a spoon full of sugar

fast talker. fast thinker. apparently very slow live developer

[aniramand]

I miss him. Its been a six weeks since I last slept next to him and heard him breath so peacefully.

He kissed my forehead because I fell asleep while watching something on his phone and then gently tucked me in. In the morning we both fell back on the bed fully clothed to cuddle because we were too tired to leave.

How did we go from this, to him not finding time to see me, to him slowing down texting me and then the clusterfuck of us talking on the phone like always and him telling me "talk to you tomorrow" and then never contacting me again till I lost it 4 days later. All I got was "I like you and love spending time with you and I don't know what's happening, but I don't see were this is going and i need to be alone." After six month together.

I was fine again. And tried dating apps. But I hate it so much. And I miss him. The way he made me laugh and the way he made me feel so safe. Only to now feel so unsafe and sad und like I will never find someone to like me again, let alone love me.

I keep telling myself "well he obviously wasn't for you, as he didn't care for you in the end!" But all I can ask myself is "why?". I'm amazing. Why was I not enough? Make it make sense!

I just want him back, even though the level headed part of me knows I don't want a man who doesn't want me. But I want him to see his obvious error. His mistake. I want him to kiss my forehead and hold me in my sleep, instead of lying here by myself.

[maaarine]

Glass Onion: A Knives Out Mystery (Rian Johnson, 2022)

[aniramand]

Remember the beginning of this year when I was crying cause I couldn't find someone to date. Well... I found someone. All the way back in August. But its December and I still haven't asked him what we are. I have a fricking toothbrush at his place and can't Muster the courage to ask him if we are exclusive. What am I? 15? But it is so easy and breezy and happy. And how is that saying? Don't ask questions when you are not ready to hear the answer? Well... I must ask soon as I'm going mad. And i like him more every single time we meet and if he doesn't want a relationship im only going to prolong my sadness. I'm really falling for him despite all the walls I carefully build over the years.

Sunday we went to this cute Christmas Market in a little village in a national park and afterwards we made dinner, watched a show and fell asleep cuddling on the Couch. Later we crawled into bed and cuddled again till we fell asleep and woke up to a winter wonderland as snow had fallen over night. It was just this joking and laughing while brushing our teeth and heading outside to free our cars from the snow and kissing goodbye for the day... this was all I ever wanted. And i hope I can keep having that...

Plus my friends will kill me if I don't sort this out soon 🤣 And for the end I leave you with the mental image of me - 5 foot 4 inches - 1,65m - holding hands with this charismatic giant of 6 foot 6 inches or 1,98 cm. Its just bizarre 😂

[awed-frog]

Here is the link! What an amazing idea ❤️

[onigiriforears]

crying bc i wish there was one for japanese

[seherstudies]

You are in luck, apparently there is one: https://sail.helte.jp/guide/en

Thanks to @presumenothing for sharing it in the comments of the original post!

[whitepeopletwitter]

Wtf

[leighsartworks216]

[openmindcloseddoor]

[idratherberunning49-deactivated]

[tri-ingagain-deactivated2025032]

I really feel this.

[arahir]

the chris pine thing is so funny

[arahir]

like here's chris pine living his absolute best life reading books and loving film and definitely not writing erotica and he's dropped into a movie that seems like it's going to be fine like you've got florence pugh and former boy band superstar harry styles and nick kroll (??) and shia labeouf (?????) but whatever it's fine olivia wilde is directing except whoops she falls in love with harry styles and pisses off her boyfriend (ex boyfriend) who's been having his post-snl renaissance with an apple whatever tv show and so then olivia gets served custody papers while she's on stage at a film convention and then it turns out florence pugh is actually friends with jason sudeikis and was going to cameo on ted lasso because florence's ex (zac braff???) was directing some of it and here's chris pine and living his best life but he's in a movie where the director is dating the male lead and the female lead isn't talking to the director because of the everything and then shia laboeouf leaves the film and it's probably because he's a pos and the director implies it's because he's a pos but then shia posts a vague video showing olivia wilde calling florence pugh miss flo and it's from month's ago over nothing but it's chaos and it's the venice film fest and you're chris pine and you're trapped in venice with these people and harry styles kisses nick kroll on the lips and harry styles is saying the movie is a movie that feels like a film like a real film and florence pugh is fucking gone and it's just you and then harry styles spits on you (????) and it's caught on film and you're chris pine and all you wanted was to be in a movie and write some erotica on the side

