can 100 unarmed men kill a lion? Idk throw them in an arena and lets find out

[amphitritemists]

One of my favorite things about the 50th Quarter Quell is the irony that the whole point of sending twice as many tributes into the arena was to show that strength in numbers means nothing against the Capitol's might and IMMEDIATELY this was the year that the Newcomers form and a record number of districts decided to become allies to combat the usual Career allyship. The Newcomers proved that strength in numbers worked because it kept Haymitch alive to be crowned the Victor and the Capitol had to do some serious editing to tell the narrative that they wanted. I wonder if the edited propaganda successfully dissuaded an anti-Career alliance the following year or whether the Gamemakers heavily enforced a stricter division amongst the tributes the following years until eventually all thoughts of a mass district alliance was forgotten by the 74th Hunger Games. Maybe the following groups just didn't have a kid as smart and persuasive as Ampert to lead the idea.

[amphitritemists]

Listening to "Ghost" by Justin Bieber and thinking about how Haymitch quite literally settled for the ghosts of Lenore Dove, the tributes, and his family since Snow's punishment and his last promise to Lenore Dove ensured that those ghosts would be the closest thing he could have to love again.

[amphitritemists]

Snow fumbled a baddie one time and decided that was gonna be everyone's problem

[amphitritemists]

There's something about Wyatt dying to protect Lou Lou that really gets me because he's a smart kid. Like a really smart kid with a hyperfixation on odds. He would've known that if he raced towards the Cornucopia and into the Bloodbath that the odds would not be in his favor but he didn't use the odds to save himself. He saw a kid he cared about in danger and he came running, even knowing that he'd likely die and Lou Lou would never the win games and make it out of there alive anyways. He bet on a dying horse all because he cared for a little girl that wasn't really from his district and District 12 may never see that. They'd see a kid who took a stupid risk and got what he deserved

[amphitritemists]

Haymitch's games are good and all but I'm realizing it doesn't interest me as much as the stuff that precedes it cause we already know how his game goes and his whole rebellion in the arena (while it adds up to why he got a terrible punishment and not Wiress) its just not compelling because we know he is not the mockingjay. He's too early so really its the stuff going on outside of the arena that really makes these prequels something special. Instead of "this regime is evil and it has to go down" we get to see exactly how a regime that's so evil was allowed to exist in the first place. It's the well executed propaganda and these themes of controlling a narrative that make Sunrise on the Reaping my favorite Hunger Games book yet

[amphitritemists]

So with the prophecy of the witch, a lot of people speculate that the queen that overthrows Cersei and takes all she holds dear is Daenerys but I'm pretty sure it's Margaery. Not only did Margaery take Cersei's place as queen but she was indirectly responsible for the deaths of all her children (all she holds dear). Margaery's grandmother killed Joffrey to protect her and shifted the blame to Tyrion whose trial by combat resulted in the death of Oberyn Martell which inspired his wife and kids to kill Myrcella. Margaery then married Tommen and turned him against Cersei so much so that he killed himself when Margery died.

[amphitritemists]

The little children: Big brother?

Haymitch: Do I look like???

[reidspng]

"Look at the sky, Martin... It's looking back."