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Ani (an-eye) she/her | 30's (18+ only) | american | fanfic author | pro-shipper this is a pro-shipping supernatural blog (primarily wincest, but also ships wincestiel, full house of wincest, megstiel, samdeanjess, and others) home of the wincest fanfic series every first time ao3: ani-coolgirl

[ani-coolgirl]

ABANDON ALL HOPE

So in honor of this fucking post getting over 500 750 notes, I figured I'd make a pinned intro post for all the people who stumbled across me accidentally.

Howdy! My name's Ani (pronounced an-eye) and I'm a fanfiction writer! While I do dabble in other fandoms, the vast, VAST majority of the content here is in honor of the 15-year-long nightmare known as The CW's Supernatural. Even though I've only started writing consistently recently, I've actually been watching the show since day one! While technically speaking I'm a multishipper, 95% of what is shared here is going to be wincest content. That's right, wincest. As in Sam-slash-Dean. Together. (See what I did there???) While I love both of the boys, I have strong (and occasionally bitter) Sam-girl tendencies. You have been warned.

I'm probably most well known for Every First Time, a series of unconnected one-shot fanfics where the entries are all first time wincest fics for every episode of Supernatural (plus pre- and post-series). I'm currently in Season Eleven. Every entry is shared here on my Tumblr. Entry content ratings range from G - E. I try my best to update every 2 - 5 days. The first entry (pre-series) can be found here: 000 - breathe. Below are the links to the beginning of each season:

Season One: 001 - thread | Season Two: 023 - confession | Season Three: 045 - earworm | Season Four: 061 - reunion | Season Five: 083 - cool | Season Six: 105 - missing | Season Seven: 127 - alright | Season Eight: 150 - prey | Season Nine: 173 - metaphor | Season Ten: 196 - calls | Season Eleven: 219a - crown

I've also participated in a few events:

2021 Wincest Big Bang: Presence 2022 Wincest Reverse Bang: Disobedience Wayward Sons Zine Volume 3: Baby's Got a Gun (gen) 2024 Wincest Reverse Bang (late): Where I Lay My Head SPN Speed Dating Bang 2025: What's in a Name? Wayward Sons Zine Volume 5: Pebble Number One (gen)

My inbox is always open!! Feel free to hit me up for a chat or ask whatever questions you'd like (just don't ask for fic recs unless you're asking about one of my own fics; I don't keep track of what I've read, I suck). At this time, I am not open for requests; however, I would love to do so in the future! Y'all have some nasty ideas out there and I wish to wallow in the mud with you. <3

Hope you enjoy your stay! And if not, I hope you make it back home in one piece. Either way, carry on, my wayward children.

[ani-coolgirl]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Episode: s11e07 Plush (Supernatural), Sibling Incest, First Kiss, Unresolved Emotional Tension Series: Part 234 of Every First Time Summary:

Dean Winchester isn't a know-it-all. Well, he is, but not in a way that's useful—in a way that would stop Sam from looking to an absent god for answers.

[ani-coolgirl]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Episode: s11e06 Our Little World (Supernatural), Sibling Incest, Pre-Slash, Unresolved Emotional Tension, Sam Winchester Has Trauma From Lucifer's Cage, Sam Winchester's Visions, Concussions, Caretaking Series: Part 233 of Every First Time Summary:

Sam has visions. Surely they mean something. Dean disagrees. It hurts either way (it's probably the head trauma).

[gristyping]

the disproportionate way queer coding gets discussed in the spn fandom continues to be extremely funny to me

like throughout the entire series sam is consistently teased for acting gay or being effeminate, his entire character arc is centered around feeling ostracized and different from everyone around him, not fitting in with his family, and his desperation to be normal instead of the "freak" he sees himself as. he leaves his family with no support when he becomes an adult so he can be free to live his own life and is told to never come back. he is seen as inherently evil based on something he had no control over and labeled an abomination by the entirety of heaven. he's viewed himself as "unclean" since childhood and later becomes obsessed with purification and atonement for his sins

and then you find out 99% of queer coding discussions are about dean and look like this

Made gay jokes (deflection)

Called sam gay (projection)

Traits of toxic masculinity (overcompensation)

Consistently acts/claims to be straight (repression)

Castiel said "I love you" (failed to reciprocate due to gay panic)

[cubyk107]

Supernatural Mega Alcohol Appendix

Superalcoholic: The Supernatural Mega Alcohol Appendix

Of course let me know if the link doesn't work

Above is a complete spreadsheet of all accounts of alcohol/drinking throughout the entire supernatural series

There will probably be some inconsistences regarding what should and shouldn't be counted (overall this won't cause major discrepancies in the totals)

Read over the cover page for general information on how it was arranged and sorted - Computer for easiest readability

yes i created a pseudo-burner email because im paranoid,, please enjoy this hell of an information dump

[bightingake]

waves insanely

hello midam tumblr! im back! i havent seen anyone share this clip from Supernatural DC 2022, so i thought i would!

context: jake was asked to act out a scene between michael and adam, the prompt being, 'michael being fed up with lucifer in the cage so he lets adam take over' :)

[ani-coolgirl]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Episode: s11e05 Thin Lizzie (Supernatural), Sibling Incest, Hand Jobs, Unresolved Emotional Tension, References to Canon-Typical Violence, References to serial killers, Fetishization of Violence Series: Part 232 of Every First Time Summary:

Sam and Dean have a completely normal discussion about killing people while lying on a famous murderess's bed (it's not actually her bed... probably).

