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Just me & my thoughts…

[anminpo]

I’m here again, sitting in the hospital waiting room, waiting for them to give me medication, because otherwise I won’t stop. I am an avalanche of feelings, of emotions so strong that they make me eat only two meals in four days, throw up, and just cry and cry without any comfort

[anminpo]

Can two people exist within one?

Sometimes it feels like I’m good and then bad again, but I’m still just me…

So I question myself: how can I have two types of personality within one?

Do you get me?

It’s not exactly like multiple personalities, it’s more like two different wills inside me.

[anminpo]

I just want to live in inner peace

[anminpo]

I’m having an internal breakdown

Seriously, I don’t even know who I am anymore. I don’t have anyone from my family around me, but I also don’t have the courage to message them. I’m stuck in a feeling that drags me down, and I think I’m going through some kind of process. I smoke joïnts all day sitting on the couch while scrolling through the internet, and then I work and this is my toxic loop.

[vanillafawn777]

[justagirlblogger222]

@ballerinaonherhoneymoon

[myspacecrybaby]

the teenage years i was promised…..

[justagirlblogger222]

[anminpo]

Am I the only one who feels that BPD affects the way I deal with my body, with food, with my motivation? The way I look at myself in the mirror?

[anminpo]

I’ve been behaving badly these past few months, eating junk food, and I feel like it wasn’t worth it. I feel that when I was in control, I was doing better, and now everything has gone down the drain. But today I promise myself that I will reach my goal again.

[anminpo]

I need to lose you to love me…

[anminpo]

So I’d rather suffer for love I stay even when I’m not okay, even when I no longer feel like myself. Not because of him, but because of the environment around us. I love him, and that’s the problem. I can’t bring myself to leave, but I feel like I’m disappearing,my personality fading away, my voice, everything. I need to set myself free, but I can’t… because I love him

[tragic-dog-boy]

I feel so deeply sometimes I think it’s best to rip my heart out

[mooncoredreamer]

i’m kinda obsessed with the whole knights theme rn

[bpderanged]

Isn't it so fucked up that I can only feel better when I'm heavy on meds. It's like I wasn't born with something most people have and I need to constantly be dependent on substances just to function. Why can I not be a normal human being? Do I not deserve feeling okay?

[bl0w-m3]

[anminpo]

Maybe I need to spend more time with people who share my interests and don’t make me feel like they don’t want to listen to me…

[anminpo]

I don’t feel like they want to listen to me…