[funnytwittertweets]

[havingrevelations-deactivated20]

like yes things suck but at least ur not 15 again

[the-kellin-under-the-vic]

omg if baby oil dissolves condoms what the fuck does it do to babies???

This may be shocking, but babies and condoms are made of different material

[joleebindo-blog]

it’s like rock paper scissors: baby oil defeats condom, baby defeats baby oil, condom defeats baby

[aniramand]

I just want to find a person that I am good for. I don't wanna shoot for perfect, but I just want someone to come along who thinks I'm fine the way I am. Not "too much", not "not enough". Just right. I am in the very fortunate positing to have people in my life who live and support me, but I want a partner. I want somebody who is in love with me. Little old me. How come I've been on this earth for more than 30 years and no-one deemed me good enough for that. I'm tired. So tired. Everyone has kids and ist about to get married and I'm still in my own. And man do I try. But I'm just so tired of putting myself out there and being ghosted or generally emotionally drained. I've been talking to this guy for 2 month now and we've been on 2 dates that each lasted 6 hours. It was so much fun. We talked daily. But I wanted to meet again and asked him and he just left it on read and that's that. Like fuck you. I'm not giving you my brilliance, my humour and wit for nothing. I'm not your entertainment to pass the time. I want somebody that wants me. And it is so heart not to lose faith. There are billions of people out there. Where is mine?

[chewbacca]

NATIONAL TREASURE (2004) dir. Jon Turteltaub

[the-barefoot-hatter]

                                                                                                                            #deli lady was the real national treasure all along                                     

[aniramand]

Honestly I feel like crap. So this guy I went on a date with came over to my house this week. We had a great evening and he even stayed the night. Ever since then he showed less and less interest.

Honestly I'm not sorry about what happened. As I don't believe waiting or whatever would have changed anything if he would really be into me. It would have happened one or two dates later anyways 🤷‍♀️

But I'm so incredibly sad and angry that apparently there is no one out there for me. I keep looking and looking and looking. I spent years not actively looking, as that is not good either, i spent years looking, I build my own good life, i freaking did it all.

I'm just so done not having my person. I've basically been alone most of my life and I just don't want it any longer. I want love. Why does every idiot seem to find someone and I don't?! Am I that unlovable? I want somebody I'm enough for. For whom I'm not anything "too". Not too loud, too nice, too kind, too boring, too much, too little, ...

I simply can't take it any longer. It hurts too much

[maisonderriere]

[allisonpregler]

Honestly it didn’t make me truly laugh until Darth Vader came tootling tooting out and then I lost it.

[vmae]

WHAT IS THIS OH MY GOD

[silentsaebyeok-deactivated20200]

I’m just gonna add this:

[maldefleur]

Happy Star Wars Day!

[aj-lenoire]

[nominativecase]

taking my brain out of my head and washing it in hot, soapy water

[asphodeltheawkwardpanda]

have you tried putting it in rice

[nominativecase]

in a comical turn of events, i, op of this post, have been a smartphone repair technician for five years and i am going to tell you that that never works like ever. it might turn on again afterward but it’s never the rice that made it happen. the damage is done and it can get worse if you don’t clean the thing properly. if you drop your phone in water, open it up and clean gently w a soft bristled toothbrush and 99% isopropyl alcohol. this has been a psa.

[reve-nant-deactivated20251231]

taking my brain out of my head and cleaning it gently with a soft bristled toothbrush and 99% isopropyl alcohol

[googlemenot-deactivated20230921]

[the-emblematic]

Tag yourself. I’m “sets low personal standards and constantly fails to achieve them”