[ani-coolgirl]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester, Sam Winchester/Piper Wright Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Episode: s11e04 Baby (Supernatural), Sibling Incest, First Time, Hand Jobs, Frottage, Car Sex Series: Part 231 of Every First Time Summary:

Sam sings in his sleep. Dean makes him sing while he's awake.

[brthers]

QUIETLY DRAWS FANART OF GHOST!DEAN…

please full view omg

[ani-coolgirl]

Here to shamelessly promote Presence (AO3 link, E, 30k+ words), my 2021 Wincest Big Bang fic that was inspired by that original ghost!Dean pic!

[mikkeneko]

PSA to fan creators who don't have a lot of regular contact with children: They are almost always bigger than you think. A 1-year-old baby may already be walking. A toddler is likely already hip-high. A 10-year-old may already be taller than at least one of their parents. A 14/15 year old may already have reached their adult height.

[amarguerite]

Via @watertightvines

[wildjuniperjones]

Here's the link. It was actually not immediately easy to find, so I thought this might help.

[ani-coolgirl]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Episode: s11e03 The Bad Seed (Supernatural), Sibling Incest, Pre-Slash, James Bond References Series: Part 230 of Every First Time Summary:

Dean's got a plan to grab Rowena. It is not a good plan. Sam lets him know this.

[perfectassimilator]

i think sam drinking demon blood was kinda like how some victims of csa/sa may have a "promiscuous" lifestyle to sorta "rewrite" their trauma in a way they can cope with. sam was seeking a resolution to azazel's violation by reliving the initial trauma in a way that made him feel powerful or as if he were exerting agency. this, to me, makes ruby that much more insidious a villain

[praline-elegy]

Compiling a list of ao3 tutorials for future reference:

The Fic Writer's Guide to Formatting (An AO3 Repository) by AnisaAnisa - This is the holy grail of how to format an ao3 fic using HTML and CSS

Inline Tooltip Translation by AstariaEverlasting - Hovertext made easy! Instead of constantly jumping to the author’s notes or google translate for every foreign phrase or word, all you’ll need to do now is tap or hover over the text in question and a translated speech bubble will appear! (Requires preplanned translation)

How to Make iOS Text Messages on AO3 by CodenameCarrot and La_Temperanza - If you like chat fics or inserting a little text message for the immersion (without having to use screenshots or images!), then this is the guide for you. You can also “text” images with this tutorial.

Whatsapp Work Skin Template /Revamped by etc e tal (pe_pe_peperoncinocandy) - If WhatsApp is your preferred messaging platform, this is the workskin for you. It even includes a scrollable template, as well! (Check it out, it’s really cool!)

How to Make a "Choose Your Own Adventure" Fic by La_Temperanza - The ever elusive Choose-Your-Own-Adventure format! It is possible to create with an ao3 workskin!

2020 Reddit Work Skin by timstokerlovebot (SchmokSchmok) - If you want to include a Reddit post for some immersive fun, this work skin is calling your name!

How to Make Linked Footnotes on AO3 by La_Temperanza - Very useful when you want to share the extensive research you’ve put into your story.

[ani-coolgirl]

I should get a medal every time I write a fic for a boring episode. Seriously, I am grasping at the thinnest of straws here and I know the ratio gets sooo rough in later seasons. Pray for me.

[boykingscourt]

john trying to make small talk with sam in lebanon: wow y-your *makes a boob gesture with his hands in front of his own chest* they got big

[normalbrothershow]

do u have any samjohn fic recs

coming up roses everywhere by chinablue

Where John wasn't planning to snoop around Sam's laptop, but his boy seems to be hiding something.

all better by ladygizarme

Sam and John share a bed while Dean is injured and healing in the other one. Dean wakes up in the middle of the night and can’t help hearing what happens in the bed behind his.

Sammy, you're my favorite by ladygizarme (+ azazel/sam)

Most of the details of the dream are already rushing from his conscious mind, but the disjointed bits that remain tug at buried

Baptism by orphan_account

John’s not expecting to see his son at the bar. He’s also not expecting Sam to react the way he does to seeing him. memories.

keep it a little longer by ladygizarme

14x13 coda

feels like heaven by orphan_account

“Was that alright, baby?” John asks, as if her answer matters, as if he would be able to stop kissing her if she said no. (14x13 with transgirl Sam)

corporal punishment by orphan_account

The problem with Sam (and this is going to sound very bad) is that it’s kind of well. It’s kind of easy to hit him. Even when he’s not ‘asking for it’ he’s asking for it.

Cat’s in the Cradle by rosych33ks

John wasn’t an idiot—he knew what Sam was doing. He just didn’t know why. Attention? A cry for help? Uncontrollable teenage hormones? But no, Sam wasn’t out of control. This was… something else.

in the palm of my hand by orphan_account

Sam's still got some growing to do. John likes his little boy just the way he is.

wishbone by tradwifesam (+ dean/sam)

Sam hadn’t been a good boy, but that’s just fine with John and Dean ‘cause she makes the very best girl.

Teaching Sam by dugindeep

Sam sitting on John’s lap and getting fucked stupid.

[ani-coolgirl]

1000 posts!

My 1000th post was about Sam Winchester wetting the bed. How auspicious.