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No mamen, por qué no me para el pinche hocico? Maybe es lo de la impulsividad? Ahora [redacted] sabe que por hociconx le conté a redacted 2 about * the event * y que tambien redacted 3 knows about * the event * y puta madre, I don't wanna lose my friend o que ya no confíe en mí. La neta sí estoy bieeeeeeeen agüitade y ansiose (hasta me duele mi pancita)

Dear God, please I beg you, que [redacted] no se enoje conmigo y quiera seguir like we were all along. Prometo que si le quiero decir a alguien I'll post it on Tumblr so no one cares!!! But please please pleeeaaaassseee i want my friend back 😢😔😭

anemicbpd

Yeah.... I totally screwed up, now redacted hates me and things are so freaking awkward and everything is my fault and im thinking that maybe if I try to kill myself redacted will forgive me OR they'll get angrier bc that's a manipulative move (although I really wanna die, no solo es por eso)

anemicbpd

Todo cool con redacted ahora se está yendo alv con bf as usual

obsessedtillidie

A bullet in my head would be less traumatic than me waking up everyday

anemicbpd

No mamen, por qué no me para el pinche hocico? Maybe es lo de la impulsividad? Ahora [redacted] sabe que por hociconx le conté a redacted 2 about * the event * y que tambien redacted 3 knows about * the event * y puta madre, I don't wanna lose my friend o que ya no confíe en mí. La neta sí estoy bieeeeeeeen agüitade y ansiose (hasta me duele mi pancita)

Dear God, please I beg you, que [redacted] no se enoje conmigo y quiera seguir like we were all along. Prometo que si le quiero decir a alguien I'll post it on Tumblr so no one cares!!! But please please pleeeaaaassseee i want my friend back 😢😔😭

anemicbpd

Yeah.... I totally screwed up, now redacted hates me and things are so freaking awkward and everything is my fault and im thinking that maybe if I try to kill myself redacted will forgive me OR they'll get angrier bc that's a manipulative move (although I really wanna die, no solo es por eso)

#diary #check later for updates

I'll rot in my room and hopefully I'll die in my sleep

loveridden1999

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present

Me: *feels nothing for weeks* hmm maybe I should do something, this doesn't feel right.

Me: *triggers a depressive episode *

Me: ah yes, this is the shit I know

#bpd stuff #diary #actually bpd #actuallyborderline #bpd

anxiety-ghoul

other people: i’m so glad that i didn’t kill myself. :) my life is so much better now than it used to be and i have so much fun and i enjoy everything! uwu me, someone who regrets it deeply that i didn’t kill myself yet while my life gets worse and worse every day: