What's in my mind,
That has been bind,
A place where my thoughts can linger,
For your questions to be answer,
A corner where I'll uncloak,
All that have been cloak,
Welcome to Fire's Corner!
Heavily Inspired by Heās Getting Married by Youngblood in Philippine Daily Inquirer.
An AU where Mikasaās parent never died, Mikasa and Eren are just neighbors and Levi became as who we know him to be thanks to Mikasa. Also Mikasa is sweet in the inside and cold in the outside.
A/N: Iām thinking if I should make this a story or not. Anyway expect more heartbreaking stories to come.
This is also available in Wattpad, Fanfic.net and Archive.
Chapter 1: His POV
Today is the day that Iāll forever remember as my execution day. I will watch the scene unfold before me with both my eyes open and I will not cry. I will not break down just because the woman I'm marrying now isn't the one whom I have loved since forever. I will watch this woman promise herself to me, while knowing that she would never love me the way she love me. I will watch how this empty vow, Ā that I shouldn't have taken will bind us together.
For the one I should be marrying isn't this woman beside me -it should be the woman beside the aisle, Mikasa.
I can still remember how we first met in an empty lot near our school. I thought that I'll die that day from the hand of Richard who wanted to take my two daffodil teeth. Yet, suddenly a dashing five-year-old girl came in and and punch him in his face.
I can still remember her sweet gentle voice when she asked me if I was alright. Yet at that time, the six-year-old me was overcome with embarrassment at having a younger person to protect my scrawny neck that I accidentally yell at her that it shouldn't be her protecting me but the opposite. I thought that she will leave me for being mean but she didn't. She continued to give me her angel smile that I didn't deserve. That day, in a low whisper, I promised that I would protect that smile plastered in the lips of the young beautiful maiden.
The next day, as I promised, I started working out and fixing myself. Beside her Ā I am the gentleman she needed but behind her back I'm the demon that would sent everyone who dares to disrespect her back to their grave.
This relationship I had with her, I had never thought deeply about it. We had never defined or talk about our relationship but I did know that it was definitely more than friends, better even than best friends. It was like we were a couple but formally not one.
Then finally one day I got the answer. In our high schoolās retreat, the facilitator told us to closed our eyes and think about our future. When I closed my eyes, what I saw wasn't the deep void of darkness -it was on the contrary the opposite. It was quite bright yet I could still make out that it was in a church and before the priest is a guy in a tuxedo and a woman in a lavish white gown. When I saw the woman's face, I was surprised to see that it was Mikasa! Could it be in the future the two of usā¦
I know that we did all the things that couple did like hang out and be intimate but that was just that. We never said, āI love youā or whatever serious couple told each other. Then could this be the reason why Iām jealous of Eren, her childhood friend? I realized I loved Mikasa then.
The following days of my high school, I became her shoulder she could cry on. When I succeeded in putting Eren out of sight, the sight of Mikasa crying pained my heart too much that it overshadowed my sense of accomplishment and regretted it deeply. When she didn't graduate as a valedictorian, I let her get drunk and even let her barfed at my dad's car which I took without permission yet it was alright as long as she's in her normal condition.
Then college came. Even though it's hard but for our future, I decided not to follow her to Public College and go to Private College. When I thought that she'll get mad at me, she was instead happy and declared that we should go out and celebrate it -which we did. Even when I was in a different college, I still made sure to check all the people she's getting along with and be her crying shoulder she could lean on -especially on her troubled days like when her mother died in an accident and how her father followed her mom a year later after a heart attack.
My plan was that I would propose to her to be my girlfriend a month after I graduate college, as by that time I would not only have a lot of time to pay attention to her but I can also start working and start preparing for our family. I didnāt mind how long it is. After all, I was certain weād end up together. I always thought that in the end, it would be us. I loved her. And if she doesn't love me then I can just find ways to get her heart. Little did I know that love doesnāt conquer all.
In this perfect plan I had made, I had never thought that I'll be so stupid enough to get a girl pregnant on the same night that I had met her. I had never thought that the congratulation party that was in honour of finishing up our course instead became a congratulation for becoming a father! And it was just less than one month before I would have proposed. Ironic how I keep on lecturing Mikasa about safe sex when in the end I was supposed to be the one who should be lectured on. And now the future that I had planned of has disappeared.
What could I do? I let her kick me in the groin and punch me in the eye. And it was only in that time could I told her that I had loved her since the beginning and I'm not going to marry her, I would have shown her the ring that I created for her when she told me something that I could never forget.
āLevi, Iā¦ Ā I love you too. But it's already too late, you already made my sister pregnant. If you can't marry her because you don't love her then please do it for the sake of the childā¦ Ā And for me.ā
I wanted nothing more than to run to her and beg her to wake me up from the bad dream. But this wasn't a dream.
We didnāt talk for a month. The last thing I heard from her is that she went to a city for a vacation. I tried to contact her but she won't answer. When she finally came back, she would always ducked into a corner when she'll see me. And I didnāt realized that the regret became Ā my reason for getting up in the morning, for breathing, for living.
Regret and I became good friends.
āGod brings men into deep waters, not to drown them but to cleanse them.ā This was what Mikasa would always say when there's trouble. If it means not having Mikasa in my arms then I didnāt want to be cleansed. I just want to drown in this deep pool of regret, misery and despair. I wanted to wallow in a dark and deep void. I want to end this burden in my shoulder. I just want to go back in the old days where Mikasa would smile at me and laugh at my stupidity.
Yet, unfortunately there wasnāt any medicine for regret. I canāt turn back time -I can only go on and walk this dark path in front of me even if I donāt like it.
And without even noticing it, it was finally my execution day. In front of me is the woman I shall marry, the woman who's also Mikasaās younger sister and the woman who's going to give birth to my son. Mikasaās last words to me kept on uttering in my head. If I can't marry her because I don't love her, then I'll do it for the baby and for herā¦ just like she wanted.
Hello Anastrisha! I'm crazy about your fic - Tarot Cards. It's amazing. I love it! @.@ And can I translate it to Vietnamese - that's a pity if Vietnamese LeviMika shipper can't read it. I'll credit you. Thanks for reading! <3 From a fan with love <3
If youāre the one from wattpad, I already answered you~
I adore them with all my heart. OTP from day 1š I canāt believe how well they got to know each other and what deep kind of understanding they have. Whenever theyāre together it feels like the air is buring and time stands stillā¦
At the same time, Iāll be reading my pitchfork. Good thing I didnāt watch this during valentines or else my day being single might just blow off XD
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