I don’t think Neil ever told Andrew he went to California because there was absolutely no version of that conversation that ended with Andrew staying in South Carolina.
I think Andrew and Kevin would arrive at the airport late enough when the parking lot would be mostly empty, and Neil would be waiting for them outside the Maserati with a cigarette in his hand.
Kevin spotted him first and his expression immediately soured, which Neil supposed was impressive considering Kevin already looked exhausted and annoyed from several hours of travel. Andrew walked behind him with his hands shoved into the pockets of his jacket, his face blank.
“Welcome back,” Neil said.
Kevin walked right past him.
Neil turned his head and watched Kevin open the back door, throw his duffel inside, and climb in without so much as acknowledging him. “Nice to see you too.”
“Drive,” Kevin snapped through the open window. “I’m tired.”
Andrew had stopped in front of him. He didn’t say anything, and he didn’t have to.
Neil took one drag from the cigarette before holding it out between them. Andrew hesitated for a second before taking it from him.
Neil watched Andrew take a drag before he hooked two fingers through Andrew’s belt loops.
“Welcome home,” Neil said, and pulled him closer.
Andrew let himself be kissed.
It wasn’t much. Neil pressed their mouths together and Andrew stayed there for a second, cigarette held carefully away from them, before he put a hand against Neil’s chest and pushed him back.
Neil smiled despite himself and surrendered the car keys.
Kevin waited exactly until they were out of the airport before ruining what little peace they had.
“So,” he said from the backseat, “when were you planning on telling us you went to California?”
Neil settled deeper into his seat. “I wasn’t.” He looked out the window. “I went to see Jean. It was something I owed him, and it wasn’t any of your business.”
Silence settled over the car, but it wasn’t comfortable anymore. Kevin muttered something under his breath, and Neil ignored him.
He glanced over at Andrew. Andrew’s attention was on the road, one hand loose around the steering wheel while the other rested near the gearshift. His expression hadn’t changed, but his eyes flicked towards Neil for half a second before returning to traffic.
Kevin tried twice more before they reached campus. Neil gave him increasingly useless answers until Kevin finally gave up.
“This is why no one trusts you,” Kevin said as Andrew pulled into the dorm parking lot.
Kevin got out before Neil could answer. He wrestled his duffel out with considerably more aggression than necessary and slammed the door shut.
“Goodnight, Kevin,” Neil called.
Andrew turned the car back on.
Neil looked at him. “We’re leaving?”
Andrew pulled out of the parking spot without answering.
Neil considered their lack of luggage, the time, and Andrew’s general mood. “Columbia?”
Neil smiled and rested his head against the headrest. They made it several minutes before Andrew spoke.
“I thought I told you to stop being a martyr.”
There it was. Neil turned his head. Andrew was still watching the road, but his grip on the wheel had tightened.
Neil sighed and reached across the console. He touched the back of Andrew’s hand first, giving him enough time to move if he wanted to. Andrew didn’t, so Neil slid his fingers between his and pulled his hand away from the gearshift to bring them onto his thigh. Andrew’s fingers stayed loose in his, neither holding on nor pulling away.
“I didn’t tell you because you would’ve come,” Neil said.
“You followed Kevin halfway across the country because he needed you. If I told you I was getting on a plane alone to California, you would’ve gotten on it too.”
Andrew looked back at the road.
Neil rubbed his thumb over Andrew’s knuckles. “You hate flying.”
“And you especially hate California.”
Andrew’s fingers tightened around his.
Neil smiled a little, but he didn’t let himself turn it into a joke. “I wasn’t hiding Jean from you. I wasn’t trying to do something stupid. I just needed to see him, and I knew if I told you, you’d come with me.”
Andrew was quiet for a long time. The highway stretched dark ahead of them, the lights passing over his face in intervals.
“You don’t get to decide what I can tolerate,” Andrew said eventually.
Neil winced. “Yeah. I know.”
“That includes heights and California.”
Neil considered that. “California is objectively terrible.”
Andrew pulled his hand free.
Neil laughed and caught it again before Andrew could return it to the gearshift.
“I should’ve told you,” Neil admitted. “But I didn’t want you following me just because you thought I needed protecting.”
Andrew’s expression went very still.
Neil looked down at their hands and realized that wasn’t right. “No. That’s not what I mean.” He rubbed his thumb over Andrew’s knuckles. “I didn’t think you’d come because you thought I couldn’t handle it. I knew you’d come because you wouldn’t let me do it alone.”
For a few seconds there was only the sound of the tires against the road. Then, Andrew squeezed his hand once.
Neil smiled and turned towards the window again, keeping Andrew’s hand warm against his thigh while the miles disappeared underneath them.