For the final project I was inspired by Yoko Ono’s the cut. While I didn’t let people cut my clothing off I did have people feed me. Being feed put me a vulnerable position I couldn’t control how they fed me or how much.
I work at Casa Bonita, so I decided to walk around and ask my co workers to feed me sopapillas. And take a picture because it took longer than a minute to find people to feed me.
Eating is something everyone struggles with. It could be eating too much, not enough, healthy or unhealthy. In our society a lot of pressure is put on food aka body image. To give away that power and to feel some vulnerability I say some becausei do know all the people I asked to feel extreme vulnerability I would have had to ask people I don’t know and well this was my place of work so I didn’t do that.
After living in China for two years and having my physical appearance, specifically my weight talked about and scrutinized almost daliy I have become more aware of the struggle. (I am a 135lb 5 ft 6in tall person...I think perfectly average)
To push back at societies that think I’m too big or too small because in America I am often told I’m small and should eat more. I decided to give the power away and see what people would do.
I filled one basket with fresh sopapillas and I had another that was empty. I walked around Casa Bonita and every coworker I came across I asked to feed me or not it was up to them.
Some feed me the entire sopapilla, some only gave me a bite, the most interesting was the ones who wanted me to spit it out after I took the bite. Some agreed to take a picture during but quite a few said they would feed me but wouldn’t take a picture with me. Making me feel a little ashamed, like it was a secret to eat. Harkening backs to eating and body image is a serious concern.
I definitely tried to lighten the heavy body image mood with taking silly photos while eating the sopapillas.
If I could do something different:
I would have like to sit in one place and had people approach me to feed me, and have more people intentionally watching others feed me rather than whoever happened to be around as the audience.